Searching for anything good...(sigh)

[Im-Suffering]

You, Mr. I'm Suffering are f**kin brilliant! I use the F bomb there loosely to excitedly validate a very descriptive purpose, sense, or feeling.
I am going to see her construction, as something that it (she) is not and projectively impose, transpose an (my own) image upon her whether she likes it or not.
No more allowing the Energy Vampire to drain me of my available positive energy, positive outlook, positive light, that which I choose to have, keep, and hold. (Even in a World of Shit). LOL!
"I will see the best in this person, as whole, complete, capable entity, (even if my eyes disagree) for my eyes are part of this illusion" PERIOD....
This will be tough to "see her in a different light" but today, I will try...
I might even really just throw her whole day off by saying "good morning Mom!"..hit her when she least expects it.
She isn't going to be allowed to control MY moods anymore with her negative, selfish, pessimism and generally shitty outlook on "life".
A new perspective and image is now in the works! YAY!!
Thank you for all of your help, I do fully comprehend and understand it.
Today will be a good day!
Wishing you all the best friend.

Mr. Enduring Man.

You're welcome. Catcha later.

[happylife]

I am so happy for you and to see such positivity here!!!

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[Dahila]

Eman whenever you are in presence of energy vampire cover yourself in the light bubble , it stops the stream Do u understand ?

[Enduronman]

Eman whenever you are in presence of energy vampire cover yourself in the light bubble , it stops the stream Do u understand ?

I understand fully Dahl!
I am working on that today. It seems to be going ok so far.
I do however, still have an issue that I can't figure out although I'm laughin as I type this now.
My parent watches television programs in the morning, that make me want to grab both of my 9mm handguns, and blow the tv screen out..emptying both clips of course.
They are People's Court and Paternity Court programs. The people talking sound like complete idiots. And, it gives me terrible anxiety listening to the shows. I do go and hide in another room, or in the garage, for the hour. LMAO!!
What I can't figure out is why these stupid programs upset me so much, when my girlfriend is a Judge and listens to that garbage every day for her job!!!....She doesn't talk a lot about it, but when she does I try to block it out..
It causes me anxiety to hear stupid stories, about the cases that she sometimes hears...I usually just ask her kindly to stop and she does. Yet, she ALWAYS says that "these are not your problems so why does it affect you?"
I literally don't know the answer to that question! I don't know why it bothers me..I just don't want to hear it. I think I "internalize" everyone else's problems because of this empathy issue that haunts me?
That's the only thing that I can come up with...it somehow impacts my mood. Just like those idiotic programs.
I am hiding in another room now. YAY!!
Trying to remain positive! But also trying to figure this issue out too....hmmm...:/

E-Man

[Dahila]

Put your headphones on, In my situation I take my hearing aids on and I am happy. No hearing no bother. I do not watch tv and for sure not the reality tv, people lost my respect, I think 99 % of them are simply dummies

[needtogetwell]

Hey Eman!

Wow, both our lives are s#*t piles! You have so much going on.

It's not often I agree with I'm-suffering but this time I think he might be on to something.

The value and power of being positive is really easily forgotten when the doo doo piles up. And man am I in a pile right now.

So going to do what I can to put a smile on my face and believe that everything will turn out ok.

I haven't been around much lately, not in a great frame of mind to help anyone else out, but you my friend are special, along with Dahila.

I want nothing but the best for you!
Cheers my friend.
Pam

[Enduronman]

Hey Dahl and Pam!

Yes, people that are in those reality tv shows are generally complete idiots! I wish I had some head phones! For now, I'll just hide in another room where the tv is louder or in the garage..LOL!
Good to see you Pam. Sorry about life in The Pile of Shit! I know the feeling all to well...
I did try some of Mr. Suffering's suggestions yesterday and it was actually a good day with minimal stomach distress, minimal anxiety, and I actually spoke to my Mom too..
She acted somewhat "civilized" which isn't generally normal or common but it was because I acted "civilized" first, an act, pretending, an illusion of sort.
Believe that everything will turn out OK, convince yourself of that, practice that, and the days will get easier to deal with.
If you're not in the greatest frame of mind, then come around more often as we can work together to help smooth things over a bit.
Wishing you the best as well friend!

E-Man

[happylife]

Yes, it is really bad when "The Pile" piles up but every day is a new day for new beginnings. Just hold onto until tomorrow, as the positive note goes....

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[Enduronman]

"The Pile"

Yes, a big pile of shit, figuratively speaking!
Hopefully today is a better day as there were MANY additional stressors and issues that arose yesterday.
Causing heightened anxiety in me of course.
Things don't always go as planned and if something could go wrong, it pretty much did.
My Dad always reminds me that it could always be worse. I can appreciate that statement. It makes me feel better about my situations.
Although my legs are f**kin killing me daily, they could always be gone instead. At least I still have legs.
I did finally get some more custom pain cream for the back of my neck so that's helpful too. Not so painful as it was.
And it was 125.00 cheaper then the other place I was getting it too. That's a good thing!
My daughter actually did something that she said she would do too, (which is rare) and got her therapist to lower her hourly rate from 110.00 to 20.00 per week. Another good thing!
She is also moving back in with my Dad today too, I didn't figure the other place would last all that long anyway. She'll be safer there. Free from Judgment. A good thing!
I think that this day will be a good day. I will actually have the house to myself. Free to rest and relax in peace and quiet...I LOVE peace and quiet.
Hopes that everyone has a great day!
Trying to remain positive!

E-Man

[Enduronman]

Oh no, the first sore throat of the year. Winter is approaching. I think I'll just take a pill.
My Saturday was actually quite nice. Quiet. Got to lay on the couch all day and watch football, a funny Will Ferrell movie, and also some Sponge Bob too. (Mother was gone all day!) YAY!
I also didn't receive any text, calls, or emails from anyone either. Usually do, and usually something stressful. That was nice too. (rare) YAY!
I went to bed at 930 also, early for me but I forgot that I only sleep about 7 hours so I'm up at 5am of course. Way to early for this shit, but I feel ok so far and this is my "stress free" time too.
I am usually suggesting to others here, to open up and tell your family how you feel about things. Well, I did, and told my Mom that her words cause me heightened anxiety.
Especially when she starts talking about someone else and their problems, issues, troubles. She likes to talk about others, because she really has no problems to speak of. It worked. YAY!
I think today is going to be a great day. May even go visit my Dad, daughter, and change the oil in my piece O shit car too. May has well take advantage of this 80 degree weather.
The leaves are already starting to fall though, bushes turning colors, but I like fall anyway. Bring on the cooler weather, and the Holidays, and candy too. LOL! YAY!
I won't have to search far for anything good as good things are happening around here now. Well that's odd, but I'll take it. I've been patient...
Another doctors visit coming up, and also a tissue biopsy as well. I hope they find something new. I'm ready for it. Maybe that will be the end of healthcare things for awhile. YAY!
Hopes that everyone has a good day today and finds something good to focus on...
It will get better!

E-Man