I am out of here!! YAY!!!...
A new journey begins...
E-Man
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I am out of here!! YAY!!!...
A new journey begins...
E-Man
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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No.Originally Posted by Enduronman
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She asked me where I was going? I told her to my Dad's, thanks for asking, and have a nice day! She just walked away...GOOD!!!.
E-Man
'Its time for a change mom, and soon I will be buying a home with my gf anyway, I just feel in the short term its best for a change. I miss dad anyhow, so it'll be nice to catch up. I know your independent, but I'll always be here for you no matter where I am. Just call me and I'll be here. I'll visit soon, and call. I love you mom.'
Giving love is not dependent on if you receive. In that context its easier to thread the eye of a needle than enter the kingdom of heaven. Where heaven is love, compassion, empathy, and the eye of the needle the Trojan horse that appears to be the antithesis on the surface.
I am chipping away at you- the rough edges, you understand.
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I said, "I'm sorry that things didn't work out for me here and I didn't mean to stress you out. It wasn't my intentions. I will be back to get these other computers at another time, my car is too full. Just let me know when a good time for that is. Be well, LOVE YOU and take care of yourself. See you again soon Mom."
Her reply, 'Just let me know how you are occasionally. I know how much pain your are in and that affects your attitude and that makes it hard on me by the way that YOU treat ME. I have only meant well. Take care of yourself. Plus, you'll be better off not having to listen to a Mother bitching at you all the time anyway. Love you son."
I woke up this morning, and my legs don't hurt. This is the first time, in 28 months, that they haven't been the first pains to arrive instantly. I am presently waiting on them. My back doesn't hurt yet either. I feel good, am having some coffee, and enjoying some time here with you. I don't know, but I feel different suddenly. I will be meeting a new Psych in my new area soon, transferring my prescriptions, getting a change of address, going to look for a new TV for my room, and also getting some paints to freshen up my gf's present home too. It's on the market and the first 2 reports were that it needed freshening up. That's what I did for 30 years prior to all this mess anyway. I don't know if I can do it, but I'm going to try anyway. Being on my feet and legs for a short time has always been a problem. We will see what happens. How long I can hold up. I don't know about being on my knees though, until I try later this afternoon. Should be interesting to say the least. I may not be able to get back up.
I left on good terms, feel good about that. I do love my Mother, just not the person that she was and became just by having me around laying on the couch. I wish her the best and hope that she doesn't stumble while drunk and break something else. She will be happier, with me gone. Just her, her vodka, and her dog. Probably what's best.
I was welcomed into my new home last night, new room, new bed, desk, chair, love seat, shelves, a closet, a giant blanket chest, 2 windows. It is nice, the atmosphere there is different. Relaxing, calm, peaceful. My daughter is there too. She is so excited! She is actually happy, cheerful, smiling. Something that she hasn't felt since she was forced out of my Mom's house in August. My other daughter is also very happy and excited too. She is just up the street from me now. In fact, she's coming over today to do some needed computer work online to get some insurance for her and the baby that she's now carrying.
The beginning of a new journey as my Father said last night while he gave me a hug and said I love you son.
All in all, this should be, a great thing for everyone involved. We will see.
Wishing you the very best friend! Enjoy this day....
Enduronman is enduring yet another trial...
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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Now indeed I smiled. Because we both know a secret don't we. Shhh...everything is gonna be OK.
Love you my brother.
Eman, dear keep that feeling you have today , with you. Remember it. In the moment you need it, you have it , just closing the eye and recall the feeling. I am happy you feel so good,
''“If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars.”
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― Rabindranath Tagore
Doing great so far and wishing you all the very best! YAY!!
E-Man.
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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Well then..
By all intensive purposes, this place is fucking awesome.
We all were actually in the same room yesterday, myself, my Dad, and both daughters too.
There were no words of Judgment, criticism, negativity, pessimism, or discussions about money, who has it, or what should be done with it.
And, I got a new computer and a pistol from my oldest daughter as payment for living with me rent free for 3 months too.
My daughters were both happy to be here, happy to be with me again, and were in good spirits as well.
It's also hot as hell in here, when it was cold as hell at my Mother's house and I had to wear a winter hat, I'm sitting here with no shirt on now. Dad is always cold.
He told me that he will do all laundry on Saturdays, and I showed him my clothes basket and where it was. Fine with me!...LOL!!!!
On another note, my gf has her home on the market for sale. She's had 2 showings already and also 2 bad reports to go along with that. Those reports both include a dingy looking kitchen and bathroom area. Needing paint, floors, cabinets repainted, trim repainted. She was getting hopeless. Wondering if it was all worth it. Since I have left you know where, my legs move although they still bother me but just a little bit. My meds are now working, almost overnight. I am dizzy as hell, wobbly, but, I "feel" capable and able of doing certain things and one of those things is painting some interior rooms. Putting down some new floors. So, we made a trip to Lowes last night to get things together to make things happen at her home, today! My youngest daughter is going to help me too. I have many projects and tasks for her to do. She is and always was a hard worker as I had her help me on roofing projects before all this shit happened to me. She told me to wake her up early so we can go get things done. We'll see as to whether she actually gets up or not. It is 630 in the morning! BAAHAHA!!! Plus, if it gets to hard on me physically, then I can lay down and rest for a little while on the couch or in the chair with no repercussions from it. Should be an interesting day and week to say the least. I haven't actually worked since May 3rd of 2013.
Essentially, I've got everything that I need here. Including this bad ass desk that my computer is on complete with my own lamp too. Just need some cushions for this hard ass chair! Plenty of storage, an actual couch with foot stool, my stereo system fits, and I slept like a baby on my new bed although it was only for 6 hours then I was up and ready to go. The coffee here sucks, so I will be getting an actual coffee pot today too. Instant coffee is nasty! We're getting cable installed on Thursday so that I can at least watch some football games in here. Dad hates football. My daughter also brought me a pumpkin scented candle for my room too, very nice.
WOW! What a big difference in the world around me almost instantly. Glad that my doctor ordered me to get the fuck out of my Mom's house too. Because, I did it, the following day. I have instantly surrounded myself with positive, rational, realistic, people and I am feeling the effects of that very quickly too. My health has improved greatly, quickly, immediately. It makes me feel good. Also, bought my oldest daughter some groceries yesterday too, that made me feel good to be helpful considering that she has no money and no food. Not really a big deal, just something that made me feel good to be helpful. Maybe today, she'll do what I have asked her to do and apply for insurance and food stamps too. We'll see.
Getting ready to get this little girl up now. She isn't going to like me, but I don't give a shit, we've got things to do and as quickly as possible too. Must make my gf's house sell! ASAP!! That will give us $25,000 to play with in choosing another home, and may make things even that much more easier and better for everyone involved.
So far, all is going very very well. Finally!!! YAY!!! It's about time. And no more doctors visits until the 3rd. YEAH!!!
Wishing you all the very best today!
Thinking of you friends.
Mr. Enduronman
I made a sock puppet,..and liked it. SO THEN I JUST TOOK A PILL.
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Intents and purposes. It's pronounced intents and purposes, not intensive purposes. Da fuq is with you Americans!! It's like when you all say you could care less. Well if you could care less it means you care already. It's couldn't care less, and for all intents and purposes. Fuck James. You've just made me so mad you've ruined my day.
Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling more optimistic about things. It's amazing how people can adjust.
I had to go have more blood work done yesterday. Nurse kept missing the vein. Wtf? Reminded me I have mad respect for you having gone through all the treatments you have done.
Take it easy bro!
I quite like 'by all intensive purposes' - I'm going to try and use it at some point today.
Excellent Chris!!
Jesse, 2 jabs and that's it. Then they must get another nurse or the Doc to take over. No fishing in your arm, and should be no pain. They are aware of the 2 jab rule, but....well..
Edit: 2 jab rule is USA. Not sure elsewhere.
Also request a butterfly needle, (children's) and a good threat always helps " listen one drop of pain, and your going through the wall over there". I found that most effective.
Look, for all intensive purposes, I could care less.
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