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[Im-Suffering]

Chronic stress, anxiety, panic, trigeminal neuralgia, shingles, relapsing polychondritis, spondylosis, retrolisthesis, tremors, severe joint pains, and disability is all caused by my guilt?
I can not find nor figure out what I am guilty about or feel guilty of...hmmm, thinking.
I like your perspectives. Thoughts. Perception of things as disclosed..
I will discuss this possibility with the Psych this week. Interesting concept, idea, philosophy.
I don't know if I am living just for "me" everyday. I honestly don't have that answer.
Thank you for the depth of your reply friend, another way to look at things, and I will have to dig deep to find this answer.
Blessings to you!

E-Man..

Guilt is age old and its admittantly irresponsible of me to raise it if you would not understand or remember it, but I am trying here dealing best with what I have. Trying to squeeze boundless concepts into words which by their very definitions have limited meaning and boundaries. Guilt is to be felt, if you feel it, it feels like illness, do you understand? The illness or dis-ease is symbolic, period. Now I know this is very deep for a message board, and that is a joke in itself, but we are old friends, and here we have met, so be it.

Guilt is the plight of the human spirit, and the cause of many physical ailments. The ones you mentioned are not unique.

Listen to me, in the course of a life, we do things we regret, period. Now, after 500 years of daily accumulated regret, without the thought to purge them, or release. And with the idea of punishment, rather than what guilt was intended for, you have accumulated repression, which manifests itself as challenges in the current life, or what you call disease as a means to an end, a way to highlight the challenge to be overcome. You want truth? We have been it all, in this human game, as the centuries pass, for what you see in your brothers we ourselves have been. From murderers, to petty criminals, from poverty to wealth, from illness to health, doctors, lawyers, deputy's to outlaws. War mongrels to peacekeepers, poets to priests, mothers to fathers....what do you think we are up to in this game of life. Can you see the guilt stored over the centuries? The human life at some point is a release. You cannot release the pain after you are dead, then you have not learned the firsthand lessons ! No you must do it again ! Then when the lessons are learned, and felt, and experienced, you can go and play in a different reality, we shall call it high school, where now we are in kindercare, period..

Do you understand the above paragraph? (An almost clear pure spiritual message) Sit back and think - guilt in its basic sense was meant as a lesson, ' in the now' - ' ok, I won't do this again', and release it.....the above paragraph in itself has life changing properties.

There are no physical diseases placed upon you, for the sake of a body with no defenses to attacks by force out of your control, and against your will?

It is my fault, I have been trying to reach you since time immemorial here and I am failing - to an extent...you can see the limits of primitive communication, words, to describe feelings - feelings are limitless where words are restrictive - but these posts of disruption will always be here to look back on, so I have made my mark, if you will.

Feel the messages given to you, feel the above bolded paragraph. In a sense you are afraid to feel because feelings bring pain to you. You certainly feel physical pain because that pain is representative of the inner feelings you turn away from. So your body, being your closest ally, tries to tell you the truth amidst all the lies you attempt to feed it.

I want you to make the correlation between guilt and pain, guilt is love turned inside out and distorted. it is meant to turn one back to love after the guilt is resolved. Love is the basis for all human acts. One that hates is only trying to resolve the separation he feels from love, therefor hate expressed will lead one back to love.

When you see your therapist, which I am happy about, work on you....not mom, the kids, the illness', it's easy to divert, bob and weave. "What do I have to accomplish here, to going forth live my life joyfully, finding my expression, pleasure, passion.." And you will see as time passes the pain will subside, the body will heal, to allow happiness in, you see. The body is always willing.

The body has within it the genetic coding from eons past, of optimum health, and is always striving for the best body possible, but it must operate under certain conditions with you at the helm you see. I want you to understand the body is coded for health. And left on its own would return to optimum performance. That is often the case in miracle cures where the personality has simply changed its beliefs. "A change of heart", period, end of message.