Searching for anything good...(sigh)

[Enduronman]

Im having a tougher day than i expected...
im having this urge to damage something...
i did try to turn it into a positive thing and organize some of the things in this house..mainly papers everywhere.
i cant type very well...
i tried to sew a button on a coat thinking that would be relaxing, i was wrong..i wanted to stick the needle in my eye.
i couldnt get the thread through the hole with reading glasses and a magnifying glass...
im haviong muscle spasms from the damage in my spine..its affecting my legs and arms and fingers today..
i cant get my pain relief patch because the insurance company wants me to take narcotic pills fisrt that are generic...and dont cost 300 a month..
they just told me this today, 8 days later, after dealing with this fuckin back pain for 14 months....i want to strangle them, or someonwe there.
im also having some cerebral palsy like moments too,,with my hands and arms..i go to a neuro tomorrow.
this pup is chewing my things up na d keeps taking my slippers somewhere else...
im look ing for something good!!!.....shit!!!!


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[stp4779]

E-Man, I have something good for you... it may not be much, but it counts!

It's... a compliment.

You are by far the most optimistic person I have ever met – either in real life or behind the computer. And you've definitely dealt with more sh*t than most people. How you stay so positive I'll never know! But know this: tomorrow is a new day, another chance to make your day great. And hopefully tomorrow, the pain will subside a little

[Enduronman]

YAY!!! I think I'm now out of that odd psychological hell that is either ataxia or seizures....
AND,,, THANK YOU for such a kind compliment STP!! It means alot to see that...YAY!!
I had to call my Dad to help get me to relax my mind and distract me from the weird sensations...yes, I get weird feeling sometimes too that twist me up physically!
It looks like cerebral palsy or MS..I can't really control anything that's happening as my world looks entirely foreign in nature..even though its my house and stuff...
Yes,..tomorrow I have to go have an EMG of the legs..try to avoid this if at allll possible because they are the most painful friggin tests I've ever had thus far...
They stick needle probes into your muscles, with wires attached and then the dude shocks you with them!!! I guess they're seeing something, I'm feeling!!!..WTF!!!

As you said friend from PA,..gotta stay optimistic no matter what life throws at us....even if we look like we are literally "retarded" for an hour or so and don't know why!!

AND..thank YOU Frankie!!!....I think tomorrow will be better, but painful for abit. I'll live to play another day!

whoot whoot!!!

Enduronman...still enduring-on....LOL!!!

[spartymum]

Good luck on your test tomorrow ) from Michigan !

[Enduronman]

Thank you very much SpartyMum!!!....I can hardly wait!! It's creepy as hell and a very weird test to have done...I'd rather lay in an MRI tube for 3 hours...

E_Man...

[ab123]

It took me a good month the figure out what your name stands for. You know, you are a huge support system for so many people, it was nice of you to share what is going on with you so we can help support you, there is nothing like having things mentally and physically going on at the same time, Its enough to want to jump off a cliff sometimes. But here we are righting!! Good luck! You will get through this, and as we know that you know. Once they find the cause they will find the right med to make you feel better. Keep enduring on!

[ab123]

Ss mommy, I know why it causes anxiety for you. And me as well. With the svt. Which we are constantly afraid of happening. The urge to use the bathroom is so strong and overcoming because we just used all of our resources to cater to out fast heart rate, and usually after we use the restroom... comes the tired awful feeling and anxiety. At least for me anyways. Hey girl you are still working!!!! That's more than I can say although I start next week

[ab123]

I Can't even reply to the right thread, someone should ground me from my phone

[stp4779]

Haha ab! I read that last post of yours and thought, wow lots of talk of urination tonight!

[ab123]

Right!! I was meaning to reply to her post also, and apparently I wasn't paying attention.