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Enduronman

03-10-2014, 05:35 PM

1. Called in my scrip for xanax on Friday. Last fill was 2-3-14. I was nearing being out. Had enough for 2 days. Now, I AM out and I haven't received a call on it yet either. Kind of pissing me off. I have other xanax around here, But it isn't my 1mg XR's that I reallllyyyyy like...
2. I know the Doctor of mine is busy but shit, I called their office twice and sent her an email and asked the Pharmacy to send over an e-script reminder too...not a word. FUCK!!!!
3. This Lyrica makes me a druken sailer 15 mins after I take it and I have to lay down now afterwards because these screen becomes a bluurrrrrrr. AND I can't type or make my fingers move correctly either...
4. Pup is still eating everything in my house and for some reason, stands in the dripping shower water and barks at it?...
5. He will NOT go anywhere without me, nor can I go anywhere in this damn house without him being RIGHT THERE!!!
6. I was late for a court appointment this morning because he impeded my ability to get dressed, pulled on my socks, took my shoe, grabbed my belt, tore the chosen shirt so I had to find another one...and would not f**king stop and leave me alone!!! SHIT!!! It's a project just to get dressed now!!!!.....
7. Not sure about this Lyrica at all......
8. Many members here seem to be in cheerful spirits,...
9. Just wish that Frankie would get a plan put back into place that suits her, but she still drives the van anyway meds or not...
10. I can not stop laughing at these sock puppet avatars anywhere I go, so that's a good thing and I think that 14's is hilarious looking...I will keep my creepy Tshirt for the day and signature too...then find another sock puppet photo tomorrow..

Hopes you all had a good day/night wherever in this world you are!

Mr. Enduronman. :)

jessed03

03-10-2014, 05:37 PM

Emans on 5000!!!!!!!

Enduronman

03-10-2014, 05:50 PM

E-man. Hoping all of that gets resolved very quickly. In the meantime the sock puppet images are doing wonders for the fun side of the site. Thank goodness for that.

Good job on the 5000. You've done so much in those numbers. Even the roll eyes was funny. :)

Yes,..I am veerrrryyyyy concerned about you Frankie,,I pick up bits and pieces of what's going on with you in different threads and this shit needs to be corrected so you can get you life back. YES, it will take medications to do that but that's not a bad things, I have as many as 12 prescriptions now that I COULD take some of which I do not...one of them has 6 meds in it mixed together and one of them is called Ketamine. Apparently comes up in my drug screens,..IDK why....

I had no idea I was at 5000 posts!!! WOW!!! Holy shit I spend alot of time here...makes it reallllyyy sink in when you see numbers like that, but I love to help others..

Hopes, thoughts,...and wishes your way Frankie!!!....

Hi Jesse!,..Don't worry, I will NEVER pass you bruh...you are Da Man....:)

Enduron :)

jessed03

03-10-2014, 06:52 PM

Lol you can pass me, I won't mind. You have far greater staying power than I do. You're made to be no.1 poster of all time.

Frankie's gonna pass us both soon anyway ;)

She's a legend in the making.

Enduronman

03-10-2014, 07:40 PM

Lol you can pass me, I won't mind. You have far greater staying power than I do. You're made to be no.1 poster of all time.

Frankie's gonna pass us both soon anyway ;)

She's a legend in the making.

No,..I'm not so sure about that staying power bruh,..I have been very enthused to help people lately, but I had taken some breaks in between too caused by people that choose to (do absolutely nothing about their mental illness except to talk about it, around it, over it) and those are the ones that eventually cause me to lose interest and hope...they rob and steal that from me....
You know what I'm saying here bruh.....
Yes, I see Frankie up there omg 2200 posts since December!!!...LMAO!!! GO FRANKIE!!! Now that is a top poster there bruh...she's got mad skills too.

Hope you're doing well bruh, still have not seen that damn penny from London yet either...

Mr. E-Man.. :)

Terre Nova

03-11-2014, 01:53 AM

needtogetwell

03-11-2014, 03:48 AM

Emans on 5000!!!!!!!

Congrats on the 5000!!!!! But don't let that swell your head. No promotion for you......still a Col. For now!!!! :P

Luv Gen. Pam

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 07:54 AM

oh no!!!! got tossed into the off topic nosebleed section!!!! grrrrrrrrr lmao

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 08:02 AM

does anyone have a Kleenex???? to stop this nosebleed.....

needtogetwell

03-11-2014, 08:06 AM

does anyone have a Kleenex???? to stop this nosebleed.....

Sending Kleenex.......at least it isn't in deleted oblivion!!!

How you feeling today?

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 09:00 AM

This is bullshit!!! Now I have to come down here where I need an oxygen masks to see my posts???!!!!!......grrrrrrr

jessed03

03-11-2014, 09:01 AM

Oh Eman, you're in off topic now. I thought this thread had been deleted :O then I found it here.

needtogetwell

03-11-2014, 09:10 AM

This is bullshit!!! Now I have to come down here where I need an oxygen masks to see my posts???!!!!!......grrrrrrr

Hey, right along with you on the mineshaft!!!! I got moved too!!!

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 01:35 PM

hey everybody!! or all (1) f**kin person down here in this mineshaft with me....do you have your hard hat on???!!!
PREPARE TO DECEND,,,IT MAY TAKE US AN HOUR TO ARRIVE AT THE BOTTOM.......HOPE YOU PACKED YOUR LUNCH.

omg...grrrrr

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 01:37 PM

oh wait 0 viewers...i think i will just sit down here in the catacombs alone....

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 03:19 PM

Well, look where our ongoing up and down post get stuck???!!!!

jessed03

03-11-2014, 04:08 PM

Haha Eman, I keep losing you!

Stay in one place bro ;)

I'm feeling a bit scared of heights up here

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 04:10 PM

At least we aren't in the salt mines anymore!!!

Thank You Kevin!!!

YAY!!! :)

E-Man.....

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 04:21 PM

That was an extremely funny protest!!!! :)

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 04:28 PM

Ok Kevin!! Thank you again, the air is abit thinner up here but I like it better than digging for gold down there... LOL!!! :)

Dahila

03-11-2014, 06:01 PM

This thread is a forum treasure though. It's a staple of the day.

The E-man chronicles......;)

I am in :)(

needtogetwell

03-11-2014, 06:47 PM

Ok Kevin!! Thank you again, the air is abit thinner up here but I like it better than digging for gold down there... LOL!!! :)

You left me all alone in the salt mines!!!!! WAAAHHH!!! Come back and visit PLEASE!!!!!

ANYBODY!!!!!!
:(

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 06:50 PM

LMAO!!! I'm coming down there now... :)

Dahila

03-11-2014, 07:33 PM

Eman you are sticky:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 08:06 PM

I made it to stickyland!!! YAY!!!!

I would post some stuff in here but, worried about one of our members now...a Veteran.
I'll post here tomorrow....

:)

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 08:21 PM

Bahhahaabbba^^^^^^bhahhahbbaba!!!!! :)

Enduronman

03-11-2014, 10:23 PM

I am sooooooo very tired so if I don't answer a post tonight, then I'll see you in about 6 hours...just in case you're a new member and think you're forgotten..Its 1222am in AMERICA so alot of us are zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....... ..

See you all soon!

Enduronman & Friends.... :)

meichmann

03-12-2014, 06:33 AM

Is it me or am i seeing everyone's avatar is a sock puppet or a referral to a sock puppet?

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 06:36 AM

LMAO!!! Yes, we all became sock puppets after a referral from a person within the forums...Hilarious isn't it???

Have a great day bruh!!!

Enduronman... :)

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 06:42 AM

Representin!!!! Lmao!!!! ;)

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 06:58 AM

I didn't sleep worth a shit..
Not sure why but I kept having weird dreams..
But, other than that I'm doing pretty well...
No pain, but now I wanna lift weights again..(of which is realllllyyyyy causing me a hard time because I can not yet I still need PT and for her to sign off on it)....
I'll live though without that outlet for another year....

How are you Frankie doll???

E-Man.. :)

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 07:22 AM

I was hoping for that siesta..
untillllllllll......
the newest member of my family decided to jump off of the couch...
he's massive, and he's a baby...and he learned how to pull himself up there too...
ALL I can do is go get some gauze and some tape now, he has sprained his front leg because it is so weak still being a baby with his massive frame....
SHIT!!!!!
No, it isn't broken, but he is now hiding and laying down....
He got excited, jumped off,..then yelped and it doesnt stop as he walks, he whines....
I don't have $200 for a vet...
Tape and tightly wrapped gauze for him....
Did I already say SHITTTTTTTT!!!!!......
(SIGH)...

E-Man.. :(

meichmann

03-12-2014, 07:55 AM

LMAO!!! Yes, we all became sock puppets after a referral from a person within the forums...Hilarious isn't it???

Have a great day bruh!!!

Enduronman... :)

Well, it is kinda funny to see them pop up.

Dahila

03-12-2014, 09:54 AM

Eman just put cold compress on it, and help him to walk outside, he just sprained the leg , happens all the time. Keep the vets away as much as possible they are leeches...

10 minutes on (compress) 20 off then ten and twenty off , repeat it a few times and tomorrow he is going to be good. He needs a lot of calcium because he is growing up so fast. Calcium in his food:))

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 08:02 PM

Niicole Lynne

03-12-2014, 08:11 PM

My daughter just got arrested for possession methamphetamine... She will go to prison now...3rd offense. She is 17..almost 18 in 2 weeks... Any thoughts, prayers, blessings would be much appreciated... Another day in the life of E-Man....

I'm so sorry eman
I have many family members who have had legal issues due to drugs and alcohol so this really hits home
However, I know for some of them hitting rock bottom was the only way out
So let's hope that although the situation is bad... The end result will be worth it

Kind of like our own anxiety issues

I wish u the best eman and to your daughter <3

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 09:35 PM

Thank you Nicole,...
There was only one thing left to take from me,...my daughter.
And, that means that all has been losts.....

It can only look up from here...
Can't get any lower...

Enduronman..

Niicole Lynne

03-12-2014, 09:40 PM

Thank you Nicole,... There was only one thing left to take from me,...my daughter. And, that means that all has been losts..... It can only look up from here... Can't get any lower... Enduronman..

I know all seems lost eman but if you can't think of anything else to smile about know that you were someone who helped me start to see hope again when my anxiety flared up a month ago
You were one of the first to talk to me and I see the impact u have on others in this forum

So I know that may not compare to family and personal issues but I believe that many of us consider u a very special person and u can always take pride in knowing u have made a difference in our lives <3

Enduronman

03-12-2014, 09:46 PM

That really means alot to me Nicole,..you couldn't have said it better then you did dear friend..
Helping others, is what I was meant to do, even while standing at The Gates of Hell...
I will stand by you all.. :)

E-Man...

ab123

03-12-2014, 09:50 PM

How the hell did I not see this??? I hope you are okay. I hope this I'd more beneficial than bad for her. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this on top of everything else, you are strong as hell(emotionally and physically. Gotta lol at the physically part cuz it's true) And you have us. Shyyyyt. How shitty. I'm sorry

amers85

03-12-2014, 10:35 PM

needtogetwell

03-13-2014, 05:16 AM

Thank you Nicole,... There was only one thing left to take from me,...my daughter. And, that means that all has been losts..... It can only look up from here... Can't get any lower... Enduronman..

E-man,

Just want to give you a big hug right now!

Thoughts, prayers, and blessings on the way to you!

Hang in there....often good things come out of the shit! I think you know that.

Hoping something gives you reason to smile today!

Pam

Enduronman

03-13-2014, 07:25 AM

Thank you girrrrllliiieeesssss!!!

I will live..and so will she.
Just not where she wants to be...

Have a great day!!

Endurionman... yay :)

Dahila

03-13-2014, 07:42 AM

Eman I am so sorry, what you were afraid of just came. I am trying to relate but I can not. I guess you are in awful pain at the moment. If you need some friendly chat, I am willing to be there. It is bad hell ..

Enduronman

03-13-2014, 09:26 AM

UPDATE

1. After I heard of this, I emailed a couple of detective friends of mine lastnight..One of them replied to me at 10:39pm and said he will see what he can do.
2. The authorities have just notified me that she will be released to me today at 1pm, on house arrest again BUT, with an electronic monitoring ankle bracelet.
3. This is her 3rd offense, my friends in the local Police Dept. Investigations Division have made this possible for her.
4. In all honesty, I was hoping that they would keep her until she obtained her HS diploma, she needs 10 credits..I don't know if I wanted her back so quickly.
5. I had already accepted the fact, that my daughter may be gone for a very long time considering the circumstances..but now she will return.
6. I had also communicated and kept the local PD informed of both of my daughters drug related activities since March of 2012..to protect my girls from themselves.
7. I now know what it is that they're going to want from my daughter, to know WHO the person is that they really want, not her..she will cooperate, or I will let them take her right back into the Justice Systems and HOLD her until she does....

So, she's coming home in a couple hours...
I was going to ask the Juvenile Probation Officer how much time I would get if I beat the shit outta her with a pillowcase filled with bars of soap?. I still may do that....

Have a great day!!!

Mr. WTF Just Happened Man... LOL!!!! :)

Niicole Lynne

03-13-2014, 09:54 AM

UPDATE 1. After I heard of this, I emailed a couple of detective friends of mine lastnight..One of them replied to me at 10:39pm and said he will see what he can do. 2. The authorities have just notified me that she will be released to me today at 1pm, on house arrest again BUT, with an electronic monitoring ankle bracelet. 3. This is her 3rd offense, my friends in the local Police Dept. Investigations Division have made this possible for her. 4. In all honesty, I was hoping that they would keep her until she obtained her HS diploma, she needs 10 credits..I don't know if I wanted her back so quickly. 5. I had already accepted the fact, that my daughter may be gone for a very long time considering the circumstances..but now she will return. 6. I had also communicated and kept the local PD informed of both of my daughters drug related activities since March of 2012..to protect my girls from themselves. 7. I now know what it is that they're going to want from my daughter, to know WHO the person is that they really want, not her..she will cooperate, or I will let them take her right back into the Justice Systems and HOLD her until she does.... So, she's coming home in a couple hours... I was going to ask the Juvenile Probation Officer how much time I would get if I beat the shit outta her with a pillowcase filled with bars of soap?. I still may do that.... Have a great day!!! Mr. WTF Just Happened Man... LOL!!!! :)

As there are 100 and 3 emotions I feel reading this post... I must say the ending mAde me laugh really hard lol

Wishing u and ur girl the best eman!

jessed03

03-13-2014, 10:02 AM

Eman I'm so proud of you everytime I see you top of the tree like this.

But You know you live a wild life when you say these words as casually as you just did; 'I emailed a couple of detective friends of mine'

Have a great day bruh, stay positive.

needtogetwell

03-13-2014, 10:03 AM

Mr. WTF happened.....well isn't that a pile of doo doo dropped in your lap!

Wouldn't wish it on anyone!

Another option....sic puppy on her, might not get you any time!!!! Lol.

But seriously, it all sucks. You obviously love your daughter!!! You're an awesome Dad!

P.

jessed03

03-13-2014, 10:04 AM

I'm so sorry to hear this :(
Ill be praying for the best for you and your family

And obviously like everyone here, I wish your family the best. Hope you manage to get some stuff straight, however that needs to happen. :-/

NeverToo...Fear

03-13-2014, 10:33 AM

It sounds so overwhelming, but stay strong, E-man! We're all here for you :) ..I'm hoping the best for you and your family.

Enduronman

03-13-2014, 08:03 PM

Well, I got her..again
3rd time that they have just called and said to come and get baby lion cub, this shit is getting old..
But on a bright note, I have had to pay $0 to get her out of detention, all 3 times...
It's because the investigators are working on bigger and better things..the main man.
After that, I had to take her in for a drug assessment and because she had convinced the detention people that she was suicidal..I knew better.
As soon as I got her, let's go to Taco Bell dad, k, thanks..
They've ordered her into IOP intensive outpatient drug rehab, and I have just the place for it too..
Just hoping that they'll cut me some slack on this $70 a week monitoring cost!!!..Shit!!!
I haven't posted today because quite frankly, I didnt sleep lastnight, the screen was a blurrrrr and I couldnt understand a damn thing I was reading..
I may try to jump in there now, after my 2 or 3 hour nap....
She's OK and she's upstairs now with her ankle bracelet that knows everything....YAY!!!....

Have a great night!

Enduronman.. :)

NixonRulz

03-13-2014, 08:10 PM

Well, I got her..again 3rd time that they have just called and said to come and get baby lion cub, this shit is getting old.. But on a bright note, I have had to pay $0 to get her out of detention, all 3 times... It's because the investigators are working on bigger and better things..the main man. After that, I had to take her in for a drug assessment and because she had convinced the detention people that she was suicidal..I knew better. As soon as I got her, let's go to Taco Bell dad, k, thanks.. They've ordered her into IOP intensive outpatient drug rehab, and I have just the place for it too.. Just hoping that they'll cut me some slack on this $70 a week monitoring cost!!!..Shit!!! I haven't posted today because quite frankly, I didnt sleep lastnight, the screen was a blurrrrr and I couldnt understand a damn thing I was reading.. I may try to jump in there now, after my 2 or 3 hour nap.... She's OK and she's upstairs now with her ankle bracelet that knows everything....YAY!!!.... Have a great night! Enduronman.. :)

Did. You get the parent of the year award for being able to tolerate this shit

But maybe, if it was my boys, I could find the strength to do as you are

Be well, man and get her straight

In a year, she will be the sparkle in your eye

Enduronman

03-13-2014, 08:23 PM

To be honest with you brother,..
She was in, and still is in, the exact same place that I was in,..at the exact same age. (if that sentence makes any sense)...
I was in trouble, about drugs and other things, and getting ready to transfer from jail to a drug rehab...same age.
NOW, I know why I went through all that shit, or, she just thought that she would walk in daddy's footsteps although she didnt know where they were...
That's how I'm able to just blow it off and keep my cool, I know what she's thinking, and how to navigate the systems (all of them) too..
Not sure if glad to have her home yet or not??? There's loud music playing again???...IDK if good or bad, reallllyyyy quiet lastnight! Kinda liked it...rare.
I do hope that she decides to get her head outta her ass and live life the way it was meant to be lived for sure bruh..

Thanks for thinking of us!!
All of you!!

Have a blessed night/day...

E-Man.. :)

needtogetwell

03-13-2014, 08:23 PM

Great job Enduromdad!!! You're awesome.

To bad more kids in trouble didn't have dads like you!

Glad to see you back!

Niicole Lynne

03-13-2014, 09:15 PM

Great job Enduromdad!!! You're awesome. To bad more kids in trouble didn't have dads like you! Glad to see you back!

I think you're exactly right

Enduronman

03-13-2014, 11:00 PM

Awwwllll....That's very nice to hear.
Since I was forced to raise them, I am all they have...so I have to be everything that I can be. Yough job!!!

YAY!!!

Have a great day tomorrow friends...:)

Enduronman :D

Enduronman

03-14-2014, 07:42 AM

Lets see what today has in store for me....YAY!!!
Waking my daughter up now, with a song called Dig...full blast. Kinda fun!!!!

Have a great day!!!

Enduronman.... :) :)

needtogetwell

03-14-2014, 08:32 AM

Has anyone ever told you that you have a sadistic sense of humour? Lol

Fun to watch!!!!

Hope your day has good things in store for you!!!

Enduronman

03-14-2014, 08:42 AM

Hmmm...Have they told me that???
YES!!! LMAO!!!

The Sheriff was just here to check on Chloe too!!! BAHAAAHAHA!!!! Asked if she had anything in her room that she shouldn't have?? She probably does...but he didn't check.

Exciting already I guess...I had the music up so loud I didn't here his knocking!!! He probably thought "WTF do these people listen too???". It was Dig, by Mudvayne!!! HAAAHAAHA!!! and I have a GIANT SOUND SYSTEM!!! BOOM BOOM....

LOL!

Enduronman.. :)

Niicole Lynne

03-14-2014, 08:49 AM

Hahahahaha very nicely done eman lol

Enduronman

03-14-2014, 01:42 PM

SOOOOOOO....
What SHOULD have been an easy task, to go get my car out of impound turned into this huge out of proportion ordeal...
I take my title, registration, insurance card, and drivers license..everything they needed.
The guy notices that the plates are expired and also my insurance card is expired too...Easy fix? NO...
I had to leave there, go to the insurance company to get a valid insurance card....
Then, to the license branch to get a vaild license plate..(why she got pulled over to begin with but I did not know that they were expired)...
Then,...go back to the impound yard with all this new and unexpected shit,..just to get my car out..
I'm reallllll tired now...naptime!!!

Have a great day!

E-Man.. :)

anxietycat

03-14-2014, 01:46 PM

To be honest with you brother,.. She was in, and still is in, the exact same place that I was in,..at the exact same age. (if that sentence makes any sense)... I was in trouble, about drugs and other things, and getting ready to transfer from jail to a drug rehab...same age. NOW, I know why I went through all that shit, or, she just thought that she would walk in daddy's footsteps although she didnt know where they were... That's how I'm able to just blow it off and keep my cool, I know what she's thinking, and how to navigate the systems (all of them) too.. Not sure if glad to have her home yet or not??? There's loud music playing again???...IDK if good or bad, reallllyyyy quiet lastnight! Kinda liked it...rare. I do hope that she decides to get her head outta her ass and live life the way it was meant to be lived for sure bruh.. Thanks for thinking of us!! All of you!! Have a blessed night/day... E-Man.. :)

I was missing you the other day too Eman! I just love reading your posts- you are so encouraging to everyone.

needtogetwell

03-14-2014, 03:16 PM

SOOOOOOO.... What SHOULD have been an easy task, to go get my car out of impound turned into this huge out of proportion ordeal... I take my title, registration, insurance card, and drivers license..everything they needed. The guy notices that the plates are expired and also my insurance card is expired too...Easy fix? NO... I had to leave there, go to the insurance company to get a valid insurance card.... Then, to the license branch to get a vaild license plate..(why she got pulled over to begin with but I did not know that they were expired)... Then,...go back to the impound yard with all this new and unexpected shit,..just to get my car out.. I'm reallllll tired now...naptime!!! Have a great day! E-Man.. :)

Well, doesn't shit roll down hill!!!

Ok get your ass to some higher ground!!! PRONTO !!!!!!

Hoping you had a really nice nap!
P.

Enduronman

03-14-2014, 03:25 PM

needtogetwell

03-14-2014, 04:36 PM

Lurk all you want!!! We will hold down the fort!!!

You can count on us .....

And ...... You might just get promoted to Brigadier General! :P

Yours truly,
Major General Pam

NixonRulz

03-14-2014, 05:49 PM

I just wanna scream and yell,,,and kick shit around.. I AM trying to get back to higher ground but holy shit, what a friggin week.. and I got a backache again soooo fuggggiiinnn bad (no reason other than added stress) that I barely walk.. I'm trying to find SOMETHING good to say, add, some encouragement to others, you know..the things that I lovvvveeeee doing but man, LIFE seems to have just took a shit on me!!! WAAAAH WAAAAAAAHHHH!!! LOL!!! Thank you all for your kindness and support... Now, I've just become a lurker waiting for something to take this pain away...and clear my mind and thoughts. Everything happened soooooooo fassstttttt... E-.......Man. :)

You are here when you can but ultimately we need to take care of ourselves and our families

Everyone gets a hall pass when they are dealing with things

Once you have sorted your own world, then the advice can you give will be. Done with your complete focus

Being half focused just leads to half ass advice

We can hold the fort down

Get you and your girl well

Then bump us to the back of line where we usually are

Dahila

03-14-2014, 08:21 PM

Eman is more like this 1228

Enduronman

03-15-2014, 09:07 AM

I can't wake up!!!!!!!....waaaa. :)

needtogetwell

03-15-2014, 10:21 AM

I can't wake up!!!!!!!....waaaa. :)

Then go back to sleep silly!!!!!

Duh! No brainer!!!!

Have a great day E-man!!!

anxietyslayer

03-15-2014, 10:55 AM

Hello E-man, I read your post and I must say that anxiety does have a way of affecting every aspect of one's life. It almost seems like it finds a way to work itself into every little thing you do or every thing going on in your life at that specific moment. It is truly amazing how universal this disease is. One thing that helped me was "letting go". I know it is very hard for us to do, anxiety sufferers mostly suffer from it due to their inability to let go but think of anxiety as this huge rock in the way of your path in life, arm yourself with a chisel, even if its the smallest chisel you have ever seen, and start slowly but surely chipping away at the rock. Chip, chip, chip until the rock is merely a stone. I hope you had a happy holiday season!

Enduronman

03-15-2014, 11:01 AM

Hey there friend!

Thank you for those encouraging words bruh,..yes, anxiety drops giant stones before me most everyday in varying shapes and sizes for sure.
As you said, just gotta chip away at the issue the best that we can..
Holidays were great and special as this forum even had an energy in it that somehow even made the Holidays that much brighter for me and many of us here...
That energy will return too, you can't be that spirit...
Welcome to the forums and hope to see you around soon too!

Have a great Saturday and upcoming week...

Enduronman... (Chris) :)

Enduronman

03-16-2014, 11:38 AM

SORRY NOT OF MUCH USE TODAY, BACK IS F**KING KILLING ME AGAIN FOR NO REASON...

Thinking of you all anyway!!

Enduronman..:(

Dahila

03-16-2014, 01:06 PM

Oh Eman my friends just left for Detroit, and after three days I can not do anything , the f**** back is killing me. How many bones is in the spine, what the hell it hurts like hell.................... I think stepping into a pile of shit is a specialty of most people............................................ ...who own huge dogs..................or to be huge dogs, puppies who must eat 4 times a day and shit 4 times a day :)))

needtogetwell

03-16-2014, 01:18 PM

Dahila and Eman,

Sorry that you both are having trouble with your backs today!!!

Hope you both feel better soon. Nice to see both of you!

Cheers my friends!!!!
Pam

Enduronman

03-16-2014, 02:13 PM

Hello dear friend,..

Holy shit I thought I was going to cry an hour ago, it is that bad.
I can sit here for a few I think, I wanna see what's going on!!!!
Miss you all!!
and this back ache shit is unreal (Thinking of you Dahl!)...
I've got all the good meds (supposedly) but they are not touching this back pain.
Everywhere else feels great,...I NEED that Butrans Patch medication...

Try to have a great day all!!...

Enduronman.. :)

anxietycat

03-16-2014, 03:35 PM

Sorry Chip and D that you all are having back pain. Feel better!

Dahila

03-16-2014, 05:08 PM

needtogetwell

03-16-2014, 05:17 PM

I am better now, I have special computer chair which is shaped to my back,,,:) sitting for two hours and watching moves was good. somehow the pain is easy now. Running around the house, the city, and having all this fun, not time to sit and rest, just made it very painful. I had glorious 3 days full of happiness, now I rest and wait the pain to go away. Eman can you take a batch with the epson salts? It helps me, to relax the muscles.... Needletogetbetter you know what is back pain about? Eman I hope you get better, just try to relax no to tense the muscles because it does not help, if anything it makes the pain worse...:)

I certainly do know what back pain is all about! Wish I didn't! Lol

I too love my Epsom salt bath really helps, as does sleeping on the floor, even though I have a firm good mattress, the floor I provides relief when it's really bad.

Glad you're feeling better and had a good time with your guests!

Dahila

03-16-2014, 06:49 PM

I certainly do know what back pain is all about! Wish I didn't! Lol

I too love my Epsom salt bath really helps, as does sleeping on the floor, even though I have a firm good mattress, the floor I provides relief when it's really bad.

Glad you're feeling better and had a good time with your guests!
Jeez I remember my mom sleeping on the thick board under the sheets. I had never picture myself doing it::((
The most relieve I find on my mattress which was insanely expensive, but worth every dollar. It is made of layers of different sponges and is kind of firm under memory foam. It is the only place I can lie down without pain. No sofas, not other bed just this one...

Enduronman

03-16-2014, 07:44 PM

Just spoke to my dad to wish him a happy birthday, he's 76 today.
Everything was fine until he said "Son, your daughters are killing you"....
My oldest daughter called here tonight and said that she's moving in here with her bf..
I said bullshit..she said well I guess we'll just have to live on the streets then.. OK.
Her and her prisoner sis do NOT get along anyway, last thing I need here is my other drug addict daughter and a 30yr old bf that has no job or car...fuck that.
My dad, had a good point..
My back started hurting severely after my youngest was arrested for the 3rd time about drugs, the next day, back pain like I couldnt believe...
My own kids are slowly killing me even though I laugh about the stupid shit that they both do..and can deal with it..
So, on his 76th birthday, that's what I heard during the phone celebrations..

Enduronman :)

needtogetwell

03-17-2014, 03:12 AM

Just spoke to my dad to wish him a happy birthday, he's 76 today. Everything was fine until he said "Son, your daughters are killing you".... My oldest daughter called here tonight and said that she's moving in here with her bf.. I said bullshit..she said well I guess we'll just have to live on the streets then.. OK. Her and her prisoner sis do NOT get along anyway, last thing I need here is my other drug addict daughter and a 30yr old bf that has no job or car...fuck that. My dad, had a good point.. My back started hurting severely after my youngest was arrested for the 3rd time about drugs, the next day, back pain like I couldnt believe... My own kids are slowly killing me even though I laugh about the stupid shit that they both do..and can deal with it.. So, on his 76th birthday, that's what I heard during the phone celebrations.. Enduronman :)

Oh Eman,

The shit is still rolling in your direction! Sucks for sure !!! Just keep the pooper scooper handy.

Hope your Dad had a good birthday!

Anyway you are the magnificent EnduronDAD! You will laugh your way through it. Just don't let this extra dooo dooo stress you out your back doesn't need it.

Cheers my friend! One day at a time!
P.

Enduronman

03-17-2014, 08:44 AM

well I could actually get myself out of bed this am, so that's good..
woke up, had breakfast, took my meds, passed out again at this computer..
made some more coffee, took a cup and sat down elsewhere..passed out again...
It's 11am and I'm finally up!..and can read this screen!
Only problem, I dumped the coffee all over my pants but, I don't really care. I'm still sittin here in my pee pants. LMAO!!
For whomever knows what movie that came from..

Have a great day friends!

Enduronman... :)

Dahila

03-17-2014, 08:48 AM

Eman say to the older one NOOOOOOOOOO and that it. she wants to move in with her BF gosh, what a attitude. Say not and that it. You paying with your health. I know to say No to children is the most difficult thing,...

Enduronman

03-17-2014, 09:41 AM

Yes Dahl (Hi Pam!) I am paying with my health, even though I can deal with them, their unique situations, their problems, this prisoner in my home complete with monitor,..
It is affecting, impacting, infecting, me physically and causing things to happen for no explainable reasons..this back ache thing is torture..

Thank you for thinking of me girls!

Enjoy the day..

Enduronman.. :)

Enduronman

03-17-2014, 09:42 AM

Sorry Chip and D that you all are having back pain. Feel better!

Thanks for thinking of me!!!..It means alot AC!..

Have a great day and keep moving forward too friend!

Enduronman.. :)

Enduronman

03-17-2014, 09:47 AM

You're impossible to ever be far from my thoughts. X be well.

Thank you Frankie!!
I'm thinking of you too dear...and hope that you're doing well, the best you can..

Have a good day and move in positive directions too!

Happy St. Patricks day friend!

Enduronman.. :)

Enduronman

03-17-2014, 09:59 AM

I did see those pics,,YAY Frankie!!!...Success!!
Let me know if you need some assistance for this upcoming appointment, I'm usually right here..LOL!
The pup is growing soooooo fast omg 9 weeks old approaching 10 and he's a bear to lift up and hold like a baby now but he still likes it..BAAHA!!..
He is just chewing his way through the house..he's doing fine and so are we too. My daughter actually likes playing with him now that he won't bite her..

Enduronman.. :D

needtogetwell

03-17-2014, 02:32 PM

Pam.....inbox darling. Time to do some housework lol.

I know, I'm at physio right now on my phone, when it have me the bad news!

Will take care of it when I get home after I've made tea (I think I have it right lol) for my DH.

:(

Enduronman

03-18-2014, 03:32 PM

needtogetwell

03-18-2014, 05:26 PM

My youngest daughter is now detoxing..in my house..throwing everything from her room down the stairs..YAY.....so nice to watch this unfold AND, the Sheriff has been here today too, to give her a breathalyzer to be sure she wasn't drinking... Interesting day, thus far... She just gave me her glass pipe...apparently one was left in her room. If the Sheriff would have searched her room on Friday when he was last here, she would be back in jail.. Addictions are a mother f***** it appears....eeessshhh.... Have a great day all!! Enduronman... :eek:

Nice to see you Eman!

Sorry your days not great but this doesn't seem quite as big a shit pile as you have had to deal with lately.

Are you still looking at rehab for child?

How's the back doing?

Hope your hanging in there!
Cheers my friend!
P.

Enduronman

03-18-2014, 07:20 PM

Oh mannnnn!!!!
yes, still a big shit pile...
because even if I did put her into rehab, she is 18 in 3 days so she can walk out the door...
The back is still an issue but my Doc comes back,..LOL,,,on this Thursday from vacation so hopefully she will deal with it then.
Thank you Pam!!

Not of much use around here at the moment,..got my own issues to deal with.

E-Man... :)

needtogetwell

03-19-2014, 03:22 AM

Catch 22 on the rehab thing! Too bad, there is something to be said for kids being under the legal age....we parents get to make the decisions!

But, like you said, after her birthday if she messes up then she has to get out of the pile herself! Daddy won't be able to help much, even if you want to.

Hang on, deal with your own stuff, keep in mind that if you need a shoulder or a dozen we're here.

Good luck with Doc later this week!

Cheers my friend!
P.

Enduronman

03-19-2014, 03:09 PM

Today seems abit..odd
Her X bf, is now over here visiting...
and another friend too...
Not "supposed" to have friends here but I checked them both for drugs..
plus, there's a 2 yr old baby up there too so I think we're ok as long as Sheriff doesnt stop in again.
Plus, I think the distractions are keeping her OUT of rehab and giving her something to do besides sit and stare at a wall..

Just another day..

E-Man.. :)

Enduronman

03-20-2014, 10:35 AM

The back is GREAT!!!
BUT, now we add (2) more medications to my already lengthy list of meds..
I got a shot of (DEPO-MEDROL)...AND
A PRESCRIPTION FOR SOME HYDROCODONE!!!! YAY!!!! FINALLY!!!!!
I can't feel my back at all...
(1) hour later...is all it took and I am feeling better than I have in a very long time..

Hopes that everyone has a great day!!

Enduronman... :) :) :)

Dahila

03-20-2014, 11:16 AM

Eman you back is your life, stress in life sore back (more than usually) less stress back hurts less ;))) F LIfe is the worst pain :))

Enduronman

03-20-2014, 12:30 PM

YAY my back is fine,,....but,
They are going to give my daughter 30 days in the juvenile detention center for having the meth...
This is allll to surreal..because my daughter has walked directly in her daddys shoes and I had to serve more than 30 in the juvenile detention center myself..
Just weird....and she didn't even know where my footsteps even were...she knew "of" them just not where they were..
Geeze...30 days may just do her some good though! Get her sobered up too..
AND they just withdrew her from her IEP classes too..meaning that she is no longer in scruel..yay

Hoolllllyyy shiitttttt! bahaaaaha!!

Ok then, it is what it is....

Enduron Man...and endure,..and endure... :)

needtogetwell

03-20-2014, 03:41 PM

Well, outstanding that you are not in pain! YAY for that!

Strange how the apple never falls far from the tree. At least you know the road she is travelling.

Maybe 30 days isn't a bad thing for you. At least then you will be able to focus on yourself again!

All in all sounds like not a bad day!

Cheers
Pam

Enduronman

03-20-2014, 05:05 PM

Yes, she told me that she had been smoking that stuff everyday since October 25th, and that is a very powerful and harsh drug to be addicted too...
She seems to be taking the 30 day thing quite well..so far, she may snap in court but IDK...

Hope you had a great day Pam!!

Chris.. :)

needtogetwell

03-20-2014, 05:12 PM

BTW, congrats on 1300 posts on this thread!

Thanks for asking, I had a really good day!

P.

Enduronman

03-20-2014, 05:31 PM

YAY!!!...probably mostly my screwed up story though.....Its hilarious!

Thinking of your friend..

E-Man. :)

needtogetwell

03-20-2014, 06:30 PM

YAY!!!...probably mostly my screwed up story though.....Its hilarious! Thinking of your friend.. E-Man. :)

One day I will take the time to read it from the beginning. Probably take me a couple of hours!

A good chronicle of your journey! And undoubtedly a fascinating read!

P.

Enduronman

03-21-2014, 10:46 AM

I'm stilllllll trying to get used to the fact that I'm going to lose my baby girl for 30 days....
ggrrrrrrrrr!!!
damn emotions!!!
wait,...did I say the E word?

Have a great day!!

E-Man... :)

needtogetwell

03-21-2014, 12:13 PM

I'm stilllllll trying to get used to the fact that I'm going to lose my baby girl for 30 days.... ggrrrrrrrrr!!! damn emotions!!! wait,...did I say the E word? Have a great day!! E-Man... :)

Just think of it as her going on vacation. Positive spin is all it takes. When does she leave?

Enduronman

03-21-2014, 02:15 PM

She goes in on the 25th...will miss Easter with the fam..But,
Yes, this is what's best for her as she admitted to being a meth addict..
So, get her cleaned up, sobered up, and ready for her adult life..
The back meds work great! ONLY FOR THE BACK!!!
I was hoping to get off of 2 of these other meds but they all target different areas...weird.

Thanks for thinking of me!!

E-Man.. :)

Enduronman

03-21-2014, 03:58 PM

DDDDDUUUUUDDDEEEE!!!
Snap out of it EMAN!!!
DAAAYYYUUUUMMMM!
Yes, Easter is a favorite...but I will survive.
30 days is nothing compared to what this sort of charge usually brings here..
Class D felony....stupid punk ass little kid she is!!
Oh well,..she is in the same place Daddy was..and I NEVER broke another law again..

Have a great day besties!!! :)

Enduronman.....

GeneAllen

03-21-2014, 07:06 PM

Yep, yep, yep, we all do. To bad youth is wasted on the young. LOL

Oh what am I saying I was living a fast life just 10 years ago, but every train has to stop sometime.

Peace Hang tuff Eman, and emotions are okay too. :D

Enduronman

03-21-2014, 10:46 PM

I can't find the bitching thread anywhere..can't even remember what its called either. So, I will just type here....
My gf was supposed to finally come and see me, guess what, she fell asleep..tells me how important I really am..she wouldn't fall asleep if someone else needed something...TRUST ME..
My oldest daughter called, said she now has a warrant for her arrests too..because she failed to appear in court on the 19th. Not a bench warrant, they're ACTUALLY out looking for her just because she didn't pay $25 a month to an apartment complex for her bf (father of my grandson that is in prison of course) destroying the apartment and they moved out..broke a lease, I TOLD HER NOT TO SIGN!!!
F**K!!! somethings never change, and sometimes it helps to say F**K!!!!!! too......
Just waiting for the next phone call to see wtf it may be about???...Oh, really???...
EESSSSSHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I know, I'm just bitching and whining because I'm tired of allllllll theeee bulllsssshiiiiiitttttt.....
and things that will never change...
Why is it so hard for other people to change, when I can change in a second??? For the betterment of something or someone else??..
I will never understand your answer so don't even try friends...

Have a good night..

E-Man... :)

needtogetwell

03-22-2014, 04:14 AM

Oh E-man,

It's still raining shit in your world. :(. :(

Just think of it this way, you are nurturing a garden that will be nothing less than spectacular.

The best and most beautiful flowers need fertilizer to grow and be strong! Your girls will be ok, just look at the strength of the seed stock they come from!

Hoping your day brings some sunshine'

Pam :D

Dahila

03-22-2014, 07:38 AM

I am sorry Eman, you know my children never listened to me either. Now they pay for their mistakes..... My son with his constant problems will never leave me alone. oh shit is shit..............

Enduronman

03-22-2014, 08:29 AM

*sigh*

E-Man...

Enduronman

03-23-2014, 01:27 PM

Well let's see...
My baby girl goes to jail in 2 days,..for 30 days.
My oldest has a warrant for her arrest...
I know that there was a Bonnie & Clyde but what about the adventures of CC & Lil C?...LMAO!
The new pain meds are aawweeessssommmeeee....Norco. Opiate. Nice.
I can walk, and I can turn over and sleep on my side now too!! I'm a big boy!!! YAY!!!
Oh, new pain med does NOT touch the joint pain but somehow focuses all it has on my back, still have to take something else for my joints...
Puppy is getting HUMONGOUS. Should rename him to Meathead..geeze I can hardly pull him up on the couch now.
He played yesterday with another doggie next door, a beagle..he had fun and slept for 2 hours afterwards..
AND...I'm doing ok I guess and hope that you all are too...

Have a great day friends!

Enduronman :)

Enduronman

03-24-2014, 04:21 PM

hmmm..
1. Gotta watch my baby girl walk away tomorrow with a Sheriff next to her I'm sure..
2. Havent heard yet if my other daughter has been arrested or not...
3. Hope that my loony X wife keeps her fuggin mouth shut on court tomorrow..
4. Spoke to the attorney, didnt have all the paperwork. Thinks we are just going to court for possession of paraphernalia?...WTF?...uhhhhh no...
5. Could hardly pull myself outta bed this am, back ache..but I managed to make it to the pill bottle finally. Theyre going to have to do something for me!!
6. This pup is getting ginormously humongous. He is 37" from paw to paw..HE HE..I measured him while he was asleep. Unsure of his weight now just HEAVY.
7. I guess it could always be worse...anxiety is still stable, no other real mental issues to mention just physical really.

Hope you're all doing well out there!!
Have a great day friends!!!

Enduronman.. :)

Dahila

03-24-2014, 07:45 PM

Oh Eman, poor eman:(

Enduronman

03-24-2014, 08:07 PM

Thanks Dahl..
*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

It feels somber in the house, like its her last day before execution.

Its weird...

Hope you have a good night friend!

E..

Dahila

03-24-2014, 08:22 PM

Eman I will try and you use the time wisely, to get some peace and rest

NixonRulz

03-27-2014, 06:05 AM

It does seem a bit quiet without all the capital letters and exclamation points

Hi, Frankie!

Dahila

03-27-2014, 07:19 AM

I think guys he is down with sadness, I think the best is to leave him alone, when he is sound and happy he will come back....

Enduronman

03-27-2014, 05:53 PM

Whoa..look at Frankie!!! Pretty!!
Just got a call from my daughter, good to talk to her.
She was on lock down because she didn't wanna wake up.
Funny as hell because she wouldn't givea shits if they did lock her down for failure to wake up!! HE HE!!!
I feel better now that I've spoken to her, felt kinda lost there for a little while..my baby girl is gone..just for 28 more days though...
She said she was doing ok..and "helping" the staff to take care of the other kids now too. She'll be a trustee in no time.
I read through some of the forum post earlier,,same ole shit different day!!! LMAO!!..I wanted to comment on one, but I wouldv'e just sounded like a smartass...
Oh, and its now raining, hailing, and warming up here now finally...
Gotta bunch of friggin paperwork to do tomorrow so that will keep me busy and my mind off of other things for now...
Hope you're all doing well!!!

Have a great day/night wherever you are....

E-Man.. :)

needtogetwell

03-27-2014, 06:15 PM

Great to see you E-man. You sound pretty good all things considered!

Glad darling daughter is doing ok, and that you got to talk to her.

Miss you!!!! Stop in again when you are up to it. How's the back? And the pup?

We're holding down the fort ok, but sure could use a trip in the van! Can you just see us? Frankie looking all gorgeous in the drivers seat!! We'll have those we're hunting come running to us just to get a look at her! Lol. Sorry Zola, your mum wins this one!

Anyhoooo,
Take care of yourself!
Cheers,
Gen. P.

Enduronman

03-28-2014, 05:38 PM

Hey ALL!!!...
Just another day,,
Doing ok though!
It's definately quiet around here...lots of naps. LOL!
Hope you're all doing well and enjoy this weekend to friends...

Thinking of you..

Enduronman.. :)

Enduronman

03-29-2014, 10:47 AM

Going to go visit my youngster today in jail..she said to bring lots of $1 bills, I hope 40 is enough LMAO!!!

Have a great day all!!

Enduronman.. :)

Dorriekeepson23

03-29-2014, 11:19 AM

Going to go visit my youngster today in jail..she said to bring lots of $1 bills, I hope 40 is enough LMAO!!!

Have a great day all!!

Enduronman.. :)

Oh, E-Man, I'm so glad you GET to see her. Really. That's awesome of you to go. Not that you wouldn't Duh!! lol. Have a great visit. Dorrie girl.

Fight the stress

03-30-2014, 06:04 AM

1000 mgs tylenol
2mg Abilify
1mg Xanax
25mg Atenolol
20mg Ritalin
50mg Tramadol
1 pot of coffee...= HEADACHE IS ALMOST GONE!!! YAY!!!!
and I actually just laughed when I typed that too....BAAAHA!!
I can NOT drink NOT even a beer with all these meds because this is the result AND I didn't get out to get my pics today either!!!!

xxx

Enduronman.. :)

Wow this is a lot of medication, I recently started using this natural product that feed your brain the right nutrients it needs so that the feeling of anxiety is at a minimal plus i was able to stop taking my medications. If you are curious for information I would love to bring this positive product into your life. Take care and keep you the great work.

Fourteen14

03-30-2014, 06:17 PM

I felt this was the best thread to post this little nugget of inspiration.

Introducing Sam Berns and his Philosophy for a happy life.

Please watch until the end, this young guy is inspirational :)

http://youtu.be/36m1o-tM05g

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 12:08 PM

Thank you all for your thoughts and inspirations..
I'm still trying to hang in there, gettin these letters from the jail everyday is abit tough I must say.
Its only 30 days, I know..like 22 more I think.
Her letter today said everything that she wants to do when she gets out..get hair coloring, go eat junkfood, go get a new cell phone..
Things that she at 18 finds inspiring and gives her something to look forward too.
And just saying that she's sorry for leaving me here alone too but I can still get around ok on my own at the moment so we're good there..

Hope everyone else here is doing as well as can be, thinking of you all!

Have a great week..

Enduronman :)

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 12:34 PM

Great to see you too Frankie!!
Thank you, I hope it passes quickly too...it's tooooo quiet around here.
I am however, lifting weights against everyones orders...i'm bored.
Feels good so far!!

Have a good day dear Frankie!

E-Man.. :D

needtogetwell

04-02-2014, 01:50 PM

Eman!!!!!

Missed you!!! So glad to see you post!!!

Sorry the time is going so slowly, but she's almost 1/3 of the way through! Better than a week ago!

Please be careful with the weights, but they obviously make you happy so go for it, but not too hard! :)

Hoping you will rejoin us when your ready! Not getting enough sarcasm lately!!!

Be well my friend!
Pam

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 01:56 PM

BAHAAAHA!!!
Need more sarcasm!!!
I will return, I promise...LOL!!!

Have a great day Pam!!

E-Man.. :)

Niicole Lynne

04-02-2014, 02:00 PM

BAHAAAHA!!! Need more sarcasm!!! I will return, I promise...LOL!!! Have a great day Pam!! E-Man.. :)

I agree with Pam :)

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 02:02 PM

I agree with Pam :)

I will bring it all Nicole!! YAY!!! :)

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 02:08 PM

HAHA!!!
I bet that boy is growing though Mum!!!
Sorry about the noise, we will try to keep it down...LOL!! :)

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 02:22 PM

It is EXTREMELY de-stressing Mum!!...
Even just lifting light weights...it's weird really.....
It gave me some energy to type!!
Sarcasm, engaged...LOL!!!

E-Man... :)

After5hock

04-02-2014, 02:41 PM

I usually feel 1000x better after weight training. Haven't been able to for a week. That Seroquel made me dizzy, nauseous, and weak.

Enduronman

04-02-2014, 02:47 PM

Oh my...
Dose is probably too high..
My daughter takes 25mgs I believe at night to sleep..
Weight training is awesome though, watch that Seroquel!

E-Man..

anxiety-challenged

04-03-2014, 07:53 AM

We all learn through pain and pain can teach us a lot of things, toughen us up, let us learn ways to get long with it, knowledge and even humor:) Making him/her worthy of respect!

Enduronman

04-03-2014, 11:15 AM

Not shortage of pain around her AC! LOOL!
Just got the bill for the court cost from her being in trouble...
It's alot..I had no idea.

E-Man.. :)

needtogetwell

04-03-2014, 01:20 PM

Not shortage of pain around her AC! LOOL! Just got the bill for the court cost from her being in trouble... It's alot..I had no idea. E-Man.. :)

That $ucks!!!!

Hope you're doing ok!
P.

Enduronman

04-03-2014, 02:17 PM

The wind blew, and the shit flew...
Flood warnings, and more coming with of course, tornadoes!! AYYYAAY!!!
Large hail, high winds, and loads of stress headed this way....like I needed more stress?
That which does not kill us, only makes us stronger...I wanna kill the mother f**ker that wrote that..

Endure on man....

NixonRulz

04-03-2014, 03:03 PM

I saw that it is coming on the weather channel

Be safe and take pictures

Enduronman

04-03-2014, 07:03 PM

Yes it's still moving this way...
Should be interesting anyway bruh!!

E-Man.. :)

Dahila

04-03-2014, 07:29 PM

it is coming:((

Enduronman

04-04-2014, 04:51 PM

My house still stands! YAY!!
After 160 years....
I'm still here too..yippee.
Doing ok so far today, and hope it remains that way too.

Have a great day friends!

E-Man.. :)

needtogetwell

04-04-2014, 06:42 PM

YAY!!!!! you're still in Indiana and not in the land of the munchkiins! Just don't tell me you see the wicked witch !

Glad all is well in your neck of the world!

Cheers
Pam

Enduronman

04-05-2014, 09:17 PM

Jesse...
What exactly did that letter say about my luck, unless, you follow the request in the letter?
I was being 100% serious....
Send it.
ASAP

E-Man..

Enduronman

04-07-2014, 04:14 PM

Having a spectacular day so far and hope everyone else is as well!!!

Thinking of you all!

Enduronman :)

jjh333

04-07-2014, 05:30 PM

eman! I havent been on AF in a while but I'm glad to hear everything is going as well as it could be!

AliasEQ

04-14-2014, 11:30 AM

Where are you guys? Forum is dead without ya!

needtogetwell

04-15-2014, 03:24 AM

Hey Alias,

I'm still around, like you and others getting on with life. Are you feeling better than the other day? How are your studies going? Are you almost done for the year?

Nice to see you are checking in from time to time.

Cheers
Pam

GeneAllen

04-15-2014, 02:28 PM

Everyone is still here. Did you mean E-Man? Where's the E-Man? Oh where oh where? Good to see y'all.

Peace

em1

04-17-2014, 07:32 PM

I'm still here to :)tho not been on as much,hope your all doing well :)

needtogetwell

04-18-2014, 05:49 AM

I'm still here to :)tho not been on as much,hope your all doing well :)

Good to see you Em! Did you finish the exercise program you were working at?

em1

04-18-2014, 04:33 PM

Good to see you Em! Did you finish the exercise program you were working at?

I've got one more week then that's the 60days
Done tho I will be doing it again as in not where I want to be :) how are you?

GeneAllen

04-21-2014, 06:03 AM

Great to see you Em. :D

Peace young lady

em1

04-22-2014, 05:58 AM

Hello everyone how was your easter? I've had way to much chocolate lol Oh well never mind lol
Hope everyone Is doing good,just thought I would pop in and say hi x

GeneAllen

04-24-2014, 07:27 AM

em1

04-24-2014, 07:51 AM

Chocolate is great, but I do only dark chocolate. Ascension day is always good. It was quiet on the mountain as all the folk here headed out to church and functions I suppose. My children and mom are 800 miles away and so it's a day I miss them especially more so. Dad is an acre away and he's like me in that we don't do holidays, or not very much. My wife and I did complete the rear deck handrails, and to me that is a celebration. Spending time with her is delicious. How about you? Good to see you, and hope all is well. I expect it is. :D Peace

I love all chocolate lol
Sounds like you live in a lovely open space
Every good day is a win everything that you achieve is amazing,take every good you can,I happy to say I've been having more good days than bad and I'm now completely medication free I was only on it for coming up a year,tho now I no longer fear medication and if I needed it again I would not hesitate.
Keep well :)

Enduronman

05-28-2014, 03:52 PM

Just stopped in to say hey! Hope that everyone is doing well.... :)

E-Man...

em1

05-28-2014, 04:06 PM

Hello all hope your all doing well,how's all my original chat crew? Hope your all beating anxieties backside,

Would love to hear from you all :)
I'm still doing good,yes I've had a few panic attacks but I've not let them win,it's not easy but hey who said it was going to be.

I've started my own little business that's doing good making tutus and hair accessories.

I've been off any meds for about five ish months now,not that I won't again if I need them
Anyway I hope your all
Doing good
Emma :)

GeneAllen

06-05-2014, 06:11 AM

Em,
Good to see you and the encouraging news on how life is going for you. Eman, good to see you as well.
Stay well, stay healthy.

Peace

AliasEQ

07-08-2014, 09:27 PM

Heeey Peeps!

How's everyone doing? :P Long time no C...

Hope you're all doing good :)

motherOfBees

07-09-2014, 07:58 AM

Glad and excited to hear you are doing well off meds! (Although meds are life savers too!) Would you be willing to expand on that for a newcomer to the forum please? I too are weaning down and am on vitamins, rx vitamins and supplements. Also would love to support your bow and tutu business !xo much love

KenPowell

07-22-2014, 01:36 PM

had escitalopram last time, and it's really hard to stave off of it. natural cures are good :)

Enduronman

08-22-2014, 04:34 PM

I just decided to take a pill, or 9... :)

needtogetwell

08-22-2014, 05:09 PM

OMG! Do my eyes deceive me????? Is that really E-man??????

Dahila

08-22-2014, 07:19 PM

It must be halucination , Pam, or maybe.............. :)))

Cullingford

08-22-2014, 10:30 PM

I just decided to take a pill, or 9... :)

Hey fella good to see you again.:)

Dahila

08-23-2014, 08:33 AM

I told you guys we have some kind of mass hallucination. I wish Eman would be back, it is sad without him:(

JohnC

08-23-2014, 12:04 PM

Holy shit! the man the myth the legend. Dahlia, i thought that eman was folklore. How does that mass hallucination thing work?

Enduronman

08-23-2014, 02:15 PM

Hello all! Life, ...tis but a trainwreck as it has been for the past 27 LONG months of hell, misery, suffering, soreness, pains, aches, nausea, tremors, loss of businesses, possessions, home, kids, and now living with my 76 year old alcoholic mother. Interesting..NOT! Just when you think that maaayyybbbeee things are going to get a little better, then BAM something else comes along and smacks me in the face of course but other than that, at least I'm still here. Pleasure seeing you all again! It looks as if there are many new members too. Nice to meet you.. :rolleyes:

Enduronman

Cullingford

08-23-2014, 02:32 PM

E man sorry to hear that things have been so rough for you! by the sounds of all that things can only get better. Anyhow it's still bloody good to see ya. :)

Enduronman

08-23-2014, 02:34 PM

Thank you much Cully! Great seeing you again friend. Yes, they can only get better from this point! YAY!!! :)

JohnC

08-23-2014, 05:57 PM

Sorry Eman for you situation, that's tough stuff. Dont mean to hack your thread but i read the whole thread before i became a member. Mostly because I had to find out what the sock puppet was about.

needtogetwell

08-23-2014, 06:38 PM

Oh my.... The sock puppet days!

Eman, I've missed you. Sorry things are so tough for you right now. You are one tough son of a gun, I have no doubt you will come out ok.

So good to see you pop your head in here....I miss how you always made me laugh!

Dahila

08-23-2014, 09:14 PM

I am sorry Eman life is so tough, forgive me I am so sooooo happy to see you:)

Enduronman

08-24-2014, 12:28 PM

Yes, the ole sock puppet days were hilarious!..
Yes, things just got even tougher as I received another letter of denial from the Social Security system today so,..I have another battle ahead of me. Yay.
Good to see you both though! I will try to keep a positive spirit about me and also try to continue making someone else smile or laugh too..tee hee!!!

Have a great day friends!

Enduronman.. :)

JohnC

08-24-2014, 02:08 PM

Hey eman my mom was def and gave the best years of her life working on our finest M1A1 abrams tank and when she started to go blind she could no longer work. I don't know how many times she was denied S.S. and what seemed like a 100 letters from doctors before she finally got it. they did back pay her though. I think they deny everyone in hopes that some will stop trying. Don't stop trying, seriously.

Enduronman

08-24-2014, 02:20 PM

Hey John!

I can hardly imagine how difficult that must have been for your mom as the anticipation and not knowing, waiting, wondering, is very troubling but I am glad that she finally got it. It seems that it's a system with many flaws in it as people that I know talk about how someone got it but didn't really appear disabled and then someone that was clearly disabled didn't get it. It's hard to understand especially from my perspective angle and all these doctors reports, test, drugs, mri's, xrays, etc, etc that really don't seem to mean anything to them as they state, "I can still work". Shit. I can hardly do much of anything useful anymore. Even sitting here is painful but as you've said, don't give up and that I won't friend..it's been over 2 years so what's another year I guess. Thank you much for your support bruh!

Enduronman. :)

JohnC

08-24-2014, 02:26 PM

No worries, Some people abuse it and it makes it that much harder on those who do need it. Hers was well over a year i know but not exactly sure how long. Good luck and remember that the squeaky wheel gets the grease.

needtogetwell

08-24-2014, 08:02 PM

Hey Eman-

Were almost ready for a ride in the van! We just need to find Jesse! Remember, I get shotgun, Dahila drives and you get in the back ready to pounce!!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!

Dahila

08-24-2014, 08:58 PM

Are you going to risk my driving? Eman I strongly believe in your strength, it is temporary set back. I am selfish as hell and I am happy you came back to us:)) Hopefully they get to their senses and approve of it. I wonder how the hell some wide arse sits at the desk and deny this. What the heck they know about struggling.

Enduronman

08-26-2014, 11:58 AM

The old Anxiety Hunters van days were priceless.. :)
Now, I have to have some more testing done to see what kind of damage is in my knees and ankles.
The only way to win these cases is to give them something to look at, to prove, to see that there's a problem rather than just talking about it.
At least I won't have to lay in the MRI tube to scan my legs! It's a weird feeling being clamped into a giant tube that's making all sorts of noise and banging around..
My only hope is that these scans will find something that x rays didn't see.
Have a great day friends!

Enduronman..

Dahila

08-26-2014, 09:00 PM

Keep strong my friend, everything will be ok:)

Enduronman

08-28-2014, 02:19 PM

Doing the very best that I can Dahl! Thank you for your support and encouragement too.
Back to the doctor tomorrow for some additional testing, scans, to see what is going on with my physical self.
I know that we are ALL struggling in some way but there is always hope for things to be better..
So nice to see you and some of my other friends here too.
Have a great day!

Enduronman.. :)

AliasEQ

08-28-2014, 05:02 PM

E-MAN!! Long time no C!

Keep fightin' bruh, never give up! Wish you the best! :)

Elias

Dahila

08-28-2014, 08:10 PM

Eman more people love you here than you imagine, and all of them support you , so you are not alone. Keep fighting:)

Enduronman

08-28-2014, 08:31 PM

Good to see you Elias!!
Thank you again Dahl..:)
Tomorrow is a new day!

E-Man..

jessed03

08-28-2014, 09:12 PM

Say after me.... REUNION!!!

Dahila

08-28-2014, 09:51 PM

:))......................

Enduronman

08-29-2014, 10:10 AM

The Reunion party begins!! YAY!! LOL!
Hope that everyone is having a great day.
Off to the doctor's office for the 30th time! Awesome!! :)

E-Man.

Dahila

08-29-2014, 11:48 AM

Eman I suspect ; you love your doc , are you?

Enduronman

08-29-2014, 03:57 PM

LMAO!! That's what my gf says!!
I have an excellent doctor that actually gives a shit, kind, caring, compassionate.
I now have to have a muscle biopsy, an MRI, go back to the rheumy, go back to the neuro, AND....
I have yet another new medication called oxycodone which actually works too! YAY!!!!!
I think I now may have about 16 or 17 different medications at the moment but, whatever it takes to help me to feel better...
I do love my doctor for the effort that she makes, the time that she takes, the directions that she puts me in..even though they may be painful.
I doubt that anything could be as painful as the EMG, EEG ordeal because that hurt like hell!! Never again...
Have a great weekend Dahl...and hopes for better days too.

Enduronman.. :)

Enduronman

08-29-2014, 07:39 PM

I admit it, that I am slightly Disturbed...LOL!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVCnHUDfFhw

E-Man.. :)

Enduronman

09-04-2014, 09:27 AM

still in search of something good..
I did get a new pain medication that seems to be helping so far, that may be good.
Have to also now take an aspirin daily because my hemoglobin is high..add that to the list of other meds. yay.
Must have another MRI done this Saturday, which may actually be a good thing too I guess although laying in that tube sucks ass.
I get to see a new Rheumatologist on the 12th, so that may be a good thing as well...I guess.
Not real sure about this upcoming tissue biopsy on the 11th, it sounds painful but maybe not.
Doing the best that I can I suppose, while living with an alcoholic parent. 14 shots of vodka nightly makes one do and say stupid things but I'm learning to deal with it..ignore her.
Having a place to share my thoughts is very helpful to me..thank you for listening friends!...
Trying to help someone else in need also makes me feel a bit better about my own train wreck of a life too...difficult. To say the least.
Hoping for a better future for myself and you too!
Have a great day..

Enduronman :)

JohnC

09-04-2014, 09:50 AM

Wish you all the best with that E-man sure sounds like it would suck ass. I am still trying to figure out how you swallow that partridge in a pear tree :) Peace to ya man

Enduronman

09-04-2014, 10:03 AM

Wish you all the best with that E-man sure sounds like it would suck ass. I am still trying to figure out how you swallow that partridge in a pear tree :) Peace to ya man

Thank you brother John! LMAO!!
Have a good day!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-04-2014, 11:18 AM

Eman what's up? ...................you know what i am asking

Enduronman

09-04-2014, 01:58 PM

Same ole stresses Dahl...(sigh)..grrr

E-Man. :/

Dahila

09-04-2014, 08:12 PM

Does it ever end?..............

Enduronman

09-05-2014, 01:54 PM

It doesn't seem as it ever will friend but I still have hope for a better future..one step at a time.
The best that anyone can do...
Hope you're doing well!

Enduronman :)

Dahila

09-05-2014, 07:20 PM

It will get better , I promise, it can not be bad for so long, ten months or days is the most, then the wheel of fortune turns. I think it is about the time for you Eman:)))

needtogetwell

09-05-2014, 07:34 PM

Hey Eman,

Sounds like you have lots going on! Hang in there my friend, it has to get better for you soon!

I haven't been around much lately but I'm so glad to see you when I do get a chance to check in!

Hey Dahila! My lovely friend!!! Hope you are well too. Miss you!

Cheers all
Pam

Dahila

09-05-2014, 07:39 PM

Hi Pam I was telling my hubby about you, my friend, and he says that friends through internet are not real ones. What does he know :rolleyes:
He has not idea. He forgot about my dear friends met on internet then in real life, ten years after the fact we are still friends and visit each other. I am so happy to see you.
Now our Eman needs the support :)

needtogetwell

09-05-2014, 07:45 PM

Dahila,

Are the storms all over for you yet? I was really worried about you. What you got was way worse than me, and it sounded like a freight train going through here at about 4pm then again at 7pm. I don't do really well with bad weather. Give me a snow storm any day! Lol

needtogetwell

09-05-2014, 07:48 PM

Eman-

I was wondering how things are with your girls? You haven't really mentioned them and I know you went through a rough patch with your youngest earlier this year. Hope that's going ok for you.

Enduronman

09-06-2014, 05:08 AM

Oh boy, the girls...grrrr
My youngest was arrested 4 times for drugs and is now on probation for a year.
My oldest is now pregnant again..and of course, still into drugs I believe. Living with her boyfriend in a hotel room.
My youngest now lives with my father.
They're both still kind of messed up but I have hope that someday they'll mature and figure out what they really want out of life instead of hardships.
I'm also up way to early this am as I have an MRI at 9 in a town an hour away.
Not looking forward to it, or the drive, or being up this early either..but I hope that this noisy ass million dollar machine sees something wrong with my knees!!!
They hurt all the fuggin time..non stop.
Should be an interesting day I suppose.
So much pain, suffering, hardship, but again friends all we can do is hope for better days and better health too.
It could always be worse I guess...
Have a good day my internet friends and thank you for your thoughts, caring, and compassion too.

Enduronman :)

Dahila

09-06-2014, 09:40 AM

Enduronman

09-06-2014, 12:16 PM

Yes, still the same problems with both daughters, it is stressful to say the least.
I do have some really strong pain killers now so they're helpful to me at the moment.
The MRI went well, painless, and took about an hour and a half.
Hopefully it sees something wrong!!
I had to give up the puppy. He was already 60 pounds at 6 months old and was also extremely strong too.
I gave him to a younger couple that has a fenced in yard, and they can walk too!
I will remain as strong as I can be Dahl, and try to keep a positive and hopeful attitude too.
Blessings to you!

Enduronman. :)

JohnC

09-06-2014, 01:58 PM

Dahila

09-06-2014, 04:05 PM

Yes Eman I know the puppy was not such good idea. You are in pain you have no energy to deal with temperamental and very strong puppy. Giving him to people who have energy and fenced yard, good decision. MRI so long without moving??????? I would collapse right there.
Chris you always positive and this is what i am lacking, can you give some of your optimism to poor Dahl? I would love some:)

John every child is different, maybe living in the country will somehow be beneficial for your kids. I am sure it will. Do not worry unnecessary, but be watchful;)

em1

09-06-2014, 05:17 PM

Good to see you Em! Did you finish the exercise program you were working at?

Yes I did the 60 day Challenge and I'm ready to
Start a new one on Monday running again :)

em1

09-06-2014, 05:22 PM

Hello you lovely lot :) not been on for a while
How are you all?
Who's still around as I see the forum has so
Many new people here now
Hope your all still kicking ass?
I'm off my meds,since jan now,I'm doing good,went away for a week,(going away allways kicks up my anxiety) tho I held it together and had a good time with my husband and children
I hope everyone is doing well and I just wanted to pop on and say hi to you all :) x

Dahila

09-06-2014, 07:13 PM

hi Em it is long time when I had seen you here:) congrats on successfully finishing your challenge:)
The forum changed, and I would not say that for better. :(

em1

09-07-2014, 04:44 AM

hi Em it is long time when I had seen you here:) congrats on successfully finishing your challenge:) The forum changed, and I would not say that for better. :(

Hello Dahila :) thank you,oh that's so sad,
Who's still around? Any of the old gang?

JohnC

09-07-2014, 05:37 AM

Yes, yes one of my biggest reasons why i make the 15 mile drive's to dance and baton and baseball and school plays. The kids get a little board out here but they get board in town and THEN they get into trouble. I otta know, i was no saint ( sorry to say ). I try not worry until they start to drive :)

Enduronman

09-07-2014, 06:10 AM

E-man, before i joined this forum i started reading all the different threads and when i was readying yours and you started to talk about your two daughters i literally had a panic attack. I am about your age but my two are 14 and 10. My heart goes out to ya man, it really does. Peace

Sorry about the panic John, the girls are definitely a handful and keep me on my toes! Thank you for your compassion bruh! I need all I can get...

E-Man :)

Enduronman

09-07-2014, 06:15 AM

Oh still the same problems with girls. I do not know how you deal with it. We put so much effort to raise children so much sacrifice, and we get this. Eman you keep strong. The frigging pain, one would think that pain is easily controlled in our time, but obviously it is not. MRI; when I think about it, I get pains all over my body, being claustrophobic it is awful for me.
Eman do you still have the puppy or you gave him up? He is too strong for you and it requires a lot of attention. Keep strong my friend for the sake of girls. They will come to their senses eventually. :)

Still the same issues with the girls, very troubling.
And laying around here in pain daily too adds to the misery but thank God for pain medications!
The MRI wasn't so bad yesterday as they just stuck my legs in it to see what's wrong with my knees hurting all the time, even with the world's best handful of pain killers.
The puppy is gone and I'm glad for that too, he needed a "capable" family.
I have faith and hope that the girls will straighten out someday...they're 23 and 18 now.

E-Man.

Enduronman

09-07-2014, 06:17 AM

Hello Dahila :) thank you,oh that's so sad,
Who's still around? Any of the old gang?

Good to see you Em!
I'm still here as well as a few others too..yes, lots of new people too!
Have a good day and congratulations to you in your successes.. :)

E-Man.

em1

09-07-2014, 07:23 AM

Good to see you Em! I'm still here as well as a few others too..yes, lots of new people too! Have a good day and congratulations to you in your successes.. :) E-Man.

Hey EMan how's things?
How's your dog? Massive I bet
How's the girls?
You been ok x

Enduronman

09-07-2014, 07:37 AM

em1

09-07-2014, 07:56 AM

Hey Em! I had to give the dog away to a younger and more agile family in their mid 20's. I couldn't even walk him, he was so powerful, strong, he just drug me around and caused some serious back and leg issues. He was already 60 pounds at 6 months old, but he went to a better place that can handle him. Oh boy, the girls...grrrr.... My youngest never stopped getting into trouble and was arrested 4 times for methamphetamine and is now on probation for a year. She is clean now however, so that's a good thing! My oldest had another son about a year ago and was forced by the State to give him up for adoption, because of drug use. He was born an addict, but is doing well now. I had heard that she's also pregnant again too but I haven't spoken to her about it. I believe that she is still into drugs of course. I've been playing games with the US Government and trying to get my disability payments because of the damage caused by these stupid diseases. I can hardly walk, stand, or even sit here for long without intense pains, but they say I can go get another job. It's pretty common that they ignore people that are disabled around here. I just keep having more and more testing done to produce more and more papers for them to look at and hopefully at some point, one of these reports will stick! LOL!! Still trying to remain positive while being up shit creek, without a paddle..BAAAHAHAAHA!!! YAY!!!! Wish I had something good to say, still searching for anything good friend. It's tiring! Wishing you good health! Enduronman :)

God you poor thing :(
Oh yes that would not do you any good keeping a big dog like that,ours is two today and must be about 7/8 stone and when she pulls it feels like she's going to pull your arm off lol
Lucky she's very good now

Hope your girls get it together for you m8
It's very stressful and worrying I bet

God the government can be so shit I know
My husband is self employed and he had a stroke 7 weeks ago he's only 43,he's on the mend now tho he's got a
Stick to walk with,I know how you feel trying to get help with things,blood out of a stone is more than likely thank getting any help

Onward and upward tho m8 and like you said always trying to find something good
Take care x

Dahila

09-07-2014, 08:20 AM

Yeah getting the disability is kind of tough. My man is on it, he had the crashed legs. In automobile accident but it took three years to get it. they were trying to send him to work till he got the lawyer....what a whacks they are , sitting on fat asses in office with a good pay, and stamping papers without reading "denied" I hate the bureaucracy. You have to overwhelm them with papers. Here is a bit easier, disability depends on your family doctor mainly. but of course you really need to be disabled to get it, even it is such small amount of money, ............
Eman the girls will get better:)

Enduronman

09-07-2014, 08:59 AM

We all just have to have faith and hope I guess!
Have a great day friends.. :)

E-Man.

Dahila

09-07-2014, 09:26 AM

Without hope we would not survive the world, it bothers me a lot that you have pain all over your body, all the time. I can not help it, and it made me furious. Eh Eman:(

Enduronman

09-09-2014, 06:30 AM

Yes Dahl, hope is all we really have friend.
I am HOPING that the results of my MRI come back today and show something positive too.
My new pain killers are working pretty well so far, so that's a good thing.
Just waiting for some more actual good news!
Have a good day friends... :)

E-Man.

Dahila

09-09-2014, 08:22 AM

You too Eman, I hope for some relieve for you too:)

Enduronman

09-09-2014, 08:28 AM

I searched for, and found something good finally!
The results of my MRI came back and showed cartilage damage and disease that would cause disability so now is the next step to WIN my Social Security...
YAY!!!!!
They were looking for more medical evidence to back my claims, well, now they have it!
After 25 friggin months of hell and misery...
I am actually happy today, for once in a great while..Yippee!!
It explains why I have such great difficulty walking or doing anything with my legs...LOL!!

E-Man.. :)

JohnC

09-09-2014, 08:44 AM

Yea good deal man! hope that happiness is contagious.

Enduronman

09-09-2014, 08:48 AM

Thank you John!
I've been waiting to be able to see and explain some of this constant pain for 27 months bruh!
Now, I have some real "medical evidence" to support what I've been telling them for that long too.
I will try to spread and share some of this happiness friend!!!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-09-2014, 08:52 AM

Good to hear that there is not doubts about getting the help. It is sad that eventually you end up on wheel chair, but it is life, at least one of the worry is gone. We went through it, it is awful when the people do not believe you, whey the heck they think people pretend to be sick? I can not understand it. My man had to do series of tests, appointments and finally the movie made (the cost was thousands) convince the ass******s that he is permanently damaged and never will function like everyone else, and will not be able to work. We went through hell 6 years of it. It's good now and is going to be good for you too.
No one can send you to work now.
I have friend with that disease and she learned how to live with it, so will you, you already living with it. Eman do you keep the results of MRI? yOu should ask for the copy. Records belong to them but the information, health information is yours, you have right to have every piece of paper. You should have it and keep it save:))
I am happy the long wait is ending:)

Enduronman

09-09-2014, 08:59 AM

YAY!!!
Yes, I get copies of everything and keep it all in a folder that's about 2 inches thick now.
It should give those fuggin assholes in that system something new to chew on now...
You can't do much without your legs!!
I am looking forward to some closure, FINALLY!!! and also a great big check too!
Thank you for your support Dahl...much appreciated. :)

Enduronman.

Dahila

09-09-2014, 09:15 AM

Oh yes, as soon as they see it, they will send you everything what they own you, this is the best part, you get a lot of money, and can finally do something. They always send more than you expected:)) goood goooooooooooooood

Enduronman

09-09-2014, 09:25 AM

Yes, it's about $45,000.00 right now! LMAO!!...Send it! YAY!!!

E-Man.. :)

needtogetwell

09-09-2014, 10:24 AM

Eman, such great news!!!!

Now, first thing you do is something nice for you and your girlfriend! That's a nice chunk of change, so make sure you take care of yourself before the kids come with their paws out, and they always do!!!! Lol

I'm really happy for you! What's the process now? Appeal your social security decision or do you start over fresh?

Keep up this great attitude!

Dahila

09-09-2014, 11:25 AM

Ch. you will get the money and my advice is; take care of yourself, maybe it helps you to have peace and quiet. You know what I am talking about. You need to have peace and love in your life:))) We love you of course but it is not enough:))

Enduronman

09-10-2014, 08:18 AM

Still waiting on the copies of the reports to be sent to me and also for a prescription refill to be ordered too..my doctor is a very busy lady with as many as 6000 patients.
I have to compile a bunch more test results and then file another appeal. I have until October 20th or so to get them all done and recorded.
My legs still hurt, even while taking this oxycodone stuff and now even hurt at the back of the knee too. Something new that I've not experienced.
I do need to eventually have peace in my life Dahl, its been very hectic and troubling for a very long time but I try to keep a good attitude about it most days.
Thank you all for your support friends, it really means a lot to me, more than words can express.
Hopes you all have a great day!

Enduronman :)

Dahila

09-10-2014, 09:12 AM

hopefully you will complete all of this and have some time to think what next. Living arrangement is not that great either. OH it is a b*** when hurts behind the knee....Somehow you will get through it. Start to compile the other test together,copy, copy copy into your file and file the appeal early, please. Make a list (ask how I know it) of every piece of paper you need another what you have completed. We had to do it so many times. Actually all the papers we completed, tests and excetera took space in one filling cabinet, with two huge drawers. Of course still filling it up with the last developments. You are on oxycodone , he is too, and is kind of tough to focus on it. How are you doing with that Ch? Does it makes you sleepy? I had once 1 percoset (I am not sure about spelling) and I was stoned.. But pain was gone:))
I am waiting when you get all done and will tell " Now I can start to breathe":))

Enduronman

09-10-2014, 11:26 AM

Papers papers every where!! YAY!!!
This will all work out somehow in the end, it just takes forever to get there.
The new meds do help me moreso then all the others and I have lots of pills around here for sure.
Yes, it does make me feel kind of stoned! LMAO!!..

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-10-2014, 12:57 PM

hehe I said so, well when the pain is kind of sharp and nothing helps you have no choice. I avoid taking painkillers I rather use my salves, they help, but when I get the back muscle spasm there is not choice but pain killer. I think when you have everything in order and some of financial security, the stress will loosen up, so will pain :) I know it:)
I prefer stoned over pain too;)

Enduronman

09-11-2014, 09:19 AM

Muscle tissue biopsy today, not looking forward to it.
Got the results of my knee MRI back, says that my left knee looks fine and my right knee has some damage yet both of them hurt like hell all day.
Basically, that explains nothing to me.
Hoping that the Doc will also scan my ankles too because they are sore as hell also every friggin day.
Tomorrow I go see another Rheumatologist as well as I'm sure he will think what the first one did and call it fibromyalgia even though there is redness and swelling.
Obviously having an auto immune system disease or disorders or conditions is hard to figure out. But I keep trying anyway...grrrrr
Not real super excited today but I have got to find some hope some where.
Hope you all have a good day!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-11-2014, 09:45 AM

Muscle biopsy is nothing. Think about cone biopsy they do on woman without any consideration about awful pain. They do this here this way. The worst when your own body turns against you. I have some of bad expierences with it. My f888888 allergies make me miserable whole year, when no pollen, then dust, if no dust then weather. I wonder if it gets worse, due the way we eat, or what we eat? What do u think Eman?
take a pill before biopsy:)

Enduronman

09-11-2014, 10:23 AM

I have hope that its nothing Dahl!
Sorry about your allergies friend I have them but not daily and yes they are miserable too.
Not sure if it has anything to do with what we eat or not.
I am taking pills now..LOL!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-11-2014, 11:10 AM

Hheeeeeeeee You will be ok, come back and post. I will see it at night though. Good luck my dear:)I had biopsy on my face and was not that bad, they freeze it a bit and it last a moment

Enduronman

09-11-2014, 03:39 PM

Have to go back on Oct 1st for a friggin surgery to remove a piece of my thigh muscle!
He said that they will do the IV thing, with pain killers, numb the area, and cut out a chunk of my leg for examination..yay.
I did at least get another blood test done while I was there, maybe it will find something odd...
Never ending!!!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-11-2014, 08:16 PM

oh shoot:(

Enduronman

09-12-2014, 06:33 AM

Its just another day, another doctor, and probably some more test too I'm guessing. YAY!!
Hope everyone is doing well...

E-Man. :)

Enduronman

09-13-2014, 07:20 AM

Yes, another arrogant doctor that was second guessing the suggestions of my primary doctor..
Rheumatologist think that they're something special, they may be a specialist, but not special people...
Pisses me off.
Says that I shouldn't have a muscle biopsy because I could get an infection? Because its an invasive surgery?
He was quite an idiot, and didn't make things any easier to understand or to think about....
Oh well, best maybe to find another one that isn't judgmental to my family doctor.
Although she has said that they're ALL assholes.. LOL!!

Have a great day!

E-Man :)

Dahila

09-13-2014, 07:24 AM

Oh no arrogant doctor:( I have arrogant Gp and I am going there in next week, oh jeez....so far I have a good experience with specialists. oh you so lucky to have a good GP. You need to go to different one, he no suppose to negate others doctors opinion, it is not ethical. Unfortunately it is difficult to find a good one, when you do the wait is forever.........oh health care:((

Enduronman

09-13-2014, 07:28 AM

It wasn't a pleasant visit at all.
Said that this was the first time that he has ever heard of a GP ordering a muscle biopsy...
Told me to stop taking prednisone because its dangerous and long term use could damage my internal organs...
Saying all kinds of shit directed at my doctor!!
Acted like he was some kind of God or something...
Frustrating, arrogant, judgmental...
I won't be going back to see him.
I got no real help from him, just created more doubts in the health care systems...

E-Man.

Dahila

09-13-2014, 01:59 PM

Actually he is right with prednisone, but it saved my life , years ago. I believe it is the short time medication, it damages the kidney:( I agree with prednisone. at the same time it takes care of a lot of issues. Eman he should be reported, I would not hesitate to describe the app to your GP.....
There is many as****s in health care who finished the education thanks to daddy's connection. They are dangerous, the mistakes they make eh