@Sigur..unfortunately those are some pretty solid suggestions and as you've stated difficult to say the least but you have a certain responsibilty to those you love or care about to disclose and reveal, no matter how you think or assume they're going to receive it. You'll be surprised at how relieved he is just to finally and honestly know whats going on with you when you're upset. He is your allie and also a major player in assuring your long term and overall better sense of being too. As far as meds go, they're not as "sinister" as you may think and there are some really useful medications out there for use to help us over these mountains in our lives. Just finding the right one can sometimes take abit of work in itself but also is going to proove very useful to you as well to get you on the road to recovery. The more time and effort you invest into gettin out of this crazy world of anxiety, the quicker you'll begin to live the life you so desperately seek..Just be patient, we've all been..where you are.

@Siegfried, I love the idea!! It's just a great idea all around because of etc..etc.etc. etc...and etc.. LOL!!

@Michell, Thank you very much! I'm here to help remove people from "The Anxiety Matrix" as I no longer live in that world. It is a world filled with horror and torment and quite frankly I don't like reading about those of you that are still trapped within it. I have no shortage of mental disorders and sometimes wonder if there's some beings looking over me from above and snickering in laughter because when they put me together, they really seemed to have messed alot of things up! I'm glad to offer some useful suggestions and insight to help other figure out what the heck is going on because if helps me, to help them..I know that life can seem helpless and hopeless at times, but there is a way to overcome that and create more happiness instead..we've just gotta find the way to do that together..

Have a great day all!!

Enduronman..