We are all here for you, in sure shortly you will have alot of people here telling you the same thing. Honey, you can't avoid doctors forever.. I did this for years because I had a phobia of needles.. Now I'm fine at the doctors and give blood without even blinking because I forced myself.. As you grow older you see the bigger picture. Sometimes you need to bite the bullet.. For yourself! You do need help babe, not many of us can do this on our own and it only consumes us.. Some people can't even leave their house because of anxiety.. You don't want to end up like that.. You are young and have the world at your feet.. There is no limit for what you can achieve.. I havnt suffered with anxiety my whole life.. I only became a sufferer recently.. So I know what it feels like to be 'normal' and it is crippling.. I used to be independent, and now I'm not.. I have to build myself back.. Piece my piece.. Don't let yourself break like I did.. You can do this! Doctors don't want anything but to help you.. Truth be told I'm 99.9% SURE you won't have cancer.. If anything it's just normal body growing.. Hormone changes and you becoming a beautiful young lady.. Try not to fret dear. And for the love of god DON'T GOOGLE!! That literally makes everything 10x worse.. My advice, head to the doctor, with your mum.. Have support with you.. It WILL be ok, your a strong girl..