Searching for anything good...(sigh)

[Dahila]

I want to sing " lalala my medi bag goes everywhere with me , my medi bag and :lalala You will survive you are the strongest man I know, you will be ok!!!

[Enduronman]

I want to sing " lalala my medi bag goes everywhere with me , my medi bag and :lalala You will survive you are the strongest man I know, you will be ok!!!

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Now THAT was a pill bag Dahl! BAAHHAAHA!!!
I will start my new anti-psychotic tomorrow. Yippee!!
Blackened in the end, winter it will send, throwing all you see, into obscurity, death of mother earth, never a rebirth, evolutions end, never it will mend...never....LOL!!!
Sorry, just listening to some actual music tonight... relaxing. Much needed. Much appreciated.
I WILL be OK...

Hugs Dahl!

E-Man

[jessed03]

Just about to call my doctor now to discuss what we talked about. They hate dealing with it in this country, too much effort. Hopefully it will go smoothly. Like how I'm jacking your thread?
Yeaaaaaah! This is what happens when I don't get my own stickie!

Good luck starting your new drug, man. I'm guessing you're starting it today, as your post was around midnight in Indiana time.

[Enduronman]

Just about to call my doctor now to discuss what we talked about. They hate dealing with it in this country, too much effort. Hopefully it will go smoothly. Like how I'm jacking your thread?
Yeaaaaaah! This is what happens when I don't get my own stickie!

Good luck starting your new drug, man. I'm guessing you're starting it today, as your post was around midnight in Indiana time.

Jessie!

I also hope it goes smoothly for you too bruh. It really does help a lot, in many different ways.
You can thread jack whenever you want to man, we is tight son!
The doc said to take the med at 6pm. I'll probably just fall over, or at least that's what she's thinking anyway. LOL!
Have a great day friend.

E-Man

[Enduronman]

Well folks, I don't have much negative to report today! YAY!
Yesterday was busy, doctor, therapist, pick up double med doses, and some new meds too.
Then finally got to get out of that place and visited with my gf for the night, talk about looking at some new houses (yay) and some old ones too (boo)..Keep an open mind, I know.
Stayed up a little late, head feels like its filled with cotton balls, like a cotton headed ninny muggin. OMG!
Ankles aren't killing me yet this morning, that is usually the first thing that happens when I awake. Just the knees bothering me at the moment. That pain will arrive in time, I'm sure.
Nothing that a strong cup of coffee and an egg mcmuffin won't fix! When I am away from that place, I have an appetite, my stomach isn't cramping, I actually want to eat. Weird...
Going to my Dad's house around 10 to measure out the room, see how big of a bed I can get in there and if I can have a small sofa, chair, and desk in there.
I will need a desk for these computers! 2 desktops, 4 laptops, and a partridge in a pear tree...
Get to visit with an actual rational, sensible, logical, person too. My Dad, and my daughter is expecting me too. Surround myself with positive people the best that I can.
Get some boxes, start packing and loading, and give my Mom a hug a say "Sorry that it didn't work out, love you Mom, take care of yourself, bye!"...and walk away...
I am leaving and it may be as soon as tomorrow. Doctor's orders. "Get the fuck out of there".. exactly as spoken. I must agree, although I am still a little reluctant to do this.
As Mr. Suffering has pointed out to me, leaving there with unresolved issues may be my biggest concern. Thinking about whether she may fall down, drunk, and hurt herself when I'm not around.
Hardly doubt that the injuries will be life threatening and nothing that the hospital can't fix or mend, with time. She's already fallen down twice in the past year or so. Broken shoulder, broken hand.
But, she keeps doing the same things, over, and over again. I don't know how she can handle it, but, it is not for me to judge and it's not my life to live. Drink ALL you want too.
I must leave on good terms, and I think you all know why too. So she doesn't do something even more stupid and leave the home to charity because I can't mow or rake a friggin yard!
The doctor said to part ways kindly, but also said to ignore her at the Holidays too. To give her time to think about things, alone. Those were some harsh, tough, hateful, words to say to me.
The doctor also said to look at this like it's a blessing as she is getting worse, and I won't be stuck in the house with her in the winter months listening to Judge Retard on TV...less stress.
I look forward to my new journey, and think that everything will be fine too. Just another lesson in life, another challenge that I will overcome.
And, I will be closer to my daughters too. That in itself, is a part of this blessing. I miss them both dearly, and will see them soon to help them to cope with things.
Helping them, is a part of WHO I am as a person, and that character trait will not be broken or changed. I'm going to be a Grandfather again soon as well. A beautiful thing. Hope he has my eyes.
Enough of that, another new day and new outlooks and perspectives too. So far, so good.
Wishing you all the very best in overcoming whatever anxious symptom that you may be dealing with!
Blessing to you all...

Mr. Endure On Man.

[Im-Suffering]

The doctor said to part ways kindly, but also said to ignore her at the Holidays too.

I guess the doctor forgot who paid for medical school.

Mr. Endure On Man.

What would love do now? visit every so often, call to ask how things are going. don't get triggered, ask if help is needed. be kind, gentle, caring.

Mom will miss you when you move out. its not the end, but a beginning, do you see?

don't give and then ask for, give and let go.

its all working out now

best regards

[Enduronman]

What would love do now? visit every so often, call to ask how things are going. don't get triggered, ask if help is needed. be kind, gentle, caring.

Mom will miss you when you move out. its not the end, but a beginning, do you see?

don't give and then ask for, give and let go.

its all working out now

best regards

Yes, exactly as I will do. Thank you.
I will call and check in on her occasionally, I won't disown her over words spoken.
It is all working out now. For the better. Sure was tough though.
Be well Mr. Suffering!

E-Man.

[Enduronman]

Presently visiting my new place, it is much more relaxing.
I am also sitting in the same room, with my other parent, my Father.
I can not sit in the same room, with my Mother.
This is a quite pleasurable I must say.
We are also now making arrangements to have cable installed in my new room, and also in my daughters room too. To him, this isn't a big deal, to my Mother, it would be a HUGE ordeal.
I am going to like it here, very, very much...
Blessings friends!

E-Man

[meichmann]

Hey Dude,
Glad to see you are moving to a more relaxing environment. Trust me, it does wonders. My Mother In Law moved out this past January after living with us for 10 years. After she left, my anxiety and panic went waaayyy down. I hardly get anxious and my panic disorder is finally in check.

Over time you'll see a big difference. Take care of that little girl of yours too!

[Enduronman]

Hey Dude,
Glad to see you are moving to a more relaxing environment. Trust me, it does wonders. My Mother In Law moved out this past January after living with us for 10 years. After she left, my anxiety and panic went waaayyy down. I hardly get anxious and my panic disorder is finally in check.

Over time you'll see a big difference. Take care of that little girl of yours too!

Why thank you Meichmann! Very kind of you.
I have everything packed up, and ready to go now.
It feels soooooooooo good to be doing this, I feel great in fact.
She asked me where I was going? I told her to my Dad's, thanks for asking, and have a nice day! She just walked away...GOOD!!!
All I have to do now is load the car, and I'm out of this hell hole filled with negativity and pessimism forever...YEAH!!!!!
Hope I can fit it all in the car too. I should be able too.
Glad that your anxiety lowered once the Mother in Law was gone bruh!
Blessings, and have a great day too friend.

E-Man