Over the last year or so I've come to realize that on various levels I hate everyone I'm surrounded by. Let me explain why.
It is very difficult for me to gather the energy to continue moving forward in life, so it becomes a desperate search for a reason to put any effort into living rather than just sitting there. It doesn't help that everyone in my life continue to enforce these negative beliefs about life and generally making me feel bad. They are the types of people that when someone talks about their problems, instead of trying to be sympathetic they say things like "I have it worse!" They are more concerned with what is happening to themselves and pretend to have an interest in the lives of other people.
Over genuine misunderstandings they get angry at me, and they make me hate myself even more than I already do. I feel useless around them and it makes me think there isn't a point in even socializing anymore.
All I ever do is ruin every conversation I'm a part of. I almost expect people to start yelling or criticizing me at some point in our conversations.
It's always like this, especially since I've met very few people that act differently (and even then I can barely interact with them.) I've tried to keep all of my emotions inside since I have no one to talk to (aside from my therapist, but that isn't enough) and I only feel worse.
I thought that you can confide in close friends and family, but I don't feel like that at all. I know that they will judge me and what I say, so I avoid saying anything at all. I usually don't talk and wait until they move on so I can just be alone. I don't like being alone, but it feels a lot better than being around them.

What am I doing wrong? Why does it feel like everyone hates me? Why is it only me that can't socialize normally? Is there even a point to socializing?