I Have No Idea What I'm Doing!!

[gypsylee]

*sigh* I'm so scattered I closed the tab without saving it. It's around 30C at 11:30pm with the air-conditioning on. Tourists have been playing loud music and talking all day. People are driving cars and riding motorbikes along the freeway at high speed so it feels like I'm in some Mad Max film. My head hurts. I'm wired/anxious and don't want to lie down and try to sleep though. Music.. Thank God for music.


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“Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.” –Samuel Beckett

Everything changes. Nothing stays the same. Feel the rawness of that fact, the bleeding-meat quality of it. It’s tragically delicious. It’s enchantingly heartbreaking. There’s an awful dread that comes with knowing that we are a fallible, prone-to-mistakes, and imperfectly mortal animal; but there is also a kind of terrible beauty to it, without which we wouldn’t have such concepts as meaning, beauty, and love. The idea that we can learn from our mistakes; that we can transform pain into knowledge, anger into courage, and hunger into love, is a profoundly ecstatic self-overcoming that has the potential to launch us into levels of evolution that we cannot currently fathom.

The cognitive guillotine (McGee’s Guillotine) is a chopping block of self-overcoming. It’s a constant shedding of the superfluous, a consistent “beheading” of the outdated and parochial thinking that has crippled our species into devolution. It’s a spiritual letting, an ontological bloodletting, and an existential letting go. It’s a sacred pruning toward numinous flourishing. So that which comes to us as root can go on as stalk, and that which comes to us as stalk can go on as a flowering, a Fibonacci sequencing of human evolution in the throes of the “journey being the thing;” which soars through the magnanimous glory of falling and getting back up again, of breaking apart and coming back together, of failing and failing better, of living and living better, and striving for that almighty beacon of hope: PHI, the eternal Tao, Infinity, and the unattainable beauty of enlightenment.

Image: Occum's Razor by Scott Schwab

[gypsylee]

The page numbering in this sub-forum makes no sense.

Aaaaand I just wrote a few paragraphs, left the room for five minutes and it’s gone. I was deciding on some music. Well it’s definitely Die Antwoord because now I am pissed off. Beware, it’s offensive. Rat Trap 666 because I feel like a goddamn rat in a cage. Jesus.

And none of the videos play properly. Does anything in this shithole world actually work as it should anymore??

I don’t know.. Garbage.

https://youtu.be/r4RPKqo18J4

[Dahila]

are you on the phone Gypsy? On computer it is kind of easy fix , on phone not so much

[gypsylee]

are you on the phone Gypsy? On computer it is kind of easy fix , on phone not so much

I was on iPad, so yeah phone. Never mind.. It was just me venting while in a rage :rolleyes:

My biggest issue is noise. There are times during the day when the freeway has trucks coming off it and they’re changing down gears, so it’s really loud and horrible. On top of that one of the neighbours is doing some renovation or something, using power tools. Then he plays loud music and talks loudly outside. Tourists renting houses as well, who play music and talk til all hours (often drunk). I have to resort to earplugs, which helps but it’s not nice in your own home. My irritability goes through the roof and I just want to scream “shut up!!”

Anyway I have to get to the supermarket. Being Xmas Eve it’s my only chance it won’t be packed (it’s 7:30am). I’m excited about Xmas being over soon hahaha. Talk to you soon :)

[Dahila]

I was on iPad, so yeah phone. Never mind.. It was just me venting while in a rage :rolleyes:

My biggest issue is noise. There are times during the day when the freeway has trucks coming off it and they’re changing down gears, so it’s really loud and horrible. On top of that one of the neighbours is doing some renovation or something, using power tools. Then he plays loud music and talks loudly outside. Tourists renting houses as well, who play music and talk til all hours (often drunk). I have to resort to earplugs, which helps but it’s not nice in your own home. My irritability goes through the roof and I just want to scream “shut up!!”

Anyway I have to get to the supermarket. Being Xmas Eve it’s my only chance it won’t be packed (it’s 7:30am). I’m excited about Xmas being over soon hahaha. Talk to you soon :)

I am with you on that, I do not like any holidays at all, shopping when is so many people in store is a torture for me. I had seen some noise cancelling headphones maybe it would be answer for you. My grandchild sleeps in my house with ear plugs. They go camping all the time and learned if they want to get any sleep earplugs are the answer.
Anyway rant as much as you heart desire Gypsy :)

[gypsylee]

I am with you on that, I do not like any holidays at all, shopping when is so many people in store is a torture for me. I had seen some noise cancelling headphones maybe it would be answer for you. My grandchild sleeps in my house with ear plugs. They go camping all the time and learned if they want to get any sleep earplugs are the answer.
Anyway rant as much as you heart desire Gypsy :)

I did it but by 9am it was chaos, as in hard to actually *leave* the carpark.

Some idiot is now hammering. He was talking before and he has the most annoying voice I’ve ever heard I think. It’s really monotone and loud. LOL. I sound like the biggest whinger but people don’t understand my sensitivity to noise. Autistic people go crazy if it’s too noisy. I’m not autistic but I’ve read PTSD increases it as well and I’m sure I have a bit of that. It’s also just the fact people are so thoughtless. If I ever make loud noises I’m so conscious of how it might affect other people but so many people just don’t care.

I’m going to mum’s tonight, which is really quiet. Only problem is it has mum in it hahaha!

[Dahila]

yes I do understand, noises like hammering are awful. I had lived 12 years in subsidized housing and I can relate, Whole night and day there were such activity, drug dealers , crazy people , drunk people, break in in every unit except mine, but I had a dog everyone was scared off her. She was like me antisocial. So you had not done the shopping?

[gypsylee]

I’m glad Xmas is almost over. I’m so drained by it though and I didn’t even really do anything. It’s just the usual struggle with that on top. I don’t need it and I think a lot of other people are the same but they go through the motions. I’ve refused to go through the motions generally, for a few years now. It can’t be avoided though. I came to mum’s because it’s quiet. Well there were people yelling and screaming at some party, then at about 1am someone was talking right outside my window. My anxiety was really high and I was up most of the night. I slept for a long time though, which is great because I’ve been waking up after about 1.5 hours for *months* now. I’m still very weary though. I need quiet, solitude and darkness to recharge and it’s so hard to get atm. I need creativity and inspiration, and that’s like getting blood out of a stone in this culture. It’s just survival for most people, most of the time. I can’t possibly live how I’d like to under these conditions. I try hard to be grateful for what I’ve got but it’s human nature to want more (and I don’t mean more money).

As I was driving to mum’s I saw an echidna crossing the road. I stopped and just watched it. My friend in London had to google echidnas because he didn’t know what they were! We do have strange animals. But things like that are highlights of my day. Not going to shopping malls full of people in some kind of mass hysteria.. That sucks the life right out of me.

[Dahila]

wow cute animal, I also had to search for it, just not on google. looks like hedgehog a bit, I would do like you stop and watch. I love watching animals and birds. Yeah I still have to go to my daughter house at 6 pm and it scares beejesus of me , I hate this social occasions. First of all I am hearing aids user and when few people start to talk at the same time (eveytimes it happens) I am lost and can not follow any conversation so I am sitting there like idiot.My daughter whispering something to me, and I do not react of course cause her boyfriend is speaking loudly. So my girl ask me like I am demented already; Mom did you put your hearing aids in. Nothing pisses me on as much as her question. Why it is difficult to understand that hearing aids do not work like natural hearing. This is why i avoid any social situation. As you expect I feel so anxious I can not eat anything. My blood pressure goes up of course, I can not have regular food so they spend fucken time to explain to me that there are good carbs and bad carbs. I try to tell them that there is not such thing; carbs are carbs does not matter where they come from. Eh keep you fingers crossed that I do survive today :)) Take Care G.

[gypsylee]

Just saw this on Twitter. It’s what I’m saying!

@DailyKerouac
... not enough ecstasy for me, not enough life, joy, kicks, darkness, music, not enough night. —Jack Kerouac


Yes echidna is like a hedgehog but unrelated. Echidnas lay eggs!

I had to laugh at your hearing aid saga. I assume you survived. It’s over for another year :)

[Dahila]

Just saw this on Twitter. It’s what I’m saying!

@DailyKerouac
... not enough ecstasy for me, not enough life, joy, kicks, darkness, music, not enough night. —Jack Kerouac


Yes echidna is like a hedgehog but unrelated. Echidnas lay eggs!

I had to laugh at your hearing aid saga. I assume you survived. It’s over for another year :)

yep I had survived and spend my day binge watching lost in space, I love stories and especially sci fiction stories ;)) I see you survived too :) My grandchild was sitting beside me and she always look at me when she speaks , she knows that I need to see the lips to get all conversation. I let my daughter boyfriend to talk with my partner and took care of dog and cat both cute and both white like a snow :) I hope you a little bit better Gypsy?

[gypsylee]

yep I had survived and spend my day binge watching lost in space, I love stories and especially sci fiction stories ;)) I see you survived too :) My grandchild was sitting beside me and she always look at me when she speaks , she knows that I need to see the lips to get all conversation. I let my daughter boyfriend to talk with my partner and took care of dog and cat both cute and both white like a snow :) I hope you a little bit better Gypsy?

I slept pretty much all weekend. I felt guilty but after months of broken sleep and insomnia I figured my body needed it. It was nice, I must admit :)

Now I’m just trying to cope with the tourists. They’re all here now. The people across the road are currently playing horrible loud music. These people don’t give a shit.. They come here to have a good time and everyone else can go to hell.

It’s also 37C. Thank god I have a good airconditioner.

[gypsylee]

That sucks. Where do most of the tourists come from?

Melbourne. I’m at mum’s now..

[gypsylee]

Who's this mum you speak of? She sounds like a wretched self.

I can't PM yet. I need 10 posts first.

LOL oh she is the wretchedest of selves. Maybe worse than Seth even.

[gypsylee]

Meanwhile, in Australia

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[Dahila]

yeah forest fire ; just awful. I know they occur naturally but is it a bit too much. It shows how well we control natural disasters.
I can not imagine how many animals lifes were lost already

[gypsylee]

yeah forest fire ; just awful. I know they occur naturally but is it a bit too much. It shows how well we control natural disasters.
I can not imagine how many animals lifes were lost already

I know.. I can’t even look at the stories about the animals :(

I did find this amazing pic though. Kookaburra can laugh in any situation. (I hope you can see it! I REALLY have no idea what I’m doing when it comes to posting pics on here.)

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[Dahila]

who are you? the self of all selves, are you mr. Ponder?

[gypsylee]

The pic works just fine.

Is this fire comparable to any in recent Aussie history, or is it the worst in memory?

It has saddened the world. We're all one self, after all. Well, except Ponder. There are two basic energies in the universe: self and Ponder.

HHAHAHAHAAA!! You’re funny :)

No, it’s much worse. I’d like to know what the Indigenous Australians have to say about it. They never get much of a say in anything though. I mean they should be involved in the prevention and things like that, but what would they know? They’ve only been here for 40,000+ years :rolleyes:

[gypsylee]

The other thing - people from overseas have given more support in a few days than our government in months (it started in September). P!nk donated $500,000 yesterday and some big celebrities have Tweeted important messages (Bette Midler was very funny and had a go at the Prime Minister). American and Canadian firefighters are here helping. Our PM has become a joke and I just hope this shows him up to the whole world.

[Dahila]

Do you know Gypsy that a lot of Canadian firefighters are in Australia fighting the fire, We have so many forests and so many fires that Canadian firefighters are probably the best in the world
I do not like to talk about someone who is not here, it looks like gossip.
I had fell of the wagon with him too :))

[Ponder]

The pic works just fine.

Is this fire comparable to any in recent Aussie history, or is it the worst in memory?

It has saddened the world. We're all one self, after all. Well, except Ponder. There are two basic energies in the universe: self and Ponder.

Are you inferring that Ponder does not care about the fire situation or that he cares little for the notion that we are all one?

Please explain yourself.

Edit ... Don't bother.

[Ponder]

who are you? the self of all selves, are you mr. Ponder?


If I have something to say ... I will say it under my own name.

This tells me a lot of what goes on behind the scenes.

[Ponder]

I'm talking about a different Ponder from another anxiety forum.

I made a new thread, your welcome to pop in it and discuss the nature of your name ... if you so wish.

This ponder loves discussing such things.
http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?38140-Ponder

[gypsylee]

I’ve been reading about the fires. This article sums the whole thing up well: https://www.nytimes.com/2020/01/03/opinion/australia-fires-climate-change.html

“..We need more able people to defend the town as we are in for bad heat from Friday again. Tucks area will be a problem from today, but trees down on all tracks, and no one to fight it.

We are tired, but ok.

But we are here in 2020!

Love

Us”

The bookstore in the fire-ravaged village of Cobargo, New South Wales, has a new sign outside: “Post-Apocalyptic Fiction has been moved to Current Affairs.”

And yet, incredibly, the response of Australia’s leaders to this unprecedented national crisis has been not to defend their country but to defend the fossil fuel industry, a big donor to both major parties — as if they were willing the country to its doom. While the fires were exploding in mid-December, the leader of the opposition Labor Party went on a tour of coal mining communities expressing his unequivocal support for coal exports. The prime minister, the conservative Scott Morrison, went on vacation to Hawaii.

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“Australia is a burning nation led by cowards,” wrote the leading broadcaster Hugh Riminton, speaking for many. To which he might have added “idiots,” after Deputy Prime Minister Michael McCormack blamed the fires on exploding horse manure.

Such are those who would open the gates of hell and lead a nation to commit climate suicide.

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I’m never one to advocate the death penalty but this is like an act of Treason. The country is already economically f***ed thanks to the government. I don’t even know what this means for us. People want blood at the moment.


In other news, my mother is a bitch :rolleyes:

[gypsylee]

No I was there on and off because of tourists. I’m home now. But the people who were stuck on the beach (and wherever) just got taken on a ship to mum’s town. Poor buggers.

[Dahila]

I see that climate change expert Greta Thunberg wrote a very angry post direct at your country's PM.

yep yep :)))............granpa Soros send her to Canada on election day, she was boobed in Alberta, poor rotten child they use her as a tool . Every system has a Greta, Stalin, Hitler, now globalists

[gypsylee]

I see that climate change expert Greta Thunberg wrote a very angry post direct at your country's PM.


Well she can get in line. Now some other fat middle-aged politician is involved. I’ve been under a rock for so long I don’t even know who he is and I’m beyond caring. Sack the bloody lot of them.

There’s this video of a koala in the fire and I don’t know if it’s getting burnt alive or what because I can’t watch it. Koalas sit high in trees and sleep or eat all day. They only move to change positions and you rarely see them on the ground. So what all those animals must have gone through would have been horrific. I keep crying when I see the pics. I also cried about the little girl in the boat wearing a mask. She looks so scared and like my daughter when she was younger.

Make no mistake - this is not just a bad bushfire season for Australia. It’s out of the ballpark. It’s not over either.. The really dry part of summer is usually end of January-February. It’s a fucking disaster and it’s being led by people who I honestly don’t think care very much. I wouldn’t be surprised if Morrison’s got plans with mates like Rupert Murdoch to shack up on some island somewhere. I’ve already read stuff from the US that he’s not utilising resources they’ve got which he could (and probably said he would). The man has lied and lied, and keeps lying. He’s starting to make Donald Trump and Boris Johnson look good.

Anyhoo, I think I’ve had enough reality. I need to go look at art, read philosophy and poetry, and listen to music. And of course, talk to the Self!

[gypsylee]

There have been lulz online though. Sense of humour is our forte.

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[gypsylee]

Very important to regularly connect with the Self. Even if you're going through a very hard time, like Ponder was when he lost weight and his friends said he looked like a cancer patient, it's important to re-centre.

And it's also important to make sure your inbox doesn't get so full that nobody can message you.

LOL@anti-Greta. She always reminds me of some demon child from a movie.

Or the time I posted Raging Zef Boner. Some people had to regroup after that.

[gypsylee]

Have you emptied your inbox yet? The old timers should always have an open door.

Yes.. All 5 messages.

[gypsylee]

And the ones in your sent box, too? Cos they count.

Oh right. Done.

Man, my mother is so fucked in the head. So manipulative and everything has a price. Then there are the games she plays involving other people..

[gypsylee]

I'm upset after reading Ponder's thread. He's willing WW3 to start.

I know he's frustrated about things, but he has a lot to appreciate in his life. He lives in a safe part of the world, he has a loving wife, and he's devastatingly handsome (despite his torn asshole).

I'm going for a channeling session to cheer myself up. With luck, I'll be able to channel me, the Self.

https://i.ibb.co/PjNzDcn/Screenshot-2020-01-08-at-02-02-24.png

Suff cat haha

[gypsylee]

Christ, now WW3 is looming. I had a fit of depression last night and I think it’s safe to say that if you *aren’t* anxious/depressed there’s something wrong with you. I’ve been saying this for years but it’s getting beyond a joke.

What separates human beings from other animals is our ability to think forwards and backwards. That’s why we get anxious and depressed. If you look to the future now, it’s really not looking all that bright, is it? So I came to the conclusion the way to deal with this is living more in the moment. Mindfulness and so forth (though I don’t like that word much because it’s become such a buzzword).

I’ve read a lot about Eastern philosophy and they are the experts. Taoism is sort of the pinnacle of Hinduism and Buddhism and is the “religion” of the Zen masters. Zen is something most Westerners would find very difficult to even conceive of, let alone practice. The Zen masters can spend 17 hours a day meditating and take a lifetime to achieve mastery (if they ever do). I don’t really understand it and I’ve read books and listened to lectures.

But the Western mind is so “programmed” to look to the future in particular that it’s very very difficult to live in the moment. I’m better at it than I was because I’ve lived on the edge a lot and haven’t *had* much of a future. Taking each day as it comes is pretty normal for me now. I still need some sense of a future though.. Like some reassurance the human race and the planet won’t be in a state of crisis. I’m just not feeling that right now at all. I don’t know what the answer is. I sure would like some competent leaders thiugh.

[gypsylee]

Actually, Alan Watts talks about all this and says the key is not to take things too seriously. Laugh. I’ll look for that video.

I love this man :) He and Terence McKenna (and more recently Jordan Peterson) have been my saviours.

https://youtu.be/dSmWyT0Sa04

https://youtu.be/qQFcNFAzXGo

[gypsylee]

A plane just crashed in Iran killing everyone. I’m not liking this game very much.

[Dahila]

yes Ukrainian plane

[gypsylee]

I had some hardcore anxiety last night. Lately it’s almost impossible when I’m like that to just lie down because I don’t want to face the full force of it. So I do stuff on my iPad.. Go from Twitter to FB to forums to YouTube, looking for any distraction I can find. That strategy isn’t so bad when I don’t have to do anything the next day but today I do. So I forced myself to stop and just lie down. The anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks and that shit is nasty. My mind screams for anything to take the edge off it.

Claire Weekes said some very insightful things about this. Anxiety is basically fear, which means your body is flooded with adrenaline. She called this the “first fear”. The big problem is that when that’s happening the mind wants to get involved and it comes up with what she called the “second fear”. That’s all the “what ifs?” where you start imagining all the terrible things that might happen. The second fear fuels the first fear. So the trick is to stop the second fear. She had an acronym — F.A.F.L. Face, Accept, Float, Let Time Pass. For me the words “let time pass” have a calming effect. She used specific words (which is very clever if you know about linguistics). So I say that to myself and just lie there and be still. Last night it worked and I fell asleep.

[gypsylee]

The noise here is such a big contributor to the anxiety. The freeway, the tourists, the building.. Now some guy is mowing outside. I’m tired and have to get myself to this appointment 30 mins away. Tired is better than anxious/angry, but fuck I’m so so sick of it.

https://youtu.be/lm8oxC24QZc

[Dahila]

I usually get up and plays some stupid arcade games , the ones I do not need to think

[gypsylee]

I usually get up and plays some stupid arcade games , the ones I do not need to think

That can work! Just stuff like Candy Crush. Sometimes I switch all the sound off, put some electronic music on and I can get in this zone where I have dream flashbacks. It’s like my brain changes frequency. It’s sort of a long-term project though.

[gypsylee]

So yesterday I had to go to this appointment towards the city. Then I met my dad for lunch at this shopping mall. That all went pretty well, but by the time we’d finished it was 4pm or so, which means peak-hour. It was hot too. I thought, “Jesus, I have to get home in the traffic and the heat”. My reticence was not unfounded.

Driving back along the freeway is psychotic. If you aren’t doing 100kph you inevitably have some huge ute/truck thing right up your arse. My car isn’t small but it’s considered a “ladies’ 4WD” ie. small compared to these big hunks of metal. It’s also fairly old and doesn’t change from 2nd to 3rd gear properly, so I annoy people by not taking off fast enough.

This experience is pure torture for me. I can drive pretty well and I quite enjoy it sometimes, like when I’m driving at night or through the hills. But the atmosphere on the road at peak hour is just horrible. All these people with big, new cars, desperate to get from A to B (work to home) is no way to live. Most of those cars are under finance too (Australia has the second highest household debt in the world).

Joe Rogan sums this up well: https://youtu.be/vqSE5LJzYao

[Dahila]

That can work! Just stuff like Candy Crush. Sometimes I switch all the sound off, put some electronic music on and I can get in this zone where I have dream flashbacks. It’s like my brain changes frequency. It’s sort of a long-term project though.

I found 'words wipe" it makes me sleepy in like ten minutes Gypsy, :)

[gypsylee]

I found 'words wipe" it makes me sleepy in like ten minutes Gypsy, :)

I’ll look out for it :)

[Dahila]

here; mahjong dimension , tetroid , words wipe, :)

[gypsylee]

here; mahjong dimension , tetroid , words wipe, :)

They play Mahjong wrong though! I learnt the traditional Mahjong. Do you know FB used to have really good games? Like they had this Word Challenge and Geo Challenge. Then gradually the games got more and more boring until King Games took over completely with Candy Crush etc. There are other companies but there’s so little money in those games now noone bothers much. King has one called AlphaBetty Saga which is quite good but I’m up to level 400 or something and I get too annoyed. My dad is up to some crazy level like 1500 :rolleyes:

I play Words With Friends.. I need more opponents. I’m too fussy and should just play some damn Candy Crush.

[Dahila]

Lol .................................

[gypsylee]

I remember I used to have a game open with you. It took you about 3 days to play a word!

I don't know if you saw this. This is totally LOL.

https://www.perthnow.com.au/news/offbeat/british-itv-journalist-debi-edward-pranked-by-drop-bear-koala-joke-ng-b881431560z

I did see that actually. Drop Bears are a bit of an old joke here. I had this warning poster on my fridge for a while, kind of like this..

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[gypsylee]

This keeps making me seriously laugh atm. And the hashtags people are coming up with, like #ScoMoInferno lol

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[Dahila]

This keeps making me seriously laugh atm. And the hashtags people are coming up with, like #ScoMoInferno lol

1922 lol it is funny

[gypsylee]

lol it is funny

Heeeeeeee ;) It cheers me up after seeing his “normal” face all day in the news. He’s a Born Again Christian you know? Here he is at the Hillsong Church..

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[gypsylee]

Why are the Aussies trying to be like the Yanks by voting in oil-loving religious nuts?

I don't know. Something went wrong around 2010 when they hounded Julia Gillard so much I'm surprised she didn't have a stroke. Tony Abbott got in and he's pretty serious Catholic. But at least the rest of the world is seeing this. We are not the Lucky Country anymore, nor are we progressive or anything like we used to be. We're a fossil-fueled police state run by a Born Again Christian. It all comes back to the fossil himself, Rupert Murdoch I think. Did you see that his son had a go at him for being a climate change denier? The old bastard said he isn't a *denier*, he's a *skeptic* hahah.

We had storms here yesterday afternoon and rain. I had to go to the shops and it was bliss honestly. You really appreciate the weather when it gets as horrible as ours has been. At one point the light outside was a sort of dark yellow and it was hot. I'm really sensitive to things like that and it felt so wrong. After the rain I felt like I could breathe again.

That's an interesting signature. Did you make that up yourself?

[gypsylee]

Last night's hilarity.. This guy (some radio host?) had a fit about the NZ PM going on holiday overseas. The other people on the show were like "well her country wasn't on fire" and he went on about how she should just stay in her country. It was totally irrational and in the end he sort of admitted he was just in a bad mood.

But see in the article how it says Twitter "unleashed fury"? I just find these things funny. Sometimes I have to get off there because people start getting too PC and my opinions would be inappropriate. People take things too seriously.

https://www.news.com.au/entertainment/tv/steve-price-compares-jacinda-ardern-to-scott-morrison-in-bizarre-rant/news-story/9d8976c17b3ddd8654fa4f67bbbbf278

[gypsylee]

Yeah, don't mess with the PC brigade. They'll cancel you like they've cancelled JK Rowling and Stephen King lol.



I didn't no. But I'm glad you like it. It's a poem written by an unknown 15th century monk, who some say had prophetic powers.

LOLOLOL who is that woman?

That signature..

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[gypsylee]

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[Dahila]

Does anyone like Merkel?............

[Dahila]

she is a traitor to German people, she betrayed them, Everything is about power she replaced german with African people to have votes, JT in Canada learned it and had done the same..........eh
are you really from Ghana? A lot of history , very interesting political situation too. :)

[gypsylee]

I think fires are still burning. I don’t know about the air, I’m hibernating. I feel justified now I have proof of living in the most screwed-over country in the world. Not only have they screwed us, they’ve turned it into a police state. I really don’t want to live here anymore. NZ is doing alright I think.. But as if I’ve got any money to do anything. I feel like I’m on home detention compared to what my life used to be like. Oh well it could be worse.. I could be various other people ;)

[Dahila]

I agree. It feels like Kalergi plan in action to undermine citizens. :mad:



Yes it has lots of history. Today I am telling my friend Kwame Ukatutuwuwa of the nice people I meet here. :)

I have to admit that I never thought someone from Ghana could have the same opinion about people as mine. This is a nice surprise, it makes me happy
Thank you for being here Theselfofallselves
I almost choked on my coffee when I had seen your signature LOL

[gypsylee]

Thanks Dahila. It's nice to be here. :)))

Gypsy, were you affected by those crazy hail storms?

No.. We had some rain and that’s it I think. It’s been so cold tonight though. Weather is crazy.

[Dahila]

How cold is cold for you my dear? I had -17 Celsius in the morning , crispy and beautiful , sun shining, no wind, Actually I went to clear the snow with my snowblower, it was awesome to be outside
My heart is bleeding for all lifes lost in Australia
The avatar hheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[gypsylee]

How cold is cold for you my dear? I had -17 Celsius in the morning , crispy and beautiful , sun shining, no wind, Actually I went to clear the snow with my snowblower, it was awesome to be outside
My heart is bleeding for all lifes lost in Australia
The avatar hheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Anything under about 15C hehe.

I just saw this: https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2020/jan/20/ignorance-menopause-lives-women-information-symptoms

[gypsylee]

Freezing because I’ve had the heating off. Weather app says 16C. We’re real pussies when it comes to cold weather.

There’s a fire on an island near here. You can see on the map where the fire is. I live where the sign says French Island, but on the other side of the peninsula..

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[ScatterShot]

Its cold here too, I love it when it's cold out but hate it when I'm trying to smoke. But there is something nice about smoking/drinking some coffee outside while it is nice and cool. I try to enjoy it as much as I can before the heat comes.

[Dahila]

jeez I sleep at 17 C :)

[gypsylee]

jeez I sleep at 17 C :)

I think 16 was a bit overestimated. Today is 28C and windy, then cold and rainy tonight apparently. Melbourne weather is famous for being changeable but not like this. The fun usually starts in Feb, as in the high 30s-40C. That’s the scary thing about the fires - we haven’t even started the usual bushfire time. Stay tuned for more Australia Burns! :eek:

[Dahila]

Jeez do you think that it is true that it is Jihad fire?

[Ponder]

You guys were really meant for each other. Two hard-ass bullies walking the playground. Now it is me that spills his cuppa whilst rolling on the floor laughing .... it's not at your propositions I laugh at, but at the irony you display in comparison to your attempts to welcome new anxiety members; then to read this. No wonder the forum is quiet. Shame on you guys.

[Dahila]

1928..................

[Dahila]

1929 Everyone had seen it :))
Libtards are tragic in their scheme of things. You not suppose to have different opinion cause they get offended,
The men become a soy boys eh..........
I wonder who was screaming on this forum "get out of my fucking thread" Pardon my French,
Miss Us??????

[Dahila]

https://youtu.be/l-3ryL3JH_I ................

[Dahila]

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[gypsylee]

Leave us alone Ponder, you carrot-munching, scooter obsessed troll!!

Heeeee... :)))



https://media.giphy.com/media/U1aN4HTfJ2SmgB2BBK/giphy.gif


This was the first thing I saw of Greta and I cringed with embarrassment. Now I think she’s a champion.


“The illiterate of the 21st century will not be those who cannot read and write, but those who cannot learn, unlearn and relearn." —Alvin Toffler.

[gypsylee]

she is a champion alright. She's soros' no.1 puppet. Right, auntie dahila?

Heeeeheeeee :)))))


lol........

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[Dahila]

Right .................

[gypsylee]

I don't know why people say Australia is an intolerant country. You voted in a guy with Down Syndrome.

Oh LOLOLOLLLL. I’m gonna use that :)

[gypsylee]

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Note: I did not vote for him personally. I think they changed PMs (again) not long after and I was under my rock. When I heard we had a Pentecostal PM I crawled back under it.

Boris Johnson looks retarded as well though. And Trump.. He’s just this orange mutant. The 3 of them could be related I reckon. How did this happen?? I want to move to New Zealand. She’s a good PM apparently.


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[Dahila]

Gypsy unfortunately everywhere is the same shit,

[gypsylee]

Gypsy unfortunately everywhere is the same shit,

Pretty much, but Australia has gone downhill so fast. We’re used to one of the highest standards of living in the world and now it’s just crap.

This is where I grew up. Yes I was spoilt :rolleyes:


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Bob Hawke then Paul Keating were our Prime Ministers. They weren’t perfect but compared to who we’ve got now.. :(

Melbourne’s population is growing at the same rate as cities in China because of their mass immigration policy. I’ve got nothing against the Chinese or Indians but we just haven’t got the infrastructure. Our public transport system is pathetic compared to cities like New York and London but that’s how big Melb is headed. Healthcare is now terrible, no room in hospitals.. Universities used to be free for Aust citizens.. Wages haven’t gone up much in years but cost of living has gone through the roof.. The environment is fucked.. And so on. Oh and the police state - we’ve always been a Nanny State with tons of rules, but they’ve ramped it up to a scary level. “Fossil-Fuelled Police State” it’s been described as.

/rant heeeeee

[gypsylee]

It's true. I have a bit of a soft spot for Boris though. I'm quite scruffy like him. It's reassuring to know there's no glass ceiling for us scruffy people.

What do you do when you hide away? Watch TV?

I’ve seen your scruffy look and it’s not freakish like Boris. He’s like a cartoon character. You know he went to Eton right? That should put you off him :)

No I hate most TV. If I watch stuff it’s series by HBO etc or films. But last year it was almost exclusively music on YouTube for months. I made about 30 folders of stuff and had this online journal where I posted lyrics. I learnt heaps. It was kind of a way of grieving for my brother (cos he was a muso).

I also read a lot (philosophy, poetry, religion eg. Alan Watts on Zen hehe, Terence McKenna on psychedelics, Astrology/Mythology).

When I have no money and nothing to do I sleep :) Sleeping’s great. I’m pretty good at entertaining myself at home.. I do go out most days/nights, just to get food usually. Or to mum’s :rolleyes:

[Dahila]

wow Gypsy no one can bit my PM, such a clown. Boris make me laugh, Let's wait till end of January, I still think the brexit will not happen.
In Canada thans to our sock boy, we have tax on tax, we have carbon tax which was in Australia but I think is not anymore, We have massive immigration. the problem is we taxed to death, the deficit grows. The idiot instead of putting the money into Canada is sending to countries like Lebanon, pakistan and excetera. Not to do good but to mess with people in the other countries, Imagine PM who is having Japanese ambassador and he is sure that he is chinese, Twice he Said I do admire Chine. He also admires Kuba and Fidel Castro (he looks like him)
Canada already become shit country and it is going to be worse. Very difficult to manage shopping for food and others

[gypsylee]

wow Gypsy no one can bit my PM, such a clown. Boris make me laugh, Let's wait till end of January, I still think the brexit will not happen.
In Canada thans to our sock boy, we have tax on tax, we have carbon tax which was in Australia but I think is not anymore, We have massive immigration. the problem is we taxed to death, the deficit grows. The idiot instead of putting the money into Canada is sending to countries like Lebanon, pakistan and excetera. Not to do good but to mess with people in the other countries, Imagine PM who is having Japanese ambassador and he is sure that he is chinese, Twice he Said I do admire Chine. He also admires Kuba and Fidel Castro (he looks like him)
Canada already become shit country and it is going to be worse. Very difficult to manage shopping for food and others

I was just looking at Canadian stuff on Twitter. These women campaigning against the whole transgender rights thing, which basically means any man can say he’s a woman because he feels like one. I hate that and love Jordan Peterson for standing up to the Canadian govt. Are they obsessed with this political correctness??

[Dahila]

tsoas you are so right in this statement "I think people need to stop listening to these ridiculous outspoken LGBT activists. Having reservations about people who were born men using women's bathrooms or playing women's sports doesn't make a person bad. These activists are like the religious puritans of old, searching for anybody they can burn at the stake!"
I know few gays and they are so against this movement the manipulation. Gays are people, they are used like everyone else, We all know that is globalists propaganda, that Canada was sold to UN, eh

[gypsylee]

Just dropping in to say here we go again.. Just south of Canberra. Heatwave hasn’t even started..

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[gypsylee]

1937

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[gypsylee]

Lol, yeah, Boris is posh AF. His middle name is "de Piffle". Scruffiness is where our similarities end.

I hadn't watched any of Jordan Peterson's stuff until you mentioned him. I hadn't bothered cos the media made him out to be this alt-right troll. His stuff is actually good, especially on the subjects of depression and political correctness.



Canada are Sweden are probably the two most PC countries. They pride themselves on it, which often means they do dumb stuff just so they can appear more virtuous.

I think people need to stop listening to these ridiculous outspoken LGBT activists. Having reservations about people who were born men using women's bathrooms or playing women's sports doesn't make a person bad. These activists are like the religious puritans of old, searching for anybody they can burn at the stake!

The Self disapproves.

Was it you who likes JK Rowling? I like her too.. A lot. She’s sort of the leader of what the transgender mob call TERFs (trans exclusive radical feminists). They use it like you’re the most hateful person in the world. It’s the main thing that caused me to distance myself from feminism altogether.

Well JK Rowling got hounded for saying something along the lines of “transgender women are *not* the same as biological women”. You should see how nasty they get about that. I feel really strongly about it because women’s biology is much more complicated - we have babies for fuck’s sake, plus our endocrine systems are different..

It also sets a precedent for men to get away with even more shit. So she’s got this motto thing which basically says do wtf you want, dress how you want etc, but we are not the same as you. I followed a bit of the feminist shit and it’s unbelievable. I wrote a tweet about how I started reading feminist books in the early 90s and there was no arguments with men or women about anything. Guys might give you a bit of shit but, nothing like the drama you see now. It’s the internet and I wrote how much simpler it was without it. I also said I’d rather not be debating sex vs gender while we go up in flames or float out to sea :rolleyes:

[gypsylee]

Yeah, I like how Rowling didn't backtrack on her comments.

What bugs me most about these people is how their aim is to shut down debate. Even when they're not screaming at and insulting people, they're calling them phobes, which is wrong, because it implies the person talking is irrational and doesn't have a valid argument.

Game of Thrones has a very legit quote for these activists: "When you tear out a man's tongue, you are not proving him a liar, you're only telling the world that you fear what he might say."

P.S. If we're allowed to choose which bathroom we want to use, I'm gonna start using the women's one. There's more cubicles in women's bathrooms. I like peace and quiet when I take a leak so I can ponder at length on the mysteries of The Self.

What really pisses me off about them is how they want access to all this hormonal treatment and whatnot. I’m a biological female who needs help with hormones and no doctor knows fucking anything or even takes it that seriously. They’re a very loud minority who need to get in line.

One interesting thing about this I learnt is that as usual the pharmaceutical companies are in on it. I think in the UK in particular, gender dysmorphia or whatever it’s called, is actually pushed by doctors because the pharma companies can make money out of it. The worst is when kids are encouraged. There are groups on twitter of people who’ve had the shit done then gone back to their original sex. It’s crazy.

Yes I like to Ponder the Self in peace when I go to the loo as well :D

Anyway so Canberra area still on fire. This cheered me up though. The fluorescent pink slug! https://www.theguardian.com/australia-news/2020/jan/28/fluorescent-pink-slug-unique-to-australian-mountaintop-survives-bushfires

[gypsylee]

Some of these kids being treated are very young! You wonder how much they're being influenced by parents/society.

How far are you from Canberra? Are you going back to hibernating?

Ugh. I really avoid the whole transgender topic because it annoys the hell out of me. I’ve heard about various cases where doctors have ignored the parents’ views on their kid’s “gender”.

Long way from Canberra. Those really big fires on the coast at New Year were much closer. But hell yeah I’m hibernating because a) Tourists are still here and b) It’s getting hot today til Friday. I get a bit of satisfaction on hot days bc my airconditioner is almost new and it blasts cool air. I have to change it to just the fan after 5 mins bc I get too cold.

It’s getting into the 30s here. Where my daughter is (inland) 40s. Stay tuned for more Australia Burns.

[Dahila]

I am with you guys about that bullshit trangender, It is impossible what is going to be, Mommy is disappointed cause she wanted a boy and got the girl . Lets make her a boy
nonsense and so much abuse , Pushing children to changing of gender is abuse,
There are two genders Male and female.

[gypsylee]

I am with you guys about that bullshit trangender, It is impossible what is going to be, Mommy is disappointed cause she wanted a boy and got the girl . Lets make her a boy
nonsense and so much abuse , Pushing children to changing of gender is abuse,
There are two genders Male and female.

I think there are genuine cases where the person feels like they’re in the wrong body (male or female) but it’s a tiny minority. Now it’s like people wake up depressed and think “I must have gender dysphoria and I’m actually a woman!”


Here’s a good article on Australian culture. I’ve been trying to say this for ages but you’re not allowed to criticise the Lucky Country (especially if you’re a woman). It’s actually the Arrogant Pig country and been getting worse and worse.

https://www.smh.com.au/national/survival-by-respect-or-death-by-stupid-your-choice-straya-20200123-p53u07.html

[Dahila]

gypsy exactly it is a small percentage and they should be treated seriously but in the age of three, or 5, So many people who went through surgery are going back to their gender. There is also very high number of suicides due the bad decision ,
From time to time baby is born in wrong body but it is maybe 1 person in 10 000

[Dahila]

yep yep yep She is not effective enough, that's all
Watch out , we may be called bullies again

[gypsylee]

gypsy exactly it is a small percentage and they should be treated seriously but in the age of three, or 5, So many people who went through surgery are going back to their gender. There is also very high number of suicides due the bad decision ,
From time to time baby is born in wrong body but it is maybe 1 person in 10 000

There’s a new feminist movement on Twitter who say the trans thing is bullshit and harmful to biological women because men can just say they identify as a woman (they don’t need to have surgery or even take hormones or dress like women). So they can go around exactly like a biological man but say they’re a woman! There’s so many things that can go wrong with that and women have enough to worry about.

They don’t realise how offensive it is when real women go through childbirth, periods every month, menopause etc, and they just decide they feel like a woman. Then they abuse us for saying “well you’re not a biological woman”. Seriously, they can be very nasty.

So I’m all excited because for a while there feminism was a huge mess and I just kept my mouth shut, mainly bc of that transgender thing. They also try to change language with this whole pronoun thing where you can’t say he or she. There’s a whole lot of made up words. I refuse to use them because I think they’re based on shit people have made up and because changing language like that is dangerous. Orwell uses that concept in 1984.

[gypsylee]

Australia still burning:

An out-of-control bushfire presents an immediate threat to the Australian capital and the surrounding regions. Fires in Australia have killed 33 people and an estimated 1 billion animals since September.

Australian officials on Friday declared a state of emergency in the Australian Capital Territory (ACT), including for the national capital of Canberra, as a large bushfire threatens to become uncontrollable amid high temperatures and strong winds. "The combination of extreme heat, wind and a dry landscape will place suburbs in Canberra's south at risk," the territory's Chief Minister Andrew Barr told reporters.

Some 100 fires are also burning elsewhere in the country, including 58 active blazes in the surrounding state of New South Wales, 20 in the southeastern state of Victoria and 20 in South Australia. Temperatures across NSW and Victoria were forecast to reach 40 degrees C (104 degrees F) going into the weekend.


Canberra fire:

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[Dahila]

Unbelievable. the fire , it is awful . nature will be reborn , lost lifes not.
What is this movement on twitter ? Of course it is hurting woman.
lets start from the sports; how biological man can compete with woman. That's crazy. Till they do not start to have birth they are not woman. I will rather say it than she for a men. Look we have Yanif would be Jessica ; a monster and predator using social system and abusing it. This transgender trend is too ruin families and normal relationship. Family is like a healthy cell, if you break it apart there is not power to fight the globalists, the Lgbt movement another perverty thing very political. I do not understand this, I am probably too old to believe in any liberal nonsense

[gypsylee]

I don’t know much about the sport thing. I think any woman who plays football or cricket or whatever is butch. I hate even watching the shit.

I’m so depressed right now. The Canberra fire is huge. The PM just made a $2b deal to increase gas.. Fracking is even worse than coal I think. He’s done/doing all this other dodgy stuff too. He needs to be locked up, either in jail or a mental institution.

And Donald Trump has escaped impeachment I think? These men are psychopaths and we’re going to end up with fascism. I mean Scott Morrison getting away with what he has isn’t normal and they’ve been creating a police state for years.

I’m just going to sit in my house for the rest of my life.. If I still have a house.

[gypsylee]

Where is everyone?

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[Dahila]

I have no idea Gypsy I am here

[gypsylee]

I have no idea Gypsy I am here

Hey Dahila :)

[gypsylee]

J
This is the agoraphobia section of the forum, so it's not like the people who visit this thread went out. ;)

How's everyone doing?

I want to get a print of Greta on my car, like this person has.

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/EQGemSaXYAIKrJv?format=jpg&name=medium

Self :)

I’ve been having anxiety but I took some Valium. I hate how random it is. That might be worse for women.

Just been freaking out about the future.. It’s our govt more than climate change I think. They are so corrupt and greedy it scares me. It’s not normal what they’re doing and getting away with. I keep thinking they’ve changed all sorts of shit behind the scenes and now we have a fascist govt.

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[Dahila]

yeah it was, we were looking at different forums. I thought it is gone like countless forums, I frequented
I imagine someone without forum and getting very upset :))
Self do you have accounts on different places? I am on gab, and minds

[Dahila]

so maybe you should have email os something I can send you my gmail if it is any of use for you?

I did not feel good when it went down :(

[gypsylee]

Sorry to hear you're still struggling, Gyps. Does the valium help much?

I remember taking it a bit when I was younger. Can't remember if it helped now.

Do you watch/read much news or are you trying to avoid it?

Oh yeah, all the benzos work like a charm for me. Doctors have to be so strict with them though because they’re *addictive*. I won’t go into my thoughts on that.

Glad the forum’s back.. I’ve been offline for a few days and feel overwhelmed. Like where do I start? I was following the news like a hawk on Twitter and now I don’t even know what’s happening in the news.

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[Dahila]

my doc gave me 4 four pills for my fear of flying. Gypsy how long it works and what dossage is good?

[gypsylee]

my doc gave me 4 four pills for my fear of flying. Gypsy how long it works and what dossage is good?

There are lots of different ones and they affect everyone differently, so I really can’t say, Dahila.


So Summer is almost over and I think things are getting easier for me. My sleep has improved a lot and it seems to be Zoloft that did the trick. The days are getting shorter and it’s getting quieter. What a Summer from Hell though :eek:

Self_Of_Selves, where the fuck are you? Get your Greta-hating, Ponder-loving Ghanian arse back here.

[Dahila]

mine is 5 mg, yeah I do say too; Self_Of_Selves, where the fuck are you? Get your Greta-hating, Ponder-loving Ghanian arse back here.
Reading your and his posts is a highlight of my day .
I explained to my doc that before I get addicted to something I will die, cause not many years left for me on this fu***n planet.
No problem with Clonzepam which is long lasting benzo but valium and ativan is very difficult to prescribe ;) idiots, they so worried about addiction to benzos and not worried about heroin, or smoking crack or opiates addiction. The world is crazy
BTW I do believe stress and panic attack will do a lot more damage to you than benzo. Proof me wrong

[gypsylee]

The “poor man’s” benzos I get are anti-histamines (for hay fever and allergic reactions). You can get them over-the-counter usually. They’re sedating but only work for a couple of days/nights at a time. These are the names of the active ingredient (or whatever you call it) because brand names differ between countries..


—Promethazine is a first-generation antihistamine. It is used to treat allergies, trouble sleeping, and nausea. It may help with some symptoms associated with the common cold. It may also be used for sedating people who are agitated or anxious.

—Doxylamine is a first-generation antihistamine used as a short-term sedative and hypnotic (sleep aid) or in combination formulations to provide night-time allergy and cold relief.

[Dahila]

Hi everyone!

Sorry that I've been away. My village recently got news that Greta is getting a new show on the BBC. Kwame got so mad he threw a goat at me and knocked me unconscious for a week. ;)

I'm glad you're feeling better now, Gypsy. I wish I had some benzos for the really bad anxiety attacks. Doctors here are the same as in Australia. They treat benzos like gold, not letting you have any even if you beg. The funny thing is, if you go to the hospital and say you're suicidal because of anxiety, they'll give you a big handful. I'd do that if I could stand the 6 hour wait to see the emergency psychiatrist.

I am happy to see you. Yep so the craziness is all over the world, Doctors have power over us, at least they think they do .........

[gypsylee]

. Kwame got so mad he threw a goat at me and knocked me unconscious for a week. ;)

Oh god.. LOL. Why did he throw it at you though? Or he just got so mad he randomly flung it in your direction?

1942

[Dahila]

Lolz
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[gypsylee]

Lolz
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Hahahaheeeee :D

[gypsylee]

I’m still alive. I’ve had an ear infection and had to get antibiotics from the doctor. It was so painful I haven’t even been listening to music because the headphones hurt.. I think even the vibrations from the music hurt. It’s better now (4 days on antibiotics) but still blocked and I need the doctor to clean it out.

The forum looks busy all of a sudden? I’ve got no energy atm though :(

[gypsylee]

I’m re-Christening my ears with the greatest piece of music ever written. Beethoven *was* deaf when he wrote this. He was a creative genius.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kcOpyM9cBg&feature=share

[Dahila]

wow better finish all pills one my uncured ear infection cause my hearing loss, I hope you will feel better very soon.
Where is Self, did the goat hit him?

[gypsylee]

wow better finish all pills one my uncured ear infection cause my hearing loss, I hope you will feel better very soon.
Where is Self, did the goat hit him?

You have an ear infection too, Dahila? God, they’re awful. I’m still trying to get the wax out. I got some antibiotic eardrops in case it gets infected again.

LOL@Self and the goat. He’s still lying there unconscious with it on top of him :D

[gypsylee]

I found some really good YouTube clips :) These are two of my absolute favourite philosophers.. Self, get up from under that goat!


https://youtu.be/4-tY6hmKcms

https://youtu.be/GZQRp9Mup0w

[gypsylee]

How's everyone doing? Any of you been eaten by the virus yet? ;)

Geez, what a crazy summer for the Aussies, eh?

Self :) You got out from under the goat. Yeah, fantastic summer.. I’m not anxious about the virus like I was about the fires. It was surreal at first but my situation is better than a lot of people. I’m just annoyed that as usual people have no common sense or consideration for others. The toilet paper thing is just ridiculous. The next suburb down the peninsula from me was in the news lol. Violent Woolworths!

https://www.theage.com.au/national/victoria/supermarket-worker-stabbed-at-rosebud-store-flown-to-hospital-20200317-p54ayr.html

[Dahila]

I am back from Poland, after two weeks, there was nothing open could not go sighting. So my vacation sucked. I am in self isolation for 14 days
day 4th; slightly insane, can not focus on book

[gypsylee]

I am back from Poland, after two weeks, there was nothing open could not go sighting. So my vacation sucked. I am in self isolation for 14 days
day 4th; slightly insane, can not focus on book

Hey Dahila :)

My whole life is self isolation lol :rolleyes:

[Dahila]

Hey Dahila :)

My whole life is self isolation lol :rolleyes:

heheeeeeeeee mine to but when I am forced to do it, something rebellious in me wakes up . Also the worry due my COPD. there is a though ; what if I got some shit in Airplane , it was 10 hours in airplane and almost 1.5 on airport

[Dahila]

the incubation period is from 7 to 14 days, I am on day 5 of my self isolation. I think Poland have the smallest number of infections. 7 people died but there is almost 39 million people. I am kind of worry about Canada , we do not have unbiased source of information. So you have no idea what is going on. I have no idea if anything is in the stores. What about medication? Are they stocked enough? I mean my regular meds for my lungs,
yeah I feel bad about leaving my family early. it suck when you wait 17 years to go and have to cut the vacation short due the craziness.
I do as my daughter told me cause after two weeks if I am not sick I will see my grandchild and could give her the jewelry i got for her. ehhhh
I think I will go for a ride in my car, It is not in garage as I originally left it, my hubby parked it on driveway. I guess my breaks are all rusted now. eh, will take a ride to clean them

[salvator here]

Hey gypsy..

You know about this?

https://time.com/5815667/pink-coronavirus/

Hope you guys are hanging in there ok.

[Dahila]

Gypsy knows I am with her on fb , we all are super anxious, for people like that this situation is awful. I can not sleep anymore

[Dahila]

I miss you guys and Gypsy come back so self, you are missed and Sal
and all people

[Dahila]

hi finally my son , you showed your face, Oh I am sorry your family got sick, Gypsy is right here :)

[gypsylee]

Hi Auntie Dahila. I hope you're well. :)

I've been quite busy recently. A couple of my family members became really sick, possibly with the virus, so I've had to look after them. They seem to be doing better now, but not quite at full health, even after 3 weeks.

This whole situation is crazy!

I wonder where Gypsy is. Maybe she stayed in bed for so long it finally swallowed her up. Heeeeee.


Dahila and I were just talking about you on FB actually :) I finally got a new phone, so I can use the forum without my obsolete iPad. I logged onto here using Face ID.. This new fangled gadgetry is like magic!!

Glad you’re still with us, Self :D

[Dahila]

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee self you make me happy :)) LOL

[gypsylee]

19441944

Took that this afternoon :)

[gypsylee]

1945

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[gypsylee]

https://youtu.be/hxsld16TjSU

Invincible -- TOOL

Long in tooth and soul
Longing for another win
Lurch into the fray
Weapon out and belly in

Warrior struggling
To remain consequential
Bellow aloud
Bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am

Beating chest and drums
Beating tired bones again
Age-old battle, mine
Weapon out and belly in

Tales told of battles won
Of things we've done
Caligula would grin

Beating tired bones
Tripping through remember when
Once invincible
Now the armor's wearing thin

Heavy shield down
Warrior struggling
To remain relevant
Warrior struggling
To remain consequential

Cry aloud
Bold and proud
Of where I've been
But here I am
Where I end
Warrior struggling
To remain relevant
Warrior struggling
To remain consequential

Tears in my eyes
Chasing Ponce de Leon's phantom
So filled with hope
I can taste mythical fountains
False hope, perhaps
But the truth never got in my way
Before now, feel the sting

Feeling time bearing down
Tears in my eyes
Chasing Ponce de Leon's phantom
So filled with hope
I can taste mythical fountains
False hope, perhaps
But the truth never got in my way
Before now, feel the sting

Feeling time bearing down
False hope, perhaps
But the truth never got in my way
Before now, feel the sting
Feeling time bearing down

Bearing down


Songwriters: Maynard James Keenan / Adam Jones / Daniel Carey / Justin Gunner Chancellor

[gypsylee]

Come back Self!! Are you trapped under another goat?

I've got a dental abscess I think. Did I already say that? I've been knocked out on oxycodone.. Haven't had it in over a year and got no tolerance. At one stage I could function on 80mg. Now I'm on the nod after 10mg. Got antibiotics as well - I did a telehealth call with my GP and it was so easy. He faxed the scripts through to the chemist and I picked them up. I gotta admit, I'm loving the virus in some ways. Unfortunately I can't get the damn tooth pulled or root-cannalled over the phone.

All these infections are related to diabetes. It lowers immunity and makes the body more prone to infection. I've been taking my temperature through all this (the ear and the tooth) and it hasn't risen above normal once, so my immunity must still be pretty good. I can't get the diabetes under control though using the insulin needle system. I have a weird type (a combination of 1 & 2) and the doctors just don't understand it. So I'm looking at insulin pumps, which are like a mechanical pancreas and cost a fortune, but which I discovered are much cheaper overseas.. Including the UK (where I have relatives and my dad has bank accounts).

Other than that, my mother is staging some sort of grand finalé to her lifelong ridiculous behaviour. I can't go into details here because it will just make me angry. She's 78yo and has got herself in a situation that rivals even my worst in my 20s or 30s.

Despite this physical and emotional fuckery, I'm feeling pretty optimistic. I want to visit my daughter in June. She's doing well and has some supervisory job in a supermarket. She started as a checkout chick last year and they were impressed by her so she got promoted. With the whole Coronavirus thing she's actually in a good position career-wise. She's also got an inheritance sitting in the bank, which she's decided to use as part of a deposit on a house. I'm proud of her! Not in the way parents always say they're proud of their kids -- genuinely proud. We get along well too, so I like to think I've broken the cycle of emotional abuse I experienced with my mother.

That is all for now I think :)

[gypsylee]

AHAHAAHAH HAHAHAA HEHEHEEEEE

https://youtu.be/DMDH4ll_vq4

https://youtu.be/KjmUEwlq8ok

[Dahila]

i hope soon they will open health care because it is fucking us all. I can not get fucken prescription cause my doctor does not make phone appointment. They advice me to go to hospital. With my diabetes, emphysema, I will not come back alive, eh

[Dahila]

https://londonreal.tv/digital-freedom-platform-interview-1-dr-rashid-buttar/#

[gypsylee]

2am and the woman next door is playing loud music for about the 4th time lately. This is after she whinged about me walking around wearing ugg boots and the fact my bathroom light shines through her windows! I just went outside and saw the guy across from her on his decking, so I had a word to him. I'm also going to go talk to the rental guy. She reckons she's leaving in a couple of weeks because this place is so horrible. She better be. I might be a non-conformist but I was raised to be considerate of other people. I really hate people with no manners and this woman is very rude.. Very very rude!! I'm now plotting her demise.

https://youtu.be/KO82LtlUTIo

[gypsylee]

I just woke up from a dream.. I was in my childhood home and it was full of people (some of which I knew) who were absolutely out of control and psychotic. I was trying to leave but they kept stopping me. Some were even jumping on me and I was physically fighting them and trying to throw them off me. Others were screeching and yelling. It was horrible. The whole reason we were all there was that my MOTHER had gone insane.

[gypsylee]

i hope soon they will open health care because it is fucking us all. I can not get fucken prescription cause my doctor does not make phone appointment. They advice me to go to hospital. With my diabetes, emphysema, I will not come back alive, eh

:( Dahila.. I hope you can stay safe at home.

[Dahila]

I stay at home but go everyday on my bike or walking :)) no body is able to lock me in house. We need son and fresh air so our immune system is working correctly. Not only food but a lot of other things. I am meditation trying to calm myself down

[gypsylee]

I stay at home but go everyday on my bike or walking :)) no body is able to lock me in house. We need son and fresh air so our immune system is working correctly. Not only food but a lot of other things. I am meditation trying to calm myself down

That's good. We are about to get coldest weather in 60 years! Are no doctors doing phone consultations or just yours? I can understand if you don't want to find a new one. I was so glad to talk to my old doctor because he understands my problems, which are a combination of physical and mental, and a lot of them just don't get it.

I need to find a dentist to pull this tooth out (apparently they are doing emergency work). Antibiotics and painkillers have helped but sometimes when I eat it flares up and hurts like all hell. I'm not that scared of dentists - I've been that many times - but I want a private one. I've had a lot done in the public system and a lot of the dentists are pretty crap. Problem is $$$ of course. Unlike private doctors, dentists aren't subsidised by the government at all. So an extraction (which is one of the cheapest procedures) is around $200. Could be more now. A lot of Aussies on low incomes can't even go to the public dentist and can't afford private. So they just suffer.

[gypsylee]

https://youtu.be/edTgjbN6rYE

For seven years I dwelt
In the loose palace of exile
Playing strange games
With the girls of the island
Now I have come again
To the land of the fair, & the strong, & the wise

Brothers and sisters of the pale forest
Children of Night
Who among you will run with the hunt?

Now Night arrives with her purple legion
Retire now to your tents & to your dreams
Tomorrow we enter the town of my birth
I want to be ready

--Jim Morrison, The Palace of Exile (Celebration of the Lizard)

[gypsylee]

Dinosauria, We
By Charles Bukowski

https://youtu.be/qQJengH58ow

Born like this
Into this
As the chalk faces smile
As Mrs. Death laughs
As the elevators break
As political landscapes dissolve
As the supermarket bag boy holds a college degree
As the oily fish spit out their oily prey
As the sun is masked
We are
Born like this
Into this
Into these carefully mad wars
Into the sight of broken factory windows of emptiness
Into bars where people no longer speak to each other
Into fist fights that end as shootings and knifings
Born into this
Into hospitals which are so expensive that it’s cheaper to die
Into lawyers who charge so much it’s cheaper to plead guilty
Into a country where the jails are full and the madhouses closed
Into a place where the masses elevate fools into rich heroes
Born into this
Walking and living through this
Dying because of this
Muted because of this
Castrated
Debauched
Disinherited
Because of this
Fooled by this
Used by this
Pissed on by this
Made crazy and sick by this
Made violent
Made inhuman
By this
The heart is blackened
The fingers reach for the throat
The gun
The knife
The bomb
The fingers reach toward an unresponsive god
The fingers reach for the bottle
The pill
The powder
We are born into this sorrowful deadliness
We are born into a government 60 years in debt
That soon will be unable to even pay the interest on that debt
And the banks will burn
Money will be useless
There will be open and unpunished murder in the streets
It will be guns and roving mobs
Land will be useless
Food will become a diminishing return
Nuclear power will be taken over by the many
Explosions will continually shake the earth
Radiated robot men will stalk each other
The rich and the chosen will watch from space platforms
Dante’s Inferno will be made to look like a children’s playground
The sun will not be seen and it will always be night
Trees will die
All vegetation will die
Radiated men will eat the flesh of radiated men
The sea will be poisoned
The lakes and rivers will vanish
Rain will be the new gold
The rotting bodies of men and animals will stink in the dark wind
The last few survivors will be overtaken by new and hideous diseases
And the space platforms will be destroyed by attrition
The petering out of supplies
The natural effect of general decay
And there will be the most beautiful silence never heard
Born out of that.
The sun still hidden there
Awaiting the next chapter.


@Dahila, you might like this.

[Dahila]

wow Gypsy :)) ....

[gypsylee]

I was at the supermarket today and was already in a bad mood. You know what really aggravates me in stores? How they play loud music. If I'm organised I wear my earphones and listen to my own music, but I'm not the most organised person. I don't know why they do that, unless I'm that different to other people and they find it relaxing. I mean the whole point of creating a certain atmosphere in shops is obviously to encourage people to stay in there and spend money. It has the opposite effect on me.. Quite often I find myself thinking "I have to get out of here ASAP" and I can't even concentrate on what I'm doing. I've heard that some supermarkets have a special hour when they turn the lights and music down, and I think it's for parents with children on the autism spectrum. Pretty sure I'm not on the spectrum because most of the symptoms are actually the opposite to my characteristics. But the noise/light thing is very similar.

[Dahila]

Same here, I went to pharmacy to pic up my meds, did not wait in line still too many people for me link to very interesting video, you know I do not believe in panademic I think it is plandemic and here the video which support my view on it. https://www.bitchute.com/video/xvD0eYUraZkq/
To much panic and fear mongering for my liking. People get stressed not doubts that disease cold flu will follow, when immune system goes down.

[gypsylee]

Same here, I went to pharmacy to pic up my meds, did not wait in line still too many people for me link to very interesting video, you know I do not believe in panademic I think it is plandemic and here the video which support my view on it. https://www.bitchute.com/video/xvD0eYUraZkq/
To much panic and fear mongering for my liking. People get stressed not doubts that disease cold flu will follow, when immune system goes down.

I don't, but I don't trust the government(s) either. I don't look at or read much news because it does my head in. I think people need to be careful of jumping the gun though and learn to live differently, virus or no virus. Most people are incapable of staying home and reading a book these days. They're incapable of walking anywhere. Just things like that.

Anyway, did your Mothers Day go ok, Dahila?

Self!! Get out from under that goat!

[Dahila]

I do not trust them either but is something is awfully banned from every source it means that it is a true, Otherwise why bother? Shoot I need the library to open soon, yeah it was good, I could hug and kiss my girls. my daughter and granddaughter :) It feels so good now

[gypsylee]

https://youtu.be/qtZJiQSmJ9g

Grand Canyon -- Puscifer

Lost as I may be
In the fog of my own noise and triviality
Grand Holy Mother, grant me clarity
I am standing on the edge of forever
Forever
One among infinity
Witnessing the majesty
Calm in this humility
Witnessing the majesty
Hope as far as one can see
Witnessing the majesty
Witnessing the majesty
Witnessing the majesty
Standing on the edge of forever
Blessed be
This reawakening
Grand Holy Mother, end my deathly slumber to
To stand fearless on the edge of forever
Forever
One among infinity
Witnessing the majesty
Calm in this humility
Witnessing the majesty
Witnessing the majesty
Witnessing the majesty
Hope as far as one can see
Witnessing the majesty
Standing on the edge of forever
Hope as far
As one can see
As one can see
Standing on the edge of forever


Writers: Mat Mitchell (https://genius.com/artists/Mat-mitchell), Carina Round (https://genius.com/artists/Carina-round) & Maynard James Keenan (https://genius.com/artists/Maynard-james-keenan)

[gypsylee]

Hope you're all doing well, guys.

So, lil gypsy is working as a checkout girl? She isn't so little any more. :)

I hope she's taking all the overtime she can get. Those P!nk tickets cost a bomb. ;)

Life here is starting to move forward. Lockdown was recently eased. We still can't visit family and friends, but there are no limits on going outdoors now, as long as you socially distance. Lots of shops are still closed, at least until they can find out how to open safely.

Everybody has become quite lethargic after having several weeks of nothing. Even my cat just sits and watches TV nowadays. Heeeeeee.

https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/Ch7CFdf-9CVAwLpLL_Lz7HEN2qDhy3hTfnrcC02I08qCJPTLFgBT4vRy5P xjGGXL1ZpJZU4PyqdD9AkIluJX2IXLTOAO8_lvw0DhRqmgBDYi fJ3qBy0O87DVPrikP8mx2OpsN4dOst_jZc6EuBeVZjueaz4pPv Az_KxgFB-He7bFSY3fhZRSKidbD0xklNfBTOneJX6885ZmVi6ZIo26UvLxa-p93qdM_d7dojk65cvToLWxMB34dHHeuCftaK80GBMM2wbT_kBz 0pJmFyF16fqwIBf_GlMOXJVDKWBHj0fWNtezrETgO1DfBDBlmq wvjSsjGw7liCS-I8alLfWPKk2Yqyg9JEqffE8p5SzxMpm04IGYeL9vWMAy2dPAnE iKkVvHMhHGUkLLcXciamJibRxV3muxsFr6wf4RG3eOZuMDSfps PSPYD9dO4YiTliORhv2a6lHhKTjjUTIrcVzQ35p9HIV22frTPn N5eKvWuSt898UymL26QPsISNUy3eO_P0FCHkZnqGiz6VQDPNgV qARxF_uRvQfnkwJhzJu4TUOoRJ5jhgdF6BfiAHrWVTk1yIje7Q ivHt7xO1hE0_Y7At7BXC9x9jVTfXiriEx-ljIVQsw13gt9W5tOADG19OH6AkdoegXdyO4tHiP12fHxQN4MBs A3zT3io2U4C_dC5UqiKKMY7ta3xqDRPusc=w549-h617-no?authuser=0

I'll get on the laptop *rolls eyes*.

https://youtu.be/DMDH4ll_vq4

[gypsylee]

How are you getting on with you fancy new phone?

Make sure you don't roll on it when you're listening to music. I've done that a few times. Nearly broke the thing.

Well I’ve gone from an iPhone 5s to an iPhone XR.. In my day (*waves walking stick*) five years between updating technology wasn’t unusual. Apple have already released the iPhone 12 and god knows what since the XR! But the beauty of Apple products is the user-friendliness, so I’m getting on pretty well with it and haven’t had any serious fits of anger. I even updated to the latest iOS the other day without any drama.

Yeah, I still need to get a screen protector for it. I’ve fallen asleep and woken up lying on the phone.. Never done much damage at all to them or the iPad though. The worst story I’ve heard was from a guy who had his iPad in his kid’s pram. He folded the pram up and *crunch*. Oh and LOL, one time Little Gypsy threw her phone across the room.. It was fine but it landed on her father’s iPad and smashed the screen. She was in the biggest panic and said she’d seen a huntsman spider and freaked out lol. She’d actually just had a fit of rage. Yes, us Gypsies have anger management problems heeeeee.

[gypsylee]

The Humbling River — Puscifer


https://youtu.be/GgwK9sHTu-8


Nature, nurture heaven and home
Sum of all, and by them, driven
To conquer every mountain shown
But I've never crossed the river

Braved the forests, braved the stone
Braved the icy winds and fire
Braved and beat them on my own
Yet I'm helpless by the river

Angel, angel, what have I done?
I've faced the quakes, the wind, the fire
I've conquered country, crown, and throne
Why can't I cross this river?

Pay no mind to the battles you've won
It'll take a lot more than rage and muscle
Open your heart and hands, my son
Or you'll never make it over the river

It'll take a lot more than words and guns
A whole lot more than riches and muscle
The hands of the many must join as one
And together we'll cross the river

Nature, nurture heaven and home
It'll take a lot more than words and guns
Sum of all, and by them, driven
A whole lot more than riches and muscle
To conquer every mountain shown
The hands of the many must join as one
And together we'll cross the river

Braved the forests, braved the stone
It'll take a lot more than words and guns
Braved the icy winds and fire
A whole lot more than riches and muscle
Braved and beat them on my own

The hands of the many must join as one
And together we'll cross the river
And together we'll cross the river
And together we'll cross the river


Songwriters: Maynard James Keenan / Tim Alexander / Mat Mitchell

[gypsylee]

Is it your main web browsing gadget now?

I did a similar thing to lil gypsy years ago. A moth flew in my face while I was on my ipad. I instinctively reached out to bat it away, but as I did, the ipad slipped out of my hand and flew across the room. The screen smashed, but I still managed to use it for about a year more.

It sure is. Though I still use the old phone when I'm super lazy - mainly when I wake up and haven't even emerged from under the covers haha, because it's easy to use with one hand.

LOL@moth. My grandma had a phobia of moths. She lived in the UK all her life. I don't think I showed you guys the visitor I had on my balcony recently (that upright post is 9cm wide).

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[gypsylee]

In other news, I bought a new CD for my car. I still use CDs in there when I'm in a hurry and/or can't be bothered plugging my phone into the aux cable. CDs are also more reliable than USB sticks I've found. Check it out..

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1947&stc=1


I don't know why it's sideways. Anyway this CD has one of the greatest songs of all-time on it. I remember dancing to this when I was about 5yo. I googled the lyrics earlier (German/Jamaican/Africans singing about Russians).

Thanks to comments on YouTube: German disco band formed by black people born in the Caribbean, singing about a Russian priest in a song inspired by a Turkish folk song.

The clip is even greater!!


https://youtu.be/SYnVYJDxu2Q

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey

There lived a certain man in Russia long ago
He was big and strong, in his eyes a flaming glow
Most people looked at him with terror and with fear
But to Moscow chicks he was such a lovely dear

He could preach the Bible like a preacher
Full of ecstasy and fire
But he also was the kind of teacher
Women would desire

Ra ra Rasputin
Lover of the Russian queen
There was a cat that really was gone
Ra ra Rasputin
Russia's greatest love machine
It was a shame how he carried on

He ruled the Russian land and never mind the Czar
But the kazachok he danced really wunderbar
In all affairs of state he was the man to please
But he was real great when he had a girl to squeeze

For the queen he was no wheeler dealer
Though she'd heard the things he'd done
She believed he was a holy healer
Who would heal her son

Ra ra Rasputin
Lover of the Russian queen
There was a cat that really was gone
Ra ra Rasputin
Russia's greatest love machine
It was a shame how he carried on

But when his drinking and lusting
And his hunger for power
Became known to more and more people
The demands to do something
About this outrageous man
Became louder and louder

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey

"This man's just got to go", declared his enemies
But the ladies begged, "don't you try to do it, please"
No doubt this Rasputin had lots of hidden charms
Though he was a brute, they just fell into his arms

Then one night some men of higher standing
Set a trap, they're not to blame
"Come to visit us", they kept demanding
And he really came

Ra ra Rasputin
Lover of the Russian queen
They put some poison into his wine
Ra ra Rasputin
Russia's greatest love machine
He drank it all and said, "I feel fine"

Ra ra Rasputin
Lover of the Russian queen
They didn't quit, they wanted his head
Ra ra Rasputin
Russia's greatest love machine
And so they shot him 'til he was dead
Oh, those Russians

[gypsylee]

Hahahaha!! I was very Greta #2 because it was April and the weather had been cooling down for a while. Those bastards are usually hibernating by then. I've had a smaller one in my house since then *and* some small-but-deadly-looking thing in my car. It's obviously climate change :P

[Dahila]

heeeeeeeeeeeeee you should see my daughter and grandchild when the spider appears, I have to take care of that, The only thing I am not scared are spiders , will use my hand to kill the SOB,
In house of course , Outside they are safe

[gypsylee]

heeeeeeeeeeeeee you should see my daughter and grandchild when the spider appears, I have to take care of that, The only thing I am not scared are spiders , will use my hand to kill the SOB,
In house of course , Outside they are safe

LOL. What kind of spiders do you have? My daughter is even worse than me. One time I had to rescue her from the shower because I heard her screaming.. I went in there and a Daddy Longlegs had appeared. Daddy Longlegs are actually the enemy of Huntsmans, so they're my friends. As a kid I remember my dad catching Huntsmans with his hands and taking them outside. They'd bite him and he'd say "oh it's just like a bee sting". They aren't venomous but bee stings are pretty painful, not to mention having those things in your hand. That was impressive for a Pom who only came out here when he was about 30.


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[Dahila]

No problemo as long as they are not size of an apple I am ok, Gypsy you guys have pretty nasty spiders over there so maybe I would not be so keen to kill them. We have one poisonous and we do not have antidotum on it, Black widow. Not in my province not on eastern side of province
self how are your adventure on the scooter :) ?

[gypsylee]

Damn, your dad is quite tough. Still, after living with your mum, I'm sure everything is tame after that. ;)

Sometimes I try to take them outside with the glass and cardboard, but if they scare me in the night, I do splatter them out of instinct. Next time I will call Dahila to deal with the spider. ;)

He does the glass and cardboard now too. I guess he's a bit too old to be catching the spider with his hands. Still, no way could I do glass and cardboard with a huntsman.. Not only are they big, they're fast. One wrong move and that thing could run up your sleeve, at which point I'd have some kind of seizure.

Mum.. *blank stare*.

[gypsylee]

No problemo as long as they are not size of an apple I am ok, Gypsy you guys have pretty nasty spiders over there so maybe I would not be so keen to kill them. We have one poisonous and we do not have antidotum on it, Black widow. Not in my province not on eastern side of province
self how are your adventure on the scooter :) ?

Heeeee https://youtu.be/wy_TB6onHVE


Self got a scooter? I bet the whole Ghanaian tribe wants to get on that!

[gypsylee]

Fuck yeah! You bet that everyone here is jealous of me. In Ghana, the most popular mode of transport is goat. For us, this animal is pet, dinner, and transport.

Whoops, I actually shouldn't swear. Ponder hates swearing, and he might read these posts. We wouldn't want him to get shocked and fall off his scooter, just like he fell off his treadmill. Heeeeeee.

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[gypsylee]

Monkey bikes. Someone keeps using a vehicle around here that backfires all the time, coughs and splutters, and generally sounds like it's about to die. I can hear it right now. I'm wondering if it's one of these things they call monkey bikes. I don't think they're legal.

Ok so Monkey Bike just means a type of Honda motorbike, not a cheap piece of crap that teenagers get around on illegally. Whatever this thing is though, it makes a lot of noise. We all know how much I love noise pollution.

My friend (who can't get a drivers licence because of his epilepsy, so rides a push bike everywhere and knows about this stuff) said it's probably a push bike with a lawn mower engine lol. The things people do..

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You are either completely in love with the Honda Z series or you have no idea what it is. For those in the latter category, here’s a quick intro (which will then be followed by a longer story about the origins of the bike). The Honda Z50 was a street-legal mini-bike whose popularity was a huge surprise to almost everyone. It had a 49cc engine, five-inch wheels, and the first US imports in 1968 looked like Honda was trying to bring Oompa Loompas to the Hell’s Angels. Or at least the beach branch.

It was also called the Honda Monkey, both affectionately and derogatorily. The name stems from what the rider looks like when seated on the bike. Arms and legs stick out at weird, sharp angles and, depending on the rider’s size, backs can hunch over almost as drastically, making the rider look like a circus monkey. Right about now, you should be thinking of the bike in Dumb and Dumber (https://www.maxim.com/entertainment/original-mini-bike-dumb-dumber-2018-2). While it’s not the right model bike, it’s almost the same riding posture.
Even if you’re a bike purist, you have to admit you see the attraction. As soon as you interact with a Monkey, you’re in a better mood. It’s a miniature, fuel-efficient machine designed entirely with fun in mind, and that’s a machine that only the blackest hearts among us can be upset with.

[gypsylee]

I've been cleaning, tidying and organising my house. Organising includes de-cluttering -- I have too much stuff for the size of the place and I can't stand clutter. It's not easy getting rid of things though and of course money is a factor. A few things I own are just ridiculously big. I've started really hating these things, namely the vacuum cleaner and microwave oven. I was just doing dishes and looking at the microwave and its size, thinking how f'ing stupid it is and how much space it takes up. I want one that can go on top of the fridge but my budget is really tight for the next couple of weeks at least. So I moved the damn thing to somewhere I can still use it but it isn't in my face and taking up precious kitchen bench space.

Also, just putting this here. Sometimes I hear something I really like while I'm doing other stuff.

https://youtu.be/tluuTU-6X-k

[gypsylee]

Holy crap, this has just been released on YouTube :D

Sorry Sinead (and Chris Cornell) but Prince wrote this and his performance of it is by far the best.

Nothing Compares 2 U -- Prince

https://youtu.be/1NarDEEhOsM

[gypsylee]

Hope everyone is having a great week!

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[Dahila]

holy crap Gypsy you are one busy bee

[gypsylee]

holy crap Gypsy you are one busy bee

I have been quite productive. But I've been trying to organise my house for about a year and all I do is move stuff from one room to another! I'm actually getting rid of things now. My dad's even coming to help me get rid of big things :)

Or you mean busy on here? Yeah.. I don't have anyone to talk to lol. Well I do, but they annoy me so I'd rather talk to myself heeeee :D

[Dahila]

the only way I can organize is to get rid of a lot of things, Every year I get rid of new clothes or shoes I had never wear , I have a lot of it. it is not easy task Gypsy

[gypsylee]

the only way I can organize is to get rid of a lot of things, Every year I get rid of new clothes or shoes I had never wear , I have a lot of it. it is not easy task Gypsy

Clothes are my biggest nightmare in this. I spend half my life looking for things.. Just then I had to search for a pair of jeans and I'm thinking "it's a pair of jeans, not car keys, how does a pair of jeans just disappear?!" I found them but now when I have to get ready I'm already aggravated. I don't think I ever learnt how to organise clothes and I'm like a 15yo. I just take things off, throw them in a basket (I have baskets everywhere because it makes me feel organised but I'm not), then the next day I want to wear something completely different. So yes, clothes are gradually going in the bin.

How is your doctor situation? Have they eased restrictions there? They have here, but my doctor isn't seeing patients yet. I don't actually want him to because the telehealth system is so much easier hehe.

[Dahila]

OOOO the pharmacy called my doctor for prescription for epipen, and miracle occured he had read my email and send the prescription for a small dose of calsium blocker and it does the trick my blood pressure is down. It makes me happy cause i was suffering, he said that if I wanted to see him he can make an app for me, but honestly I do not want to see any doc, they are needed for script only ;))
With the clothes I am like you. You remember when I want to Poland and seen the closets of my sister in law. Jeezzzzzzzzzzz I wish I had someone to put my clothes in order. Gypsy I do not even know what I have . I have a lot I finally got read of sentimental value clothes ; that's make me laugh but I am bonded with some items. My messiness drives me crazy, Not kidding. The only place I am organized and know where is everything is my workshop. That my precious space :))
Do not feel bad, messy people are very creative

[gypsylee]

OOOO the pharmacy called my doctor for prescription for epipen, and miracle occured he had read my email and send the prescription for a small dose of calsium blocker and it does the trick my blood pressure is down. It makes me happy cause i was suffering, he said that if I wanted to see him he can make an app for me, but honestly I do not want to see any doc, they are needed for script only ;))
With the clothes I am like you. You remember when I want to Poland and seen the closets of my sister in law. Jeezzzzzzzzzzz I wish I had someone to put my clothes in order. Gypsy I do not even know what I have . I have a lot I finally got read of sentimental value clothes ; that's make me laugh but I am bonded with some items. My messiness drives me crazy, Not kidding. The only place I am organized and know where is everything is my workshop. That my precious space :))
Do not feel bad, messy people are very creative

Good! Last year I got really fed up with the healthcare system -- my Psych retired in 2018, then my GP went on long service leave in 2019, and generally they're privatising more and more services here. I was so annoyed I decided I could go without doctors altogether. I managed about 6 months but it was harder than I thought. Then with Covid my health anxiety got really bad (not over the virus itself, just feeling like I couldn't get help for other things if I needed it). I feel a lot better since being in touch with my old GP.. No new Psychiatrist because they're too expensive and even Psychologists are getting hard to see, but I think I can do without. But yeah, as awful as doctors are, they're better than nothing.


Self.. I have Suff cat ;) Photos are another thing I need to organise. My collection now stands at around 1300 (that's with me deleting stuff as I go) in no particular order.

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1954&stc=1


Also, last year when all I did for a few months was watch YouTube videos I went through a phase of watching funny cats and dogs. This guy and his cat made me laugh the most:

https://youtu.be/cG_NB2cQnGU

https://youtu.be/wCfa0IbyVrE

[gypsylee]

Hot and sweaty and anxious. Telehealth appointment with doctor on Friday, hopefully get some relief. With the state the planet's in I figure I'm at least going to make myself as comfortable as possible.

[gypsylee]

Also, do you know doctors know next to nothing about perimenopause? Including gynacologists and endocrinologists. Not because they're stupid but because THE RESEARCH HASN'T BEEN DONE. I've seen both types of specialists and two GPs about this and they all say the same thing -- you're menopausal when you haven't had a period in a year or more. So apparently women go from fertile to menopausal overnight. Try about 5 years (?) in my case and still going. Yep, it's awesome being a woman over 40.

[Ponder]

https://www.abc.net.au/news/2020-06-02/nsw-police-investigate-officer-over-arrest-of-indigenous-teen/12310758

[Dahila]

Gypsy, has Aus had any protests related to what happened in the US?

Seeing everything on the TV made me decide to start my own campaign for justice. Heeeeee.

Awesome avatar , Gypsy , Self it is good to see you , ;) I still have my winter pants on my armchair ,,,,,,,,,,, we already are third day on A/C 24/7
ooooooooooooo someone feels lonely????????

[gypsylee]

Gypsy, has Aus had any protests related to what happened in the US?

Seeing everything on the TV made me decide to start my own campaign for justice. Heeeeee.

Yes.. That and we have our own issues with racism towards blacks (Aboriginals). My friend sent me a good article this morning about all this. I actually got hooked on Twitter over summer when the bushfires were happening. Once that died down I got into some of the political issues and my god, it was batshit crazy. One night I had to log off because one of the muscles near my eye was twitching LOL. Like that character from South Park. Sometimes I'm really grateful for the time I've spent on this planet without any internet (around 25 years). Anyway I ditched Twitter not long after that. Facebook I'm only on for Messenger. I can't really stand any social media.

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2020/jun/02/white-people-racism-george-floyd?CMP=Share_iOSApp_Other

PS Ponder's life does matter!

[gypsylee]

https://www.abc.net.au/news/2020-06-02/nsw-police-investigate-officer-over-arrest-of-indigenous-teen/12310758

Hey Ponder. I reckon we shouldn't discuss the issue itself.. We only know love in this thread man.

[gypsylee]

Awesome avatar , Gypsy , Self it is good to see you , ;) I still have my winter pants on my armchair ,,,,,,,,,,, we already are third day on A/C 24/7
ooooooooooooo someone feels lonely????????

Thanks Dahila :) It's Marianne Faithful (she was Mick Jagger's girlfriend I think) and a singer herself. Similar to Janis Joplin but not quite as hippyish. I read her biography a long time ago.

[gypsylee]

Social media is the pits. I often leave it hating all mankind and wishing for an asteroid to hit the earth.

I have been using it a bit more recently, though, much to my regret. I've been reading about the riots, obvs, but also following JK Rowling. She had to get lawyers involved cos someone said she was a danger to children, all because of her beliefs on female biology. That woman is getting stalked like crazy now just for expressing a different opinion. I mean, what's messed up is she never said we shouldn't show all people respect and love -- she just has a slightly different classification model regarding what constitutes a woman.

Morons need to be prevented from congregating, not given entire platforms to bully people on.



EXACTLY! My message is already getting across. At this rate, we might not even need to riot, which would be a pain cos I wanted to loot myself a nice new laptop while protesting for Ponder's wellbeing.

Funny you should say that cos it was exactly that issue which made my eye twitch. I'm well and truly on JK Rowling's side. Within a few days of getting involved I'd been called everything from a TERF to a misogynist (a few other things). Misogynist was my favourite though.. I went out that night and screwed some hot sluts dude.

LOL. Good save :)

[gypsylee]

https://youtu.be/OXio40pl3FI

Yes I am discussing this issue because it's my thread and I do whatever I want, all the time ;) But seriously, those freaks aren't even part of the real transgender community. I don't know what they are exactly.. Kind of like the Westboro mob who protest and their core belief is hate. Same as the KKK boil down to.

I just remembered -- I was friends with/following/whatever this person on Twitter who was transgender and had had the surgery, who had been called transphobic by these people. That was maybe even funnier than them calling me a misogynist. The reason was the person was ok with saying "I was born a biological male but now I'm a trans woman." Where I come from that's not called transphobic, it's called telling the truth.

[Ponder]

Hey Ponder. I reckon we shouldn't discuss the issue itself.. We only know love in this thread man.

No problem. Do what you will with it Gypsy. Greta appreciates all the Love you guys have been giving her. Life matters.

[Dahila]

Such refreshing few posts, Thanks Gypsy my love and Self I hope you cooled down your ........... ;)) you both are fantastic, must be why we kind keep in touch Gypsy for about 6 years. Is that not?
yep it is your Tread G. heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[gypsylee]

Brat! ;)

Maybe the final frontier will be BLM vs the hyper trans activists. Winner inherits the earth.

By the way, did you see that Aussie news crew running away from protestors at the BLM rally in London? All the crazy killer animals ya'll got in Aus. I thought you guys would be fearless when you went abroad lol.

https://media2.giphy.com/media/l3vRe7vAbbFnKqbEQ/source.gif

LOL@hyper trans activists vs BLM. I would say that's going to be boring and HTA will go down in the first round. But their powers of lunacy are immense. They'd stand there yelling at the blacks, calling them neo-Nazis and KKK, and just stun them with insanity.

No I didn't see the Aussie news crew running.. Doesn't surprise me though. The left-wing govt news has gone pretty PC mad and the right-wing have always been soft heh. I saw this though:


Meanwhile, in Australia

As rioting rages in the US and President Donald Trump hides in a bunker with his Bible, Australian PM Scott Morrison stands on a guy's lawn.

https://youtu.be/t17O2AKa2FU

[gypsylee]

Such refreshing few posts, Thanks Gypsy my love and Self I hope you cooled down your ........... ;)) you both are fantastic, must be why we kind keep in touch Gypsy for about 6 years. Is that not?
yep it is your Tread G. heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Heeeee Dahila :D Yes six years is about right. If I had come here that day and not seen you active I probably would have run away.

Another telephone appointment with my doctor this afternoon. My whole hormonal system is in turmoil lol. As I say, there hasn't even been enough research done on the stage I'm at for the medical profession to work this out.


Symptoms:

--Irregular periods
--Anxiety from hell
--Sleep disruption
--Hot sweaty feeling (but body temperature normal)
--Heart palpitations
--Painful thinning skin on hands

All of those could be anything. But if there's one thing I know it's pain from my womb! I had it every month for about 35 years and given birth. It's unmistakeable and I kind of like it because at least I know what it is. And good luck to the hyper trans activists replicating that knowledge ;)

[Dahila]

Gypsy Black cohosh is really good for it, Generation of woman use it, You should also get mellisa aka lemon balm te and drink, before sleep. You will survive the phone appointment. For me is the worst to go to doctor to the clinic and wait in crowd
Your pm is a piece of **** too

[gypsylee]

Thanks Auntie D. :)



Lol. And if they finally break down JK, they might get access to some of that Harry Potter magic, which would certainly make for an interesting fight.



Only in Aus! I can't blame the person. Just cos the world's in crisis, doesn't give someone the right to ruin your lawn!


This is real (from Twitter 2020)

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1955&stc=1


This is a meme (Instagram 2016ish)

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1956&stc=1

[gypsylee]

Gypsy Black cohosh is really good for it, Generation of woman use it, You should also get mellisa aka lemon balm te and drink, before sleep. You will survive the phone appointment. For me is the worst to go to doctor to the clinic and wait in crowd
Your pm is a piece of **** too

I got a couple of remedies which are a bit stronger, courtesy of the pharmaceutical industry. I will remember those though. This is something that needs the equivalent of midwives for women going through pregnancy/labour/delivery. When I had my daughter in 2001 I went through the entire thing using the public system and it was brilliant. I had a room to myself with a double bed and an ensuite with a spa, and stayed for about 5 nights. I had an anaesthetist (I ended up induced with an epidural) who was so good I forget to include labour when I talk about bad pain I've been in lol. It cost me nothing, from conception to when she was old enough to not need much help from the system. I don't know how good the public system is now but at least they do their best for those women.

When it comes to women going through "The Change" you better have money or you're on your own. Some women don't have any trouble but it's been nightmarish for me. I try not to be cynical about it but it's as if you become irrelevant to society once you get to this age. I think more women are starting to speak about it because I've found some good blogs and stuff online but mainstream medicine almost ignores it.

Anyway I could go on about that all night.. Yep, our PM is good for making us laugh while the country burns and that's about it!


http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1958&stc=1

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1957&stc=1

[gypsylee]

This was the first thing in my YouTube feed just now so I thought I'd post it then think about it (rather than the other way around like I normally do).

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1959&stc=1


Ok, something that has always bothered me is people who take their bad moods out even on complete strangers. Everyone can be forgiven for being in a bad mood (especially with the state of the world at the moment). But there are people who can't even control their temper enough they're rude to say, the person serving them at the supermarket check-out. My daughter is one of them and when people were panic buying at the start of the virus she was in tears more than once because of rude customers. I thought, I've been in hospital Emergency wards in severe pain and not treated the staff badly.

People need to give more thought to how their behaviour impacts others. Some people have thick skin and can deal with it. Some people don't even notice or they come from a culture where aggression and anger is more socially acceptable. If in doubt, err on the side of caution and be polite. If I'm having a bad day even a smile from a stranger can make a difference. Just don't be a rude asshole to people you don't know!

I read Jordan Peterson's book last year and recommend it to anyone. I don't agree with him on all his political viewpoints, but as a Psychologist I think he's phenomenal. He's controversial because he's a maverick and people like ideologies. JP is truly neither right nor left-wing. He's an independent thinker with a brilliant mind. Anyway one of the things he said that stuck with me is just don't add to the suffering in the world. We can't all help other people every day when we're struggling to just get through the day ourselves, but I think it's always possible to not make anyone else's day worse.

[Ponder]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8EKuqqX6qKA

Woops wrong thread. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/laughing/hysterical-laughter-smiley-emoticon.gif

[Dahila]

yeah I am constantly hit with waves of hate; why? Cause I do not wear mask and have the courage to talk against it,
People often are rude do not think about influence on other life, Most of them are asshole. look up Gypsy
Have you seen Yessica Yanow? Our Canadian woman with penis?

[gypsylee]

I was busy listening to classical music and zoning out but YouTube kept putting this in my face and making me click. I'm glad I did. Prince's channel has been active lately (which is kind of a big deal because he guarded his music so fiercely it was hard to even find a clip on YT before he died). They just uploaded this 30 mins ago. It's from his last album.

Check it! https://youtu.be/hMLI7LFf84w

Peace out brothers :)


PS Prince was born in Minneapolis and died in Minnesota as well. I started on a "Prince trip" the week George Floyd was murdered (about Monday?) then after I read about the riots I heard him mention Minnesota in an obscure song I'd never heard. Googled him and found out his birth place. I had no (conscious) knowledge he was born in Minneapolis. Coincidence? Anyway this song is rockin.

[gypsylee]

Yessica is aggressive and vile. Yuk!

Poor JK Rowling is getting abused on Twitter right now for saying she believes in biological sex. Avoid that conversation. The replies will just make your brain hurt.

Lots of people are burning her books (cos of course book burning is always a sign you're on the enlightened side).

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/EZ3PssmWoAMPg49?format=jpg&name=large

I'm laughing and haven't even read the post. I'll be back!

[Dahila]

Awfull, people are cruel and rotten to the bone . I think we should all be dead, Nothing positive in humanity
except music, literature and art

[gypsylee]

yeah I am constantly hit with waves of hate; why? Cause I do not wear mask and have the courage to talk against it,
People often are rude do not think about influence on other life, Most of them are asshole. look up Gypsy
Have you seen Yessica Yanow? Our Canadian woman with penis?

You get abused for not wearing a mask?? Whatever your reason for not wearing a mask (I don't and neither do most Aussies) people could just stay away from you. In fact, being close enough to abuse you is pretty stupid if they're worried about the virus. Or do they use a megaphone? LOL. My pharmacist friend in London says unless you get the right kind of mask (and a lot aren't) and wear it the right way, you're wasting your time or even increasing your risk.

No I don't know about your woman with a penis haha. I avoid that whole issue because it's a raw nerve. I spoke with my doctor yesterday about my perimenopause in detail.. You can see in my post above my symptoms that have been going on for about five years now. Today I started a diary recording stuff because one of the worst things is having all these symptoms but nothing to show for it! I worked out I've had 3 periods in over a year. I've had an ultrasound (including "internal") and seen a gynocologist. I even got information from the hospital because I had my tubes tied in 2011 and while they're at it they take a biopsy of your uterus to check for things like endometriosis. NOTHING. Nothing obvious anyway. The doc said you can get cysts though which actually rupture and by the time they do a scan the thing is gone. They aren't dangerous but I've been in so much pain I felt like something was going to explode in there. He said "it probably did".

So I feel like transgender people have suddenly got all these rights while women have been overlooked. Are we not exciting enough for PC-Nazis/SJWs or something? Well I'm sorry but when I was born female, had periods for 30 years, had a child and I'm still suffering, I think I have the right to proper medical treatment before transgender people. Not to mention the fact that 50% of the population are like me and 0.00001% or whatever are truly transgender.

And don't even get me started on the laws/language thing in Canada. I absolutely love this clip of Jordan Peterson (Self, you'll like this too):

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1960&stc=1

https://youtu.be/UAfKiRgMSGc

[gypsylee]

Awfull, people are cruel and rotten to the bone . I think we should all be dead, Nothing positive in humanity
except music, literature and art

And comedy :) I'm actually reading a book related to this and how horrible our culture is for creative people. It pretty much places no value whatsoever on the imagination, symbolism, mythology, etc. We have a combination of consumerism and Christianity (which has always been so warped it's more a way to control people than a religion). It's horrible for everyone in fact, but some are able to conform to it better than others. A lot aren't even aware of how awful it is.

Goethe said, "None are more hopelessly enslaved than those who falsely believe they are free." Well I've felt like I'm under house arrest for the last couple of years compared to how I felt and lived in the 90s. At least I'm aware of it though. Australia has gone from the Lucky Country to a fossil-fuelled police state. We're owned by mining magnates like Gina Rinehart, the media is controlled by Rupert Murdoch, and the politicians are in the back pockets of both those.

Actually, George Carlin said this better than I can and he said it in the 80s/90s:

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1961&stc=1

https://youtu.be/-14SllPPLxY


I've gone off on a tangent there because it drives me crazy.. But some people are less evolved than others (that's a nice way of putting it hehe. Also if you're "left brained" you can fit in easier. Creative people are "right brained". Those aren't literal hemispheres, they're ways of thinking and everyone uses both. But how many people who are good at art/music/poetry/writing can make a living out of it compared to people who are good at things involving numbers or building stuff or organising things? A lot of people (like me) aren't even told they're good at creative things and they end up in education and/or work which is completely wrong for them. The culture just doesn't prioritise creativity at all (because it can't have a dollar sign put on it as easily).

It's a really sick society. To me it's so ugly and boring I can barely stand it. Last night I spent a few hours just listening to my favourite pieces of classical music. That helps my soul (and is proven to increase dopamine). Mum knows a lot about classical and recommended Faure. I like watching the orchestras too:

https://youtu.be/VoJIvffQYPA

[gypsylee]

those three things help keep me sane. And nature, but humans can't claim credit for that. :)



face it gyps, men are better than women at everything, including being women. Just joking. ;)

die ;) ......

[gypsylee]

Yessica is aggressive and vile. Yuk!

Poor JK Rowling is getting abused on Twitter right now for saying she believes in biological sex. Avoid that conversation. The replies will just make your brain hurt.

Lots of people are burning her books (cos of course book burning is always a sign you're on the enlightened side).

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/EZ3PssmWoAMPg49?format=jpg&name=large

I went on Twitter earlier. I just wanted to do a few posts then I left. That's my MO on social media now -- I post but don't interact. YouTube is the only thing I look at comments on and reply. It isn't bad like FB and Twitter. I don't think people like the TRA have done anything much other than sit on the computer on social media their whole lives. Have you seen the lesbians with dicks (as in biological men who call themselves lesbians? That shit has to be some kink rather than sexual/gender identity. It makes me sick AND anxious.

[Dahila]

So I am righ brained , ooooooooo self is here , yeah I am a lot on twitter , have nothing better to do , I mean I should work in the garden but I do not fell like it. I found Bitchute is much better to watch videos, Youtube better for the music ;)

[Dahila]

yeah soros gates, Rockefellers, Rotchilds they are everywhere. I do not watch mainstream media cause it is causing shortness of breath for me, due the stress, They lie so much and without any remorse.

Gypsy quote: So I feel like transgender people have suddenly got all these rights while women have been overlooked. Are we not exciting enough for PC-Nazis/SJWs or something? Well I'm sorry but when I was born female, had periods for 30 years, had a child and I'm still suffering, I think I have the right to proper medical treatment before transgender people. Not to mention the fact that 50% of the population are like me and 0.00001% or whatever are truly transgender.

I feel the same :))

[gypsylee]

I've worked out a bit of a system using the net so I'm not hiding under a rock like the last couple of years but it does my head in as little as possible.

--Just post on social media but don't engage with it much.. YouTube is the only one I don't mind reading comments on, in fact they can be really good (I stick to music and comedy because way less insanity).
--Read the news and only look at headlines and read a few articles.
--Email with a couple of good friends.
--Check Messenger mainly for my daughter and a couple of friends.
--Post here and talk to you guys :)

When it all gets too much I get offline altogether and do housework, read a book or switch to "music mode" and try not to even use my left brain at all. Classical is good for that but I'm still learning because I only started exploring it last year. One of my FB friends in America is a guitarist who teaches and has an education in music, including classical. So I asked him his favourite pieces. I knew some but he put me onto Bach. This piece..

https://youtu.be/ezZdbzreNcs


I also get on the exercise bike at least once a day.. Only for a short time but that thing is high intensity, which seems to suit me. Walking is really good but I hate where I live and it's really cold. I want to start driving to nice places and walking there eg. beaches.

I found that just sitting on the balcony (in the cold) helps. There's this guy I discovered last year via Russell Brand's channel called Wim Hoff, the Ice Shaman lol. He's Dutch and his wife committed suicide so he went into a bad depression. I've started turning the hot water down at the end of my showers (no way can I just get under a cold shower!) Here's the video that put me onto him. I like Russell Brand a lot because he had the same problems as me.

https://youtu.be/JPPlicAEFec


That's pretty long and detailed. Here's the one about the Ice Shaman's depression and how he started:

https://youtu.be/R_fqcruPL30

[gypsylee]

I need to sleep but I'm lying here half asleep thinking about how the world would change if people understood synchronicity. With science and rationalism as the order of the day, people have no idea how powerful they are. Cause and effect is real, science is real and it's very good at what it does. It's not the full picture though. I will try and explain this later.

[Dahila]

I am collecting clothes that is in walk in closet but was not worn for years , Soon will be collection for charities

[Ponder]

I need to sleep but I'm lying here half asleep thinking about how the world would change if people understood synchronicity. With science and rationalism as the order of the day, people have no idea how powerful they are. Cause and effect is real, science is real and it's very good at what it does. It's not the full picture though. I will try and explain this later.

This is why perception management is rated so highly by those controlling the masses. Despite that, the first place to start is with ourselves and disidentifying with those issues that spawn negitive projections from our own being. That being an extremely hard task whilst we live the lives of limited beings/aka matetial beings.

[Dahila]

Gypsy will wait when you are ready , I know beside all this, you are very spiritual. :) Yes we are a powerful beings but we do not know that...........

[Dahila]

yeah twitter is kind of entertaining now, and you can really know what is going on following just few cool people.
Do not follow Justin Trudeau cause he is a dick

[gypsylee]

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1962&stc=1

[gypsylee]

The hardest part is getting your head around this. But just look at these pictures for a while and what the things actually are (they are scientific pics).

From the get-go we are taught that the universe is like a big ball that goes outward in a straight line basically. It apparently came out of nowhere one day. If you're at all philosophical you would have thought about that and asked "Well ok.. Where did it come from? Where does it end? What was there before it?" etc etc. This used to give me the worst anxiety and do my head in.

Scientists have all sorts of answers to those questions. I don't understand those answers and I doubt many people do. So you're left wondering about it. That wasn't good enough for me to stop thinking about it and being anxious. What stopped me being anxious was Carl Jung, and Freud who taught him, and their understanding of the mind ("psyche" is a better word).

Human beings don't just have conscious, rational minds. The big problem with science (and our culture) is it puts ALL value on that part of the mind. This only happened relatively recently and only in Western culture. Like I said, science is "true" and it's fantastic at what it does. Give me science over religion any day. Scientific findings have been converging for a long time anyway, but mainstream culture lags and most people are stuck 100+ years ago. Partly because scientists can't explain things simply but also because it benefits the powers-that-be. As if the church, the government, the corporations want ordinary people having any power.

You think I'm going to come out with some New Age thing now lol. Like "I woke up after years of depression and anxiety and everything looked different, it was beautiful!" Nope, I've been at this since my early-20s and still going. I'm not enlightened by any stretch of the imagination. I don't even meditate because my mind doesn't stfu, ever.

I understand this though -- the rational mind we use everyday (by we I mean average Westerners not Zen masters) cannot understand the nature of the universe. Just stop trying. It's like an insect trying to understand calculus. The deeper levels of the mind can, but the vast majority of us only tap into that when we're unconscious ie. asleep. Dreams are part of this whole thing but beyond the scope of what I'm trying to say here.

Ok so look at this picture. Consider the possibility that the idea of the universe being a big ball that goes out and out and out is not quite accurate. Think about a spiral instead, or better yet, fractals (if you know about those). Try and imagine that the human mind is like a little version of the universe. That's the key and the hard part. Again, don't think too hard about it because you'll just get a headache or an anxiety attack. Just be open to the possibility that what science has told you is good but not that helpful for most people in this day and age in Western societies.


Synchronicity is based on this "spiral" version not the "ball" version. It isn't cause and effect. But things can happen which rationally have no link, at least no causal link, yet they aren't just random, meaningless occurrences. Why not? Because the spiral is doing stuff we can't rationally understand.

If the human mind is a little version of the universe, it's also a little version of the Earth. Bodies are 70% water, so is the Earth. We breathe and trees/forests "breathe". So that's another thing to suspend disbelief about -- that we are connected to the Earth but not in a causal way. The spiral is just spiralling out from the mind to the planet (the planet is not a dead lump of rock just somehow floating in a big ball of nothingness with other lumps of rock, which just appeared one day out of nothing lol). Seems plausible? Seems more plausible to me than the floating rock idea! Don't worry about your mind asking questions like "well where am I on the spiral?" or "which bit of the fractal am I?" My brain still does that and I have to ignore it. It's irrelevant but the "Monkey Mind" likes to think it's smarter than it is (especially when you're an anxious type).


Now, to work with synchronicity is about feeling powerful. That's the best way I can put it, but I certainly don't mean power as in being the President or having a lot of money. I mean a combination of powerful/passionate/inspired. How you feel when you're doing something and you're just "in the moment" (I'm not going to say anything about mindfulness here either). The best way to explain it is what I use, which is music, words and images. I use music a lot. But it's whatever "does it" for you.. Whatever makes you feel alive and passionate (happy is not a great word because pain can be powerful too, but that's hard).

One of the best "techniques" or "exercises" I ever heard for doing this stuff came from Alan Watts I think. He said something along the lines of getting in that zone I'm talking about and then "imagine you are the whole universe doing that". A lot of people's reaction to this is just "that's stupid I can't do that!" Again, that's Monkey Mind and it needs to shut up.

People also think they can use this to get what they want eg. Money, a certain person, a particular job. It doesn't work like that. The universe doesn't think like we do and it'll give you what you need not what you want (as an average person not an Amazonian Shaman, who wouldn't care about those things anyway). It does like things like truth, courage, beauty (that's a good one to use because the world is sooo ugly atm), compassion. I won't say love because it's so overused it's lost its meaning. Oh and laughter.. It loves laughter!

But what you can do is not sit there feeling completely powerless and hopeless. Don't beat yourself up if you do though.. I spent the summer in a state of panic and despair about the fires. It's only now in the dead of winter I can centre myself enough to get in this zone and talk about it.

I've got heaps more pictures, tons of videos, poems, quotes, etc on this. That pic is my favourite for trying to explain the basic idea to people though. So Exercise #1 (lol) is get something you find beautiful and imagine you are the whole Earth feeling the way it makes you feel.

Ok that's enough for now I think!!


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Fractals:

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=1964&stc=1



Fractals 3D (much better):

https://youtu.be/CqL6kkMTjRw

[gypsylee]

Re meditation.. I have so much trouble slowing my mind/thoughts down I've found that psytrance (a type of electronic music, nothing to do with "binaural beats" or whatever) is more relaxing than the usual meditation music. This one is good because it has visuals I like as well. But the thing with all of this is it's so important to find what works for you and what suits your individual nature. That's harder at first than being told what to do, but well worth the effort and gets easier. So if this makes you feel crappy, just stop it!

If it makes you feel good you could do the "I am the whole planet/universe" imagination thing using it :D

https://youtu.be/14kImeWf2Yg

[Dahila]

Self you know about our blackface and keeling to protestors , eh
Gypsy I actually can not use the meditation music I use Waves sound or rain to meditate
Just remember; our mind is like young monkey jumping all over. You do realize it and go back to the moment, Sometimes is good just to stand beside it and watch what our mind is doing. It gives you good idea what needs some work , or what issue is bothering your the most :) I used the lock down to retrain my body to relax as soon as I start following my breath. Sure I lose the concentration not to concentrate but quickly I move on. I probably would be dead without the meditation
By the way, today I went first time to market and it was wonderful to see people, to talk to my customers (they are awesome) :))

[Dahila]

I am sure she is focusing on something....... I hope she will be back

[Dahila]

I am fine thanks, Canada is full communism now, Still locked up, mandatory masks and next is mandatory chinese vaccination

[Dahila]

I am doing ok, The mask actually do more harm that good. Canada is screwed, on Makret is like 50 vendors I am the only one without it
the guy beside me should not even dream to put mask on, He had few hours of open heart surgery not to long ago, The fear tv put in the sheeple is awful. He rather die while wearing the mask that expose himself to imaginary virus. For me the worst is my grandchild starts school on September, actually high school (I am that old) and she will wear a mask, Wtf how will she get know the people if they all look the same?
I was sure the AF is already dead, and her self :) Gypsy will come back when she is ready

[salvator here]

Also hate the mask thing but have no choice.

Wishing you well, Gypsy :)

[Dahila]

Also hate the mask thing but have no choice.

Wishing you well, Gypsy :)

I am exempted cause my lungs are screwed, but I get panic attack when i do have to use it in my audiologist appointment The bitch does not pull her mask down, I have no idea what she is saying , I am suppose to pick up new hearing aids on Sept7 and I am writing all the questions on paper and force her to write the answers. She is in mask and the shield; idiotic

[gypsylee]

In Gypsy's country Australia, I saw videos of police wrestling a woman who didn't wear one.

AHAHAHAAAHAH Yes, we are a police state now:( :(

[salvator here]

AHAHAHAAAHAH Yes, we are a police state now:( :(Where ya been, stranger? How are you these days. Just (barely) managing here, I guess.

[gypsylee]

Where ya been, stranger? How are you these days. Just (barely) managing here, I guess.


I was really sick for a while.. In and out of hospital with diabetes complications. I'm on top of it now though I think.

[gypsylee]

Ok let's continue with my teachings about the nature of the universe :D

Fractals..

https://youtu.be/w_MNQBWQ5DI

[gypsylee]

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[gypsylee]

Still here.

See James Berich (DOB 4/2/1986; Related to Tayla Berich, Greg Berich, Vicki Mitchell and Kevin Berich; residing possibly in Leederville, Perth) I can pretty much man this post because I have absolutely no life. As you said, I'm an old lady, and we old ladies have nothing better to do than look out of our windows at the neighbours or sit on internet forums with no members or staff. I hardly even sleep, a bit like the girl in The Ring!! So you're welcome to keep having tantrums all over the forum but I'll be here.. Scrolling, judging.. I haven't actually judged the pic Pedro posted of you yet because I do this on a damn phone and can't see half the shit. But I'll take a look shortly :)


Hello to everyone else -- Dahila, Ponder, Salvator, Kuma, Suff, PanicCured, JESSE.. Let's make Anxiety Forum great again!! (LOL).

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Ok, so there we have it. I wouldn't be so nasty as to comment on your appearance though.

[gypsylee]

I forgot to mention his IP addresses.

When you contact the cops, let them know that he was in New Zealand during the following periods.

September 2017.
October 2021.

Used these IP addresses from Spark. So here's screenshots.

222.155.56.18 was used on Wikipedia.

If he was in New Zealand, they're going to know from his travel history. That's all logged as well.

This guy is an absolute dumbass. Like most trolls, they try to pass themselves off as being clever. But they always slip up eventually.


Oh bahahaha.. You're good! He's not even worthy of the troll title actually. I've trolled with more skill than that. He's more just a loose cannon basket case who vents his frustration in a public and obvious way. I doubt the cops here would do much. I'd use psychological threats, seeing as you know the names of his family. I don't mean "I'll kill your parents" but you can let them know what he's up to online :)

[gypsylee]

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[gypsylee]

Man, that was annoying. This website isn't designed for phones at all ��

Dickhead PMed me.. He was using my age to generally try and push my buttons but I get guys half my age, so that's not a raw nerve much. 36.. Yeah that's pretty sad. I'm deadly serious though - One of my best male friends who I've known for 20 years is in Perth. He and his mates are not the type guys like Fat Boy want sniffing around.

I gotta leave this site before I completely lose it!!

[gypsylee]

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[gypsylee]

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Sometimes I have some idea what I'm doing :D

[gypsylee]

Jesse, I can't find the Suff cat :( I think I was cleaning photos up and thought it'd be easy to find again. It isn't. This one is a bit funny:

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2063&stc=1


hahshahahaa. And this one:

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2064&stc=1

[gypsylee]

Just like one guy can have many AF accounts, so the self can have many forms. You are the self, and I am the self, and Ponder is the self, even though the self tries to forget that last bit.


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[gypsylee]

Fucking, at least get on Snapchat!! This is so annoying!

[gypsylee]

I've been awake all night. Stop making me act like a desperado :(

[gypsylee]

Get the fuck out of my thread Porky

[gypsylee]

All horrible things in this world, such as mental illness, natural disasters and Ed Sheeran, are just a way for the self to forget that most traumatising of facts.


I've seen Ed Sheeran.

I can't work with this forum. It's making me violent. Jimmy - Good work hiding your friends list at least. I can see people who like your posts though and I screenshotted a few :) I'm sure they'd be interested in your mental behaviour on here. So be nice

[gypsylee]

Why have you been awake all night? Does the reason rhyme with pethamphetamines? ;)

Nah, I'm like Samara in The Ring lately. I had to live with mum for about 5 months :\

[gypsylee]

Lots of people still play Xbox games in their 30s. I know you said James playing Xbox games at his age is sad, but so many of these franchises are renowned for their innovation.

Nowadays, games are kind of like interactive movies. But they're great to play. This is why I look forward to seeing the next entry in my favourite series, even if some of the ideas are not as good. You know?

I wish they would make interesting co-op games. Now everything is a genetic shooting experience. You don't do much of anything besides mowing down aliens or zombies. If they had the right balance, they could do so well.

Uh ok. Well how about you and James go play some Xbox together and I'll be at one of the forums that doesn't waste my time and energy.

[PeterAndersonIsARacist]

Man, that was annoying. This website isn't designed for phones at all 🤬

Dickhead PMed me..
No dear You PM'd me and I replied. I'm here for Peter not you but damn you really are like a little puppy desperate for attention aren't you?


He was using my age to generally try and push my buttons
No I wasn't, I was using your complete desperation to try to look cool and relevant to push your buttons, but you seem to have immediately seized on the age thing - that's on you.

but I get guys half my age, so that's not a raw nerve much.
I'm so happy for you - for what it's worth though, that's just the power of alcohol and the inevitability of statistics - It's not like you'd be able to find anyone twice your age in a club now is it?
(Also a wristy in the car park on grab-a-granny night isn't a relationship. Just putting that out there.)


36.. Yeah that's pretty sad. I'm deadly serious though - One of my best male friends who I've known for 20 years is in Perth. He and his mates are not the type guys like Fat Boy want sniffing around.
Not 36. Not fat. Don't live in Perth. Otherwise shaken to the core by that barb. Keep it up.


I gotta leave this site before I completely lose it!!
Please do. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.

[gypsylee]

What's the best flavor of Monster energy drink?

Methamphetamine

[gypsylee]

1. @takealookpedro - you're blocked by me and I've read none of your shit. I'm done with that whole saga and it's achieved my goal (see #3). Whoever you are you're a sad sack of shit posting all over an empty forum, a bit like Fatty James.

2. @TheScottishPedro is not blocked because he's been around a lot longer and seemed ok.

3. @the_self_of_all_selves will never be blocked because he's funny as all fuck and I may still have a bit of a crush on him. Well.. he might get blocked one day if I ever have my way :D


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[gypsylee]

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ACTUAL ME USING SNAPCHAT LENSE

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2071&stc=1

[PeterAndersonIsARacist]

I don't advertise my extra work in movies now, due to James. But yeah. Have you ever been in any films? :)

I can still be in movies, uncredited.

But Jimmy won't know. Ha-ha.

Not with your telephone-book sized Disclosure report you can't Peter.
Except for maybe true-life crime shows.

[gypsylee]

@the_self_of_all_selves Something smells rotten around here :confused:I reckon

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2072&stc=1


Anyway, DJHi-Tek, drop the fucken beat man!

https://youtu.be/SPyPzs9S6tY

[gypsylee]

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https://youtu.be/8Uee_mcxvrw

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[gypsylee]

There's a distinct lack of Africa in that report. 0/10 ancestry. Would not breed with. ;)

I don't want African babies!! I already bred with a Dutchman. I just want African dick :D


New Snapchat lense from my fave creator

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2086&stc=1

[gypsylee]

Legendary Scotsman

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/attachment.php?attachmentid=2087&stc=1

[gypsylee]

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[PeterAndersonIsARacist]

Despite my Edinburgh heritage, I don't really like the Scottish slang.

Ken = know.
Noo = now.
Dinnae ken= do not know.
Waw= wall.
Baw = ball.
Wisnae = wasn't.

It grates on my nerves.

yes it can sound awful but you really need to see it used in context to get the full nails-down-a-chalkboard effect (indulgent to cite myself, I know):




A typical thesaunderschild video upload transcript goes something like this:

[ring ring]
"Police Scotland, Elaine speaking"
"oh hai it's uh peetur andersun heer and i stay at two dash six greendykes hoose which is foorteen greendykes rood edinburgh eee haich sixteeeen foor jai jai"
"Hi Peter, what's your number there?"
"I doon't ken mum. have ye nae got that caller eyedee or that"
"Is it oh seven seven four three seven seven five five nine one?"
"aye that soonds aboot reet"
"How can we help you today, Peter"
"i'd like you to send the pigs roond to arrest my lawyer for stealing my edivence..." [or some equally batshit mental stupid thing]
"You what?"
[continues for another 15 excruciating minutes]

[gypsylee]

Games are like movies now.

They are. I bought a Nintendo Switch then sold it on Gumtree cos it was all too complicated. This new fangled technology. I remember when colour TV came out.. Then VHS!!

But obviously James “I’m Not” Berich craves the good old days because this crappy forum is more exciting than Xbox. Human interaction is still a bit overwhelming though, so he likes the fact there’s only three other people active.