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Its a beautiful day in the neighborhood...
Well, I woke up. Took (20mg Ritalin XR) and also (15mg Oxycodone) and then may Dad came in here to wake me up. I was asleep in this chair. I asked him what time it was? It was 2 hours after I had got up. So, it is clearly obvious now that this (Fentanyl 50mcg) patch on my spine has caused my medication to help with ADD/Narcolepsy/Chronic Fatigue, useless, and ineffective to me now at all. I have to wait until the 11th of next month, to even correct this new and sudden issue. I have researched my other option and choice, understand what my Doc had suggested, and now will have no choice but to change something that had worked just fine for 5 1/2 years without thought, discussion, question. I have hope that the (Adderall XR) will do the trick, and actually allow me to stay awake, do something else besides sleep. It is a long time, until the 11th...(sigh)...
The compound bows and arrows that I had ordered finally arrived today, so that is a good thing. I now have something to do. And, my Dad has agreed to try it out with me to on Thanksgiving Day. I think it will be a good thing. Especially when Chloe finally gets out of jail in March. Something that we can both do, compete, practice, hobby, activity, entertainment, and cost 0 to do too. All, good.
Chloe called today and get to speak to her for awhile. She told me what she wanted for Christmas even though she won't be here. But, it isn't what I was going to get her. She is getting her own 380ACP handgun to carry, use, train with at the range with me. I have found the one I want too. Pretty nice, and I think she will love it also. This world is a crazy place and I usually carry 2, 9mm handguns but one of them is going in for repairs. I could not get it sighted in and I could make no more adjustments either. The other, tight, and where I aim, is what it hits. Spot on target, and is going to leave a mark should anyone receive that mark too. LOL!!
Hmm..Sent my X a text that I had unblocked her on Facebook and she could look at all my friends, all she wants too, because I do not care. That, was a good thing too. Chatted with a couple of friends on there today, they are doing well. Didn't hear one word back from my other parent, regarding my demands, and also how I felt about where she is choosing to spend the holiday, with my Fathers, family. That destroyed his holiday, his 1 day a year he looked forward too, and it has me pretty upset to think about that too. He is the kindest, most caring and thoughtful man, but, his family did what they did. He will never have that 1 day back, again.
Anyway, hope everyone is doing great!
E-Man
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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Amazing sometimes that people can be so insensitive to one another. Even worse when your own family does it to each other
"Y'all didn't have to shoot me" ~ Harambe
Took bags full of stuff my Dad got from the gas station so that I could actually stay awake. Its working, I am awake. Just wrote my Doctor a letter, and my daughter in jail a letter too. Told her that we miss her, and also told her exactly why we don't go to my Dad's giant Thanksgiving Day get togethers anymore. Because, they chose to be selfish, lie, cheat, steal, betray, your Gramps and my Dad. So, he said that he does not trust any of them anymore, and he will never return either. They stole his car. They stole, the car that his only sister said who she wanted it to be given too if she has to go into a nursing home or she passes away. Told him, it was beyond repair. Then, photos of her driving it to Florida less then 2 weeks later. Olds, less then 30,000 miles, there wasn't anything major wrong with that car as they said..worth about $7,000... Stole that, stole his one day to spend with all of them too. Thieves. Pathetic people...They will get theirs in the end....
Wrote a letter to my Doc because without her help, and real caring, I do not know how or where I would be now. Essentially, there are 3 people in my life right now that I know cares. Dad, Doc, Daughter. That's it. No one else. I am going to give thanks, for what, and who I have that cares about me. Everyone else, made their own decisions. They have been forgotten. Oh, and giving thanks to be out of that relationship where I was accused, blamed, yelled at, doubted, not trusted, and I was involved in the fictional stories that she would make up in her own mind too. I was a character, an actor, and I was there, and I did it too. What a sick, mentally disturbed, woman she was. So, so blessed that I am no longer having to listen to that shit all the time. Or, the same sentence repeated (29) times in a row too. "I know that you chat with, text, and **** other women"...When, in all reality, I was doing none of that. And, I never did **** any other woman in the whole 10 Nightmare either...that is what I am thankful for, not being there now. HOORAY!!! HHAAHA!!!
So, yes. A good day. Quiet. Got some letters written. Got my toys to go shoot. Got to talk to my daughter...all is well.
E-Man
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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dont forget that your extended family here at AF cares about you, and elsewhere too. Caring is not exclusive to 'family', and more often than not, you find those that care for you the most were just a short time ago, 'strangers'.
lots and lots of soul mates on this planet. and as you can see the friends who care utterly outweigh the few who should, but dont. maybe 50 to 1. Those are pretty damn good odds in your favor.
In all our favors.
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I love you girl, always will.Originally Posted by Dahila
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"Each person alive helps paint the living picture of civilization as it exists at any given time. Be your own best artist. Your thoughts, feelings, and expectations are like the living brush strokes with which you paint your corner of lifes landscape. If you do your best in your own life, then you are helping to improve the quality of all life. Your thoughts mix and merge with others, to form man's living-scape, providing the vast mental elements from which physical events will be formed"
It is a real blessing to know, and to have people that I do know, really cares about me. Even if, I never see or visit you. People, it seems, don't always think the potential damage that will be done to others, before they allow greed and selfishness to take over and cause serious harm to others. Well, I spoke to my Dad about it last night and he said that it doesn't bother him in the slightest. He said its like I just flipped a switch, and the pain stopped. They were no longer impacting, affecting, influencing, him. It was really cool, great, and wonderful to hear that because I can do that too. I thought that I was the only one that could, until last night. He, passed it on, to me. It, is such a valuable gift and blessing to have. A real, useful, tool and versatile ability to have. I used it, on October 25th with someone else, in my life, and that person no longer mattered in the slightest. Why? Because that person saw no value, significance, or importance, in what I was offering them and told me that this person didn't want it so just get rid of it, or keep it...at that very moment, switch flipped, game over. I no longer cared at all, because they didn't care about me.
So, I woke up this morning and took (20mg Ritalin) and (15mg of Oxycodone) and apparently went right back to sleep in the chair again and my Dad woke me up 2 hours later. I took another (20mg Ritalin), and I guess I did the same thing again. He came in here and woke me up an hour later in the same chair...(I sent my MD/PCP a message and explained all this, that it hasn't worked since I got it on the 17th, that he keeps waking me 1 or 2 hours after I take it, and that I can't wait to actually correct this issue on the 11th too. With the (Adderall) stuff, and God I hope it really works too.) I had my Dad get some (Ginseng) to see if that would do something for me, and after 6 capsules it does a little and allows me to keep me eyes open for an hour then take 6 more. It is going to have to be, that way, until after the 11th because not being able to stay awake is frustrating as hell. *sigh*
Went outside, sat on a stool, and tired out the new compound bow and arrow idea, to just give me something to do that won't cause me more severe intense pain, or a disease flare up either. I did it, it is fun, and I got pretty good in just 25 tries. I think that having it, something to do out back that cost $0 for entertainment, is not hard on me, is an activity, maybe a hobby, is going to work out just fine. I just wish that my daughter wasn't in jail and could enjoy trying it with me.
I am going to make the best of Thanksgiving tomorrow, and celebrate that day with my Dad. The (1) person that I know cares, is honest, helpful, loving, and I am proud to be with him and also like him as well. That, is what I plan to give thanks for.
Hope your Thanksgiving Day celebrations are as wonderful as they can be too!!! Happy Thanksgiving friends!
E-Man
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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Hope you had a kick ass Thanksgiving
Did you get a Bambi with that compound bow?
"Y'all didn't have to shoot me" ~ Harambe
Hey Eman, glad your still fighting the good fight. i haven't been on much myself and i don't do the FB thing anymore but when you said you were getting a cross bow i just thought i would tell you i have been a bow hunter for 30 years. Two deer this year but coyotes got to one before i did ( they ate a lot of it ) so i will try Monday to put another in freezer. Ohio gun season starts Monday. Peace to you my friend.
Hi Dahlia, Nixon, and IMS
" it is better to keep ones mouth shut and be thought a fool than to open it and remove all doubt ", Mark Twain.
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