Searching for anything good...(sigh)

[Im-Suffering]

Yes, I am in a more peaceful place. My Dad is way more sensible and easier to deal with. Helpful too. Once I got out of my Mom's house, my stomach aches, tremors, went away. She was obviously the cause of many of my health problems. I haven't spoken to her since I left, and I'm fine with that too. She hasn't called either. We usually go over there for Christmas Eve, but none of us want to go around there this year because of how hateful she is and has been to everyone. Not sure how we are going to deal with that yet. My Dad doesn't want to go either. And there are also some Thanksgiving issues this year now too. Not real sure about the holidays.

Im being told (compelled) to tell you to call your mom (and do so every week or two). Things will work out then for the holidays and the future.

You will understand.

[Enduronman]

Im being told (compelled) to tell you to call your mom (and do so every week or two). Things will work out then for the holidays and the future.

You will understand.

GRRR...
You're probably right. And, she probably doesn't even know "how" she actually is as a person either with all that vodka.
I reaaaalllllllyyyyy don't want to call her though. No one really wants to see or talk to her.
I probably will at some point soon, just to say hello I guess. (even though I don't want too!!!).
It's 9 degrees here today. Wind chill -8. Welcome to winter! LOL!
I can finally move my hands a little better, was able to fix the heat in my daughters car yesterday too. She has heat! LMAO!! Heat is nice.
May even go back down to my gf's house and do some more painting in some bedrooms, but not decided yet. It NEEDS to be done, just not sure if I should push it.
Thank you for your advice Mr. I'm Suffering. Always appreciated, and yes I understand too. Your logic.
Have a great day friend!

Enduronman

[Im-Suffering]

GRRR...
You're probably right. And, she probably doesn't even know "how" she actually is as a person either with all that vodka.
I reaaaalllllllyyyyy don't want to call her though. No one really wants to see or talk to her.
I probably will at some point soon, just to say hello I guess. (even though I don't want too!!!).
It's 9 degrees here today. Wind chill -8. Welcome to winter! LOL!
I can finally move my hands a little better, was able to fix the heat in my daughters car yesterday too. She has heat! LMAO!! Heat is nice.
May even go back down to my gf's house and do some more painting in some bedrooms, but not decided yet. It NEEDS to be done, just not sure if I should push it.
Thank you for your advice Mr. I'm Suffering. Always appreciated, and yes I understand too. Your logic.
Have a great day friend!

Enduronman

Briefly if I may in regards to the house,

The house will sell when a decision has been made to sell it. The painting can be compared to a rain dance, for dramatic effect. Now, this can go on for some time, "what shall we do next, its not selling". This is symbolic of how people live life.

It is true that people see what they want to see, thus the house can sell at 'any time'. you have co-beliefs with the GF and family members here, so you are creating the reality together.

Of course there are enjoyable aspects, such as proving to self you could still move the body and work to an extent, sharing the experience with family as they pitch in to help, and keeping the mind busy with how much more you would get after improvements. So many things are going on at once.

I wanted to tell you, that you didn't have to play 'the open house' game. Its all a game. I am showing you how you create your reality, individually, and in this case en mass. So you will be more aware of your life and what you do. (and think)

If the house does not sell timely, it is not the physical house that protests, but the conflicts between the sellers beliefs, plus what is actually wanted, desired.....And then comes the thoughts "why is it not selling" "what shall we do next" "whats going on", and you see, my dear friend, you create your reality.

The physical landscaping reflects the mental landscape. Sort out where you will go once it sells, you see. When you are creating together, you must iron out your differences. Will you invest in an old house or new, what will you do, any conflict will delay. It can be said that if the current project was just a foundation, no walls, and a bathtub sitting in the middle of it, but your beliefs were working in perfect harmony (and a decision was made), it would sell in a day, for more than its worth, period.

Now this is more of a lesson of sorts, using the analogy of the house. It has been fun, no?

Homework (yes Im being cute) : think about the word 'decision', what does it really mean? For example, sitting at home you decide you need milk. Do you say "Oh NO ! What will become of me" "can I afford it" "I do not deserve milk" "Milk is associated with trauma"....

No, you simply get up, drive and get your milk . Now, several minutes later you are magically holding your milk carton, you see, you created that, using the process intended for mankind. How simple was that creation/decision, when false beliefs were not involved.

A decision backed by clear beliefs is powerful indeed and can move mountains. Reflecting on your life you can make the connection when things went smoothly, and when there were bumps in the road.

This was the hidden parable from the quote "If ye should have the faith of a mustard seed, you could move that mountain over there" Jesus was a mystic, you see. revealing universal truths only to those who could interpret them. Whether you or anyone reading this believes in Him is not the purpose here. So set that aside for the lesson revealed.

Cya later.

[Enduronman]

I have been working down at her house, repainted her Son's room. Put down some new trims at the floor to cover a shitty paint job. It gave me something to do.
It looks a lot better, nice in fact. Not sloppy. Chose a really nice color, repainted all the trims. I can't move, but it was fun, occupied my mind, sense of accomplishment.
Thank God for pain killers! It feels like my hands were ran over by a car. BUT, I did it to myself. Trying to work, to make it "look" better.
Going to go down there today and paint some windows. Easy work. Not difficult. Or strenuous. Seems like a good day for that.
I DID send my Mother an email. She replied. I didn't want to send it. I did.
We aren't going to spend Thanksgiving with her. My cousin cancelled the Thanksgiving plan because everyone else has something else to do.
That's FINE with me, my Dad, my daughters, none of us want to be around "you know who?"....LOL!!!
We will just spend that time together, with people we love, respect, admire....I like that.
Not sure about Christmas yet but do NOT want to go to my Mothers house. NO ONE does....
We will just make our own Christmas I think. Maybe have a dinner here, without that person. Pain in the fuggin ass person.
Done talking about her. Going to have a good day, AND my daughters baby is due on December 16th too so we will have a Christmas baby!!! YAY!!!!!
I am excited about that. Looking forward to it. I think its great!!
Have a good day friends.
Thinking of you all.

Enduronman

[Enduronman]

It's A Wonderful Life!
Thanksgiving is just around the corner too.
Going to spend it with my Dad, and daughters.
Something simple. Something nice. Something relaxing.
Much to be thankful for.
And a new baby coming soon. SO cool!
60 degrees and rainy here. I'll take it! At least we didn't get 8' of snow.
Thinking of you all! Hope that all is well.
Have an awesome day friends.

Enduronman.

[Dahila]

Same weather as in your place, overcast is still Sunday so it is good) We got the floor for lower level and tiles for bathroom

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[Enduronman]

Mind over matter...
Hey Dahl! Good to see you here!
Going to do some more painting today. My daughter is going to help me, thank God.
ALSO, my gf got an offer on her house! Full price! Only problem, he wants possession by Dec 19th! She will be moving into an apt for now, near the holidays, in the winter.
ALL the painting work paid off. He loved all the colors, the cleanliness, the sharpness of every room.
I just wish I would have known this BEFORE we started painting her room. I had the windows done and the wall damage repaired, then she told me that it sold...grrrr...
I could hardly move yesterday. That's why daughter MUST help me finish this room today. Hopefully about 4 or 5 hours, and then all the work in this place is done.
I need a long break. Time to rest and relax. Recover. Lay around for awhile. The house pushed me to do things that I generally can't. But, it SOLD...
Everything seems to be going ok. My Dad is doing well. My daughter is expecting the baby in a few weeks. My other daughter is staying away from drugs. My son is coming up soon too. Haven't heard from my Mom, that's ok with me.
Just going to be a relaxing Thanksgiving for us all I think.
Have a great day all! Make the best of it...
Thinking of you.
Blessings.

Enduronman

[Im-Suffering]

Mind over matter...
Hey Dahl! Good to see you here!
Going to do some more painting today. My daughter is going to help me, thank God.
ALSO, my gf got an offer on her house! Full price! Only problem, he wants possession by Dec 19th! She will be moving into an apt for now, near the holidays, in the winter.
ALL the painting work paid off. He loved all the colors, the cleanliness, the sharpness of every room.
I just wish I would have known this BEFORE we started painting her room. I had the windows done and the wall damage repaired, then she told me that it sold...grrrr...
I could hardly move yesterday. That's why daughter MUST help me finish this room today. Hopefully about 4 or 5 hours, and then all the work in this place is done.
I need a long break. Time to rest and relax. Recover. Lay around for awhile. The house pushed me to do things that I generally can't. But, it SOLD...
Everything seems to be going ok. My Dad is doing well. My daughter is expecting the baby in a few weeks. My other daughter is staying away from drugs. My son is coming up soon too. Haven't heard from my Mom, that's ok with me.
Just going to be a relaxing Thanksgiving for us all I think.
Have a great day all! Make the best of it...
Thinking of you.
Blessings.

Enduronman

Well, waddya know....** smiling** (all of it) .......except for this :

"Haven't heard from my Mom, that's ok with me"

Geez your a hard nut to crack (and so is mom, you see). It can't be ok, its your mom. One day when you are ready, you will face those feelings and let them out. This is a big part of your healing, spiritually and physically. "when" you are ready.

For now, call her on thanksgiving. you understand.

I am happy for you.