Dave's Dairy

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...That part of me is oh so easy to just say fuck it, but then there is another part that wants to stick around...

Reading and absorbing today. But yeah, I think we need to stick around and hang in there. Love those pictures and I'm very happy to hear you got outside !!

LOOK & LISTEN comes to mind here

Perhaps I'll do just that now and not allow myself to fall for the stupid shit out there. I should be careful with what I read these days. Still reading your postings and as you can see by my edits hours later, I'm still processing. Takes a while from my "knee jerk" reaction to actually understanding some (most) days for me.

Tell ya what ... even though I started it Lol .. lets sort of shelf it for another time when things aren't this ape shit crazy.

I do want you to find a way to improve your health. Like, obviously we'll never meet but I do care.

PS: I was going to upload a pic of me in a pink dress but with these cankles its not a pretty sight and I'd need to make sure people have a Barf Bag near.

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I think it's time to filter out a few more that just don't get it. In no way am I stereo typing here. I am deeply sorry for those whom may take it that way. Here's to hoping it puts a smile on somebody's face. It took me a lot to convince my wife that I would not tear her zip or fray any seems. I'll make a video later in the day if I get time. I'll be busy ordering my computer parts today but should find a window in all of that. I'll ask the cleaning lady if she can do up my zip before she takes my wife out. Be back late in my day.

Forgive the image quality - it's just a small phone upload currently making its way around Facebook. Sigh ... Friends and family. At least I will know who is who by days end.

It's the closet to pink I could get on short notice:



Your friend always ~ Dave.

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Eat your heart out Sandra Bullock

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LOL - Video Coming

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As Promised

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Another day done. I finally ordered my parts ensuring each one was compatible down to the last minute detail. The culmination of a couple of months thought with nothing left to sell. I can't afford to make mistakes. Waiting for the parts to arrive is a relief. As in I am so glad all the researching is pretty much done. I am going to enjoy the rest. It can be extremely hard for me to disconnect and then reconnect where it matters. The dress routine was a welcome distraction.

Several different tracks of space music to wind down with spanning 30ish minutes:

I couldn't help it. Just had to divvy up a pictorial guide of the parts and double check with the guys on Reddit despite having already purchased everything on the list. Is good to go everything as I also have to read the manuals to each parts as they relate to eachtoher. This is first time I have done a custom water cooled loop. I don't mean to bore you guys with it. Like I said, it can take me a long time to wind down. ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Hard to imagine all that gear it dedicated to cooling my graphics card. Then I can safely venture into overclocking and have fun with that - OR - just increase the longevity of my graphics card and learn new creative skills for future builds. I now have some left over parts to begin upgrading my grandson's PC. I only hope the guys over at reddit have good news by way of confirming I have enough parts and the ones I picked will all go together. I'm pretty sure I got it right as I posted on most of them. Too bad if I did not ... I am now completely bust. That is why I spent so much time trying to get every detail right.

Sigh ... what else to do while I wait. I could try tackle a video record of staving myself. Not quite ... being sarcastic for sure. BUT - I would like to try something of a Vlog re getting serious with my health. I'll think more on that.

Again I do feel relieved that I got over this huge research hurdle.

Time to hit the sack. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz night night.

THANKS AGAIN MUM - THE EXTRA BOOST REALLY HELPED! I made it count!

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Day 1 - Reclaiming My Health.

See what happens. Time to start setting a routine more indicative of the healthier mile stones of my past. More so drawing from that which I know works for me. Holding back is not in my nature although being mindful in whatever quest, helps to navigate the pitfalls for sure. I guess to some degree it is about regaining confidence but without all the self importance humanity is excessively driven to. With my traits I do tend to dive into the extremes and fall into said traps. In that regard I may have to make a separate play list for my mystical esoteric rants that I often enjoy to do. In the mean time I'll be working on making these little health and well being Vlogs short and sweet. That said there will be quite a few check ins, just as I will also be posting more frequently in this new quest to regain my health.

Those posts will most likely be long winded as is what it takes for me to detox, unwind and set new paths. Literally this is what I will be doing to my brain. New pathways leading to more energy that will enable me to venture out a little further each day. Perhaps not in distance, but hopefully in time and outdoor exposure. This mean I need not thrust myself into public gatherings, but more pick my times with earlier mornings and perhaps a few quite evening rides. By public gatherings I mean anywhere there is more than 3 individuals and I often prefer they also be lone souls as well. In terms of society, I see no positive outcomes with marketed sea mentality. Also sold of as Unity and Oneness. I am all about separation and disconnection from that which is unhealthily. In this I am often misunderstood. When two or more a gathered it is much harder to make genuine connection - at least in terms of human society. All good - this angle whilst not inspiring for most - I find quite calming. It's going to take time to more 'effectively' articulate.

Waking up this morning to the sound of rain.

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Sips on Mint Tea knowing full well I have a lot of cravings and headaches ahead. : D

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Good to see your going to start improving your health. Yeah, could take time to detox and get rid of the bad shit Looks like you're off to a good start

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Yap yep & thanks again Sal. You have been a huge help. - I hear you pretty clear in your other thread and feel very similar about where we put our focus kind of thing.

I will try to be mindful as sometimes when I get more energy I can't help but write about challenging things. That said, I understand the importance of keeping it balanced. I'll keep my ripples in check

We don't have to be part of society in order to find peace and enjoy doing the things we love. I like to think what we have going here is proof enough of that. It would be nice to have more like minds but I am thankful for whatever connections I have. I pretend the other negative bouts/stuff that has been going on ... no longer not exists: just like Xmas and so on. Seems to working and hope it can for you as well.

Like - What day is it?

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This one will lighten up the mood Sal - Just watched it 'again.'