Hi

Well reading your post all I wanted to do is give ya a massive hug! You are not worthless, despite how you feel (im assuming the carpet thing really topped you off in terms of low self esteem etc) but really one minor incident doesn't rid you of the amazing person you probably are, your too harsh on yourself, we're all human. I could tell you some whopping stories of my anxiety past to make you feel better but now, in all honesty I laugh about them and I laugh about how bad I got (my own type of feel good therapy).

I'm so sorry your having such a struggle ATM, I hope you find some comfort in us lot who in some ways can prob relate to your feelings.

At my worst a few years back I was suicidal, agoraphobic, very depressed and didn't give a crap about myself in terms of making the effort (showering etc) but I got out of it, I pulled myself into therapy (CBT) and here I am now, mostly okay with the odd relapse. Don't ever feel like your alone, more then welcome to vent to us

Take care

Amy