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Ponder

12-24-2015, 01:27 PM

I gave up the Christmas shit years ago, however if you mean Xmas, then here's to also wishing you a very joyous one too Jesse.

With regard to Workspace Feature on the Desktop. Yea - I find myself using it a lot. It's almost like having two monitors in some ways. I am hoping to actually get a second monitor, but more so for easier reading than my small laptop screen.

I found Wine takes a little bit of learning. If wine is not installed properly, I think running the windows .exe files don't work. If you get it right, there should be an option on the Window setup icon for wine to open it. Also, only some windows apps work, then the ones that do work, do not always run smoothly. Having said that though, there are lists of programs that are preferred and also ones to avoid when using Wine.

I prefer to run most of the software as open source, however there are those few that would be nice to have, and with a bit of persistence, Wine can indeed do the trick. There is also other windows emulating software as well.

As for gaming - if you can't go without Windows Games - 95% of users recommended having windows installed along side Linux instead. Wine emulation for games is not really worth it. I don't even use Wine Steam any more. TOUCH WOOD - because I have a lot in that libary and don't want the invested $$$$ to dictated my move. I spent like other a thousand on World of Tanks over the years and don't want to just play a game because of putting money into it. People are fucking crazy like that. They cling to that shit.

In fact, I have found the break to Linux and it's focus on open source software quite liberating when it comes to being controlled. The games in Linux Steam, do seem a little more pricy, but again - not going to let that stop me from having fun ... fact is, Linux Gaming has become quite extensive there days. There is quite a huge range to simply install the easy way using the Linux steam store, and then there are a lot of guides on how to get other games to run as well.

Do you like RPG games at all ... or not into gaming at all?

BUT - like I said ... I think there is a place for wine with regard to some programs for some people. I am looking forward to weaning myself off all that monitorized shit though and eventually not having wine on at all. In fact, I uninstalled it already, however ... have a friend that wants me to use it. I don't think they understand just how I am over the whole windows and money spinning BS associated with so many bs apps these days.
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Whatever take you have on the Linux system and Wine itself ... I hope it works out to be a really good thing for you Jesse.

I've notices a few more things with Linux but will not bore you just at this point.

I've been wanting to do another video on it - but been busy with the family is all.

HI DAHILA - Hope the soap making is going well. Well wishes you you and yours for the entire year and all that is to come.

Adios guys.

Ponder

12-24-2015, 01:30 PM

I love too much information ... ahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaa Remember when it was all the rage for obese people (like most of us) to ware short pants and short tops. Reminds me of that. ;)

My wife and I would be driving along and then would go, ".... are they fucking serious?"

Ponder

12-24-2015, 03:53 PM

jessed03

12-24-2015, 04:36 PM

Heads Up! Steam is slashing their prices today!!! Picked up Pillars of Eternity Heroes Edition for 60% off!!!

To think I just bought Cities Skylines for more than twice just the other day. Doh! No matter though, that game rocks and I'm just glad I was able to get a little extra present today from the Steam Store. Seriously Jesse, Linux has really made me appreciate games all the more. Although there are many to play, I only have a couple on my system now and more than enough to keep me going for some time to come. I think World of Tanks will be my last install Game Wise.

But for now - I am going to do my own post of Pillars of Eternity.

First I go read some more of what's installed with that.

Just a quick heads up to let you know - IT'S WORTH CHECKING OUT THE STEAM STORE TODAY --- Don't miss out. :)

Oh, sweet! I'm actually killing it this xmas season (I hear you on the Christmas). I picked up a GIMP photo editing course that I'd had my eyes on for weeks. £250 down to £13!!!!

Also got a few sets of my favorite guitar strings. Down from £10 to £1.50

I'll have to check out the STEAM STORE. On Windows, my computer ran mind-numbingly slow. On Linux, it's like navigating through air. I'm much more open to getting into gaming and photo editing again, whereas before i was scared to open anything that wasn't my web browser. I do not miss all that shit running in the background. Not one bit.

It's 20 mins till xmas here in the UK. You timed that post perfectly. ;)

Ponder

12-24-2015, 05:08 PM

jessed03

12-24-2015, 05:23 PM

I like the way you shop dude. :) -

Make sure if your using Linux Steam (steam installed without Wine but rather installed through either the terminal or Software Manager)

If using Linux Steam - be sure to enable Game Platform Viewing:

Goto STORE
Then click on the GAMES Tab

Down the bottom of that list should be:

Browse by platform:
Then select:
Steam OS + Linux
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But you probably already knew that. Anyways - if your using Linux Steam, it wont install it - However? I may take your money before hand? It should not though?

Just saying is all.

Glad you have been getting in some good deals man.

Take care - and thanks for feeding back your experience with Linux ... would love to know what you think of the Linux Games if you go down that track.
Later Jess.

Edit - Glad I caught you in time. :)

Ding! And the clock's ticked over to Xmas. Time for my favorite holiday "hymn" of all time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IivaDS3eWrE

I didn't know that about Steam, so thanks. Was just browsing the store; hadn't really looked at the technical aspects. There are some great deals on there. Deffo gonna pick something up. Probably Skyline. I just can't stop watching vids of City: Skyline. I never knew that game was so deep. I thought you just got a budget, built a couple buildings and were done, ya know? There really is so much more to it.

Seems like something I could get lost in. The Deluxe edition is £29.99 down to £11, too. Freakin' sweet!

Ponder

12-24-2015, 06:20 PM

Thanks for the Laugh. Must send this one to my mother. :)

Yea man ... Until they came out with Cities Skylines, the SimCity 4 fan base has been left high and dry for a very very longgggg time.

I have spent a LOT of time watching tutorials on Road Layouts and Public Transport. Two major factors in the game among many others. I love how there is a LOT of micro management. Once you learn most of it, the managing aspect is a lot easier, yet still challenging to some degree. All those other pretty little attempts to put thier names on the City Building List, where all USELESS as for as having any control of how one builds their city.

It also runs pretty good on my Laptop:
Dell Inspiron 15 3000 series i7 version (only 8GB of Ram) ...I plan on getting another 8 Gig stick ... a much well needed boost for doing my video work and also games like skylines.
Despite being an Nvida Geforce Card with Linux - it runs pretty well for what it is. Again, I will show video of skyline later - Might do video from a tripod and external camera to show you how smooth it is. Being a laptop, the i7 cpu does not perform like a desktop one, I also need more ram - fact it, that screen recording software will not represent the true frame rate, whilst recording from my current setup ... having said that though ... I may attempt to show otherwise ... see what happens.

I am able to follow the vehicles and move the camera around form their perspective as they travel the city streets. Night time looks amazing as to all the interactions of people, animals, places and things. Some really good dynamics that all effect each other - unlike how the Sims games went down the tubes with tooooo much focus on graphics ....

Speaking of which ---- Pillars of Earth will soon be finished downloading soon.

That's a awesome price for that game man. I paid like $30.00 US just the other day. I hope you get it while i’s still on special.

Ponder

12-24-2015, 07:17 PM

My Ramble on Playing older Style Games: - but first I need to stop eating ... Let myself go this Xmas day and the one before it and no doubt the next week or so. LOL - All good, I got a good handle on how to pull up and restore myself once the sugar and processed food starts to clog me up once again. Time to get a coffee I think (lol some more) and get on with my next dribble I sometimes refer to as a post.
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My Ramble on Playing older Style Games:

I'm loving the revamp on the older 2D games:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1697/23845171552_8dba2692cf_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/Ck7JKs)

I have to admit that in the past whilst computers where still coming out with news flashes to present the next leap in advancement with respect to graphics ... that I was a Graphics Snob. As a result, I missed out on a lot of cool games. Although I had a good grasp early on with computers and evolving tech, when it came to gaming, I got lazy and went the way of the console. Atari Space Invaders had me hooked - my mind set during that time was just bang bang bang and more banging. The arcade centres where great for that kind of thing. I actually now think that playing RPGs in large blocky format was more for people who were privileged enough to have a computer in their home back then. The personal Computer was not so personal at that time and very few people had one, yet enough people did for it to later become the success it had become.

My brother and I were too busy casing out the local swimming pool to steal other people money and go play space and invader at the local pinny parlour. Best we could do to keep up with technology way back then. LOL -

ANYHOWS - later in life ... I got a hold of the first Nintendo box - a hug box by today's standards ... Games where still block, I think I still hit the arcades heavily back then - but when the super nintendo came out ... also the Sega Mage Drive ... I was starting to get impressed and also I note, an actually decline in Arcade Machines in service about the place. The mania over Arcade has now been replaced with the gaming console wars. PCs where still not on everyone’s Xmas list. With only a gaming console ... the only RPG game I think I could come close to naming on Nintendo was The Legend of Zelda ... and some would argue it was not an rpg .. Point is - some where playing RPGs on thier computers whilst some of us were not.

I was being spoiled with fancy 16 bit graphics, yet had no knowledge of just throw much I was really missing with Game Play Mechanics others were enjoying on their PCs. Hence I ended up just playing car games and the like. That was until PC's dropped from like $7000.00 to like $1500 or even $700 for an outdated one in need of repairs. Note, this is still like over 20 years ago.

My first computer was a Commodore Vic 32 then a 64 - then later a 286, then 386, 486, then into the celeron and pentium bla bla bla ...

Once I got into building computers - I had a new respect for computer games. However - as the graphics cards kept evolving, so did the hype. I got lost in it and was raving to all my friends like a geek that just could not shut up ... bit like now. I lost sight of game play completely - I was more into the escape of Emerson ... I guess it is a form of game play, but only one part of it. Although I still think immersion is a larger part (the largest part) of being one with the game ... I can now see just how blinded I was to the importance of the game mechanics.

The Irony for me was not fully appreciated until I gave minecraft a go like 10 to 15 years after its release. I was like ... WTF have I been missing. I was kicking myself I did not get more involved in my sons creative exploits with minecraft. Just as he was getting over it, I as now getting into it. In the same way, I am now having an AWESOME time exploring the older RPG games and also the re-releases of titles now decades old!!!
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The change to this older style of playing was not so much my switch to Linux, however that has certainly helped me see things differently ... BUT - more the lack of gaming content coming out in the latest games. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz When it was actually noticble, I was yelling about the graphical improvements to games, but no one was interested, NOW - the most someone can say about a new game is WOW - the graphics are Amazing ... OR ... they will say ... Narrrr The graphics are Shit! ...end of story.

I was getting tired of bang bang bang bang .... goodbye battelfield 2 3 4 COD 1 2 3 4 5 bla bla bla ..... Us older ones of heard it all before, and no doubt you will too.

I go get my coffee now ....... still downloading Pillars of Eternity.

Ponder

12-24-2015, 10:15 PM

So back to my Ramble - So it is with a new appreciation and a zest for gaming that I am now able to make the most of mobile equipment. Old games do not require massive amounts of data processing and or more able to be compressed into a format that requires less power. Settling for less gloss and more in game content, means more fun than before with boring hyped up and shallow games. After looking more into Pillars of Earth, whilst it's "still" downloading ... SIGH ... it reminds me a little of Neverwinter Nights. On the surface that is.

I actually thought the graphics were quite nice in that game. So it is that I now actually like the 2D enhanced graphics now done with those of late. Better than a lot of cartoon ones now floating about, however the later generations may be more partial to such a medium. Cartoon has it's place and imp, well suited to some acradeish type games. I just pulled a pic from Google Images, that reminds of of a MediEval Total 2 scene. I was doubly impressed even with the 1st version of that.

An In Game battle image from Pillars of Earth:
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1608/23870924731_c29d68534a_o.jpg

What would be way cool, is if you could zoom and AND swivel the camera for more ingame immersion. Images with less rendering allow for such control and devices that do not require powerful processing. Yet another advantage of playing older games with today's devices. I have always loved that kind of control in any game. Thankfully Cities Skyline gives such a perspective. I guess that would be turning a 2D into a 3D in some respects.

It will be interesting to control multiple characters and not just one. The following pic is an inventory of just such - Multiple Chars under your control:
https://farm6.staticflickr.com/5667/23325197574_374b02b6fe_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/BxaJAS)

Here's a pic of just taking in the scenes:

With the right kinds of ambient sound - I think this could be a good escape.
https://farm6.staticflickr.com/5800/23845167092_e6bf2ce62a_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/Ck7Hqy)

Here's an indoor shot - "looks pretty good to me":
https://farm6.staticflickr.com/5793/23585574239_b279ca5e7d_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/BWbevH)

Once I get it up and running and find myself in a few good scenes, I'll see what images I can throw together.

There's a few more screen shots at my Flikr Account ... There is an enhanced edition of Boulders Gate on Android that I will attempt to get going with my Xmas blue tooth controller. That would be Awesome ... to use my phone as a console with an RPG similar to the one I am showing you guys now and project it onto a screen of just use my TV.

91% downloaded ... getting there. Must be the Xmas traffic on steams. I bet Your sucking up the bandwidth while your sleeping Jesse. lol

That me done for the day ... Adios, until next post.

Ponder

12-25-2015, 01:55 PM

Well there is a huge amount to learn in that game. I think I have more than enough for now. Very impressed for what it is and happy I purchased it. Having said that though, with Cities Skylines already on the go, I think I will leave Pillars of Earth until I master Skylines.

Was a good manic episode while it lasted and I have something to show for it later on.

Back to Skylines and entertaining others for another week.

Another day of driving about. I think I have reached my limit of tolerance with the whole family thing and now tensions are starting to rise. Sounds normal, think I will take a back seat and let everyone else do the heavy breathing.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Ponder

12-26-2015, 09:48 PM

All's quiet on the western front. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zz

Ponder

12-28-2015, 05:35 AM

Really tired tonight. It's been great having the little one up here and I have been spending a lot more time over the last few days rolling around on the floor with the little guy. Thing is, it's all starting to ware me down a little. In some ways, we are all looking forward to gaining back our own space with the return journey about 4 days ways. Still though ... need to pack up early for that trip so as to put in some more quality time before the return trip.

Jesse - I threw together a quick video of Citie Skylines. My first City effort over the last week in-between whatever breaks and a few long sessions as well. I was and am still very tired, so please ignore the yawning and so on. It's no polished presentation that begs for likes and subscribes. LOL -

Might actually go watch one or two myself whilst the video uploads. I had to turn the graphics down, my setup now only a laptop and screen recording at the same time was very taxing on it ... messing the frame rates up and so on. It looks much better when I turn the graphics quality up and not recording.

YYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWNS ..... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I see if I can stay up a little more to post before heading off to bed.

LOL @ the car driving through the solar array ... It really is a cool game. Maybe I will do another video on it, when I am not so tired.

Take care.
Dave.

Ponder

12-28-2015, 06:16 AM

jessed03

12-28-2015, 12:53 PM

Righto - Video is up, but needs a little more time before 720 kicks in.

YAWNS - My first city in Cities Skylines:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUtE2BTSn_g

Notting special ... just trying out a few games install Natively without the need for emulation whatsoever.

Night Night. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sweet! I'm gonna take a watch of this now.

I'm just coming out of the back end of a rather nasty virus. Been a bit of a vegetable for the last few days.

Ponder

12-28-2015, 02:56 PM

Srry to hear you have not been so well Jesse, but glad your coming out of it.

I have not been able to work out quality settings for the upload to youtube. Seems to of degraded quite a bit from the final recording on my desktop. I think it still gives a general sense of the game. I'll one more quick with whilst not so tired and hopefully better quality.

For now, I need to start walking again, so I don't fall ill myself.

Take care bro.

Ponder

12-28-2015, 04:18 PM

Ponder

12-28-2015, 04:22 PM

Hey Jesse, no need to quote when not so many around. Unless of course its just easier for you to log in like that? It gets messy and seeing as I have said it a few times before, I also get paranoid when people keep doing it. I think that quote was like only one back? ???? Hmmm - the mind boggles. No wonder I talk to myself.

Hope your feeling better.

I'm going to write that quote off as a quick and easy log in for now. That way I know if it keeps happening, well ... then I guess I need rocks in my head.

Don't mind me ... just seeing what it feels like. ahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahjahahahaha hahaaaaaaaaaahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA bla

Just making a joke in case you get all weirded out dude.

I kind of have a few on iggy who did not listen was all ... I actually don't mind you.

Ponder

12-28-2015, 04:31 PM

Righto - whatever the fuck your on about Davy Boy - Time to get the fuck off this thing and get some stuff done.

Also time to revert to writing in a style that only I know how how. Time to hold myself accountable for allowing myself to feel as I do. Get your chores done for the day, prep the food, pack some stuff up and pave the way for a few others too.

Sounds like a plan ... might even ring an old friend whilst on the go. Get in some more walks, some more sun, find some quality space ... Make up some mini goals too. Might make them in weight loss thread - or both. The journalling was keeping me on track ... and figure I could do with some more focus that my writings usually bring.

OK - back later ... see how I feel then.

Dahila

12-28-2015, 07:24 PM

Mr. Ponder, heheeeeeeeeeee are you trying to chase your last followers? Actually i do not like quoting either, no much ;)

Ponder

12-28-2015, 08:11 PM

:) lol ... HEY DAHILA - hope you have been doing ok. I like seeing you about the place. I like to give you space and enjoy many of your responses.

I could not help it today. I had to make a grandma comment. hehe. I understand fully why sometimes you have to spell things out the way you do.

How is your soap going. I need more myself, however the lady at the markets is not there any more. Will have to source some out from one of the health foods shops we visit.

Things at work going OK? I am kind of srry I pulled the plug with Facebook, but for the most part it's been more good than not. My wife and two daughter no longer use it. Just my other sons for now. You should of seen how the extended family reacted when my wife and daughter disconnected. They were meditatively shamed by others for doing so; which has only turned them away all the more. We all use Skype and my wife is now Using the Post ... LOL ... fancy that, sending a letter to explain why one is no longer using Facebook. LMFAO. We have also agreed that at the very least, email is more personal than social media for keeping in touch. Distraction free without the need to be seen.

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Got some things done today, but still need more doing.

Thanks for popping in Dahila.

Much appreciated.
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GOOD NEWS - if not already said. Looks like we may actually be able to start saving for a second hand motor home. Just a small one ... garbage by any tourists standards around these parts, however ... will be a dream goal for us by the end of next year ... if not by then ... hopefully we will have a pretty good next egg on the ways. I still got a few years to pay off my car - not sure how we will be aiming time wise. Looks like we I will have my inlaws to thank for sharing a little of the inheritance they have come across. It's not much if one starts to compare, but given the fact we are learning to live on as little as possible, we are instead grateful for whatever comes our way. Is good to see they are able to share.

Hopefully I will still be a part of this forum and can keep you posted as to any kind of outcome with such ambitious plans. Ultimate goal is to have a break from renting from anyone and just live by the side of the road. Illegally of course! :) I'd be over the moon if I indeed my wife and I can pull off such a feat for even just a few months.

OK - Time to get back to my self made mini routine ... for however long is may last.

Be well Dahila. Thanks for making my day. :)

EDIT - PS ... pleasePM the secret red meeting/forum spot. TY. http://anxietyforum.net/forum/images/smilies/smile0163.gif

jessed03

12-28-2015, 09:20 PM

Ah, of course. Old habits die hard re the quoting!

I managed to give that vid a watch. Really impressed with what I've seen of Skylines. Think I might dive in tomorrow. Goodness knows I can't watch any more crappy TV show re-reruns on the web.

I did LOL at the car going through the solar set up, btw ;)

@Dahls: Did you have a productive soap making session over xmas?

Ponder

12-28-2015, 10:47 PM

I'm curious Jesse, what shows were you watching?

springwater

12-29-2015, 12:41 AM

Great thread! I think I need to start journaling :)

jessed03

12-29-2015, 12:23 PM

I was just watching cooking shows. They're fairly innocuous.

Most shows these days are full of marketing BS or propaganda. Even though not all of it is bad per se, I just can't get into most of them.

@ Springwater: Go for it! Ponder threads have been dominating the SA section for a few years now. We must have racked up several hundred pages by now.

Dahila

12-29-2015, 01:46 PM

Jesse I made 3 kg of different Creams, and banners, packed the soaps, packed the creams, 54 new soaps, tomorrow I am making another batch of 18 and it should be enough for the spring shows. Yeah, xmas Eve was very productive in my kitchen , instead of slaving at the stove, I made a soap, and it looks better than my pastry ;))
There is nothing to watch on tv , I like nature documentaries though. No good tv shows lately ..........I probably will watch star wars again ;)

Ponder

12-30-2015, 12:35 AM

Figured this screen recording thing is easier than typing ... so threw together a Desktop Vlog. Dahila, that is AWESOME ... I am really happy for you. I know what it is like to be immersed in ones hobby and we have often spoken about how we are similar in this way. I bet you have learned even more since taking such a journey with your soaps.

Welcome Spring Water - I warn you I am not a full quid, but mean well for the most part. I hate religion, mainstream ideals and all like wise brainwashing BS ... other than that ... I don't mind getting along with mal adjusted people ... even those who think they are straight. Just wanted to be clear on that. The last visitor was a little and partly my fault for not being more upfront about my most inner self. :) Good question you posted in the main, although you most certainly don't need my approval ... I'm just sharing it because like I said, despite my own resentments, issues and or bias ... I do like to get along when I can.

Righto - Could not agree more Jesse and again ... none of us need have a tick and flick box for such needy comments. I must admit I have been a little charmed with Netflix's Black Opps romancing of ancient civilization's assassins. Presented purely in a capitalist manner that one could only expect of American Ideals. I felt like ripping off one of the X US army intelligent offices who was doing commentary of who the terrorists where and why the Romans needed to rape and pillage as they did. Sigh - Bit like the poor Brits who were in great need to conquer the world, lest they be without their cups of tea. :) None the less, I still gave the poetry a watch ... I enjoyed and had a good laugh at may of the re-enactments - especially the Viking Berserkers. Is a bit like watching the history channel and listening to the authoritative comments of what muma dinosaur said to the egg so many million years ago and that's why we all now have what we do for breakfast. No debating that. It was on the History channel man ... I tell ya ... God's honest truth. Is the way it is. No point trying to resist.

Time for me to crawl down the road so my brain feels like it has moved for the day.

Adios ,,, until next post.

My Desktop Vlog .... over and out!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MBzzKpFbNAE&feature=youtu.be

Ponder

12-30-2015, 04:49 AM

Good News, I solved my Firefox Problem ... I was able to reset my browser profile simply be renaming the Mozila Hidden Folder (to anything). Once I renamed it and started firefox up, it reset to the ini file to default and the problem disappeared. Apparently with Linux, most programs reset the ini ... even it you delete them. Learned something new through persisting in the forums. Phew ... now I know how to fix a buggy browser [most programs] in Linux without having to pull my hair out for days on end. :)

How many times in windows I screwed something up and was unable to reset to default ... great idea being able to do that in Linux. Good to know. Have an issue ... rename folder or delete ini ... something like that. Good to be back up and running at any rate.

Wont take me long to set my favourites back up. I am once again, impressed with Linux. Nearly lost faith. :)

Ponder

12-30-2015, 12:29 PM

If there is one thing to be sure, it's that taking the odd snap of the right subject at the right time helps to bring out what matters to me. Whilst my sight and hearing further degrade I can only express just how much more I appreciate the fading light in my life.

A pic to share for the day:

https://farm6.staticflickr.com/5832/23774251390_4d08d94d7b_b.jpg

Of course it's just my point of view. Just as without light there is no darkness. Whether it be for shining brightly or casting shadows, each needs the other in order to exist. It's a perspective thing.

Ponder

12-30-2015, 01:57 PM

Here, I share this one too. You get a LOT of plastic types over at the weight Loss forum ... bar the clinically depressed ones weighed down with such possy wossy back slapping types. I feel for the .. I really do.
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Yadda Yadda ... whatever Davy Boy. SO >>> How is the accountability factor going? HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Not too bad all things considered. We are nearing the end of end of year family visits. As well as being great to catch up with family and friends ... it can sure weigh my down when my space starts to shrink. STRESS ... pretty much spelt out as Xmas. Sigh oh Sigh.

But to put on my Possy Wossy back slapping face ... lets get all joyed up and prep for some new goals. Hmmmm ... pfft ... narr, that leaves a foul taste. Not my cup of tea or Sunday Best, I think instead I just call a Spade a Spade. Excuse my French. Man ... whatever I say, our language really sucks big time hey?

2 KGs! is about the damage with the fluctuations during this time of year. Not bad at all. More like 1.5 but I will say 2 for worst case results instead of embellishing as is so more typical.

WHAT TO DO?
I regress that is for sure. It's time to be more myself and get in tune with that. No holds bar or however it is they say ... let go and let loose. Bit of that mentality they feed us with those reality TV shows, minus the violin strings. Need to get out of the chair though instead of sitting back. Get my routine happening again.

Routine and Resolve. One feeds the other ... both good or bad. My choice. Given I have not busted although wavered a little ... I think a little re affirming will work well for me. TIME TO START EATING CLEAN!!! The whole no Junk Food is pretty easy for me now. I'm no saint (don't believe in figments) as during my wavering, I enjoyed some naughty episodes ... Oh Yea YEA ... more please. However I instantly felt the urge to binge and when pulling my finger out of my ass when once it got stuck, the headaches immediately began! Such remind me of just how clean I had become. The so called joy often preach with such indulging kind of then and there left. The ingrained perspective of viewing such food as no more than poison only made more sense.

"Fuck that shit, what the fuck are you doing to yourself Davy Boy" - You don't need that shit!", said the little train of thought in my head. Thanks Thomas.

So it is that I have been able to keep relatively on track and set to start my next round of cleaning out my insides.

I'm still on the Movicol though ... and having eased off the Epsom salts, now going back on that in small doses. Don't worry, I wont reavle too much of my but cheeks in such revealings. My hearing and sight are also prematurely fading, so I expect some things I'm just going to have to accept. I still think the doctors are pretty hopeless and thus far I have done a lot more to help myself. In fact, listening to them has made me worse ... but enough of the pitiful distractions ... let's keep on track.
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I'm starting TODAY - not when such and such happens ... TODAY ... going back to super clean foods (as best I can afford) ... the right amounts as per my needs and also ... the timings as well. My wife has since lost 2 dress sizes which is pretty good for someone suffering an illness as she, sitting in a chair pretty much 24/7 !!!

That alone has really emphasised for us, just how on track we really are. Other than stop eating SHIT - POISON ... all that stuff other take for the moment of joy ... "Oh but I don't want to deprive myself" LMFAO ... IS THE TIMING.

That and also having smaller sized ... more naturally sized stomachs. The hole snack thing before bed is more about stress and sleep. Is how we have come to see it. We are not so religious in claiming anything so if it's been like 5 hours (hardly starving for people eating clean) ... either of us might has something on the very digestible side to keep down the stress. Fact is - the psychology that comes with long term success, helps to see things as they really are. Helps to fucking squash that other train that says it's all about fun and taste. That kind of mind set will kill you as quick as your local GP. Point and Case!
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So Yep Sir Reeeee ...

I think we nailed this BS Xmas period and fallacy. We have in fact shattered many false beliefs and now all the more lighter for it in mind, body and spirit.

In that note, I wish all my little possy wossy back sappy Sunday fairy friends well and hope your all able to reach you far reaching goals.

God I love these little therapeutic ramblings that keep me on track like so.

Please do forgive the imperfections in today's post - It's how my batteries run - ... time to actually live a little.

Adios ... Until next post.

Have a Blissful and Fablplastic day. ;)
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Righto on with mine.

jessed03

12-30-2015, 03:27 PM

I'm glad you sorted out your Firefox issue. You're starting to talk about Linux like a pro now ;)

I'm only having the one issue myself, and that's with iTunes. It's stupid they won't allow their software on Linux. Pure greed, and exactly what happens when a company gets too big. Instead of being grateful for users, they start manipulating these users' behavior.

There are some good iTunes subs on Linux, so I'm not going to switch back to Windows, but it's annoying I can't get deep into my settings from them. I need to change volume settings so I can hear my podcasts better. I accidently reset the device which activated the volume limit again. I only have the cheap shuffle too, so I can't do it internally.

Ah well, that's my New Year's Res. Find a Windows computer and sort out volume on my device. Sucks going out with listening to podcasts.

In hindsight, I should have done a dual boot... I was just so sick of the Windows OS and was psyched to finally be rid of it. Did you go full Linux, or have you still got a Windows DB?

Ponder

12-30-2015, 09:30 PM

Hey Jesse. Thanks for the encouragement with Linux. It has helped me push through a few issues so that indeed, I am only using Linux without windows at all. I in fact NUKED the recovery partitions on my Laptop so that even if I wanted Windows back, I can no longer do so without actually buying a new copy. That's how OVER Windows I am. Yep - Only Linux for me.
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NOW - in saying that. I too had a few moments where I was like FUCK IT ... WHAT HAVE I DONE!!! BUT ... it truly has been liberating if not only to adopt a new train of thought and a practice in letting go of what I can only term as conditioned thoughts.

Allow me to use World Of Tanks as my Trigger for "WTF Have I done!" I have spent close to a thousand $$$ over the years on that game alone and despite my claims of heavenly insights, something in my loves to jump in a tank and go and kill. Point is, that game will not run natively on Linux and been one of the main windows programs that made me wonder if I had done the right thing.

I soon reminded myself about the virtues in letting go. I have since found equally as good games I can play. (Like war-thunder ... as equally impressive, more so with the planes!) Going along those lines I have been happy to take on new challenges such a Gimp to replace photo-shop Cs6 and likewise with everything else.

I know I have already said this before, just drawing a context with respect to iTunes, as indeed there are Subs and I have today since looked more into those with you having now just made mention.

I infact wanted to install iTunes myself, so searched high and low, but have to agree ... it simply will not run correctly. I do have WINE installed, and that is the only way I will attempt to run anything that warrants having a windows based program on my setup. I use it for a text to speech program which is actually free-ware at that. I smile, because the only windows program is in line with the open source concept ... for the most part I guess ... until you get to the part ... sing up here. LOL (nar it's all works)
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srry dude too much info ... which is why I have found it easier doing vids.

I looked into Banshee and don't mind the way it looks, but still looking into it. I like the online content and in fact started listening to a good book via Banshee and LibiVox which the later I have on my phone. The narrator reminded me of Dr. Phlox the chief medical officer aboard the starshipEnterprise - The last series when they changed intro. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phlox_%28Star_Trek%29

Anwyays ... yadda yadda - PODCASTS is my thing as well. I use mostly TuneIn Radio Pro on my phone, however looking forward to sinking my teeth deep with the Linux way of doing things. Truth is man, I think a lot can also be source on the web ... the front ends / GUI web pages now in use seem a good way of doing things ... just sing in as setup ones profile for that kind of thing. I think it's the way to go.

iTunes is too corprate for Linux, however the way things are going with the damn search engines, it seems some distros of linux are falling under a spell ... $$$$$$$ - yet I see how it is that money rules no matter what and in some cases a transition needs to be endured before things can truly become care free for all. BTW - I worked out how to get rid of all those BS search engines and just use Google ... LOL - How hypocritical does that sound. hehehehehe

DUDE --- ABOUT THE SOUND ...

What program are you talking about? - with the volume limit I mean?
Do you mean one of the substitute programs you are trying to use/learn and Linux drivers all messed up?
Your using the same distro as me ... Linux Mint 17.2?

The guys at the forum are pretty good with helping out with that sort of thing ... if your also up to posting some screen shots and talking it out some more in here, I may be able to help.

What settings did you want to go deep into? There are ways to do so in Linux ... reset and adjust scripts and so on, without having to reinstall. How much have you set up your Linux? If not too much, maybe a reinstall is just as easy.
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Srry if I have not understood that part well enough, I would like to help if I can. Have you tired the Mint forums?
I have persisted with several issues and thus far sorted them all out, I still have another ... but confident I can work that one out as well. Even with windows there is a learning curve to sorting out likewise issues with drivers numerous other kinds of things ...

In sumeray...all one has to do, is find new ways to getting by and learning new tircks ... once you can do that ... you will have been able to free yourself from an otherwise corporate giant. That is what the Linux experience is all about. Freedom ... they speak about it quite well in the intro of many Linux books ... despite the fact some distros are feeling the pressure to source out to a few corporates here and there ... perfection is not something I'm into so I can live with that and for the most part Linux is upfront about that kind of thing, unlike Windows which is always trying to sell such a BS commodity at BS prices.
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Srry for the huge ramble ...

Please do elaborate on your sound issue again ...???? Volume Limiter ... what program again? where have you been within Mint to sus the issue out?

jessed03

12-30-2015, 11:32 PM

Not at all. You're a few steps ahead of me in the process, so it's always good to hear where you're at, what you're doing to solve problems.

The issue was actually my fault. I was tired when I plugged my ipod in, and accidentally formatted it like I'd been doing with my bootable Linux/Ubuntu Usbs. That reset my volume setting. I dunno if they do it in Aus, but they put a volume limit on all musical devices here. Sanctioned by the EU. You have to go deep within the settings to get rid of it. On itunes, it takes less than 2 secs. On Linux I haven't been able to get to that section of the device yet.

You're right about Apple... pure greed. Linux and iOS are so similar iTunes should fit onto Linux without any fuss. But nah uh, let's hog the ball.

I think I'm gonna borrow my sister's comp and just change the volume on her Windows iTunes then be more cautious next time. If it wasn't for that one problem, I would never go back to iTunes. I'm happy enough with Banshee. Exaile is another decent program, similar to iTunes. Same look, similar feel. Less experience on that one though so I don't know if there are any downsides. Fuck Apple if they don't wanna share.

I might have a look round the L. forum. Problem is brain is like mush right now LOL. Struggling to comprehend things.

Onto another quick question: How are you getting on with Kindle? I tried to open a Kindle book today, but couldn't sort out the software. I ended up reading it in the cloud, which was fine (see, Apple, you don't have to be so ridiculously protective), but wondering if there's another way to read Kindle books?

I hear you on that freedom bit. Talking of software, it's so nice to be able to download something without getting a tonne of junk with it. Even when you unchecked all the boxes on Windows, your machine would still get bogged down with rubbish that somehow managed to sneak in. Life on Linux is simple, just, like you said, a few things to get your head around first. Once you do though, no going back to Microsoft.

Ponder

12-30-2015, 11:34 PM

Could you please link the device you are refering to Jesse.

jessed03

12-30-2015, 11:36 PM

P.s. yeah, 17.2. Rafaela I think they call it :)

That would be this one here.

http://www.apple.com/uk/shop/buy-ipod/ipod-shuffle/2gb-silver

Ponder

12-31-2015, 01:08 AM

Are you able to see any files through the Linux Mint file system with your ipod connected via USB?

Did you know to see hidden files, you can hold down CTRL + H that is the control key and the H key at the same time.

Here is a link to a Windows Fix, I was wondering if somehow you could access the files in Linux maybe you could attempt the same thing?
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I have had more luck with a file explorer program called Nautilus
Perhaps search for that in the Software Manager and install it ...
Then use it to explore your ipod and use the CTRL + H keys to see if you can bring up hidden files on your iPod.
Be sure to use the ctrl H keys in each folder to be sure you don't miss anything ... I think you just need to be able to open hidden files within the Device folder as explained below:
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with Deleting the file _volumelocked located inside "Device" folder

Read more: Simple Hack To Unlock iPod Volume Limit Without PIN Code | Megaleecher.Net (http://www.megaleecher.net/Unlock_iPod_Volume_Limit_Code#ixzz3vsqM0dOW) http://www.megaleecher.net/Unlock_iPod_Volume_Limit_Code#ixzz3vsqM0dOW

Or is the restart options different for the shuffle ... the folder structure and so on?

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Given that they are talking about hidden files, maybe we can use the CTRL H keys to at least bring more options up?

Let me know how you go.

Ponder

12-31-2015, 01:19 AM

I can see now how you have no read out on your device (is that so)

Would resetting the device get you past the volume issue or is the volume limit a default setting in which case resetting may have no effect?

https://support.apple.com/en-au/HT201605

Edit ... if your unable to get by with the first fix I found ... perhaps a factory reset will be ok ... provided we can confirm a Linux media library that works with your iPod ... I did read somewhere that one version of media player does in fact support iPod ... I keep reading.

Ponder

12-31-2015, 01:37 AM

Note - 4GB model discussed:
http://askubuntu.com/questions/43759/what-program-should-i-use-to-manage-an-ipod-shuffle-4g

Some people say Gpodder and Banshee get them by with the iPod Shuffle -
I do Note though that with Banshee ... be sure to install the common extensions:

apt-get install banshee-extensions-common

only if you already have Banshee installed - otherwise be sure to install Banshee first:

Install Banshee through the terminal:
http://ubuntuhandbook.org/index.php/2013/08/nstall-upgrade-banshee-in-ubuntu-linux-mint-via-ppa/
I think I will use the terminal with the upgrade command myself.

I will stop now and wait to see what you can come up with. Perhaps you have tried all these things.

Here's hoping you can work something out.

I am think of just getting a basic Mp3 myself and ripping the podcasts to it in a simpler way.

Ponder

12-31-2015, 11:42 AM

Morning Guys, I'm feeling content this morning. Hope this finds you well.

Be Still and know that you are God.
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1512/24006268551_33be89831a_o.jpg

One of those moments where one has nothing to claim, other than what just feels right, without actually passing any judgement at all. Good place to be really.

Dahila

12-31-2015, 05:29 PM

That's awesome , Dave you already in year 2016 and I am still in 2015. Best wishes for the New year for you and your family.
Best wishes for all the people who come here, and to my friends:)) I hope this year will be easier for everyone, filled with happiness and love:))

Ponder

12-31-2015, 11:53 PM

Just what this place needed. An artisan grown flower to brighten up the place. The real deal! Same to you Dahila. I hope you wow the markets this year with a new mix of soaps.
Wishing you all the best for 2016.

Ponder

01-01-2016, 05:41 AM

Dahila, are you still practising meditation? I never "really" got into a regular routine with it. (I did, but did not keep it going like the healthy eating I've done this year) I am thinking seriously making a New Years Resolution to start practising on a regular basis. I found some cheap books that seem to profile as fairly decent. Google Books through the App Store.

epub converts really well to my kindle via the Calibre apps. They end up as good as an original Kindle/mobi/Azw3 or whatever it is. I find Kindle is not quite as polished when converting to other formats. Anyways ...

I bought some books on Deep Mediations, self Hypnosis and Healing through Guided Imagery. They are awesome topics and a pleasure to listen to with the text to speech.
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I'm going to combine the lessons I learn from these books and incorporate them into another study I am undertaking through another website ... creating my own self hypnosis - guided meditations.

That's my angle for this years project on top of my continued healthy eating.

Again - I hope you do really well in whatever it is that your aiming to do.

Srry I lost my cool in that other thread. I have since moved on and happy to just keep my nose clean in here for a whiles.

Other than that episode, I am feeling pretty good. Thanks again for the well wishing.

Dahila

01-01-2016, 06:21 AM

Meditation is what helps me to survive, with my anxiety I used self hypnosis too, for a few years, I do meditate with tarot cards, and it is not strange, it is mind opening. I actually sell more creams that soaps, but hopefully it will change when I start to attend the spring and summer craft shows. My first year will be on minus but that's ok. I am following my passion. Oh that idiot in The awful thread make me furious. I hate people like that. Trying to put labels on us, and find some buyers here...........

Ponder

01-01-2016, 01:00 PM

Opening our minds within a safe place is key hey? Whilst it may be intrinsic in me and also the path I have travel, has seen me with a seemingly iron will, I think there is really something to opening ourselves up that we may allow ourselves to be open for suggestion. Now that sounds pretty scary hey. LOL - Yet there really is something amazing doing just that in our own little safe place.

When I first met you Dahila - I felt strongly that you had such an ability. Remember how we spoke about the trees. :)

I try not to get lost in that there thought - but just wanted to connect with you once more an a level that I know is healing for us both. Our bias's get in the way of seeing people for they really are. That last thread and my allowing of my own emotions to be well up and free themselves like so, has made me feel even lighter than I was before. Like many others in here, you have so much wisdom and I'm all for opening myself up for the warmth in that. Unfortunately those closest to me, are unable to see that side in me ... but that is ok. I like to believe they can and it's just more a case of working out how to move whatever obstacles each of us must in order to tread trouble free.
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I made it through this latest family visit. PHEW - my space was pretty much shrinking fast. Trailer is just about prepped with only a few little things to throw in at the last minute. Going to visit Mother and Father in-law. (Is good to say we have worked through issues and all get along) ... maybe stay the night if the little one is still not sick. Poor little guy picked up a bug ... I think a few of us did. Not to worry, I think everyone is in good spirits as we all soon prep to find our own space once more. It's been a good visit for the most part. I was perhaps ... well in fact I am sure of it ... I was inappropriate as usual and misunderstood. Some in here may know the drill as an abnormal door mat that others quickly like to use and wipe their feet. LOL - I am proud to be if it helps my family get my in this shitty little world.

BUT - is OK ... I think they know more more as Nature Boy with this weird yearning to reach out and make friends on the Net. Can't be that bad running around taking photos of flowers despite my ticking bomb. It all evens itself out for the best parts that later need drawing up I thinks to myself. Learning to be more myself and discover the best in that is pretty much on the cards for now.

I best get the last things ready for the next few days journey.

take care all.

Catch up when I can.

Thanks again for all your support.
Much appreciated.

Ponder

01-01-2016, 01:21 PM

Just quickly - Remember when I got into the drone fad. That was awesome hey. :) This is the place I am moving too. For me, it's quite populated and will be interesting to see how I go mixing with so many people again. I was living about 20 km further down the coast on the beach - whilst it was a good spot, it has way too many swampy sand insects that constantly bit keeping many people indoors more than they like to admit. I am looking forward to being closer to the town library.

I since sold my drone as many people here got paranoid and I did not like being approached. Laws have also been changed to make sure people can not easily get photos like this:

The place I am moving too:
( Not on the tip, but further back to the right a little closer to town)
https://farm4.staticflickr.com/3931/15246628017_209453fa63_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/pehXjR)
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Remember this one Dahila - Is good that I have many images to draw from ... I will take this atmospheric shot with me to town:

https://farm8.staticflickr.com/7311/13892648098_74f2f58ffc_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/naDsgu)

Righto ... on with the show.
Catch up later. ;)

jessed03

01-01-2016, 04:27 PM

Ponder those pics are spectacular. I bet governments around the world are shitting bricks at the thought of being watched by drones. Gives people a chance to see what really goes on. Sorry, I mean I bet governments are shitting bricks worrying drones will be used for "terrorism". That's the line they use to get their way, isn't it? ;)

I've also fallen off the meditation bandwagon. One of the things I want to do a lot more of in 2016. Up their with healthy eating.

I've been watching Jon vids today. Here's one of his very best, imo. Maybe it'll inspire you to get back into the practice again like it has me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ydmdJlqC5s

I wish they could get him to narrate loads of audiobooks lol. His voice is so calming.

@ Dahila: Few questions :)

How do you meditate with tarot cards?

Who are you selling your soaps and creams to? (Don't worry, not gonna muscle into your patch!)

Always good to see you pop into the thread. I hope '16 is a good year for your business, but not too good that you're too busy to come say hi!!!

Ponder

01-01-2016, 06:19 PM

Spot on with the media hounding the use of drones. Just sharing the driving at the moment and was talking just about that. All athorities from government down to local councils and most people brainwashed by the News. Your right , locals get to see a LOT more of whats really going on from such a perspective.

... this world is going to be held back from ever evolving into a free society whilst its focused on controlling like so. There is way more tech out there that's being held back for fear of empowering and enlightening otherwise docile citizens.

Hey man, did you try those tips I mentioned with your ipod shuffle or did you already say?

Pulling over at petrol station now ... catch up later. ;)

Ponder

01-01-2016, 06:23 PM

Ps ... thanks for link. I love John Kabat-zin ... will check out for sure ;)

Ponder

01-02-2016, 01:59 AM

"The Full Catastrophe along side the Insane Beauty" half way into John's message very much in tune with it. Going back in for more of John. This is good stuff, just what I needed. Thanks Jesse.

Ponder

01-02-2016, 03:20 AM

3rd to go ... being self involved = a form of violence. Interesting and concearning, given how Society is in a spiral with regard to antisocial byproduct spawn from it's economic value systems. I'll adjust my focus from disconection/ dissociation to one based on the mindfullness/meditation to find much needed space (in said shrinking world) that whilst striving for disidentification ... one evolves and becomes open to the service of others with a better apreciation and deeper understanding of what being connected really means.

Whilst yes, I am my own audiance ... I now understand more why I hope others read. Not so much a needyness spawn from environmental conditioning, but as much to do with how we are all interconnected regardless of past, present and future.

Interesting ... yes ... it is as inspiring as it is hopeful for those of us looking to fit in ... I think I understand well this notion of a self centered world that becomes violent and how we lonely ones also become as conflicted as those who only love themselves.

Going back in for the final 3rd.

Ponder

01-02-2016, 03:40 AM

45 second meditation ... sounds like a plan.
Exccellent presentation. Reading his Book ... " Wherever You Go There You Are" will help this talk digest all the more.

Goodnight Peeps zzzzzzzz Time to reboot. :)

Ponder

01-02-2016, 12:41 PM

Thoughts, thoughts, they come and they go,
Some come fast and some come slow.
Complacency speeds up time,
Just as fear tends to grip.
... and then before you know it,
Procrastination - hits.

Often leaving a bruise,
On the inside of my head,
I struggle with thoughts,
That have already been said.

Even when my body tires,
Thoughts keep spinning in my head.
Even when my memory fails
Worn out thoughts are then replaced.

As my words begin to fail,
... and even when waking from my sleep,
I brace myself and prep my feet -
Because whether I like it or not,

... arrrr fuck it, I think I will take a walk instead.

Morning peeps. Embrace whatever comes and be sure to rest inbetween so that whatever moment comes, is the one in which your able to take a breath.

Bit like Sonic the hedge hog with racing music looking for a bubble. Smiles at such a thought. Life sure can be fun.

Wish me luck in todays traffic.

Hope this finds you all well. :)

Ponder

01-03-2016, 01:37 AM

Hi guys, just doing the abnormal thing by logging in yet again and pretty much talking about nothing inparticular. Mum and Bub are back at home now. The stop over at the inlaws went well enough. Going to stay 2 night at my daughters before making the long trip home. Three days later we get the keys and will then be moving house.
I can see I will have to pace myself.

Źzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz think I will start about now.
Night Night.

Ponder

01-03-2016, 01:42 PM

The Rise of Inner Silence – The Witness
We have talked about inner silence, particularly from the viewpoint of cultivating it in deep meditation – traveling the path of inner purification. Now we will look at it more from the side of experiences in our daily activity.
This is not a philosophy we are espousing here. In scriptures and philosophical treatises we can read long dissertations on the nature of consciousness and the nature of life. The mind can try to grasp all this, and what will it mean? Not much. We can’t know what an apple tastes like until we bite into one. It is that simple.
The proof of the pudding is not in looking at it, but in eating it!
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That was an excerpt from "Deep Meditation - Pathway To Personal Freedom" by Yogani. (From the AYP Enlightenment Series)

I take note because it reminds me why I gain so much when writting from a personal perspective that seeks to embrace experience. Whether it be the reliving, savoring and or creating, learning to live life in such a way is just what this book encompases ... a pathway to freedom.

You have to feel it with your own words. I typically get very little when asking others what kind of pill is better than X, Y & Z. If I really want to know, I would do far better to take one and try for myself. The same goes for when I try and tell others of what is or is not. In this light (as well as others) I could not help but think of how the above passage relates to the futility of how so many of us trip over our feet when always in the mode of "telling others."

More over, a share that does more to encourage a healthier manner that allows for growth on a personal lvl. That level is also a shared experience which is service enough when it comes to others.

I'll finish this off by relaying an experiance when it comes to changing ones view. That is taking the time to bend my knee, to drop to a level so far above my own and greet my grandsons eyes with as much love and compassion I've ever known. I think we busted ones love kids so much like so, because of thier inate ability to give back what they receive - yet we do it as much ourselves through our intent.

...but it's that shattering of preconceived BS, that comes across more in the form of warm fuzzy rays that soften my rock. To be sure it may not last long knowing what's installed for all the world's little ones, which makes embracing such experiance that much more important to share.

Kids have a way of breaking barriers like so. There is a major state of decline with how todays world treats it children - but my main aim with this post is not so much just how I view my own kids, or that of someone else's, but as much myself .. AND once more ... back to our own personal experiance in all that we say and do.

Time for a walk.
Peace Out. ;)

Ponder

01-03-2016, 09:53 PM

Doin that abnormal thing logging into a forum again. :)
Nearly Home ... trailer is feeling much lighter as too I. Will soon be past all the hills.

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1578/24136935956_1753e935cf_b.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/CLU79d)DSCN2895 (https://flic.kr/p/CLU79d) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1635/23795243249_f1f3c0a9d5_b.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/CfGQND)DSCN2892 (https://flic.kr/p/CfGQND) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

Don't worry, I won't take the camera into the toilet with me. ; )

Dahila

01-04-2016, 11:34 AM

Hey I know you hate driving but the sighting is incredible;)) I am happy that you do this abnormal thing (logging in AF again) very happy!!
You, Mark, John, Jesse, you always bring a smile to my face, it is not huge group but quality is more important that quantity, is it not?

Ponder

01-04-2016, 01:37 PM

Fortunately Lisa has been able to help with some of the driving of late and we both have no problem with taking things slow. We also pull over from time to time and let others who can not wait pull out and pass us by. We hope that soon our driving will have no destination, so that travelling down the road will be more at ease. A GPS with real no purpose kind of thing. :)

I know what you mean with quality Vs quantity. I am as joyed to see you pop in whenever you are able.

Whilst I said things "went well enough" at the inlaws place, I was deeply hurt having been told I had not lived at all. Basically came from a judging perspective as often happens when having to endure repetitive ramblings on topics such as religion & politics from the heads of tables in hard working houses. The sermons are presented with a little more bitterness each year. Other insensitive comments questioned the need for one of my daughters to see a therapist and went on to express great disappointment that they did not finish a course.

I spoke up a little, but for the most part did well to remain as silent as I did. I said just enough to make a point, but remained silent long enough for the would be preacher to hear himself. I was impressed at the power of listening and thought about just lessons I had read whilst still the bitterness and judging was being imposed. It was quite sad to think that all this belittling was pitched along side the offerings of an inheritance from a family death I mentioned on my last visit.

I did my best to explain that Lisa and I no longer cared about money and that in fact "the chasing of it" is what makes life hard ... not all the shortcomings of myself and all my kids. I kind of made another point that is was sad that these kids of whom he was struggling to "account" were not present to hear for themselves. I think that did not go down well, as that fact kind of highlighted just how such judgements do more to push people away rather than help. On that note, my own mother blames me for my kids no longer choosing to see herself. Alas, my kids our more than old enough to make decisions for themselves. Both sets of parents are well invested in both emotion and money ... ideals and all those kind of things. It's the value systems of these sets of parents and the way in which they express their beliefs that have revealed the morality as to my supposed short comings and that of my kids. My kids are pretty smart, they see and make decisions for themselves.

Lisa was a little upset that I said we did not care about money, as I know she has her heart set on saving for whatever crappy motor home we can get ... BUT ... I am more and more coming to see just how important it is to not to sit around in wait ... The old saying and a name most recently chosen by a new user to this forum "waitingforatrain" and one I just read the other day - "Waiting for a miracle"

The comment that hurt me, was more my Ego and wanted it to be only about me - but for the most part ... this logging in thing of late has also helped me see ... Living a life can never be compared and only serves to push others away when attempting to tell of others and that kind of thing. I am always pointing our such facts as so often happen in here as people tackle their pain. Perhaps my own gains, silence, and just enough of speaking and not exasperated their toxic views ...

At any rate - I came up with the following tune upon rising this moring as some kind of attempt of antidote to an otherwise toxic bite that left me feeling a little off:

"If the measure of living is stacked against time,
based on the size of ones house and how hard one's lived;
then nothing could make me more content,
than to say that I have not lived." By David Kynaston.

I don't know ... but I am appreciative to of learned how not to know when I first heard John Kabat-zin on Youtube ... He was doing a presentation to the Google Team on Mindfulness. Yep - whatever comes is what comes. I am content with whatever is and seek not to prove anything or being anyone. I need no measuring stick with which so many get hung up on and then take to beat themselves & others with.

I guess at the end of the day, it was an empowering visit from my perspective as to just how far I have really come, yet I make no focus of it other than what it may or may not be.

I guess it's time to go and live.
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Peace Out
Dave.

PS - I find using words used to hurt me, an opportunity to help me. Such was the intent with my little antidote; and much of what I say in these self made threads.

Dahila

01-04-2016, 09:15 PM

Yes , we do not need much, when we have too much it causes a lot of stress. I go into my walk in closed, and I know that i really do not need anything, Whatever i have is enough to serve to the end of this life, I really do not want more. I am finding the satisfaction in what i am doing, Work is stupid and I am not even thinking that it is ending soon. The slow time is coming and instead of making 2.5 million profit, they will fire people. I do not care anymore, what a relieve. I come here to read, and usually I am not feel like posting. Please, if I keep quiet it does not mean that I do not spend time to walk or rant or whatever you do, I do too. we know each other over two years. :))
You are fortunate to have a way with words, :)

jessed03

01-04-2016, 10:03 PM

Exactly Dahila! I'll take quality over quantity too :)

Dave, I'm enjoying the pics of your adventure. How hot is it out there now?

Ponder

01-04-2016, 11:08 PM

For sure Dahila, I understand. Sometimes it can be draining keeping up with another's thoughts and feelings. Whilst I appreciate your kind words regarding mine, I acknowledge how I often write like a roller coaster and not every post is suited for an easy read. Combine that to the stresses of ones own life, I totally appreciate any time you have no matter how short and also how you remind me that although you may be quiet, that your on the side reading from time to time. Thanks heaps for sharing that.

I love how we both are much the same. How we have over those years taken some time to discover similarities. Especially the going from one hobby to the other like a run a way train. :) Many of us in hear can relate. Correct me if I am wrong, but I think Pam is a little like that? BTW, I hope all is as well as can be Pam? I'll also add myself, that I look out for your name on the side panel when logging in to see how grandma is handing out help. hehe. I agree some of today's kids whilst in great need of a gentle touch, also require a stern rudder to put them on track. Let us not lose our firm approach, but do our best to keep a genuine and gentle tone.

Hi Jesse ... Hot and Humid!!! The next adventure I will post being my first trailer load and the arrival at the new abode.

May I ask again - have you thrown your iPod shuffle in the Bin? lol hehehehe ... just kidding.

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Hope you guys had a good evening.

I think I will continue writing about the topic of hypnosis ... for self help and self learning as I sporadically do. Thankfully much of it sticks as I tend to come back until what matters sticks. I begin my next ramble.

Ponder

01-05-2016, 01:53 AM

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This other book I am into ... "An Introduction to Hypnosis & Hypnotherapy by Damian Hamill" has been an interesting read thus far. I've scanned about the web for cheap sources as well as free info:

Here is a little Youtube vid that sums up the benefits of Hypnosis in as little as 1 minutes and 22 seconds:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVrudNg5ju4

Learning about hypnotherapy has actually revealed a LOT about many of forms of psychotherapy. For me, I am drawing between the science and metaphysical concepts that abound. The latter I have really opened myself up to in recent years. I've been rather sceptical of clinical psychotherapy because of my distrust in Society itself. This kind of makes Hypnotherapy an attractive alternative because the ability to hypnotise is in all of us. Self Hypnosis is my main aim. In fact from all my years of being subject to various forms of therapy, No therapist has ever been able to establish a report with me, that has not taken the time to listen and feed back with that reflects my experience. Many are too wrapped up in their text books stuck in one train of thought. "Absolute - only one way ... their way, their method and so on" You can see and feel them as they think. Of course ones own condition does not make their job any easier ... I've seen too many people doing in such a field.

Man - I got to say, reading this book has revealed even more, given my background with so many shrinks. All that conditioning as well ... all those groups. Been there and done that ... all the psychoanalysing that's done in here to explain this of that method, really means squat to anyone who's a fresh fish, including myself. SELF DOUBT as part of the conditioning process, mixed in with a multitude of other negative thinking patterns. Matters not from where or who - What matters is knowing I have the ability to change such patterns ... I have always known but just as with meditating ... it actually takes effort.

In fact I have been using hypnosis full on without really knowing it. I'm big on visuals, and have an uncanny ability for staring into space. lol - Perhaps not quite relevant, but I know what I mean. No one knows each of us better than ourselves. Thus Self hypnosis ... I think I'm onto something. I don't think anyone could write a better script than myself.

There are a few train of thoughts ... some not into scripting ... but I think I will. Learning the outlay of scripting seems rather therapeutic in itself and I enjoy the audio creation that goes with creating such guided mediations/hypnotic sessions. I can use the Utilization Principle to good effect knowing myself ever so well.

Seriously, once you learn about what and how therapy should work, you can virtually do away with the need to spend mountains of $$$$$$$$$ and do things yourself! Of course if you have money, you could opt out and just pay your way, however nothing is as good as taking the bull by the horns and working things our for yourself. There are some good Youtubers out there and now I have learned a little more about the method, perhaps I can tune in all the more ... or perhaps I may tune out. I guess practice can only tell.
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Think I will do some more reading ... now that I have set myself.

Ponder

01-05-2016, 02:14 AM

Update - YEA YEA - the video leads into a free course that then leads into one for around $150.00 to $180.00. I'm not discounting the information in the free videos as there is simply too much helpful information to then branch off on. [without the need for spending money ... although if I could spare it, I would seriously consider it for such a course ... and that's saying something coming from me ... Even when I have money, I rarely spend it on such things!]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hkL0cTL7so

Dahila

01-05-2016, 11:14 AM

Hi friends. I am reading every post , every day I mean here in this thread. I check the new threads occasionally but it turn me off ..........
"My whole life I am dealing with panic attacks and anxiety disorder, I am 20 or 17 or 15 years old, and I am on medication for years. ..................bada bada bada, " On the other hand I know that world is so screwed up that children do not have easy life, but ..........I had anxiety from very young age, some traumatic events and constant stay in hospitals as a small child , caused it, Some docs believe that medication they were giving me, ruined my nervous system. I had , have ? Asthma, alergic asthma and 50 years ago they had not meds for it, Not the safe ones. Neurologists believe it is kind of physical in my situation. and mental as well.
I am pissed when I see children posting here, They have internet,, google, anxiety forum and it does not help, rather the opposite............. that's my opinion

Ponder

01-05-2016, 03:51 PM

Children are brainwashed the moment they are delivered. It's all about unlearning in this life as I see it. The only learning we need, is how to live simple and selfless lives. Who gives the kids these medications? Who's idea is it that they need them? The questions only highlight just how bad the problem has got and also in many cases serve to avoid rather than help. The system is always passing the buck and now with so many humans in a world unable to hold it's own weight, is it any wonder that we invent so many problems that need not exist. Especially when such adds to the economy, because after all, that what is all about for those living so well and consider themselves worthy and fit.

I hear Ya Dahila … I do I do.

I guess it's all in how the tools are used, yet some we are just not ready for as clearly our society has in inability to interact. The irony is like those who say grace at the table, yet have finger on the trigger ready to kill the hungry who would dare take an apple from the tree. We read lovey dovey fairly tails to our kids, then live monstrous lives. In that light, we reap what we sow.

What can we do to help? I have come to believe exposing the truth is the best place to start but doing so in a way that plays into the same progression as the sickness is spread.

I leave that to my next post as I am enjoy my time of writing before I move house. The Sleep Paralysis thread we a good topic for me. I think some more on that.

Re your ailments Dahila … what matters most to me, and has the most effect … is what I choose to believe and how I allow myself to react. As you no doubt know, meditation is a huge help with that. Allows me the space to clarify what are my own thoughts and what are not, then also to change that which only limits as opposed to that which helps me grow.

Got to fix ourselves before we can be of any use to the sickness that spreads. Seeing you always gives me strength.

I'd now like 10 bars or Oat and Honey Soap sent to my address. TY. :)

hehe.

Ponder

01-05-2016, 05:09 PM

In The Name Of Jesus
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http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/in%20the%20name%20of%20jesus_zpset3mhius.jpg

In The Name Of Jesus -I linked it in the other Sleep Paralysis thread Dahila. Perhaps a great example of just what you meant with Google and the Net. :) Essentially the video calls upon using the Name of Jesus to solve Sleep Paralysis. I skimmed through the watch as it related to brainwashing and was curious in how the words were woven for their intended effect. Just as my mother once told me that it was good to read up on other religions in order to expose them and more masterfully push forth our own agendas, I figured I would see what I could learn. Indeed I did.

What we have here is the very definition of the term "Self Perpetuating" Dare I say use Google. LOL - Like everything, coming to define these things for ourselves is best done through experience. So it is that I will share a little of mine and make what sense I can from that.
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"It's a rehash for most of my friends already in here ... but I will give it another shot a little more comprehensive with some Hollywood Stick."

I suffered many of these nightmarish episodes as a kid and into my 30s. All of my sleep paralysis events coincides with a time when I held a deep believe in the Name of Jesus. A time in which I was a God fearing Christian. The church I went to as a boy preach fire and brimstone. Taught us the evils of the African people and their ways. Of course that sounds outrageous from the politically correct speaking society of which we see ourselves to be this present day. Even that same church now brainwashes in a totally new way. The fact is, we kids were shown "films" that depicted people having their heads cut off for not having taken the number "666'; the Mark of The Beast. A shock and awe tactic before driving home some crucial point woven into the flowing sermon. Despite the snippets of love that were on offer, one had to first overcome the evil that lived within. If shocking you with such images and stories was not enough, the very teaching that we are all evil until we bow down and give in; is quite debilitating in itself.

As a young child I remember running home with my head turned back to see dark figures coming out of the walls. I was about 9 years old when I was first paralysed in my bed. That's when mum first taught me to use the Name of Jesus. Sitting by the side of my bed with her hand gently stroking my forehead, "It's OK David, Lord Jesus will protect you, your going to be alright." Feeling a comforted by my mothers warm touch and gently eyes, I took to heart her next instructions. "Just call out the Name of Jesus to make the Demons go away. They are afraid of even just the sound of his name. Just say "In the Name of Jesus I rebuke You, In the Name of Jesus I Rebuke You, In the Name of Jesus I Rebuke You"

I became quite the little harry potter. One time with my mum sitting on the side of my bed, I grabbed my prayer book and threw it on the floor, proclaiming I needed no book to tell me what to say. I remember mum immediately going to the phone to share with great joy the progress I had just made. I often found my mother praying in the hallways with an ear out to the side and in a sneaking position. I never really understood it, but just accepted that she was looking out for us. I look back now and find irony in the statement to which I then made, and also my mothers reaction given how easily she herself was imprinted with words. Despite the fact that at such an early age I adopted a desire to speak for myself, my mothers joy was more so because that my thoughts we more attune to her own. She would soon come to despise me as I made decisions for myself.

EDIT --- Ooooooo Spooky - check out the number of posts that coincide with this one. 2, 666 - I must go ring the pastor and ask for his thoughts.

Dahila

01-05-2016, 08:36 PM

heheeeeeeeeeeeee spooky, you really made me laugh, but your post is serious, actually it is awful, to be raised in family of fanatics. Thanks whoever my family are hardcore Atheists, well younger brother is trying to tell me that he believes but no, he is doing it to make his wife happy. No to much effort, and she is pretty happy :)
I have a question; had I talked about my next project ? Oat & Goat milk soap?

Ponder

01-05-2016, 09:05 PM

No but do please tell? Sounds like a good rub :)

jessed03

01-05-2016, 09:46 PM

http://www.nextroundinc.com/devilfestival/img/devil.gif

666, eh? :evil:

Ponder, the weather here's been garbage, so the ipod sort of got put on hold. I haven't needed it as I've been inside reading (Jon's book). Haven't really been that motivated to fix it. I kind of have a bad habit of just putting problems to the side. That's something I've got to cut down on. I just have a real shortage of energy at times. :-/

Hypnotism looks cool. You're bringing a ton of great resources to this thread. It's awesome. Gives me a lot to think about at 4am when I've woken up way too early!

I read somewhere once that only 50% of people can be hypnotized or something. The rest resist. I don't know if that's true or not as I haven't researched. Maybe you know more? That always put me off of looking into it further actually. Maybe I was going on a misconception though?

Dahls, knock yourself out talking about your new soap. You defo haven't mentioned it on here.

Ponder

01-06-2016, 02:44 AM

Love the pic. :)

I understand how that goes Jesse. I've been talking a lot about going walking, but something comes up each time and I never end up going. I hope your able to sync you sleep cycles back to normal soon enough.

As you stated, there are a lot misconceptions about hypnosis. I'm still learning but can share some of the myths I have been reading from the hypnosis book I mentioned earlier. Personality I have never liked the showmanship of hypnosis and laughed more at the people who gave themselves up to act like chickens as well as the clown performing the show.. To me it's like watching people who sit on the edge of their seats watching reality TV. Way more people are open to suggestion than the stats which report how many can or can not be hypnotised. People fail to understand what hypnosis is really about and limit themselves as soon as they argue/debate what it is not.

The misconception on hypnosis is derived from the preconceived expectations from such audiences that open themselves up. They think they can be controlled, when they have already given permission. For those who could care less about the fun, but rather thrive more from resisting, object to this misconception that hypnotism is about the practitioner taking control of another’s will. This simply is not that case. It just looks good on stage. This false notion of control from the show boating perspective actually keeps many people from utilizing hypnotherapy as a powerful means for self help. Kind of like how you already admitted.

The first time I heard about NPL was looking into hypnotherapy. NPL stands for "Neuro-linguistic programming" (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuro-linguistic_programming)
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Jesse, I am srry if this is too much information. I often just write this stuff up for my own learning. :) I do try my best to format paragraphs and keep them relevant.

Point is, NPL sounds to me ... a concept that explains well, how our language structure is hypnotic in nature. Coming to understand how experience programs the way in which one thinks, acts and speaks; presents an opportunity to create and or break pathways that either help of hinder. I think this all ties in well with neuroplasticity ... but that's just me thinking out loud as usual. I think the key to understand the benefits of the scientific approach is to remain open and not become dogmatic in anyone type of therapy/approach, but that's getting off track from the general topic of those misconceptions that hold so many people back from trying an otherwise effective tool.

If I could quickly elaborate back to some of my other self help methods that have led me to this route - I first started with "Kelly Howell ... Brain Sync" who used sound and guided imagery (a subject on my list of yet to reads) ... Guided Relaxation in general works so good for me, because for whatever reason, my nature is like an open book! Sure, I am volatile in public situations ... a short fuse that can go off and has a history and a label to match ... BUT - something amazing happens when I am able to reach my inner self, when I am able to open up.

Actually I'm not even sure any of what I am saying will be any help. It matters not what I think about the stats, it matter not that I understand some of the process when others do not. It really comes down to that point in which one is either willing or not. Knowledge for sure does help, but the Zen teachings with regard to travelling a journey and it's purpose tempering our will also play a large roll as to how we hold the information, we seek or simply just happen across.

In fact - I will just now highlight my statement above in bold purple regarding ones focus on analytical thinking and the dogmatic science approach. For all my spasmodic sponge bob approach to this and that I come across and or seek, reaming OPEN is my secret to unlearning and taking on-board what actually counts for me. Remaining Open ... is the key element into making such concepts as NPL and hypnosis work the magic for overcoming issues such as anxiety, depression and whatever other label one wants to shed, redefine and detach.

It's a process and one that falls short of terms such as Cure - Time Lines and so on. The Time aspect I have learned to approach with the mindfulness concepts and books such as the power of now as well as meditation practices (although I'm in need of more routine) ... my point is ... there is no one way. CBT and the many other practices that draw from like wise programming techniques are not much different than hypnosis, yet the manner in how we approach has everything to do with weather we succeed in whatever it is that each of us defines as our aim.
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A good point for me to finish this ramble on. AIMS - finding purpose ... I'm yet to define anything for a script ... a script for myself. Learning how to write a personal script has yet been another great resource to opening myself up and learning how to better utilise whatever methods and also find out exactly what it is that I want. Perhaps my moments of late is no more than a phase, but is that not what our being really is - I think it's not a bad way to see things. No matter the good and the bad, such a prospect offers peace once understood.

I quickly post some of my book with it's sources in case the topic of hypnosis and the myths are of interest ... I do that in the following post.

Ponder

01-06-2016, 02:53 AM

An Introduction to Hypnosis & Hypnotherapy by Damian Hamill Certified Hypnotherapist, Master Practitione & Trainer of NLP Director of Training for Hypnotic Outcomes Ltd

Introduction - Waiting for the Miracle

“There were lots of invitations, I know you sent me some,
But I’ve been waiting for the miracle,
For the miracle to come.”

- Waiting For the Miracle, Leonard Cohen

In 1985, at the Evolution of Psychotherapy Conference in Arizona, the well-known therapist Rollo May estimated that there are over 300 distinct forms of psychotherapy currently being practiced (Zeig, 1987, p.212). If you think about it for a moment, this variety is bewildering. For each of these forms there is likely to be a theoretical underpinning, the satisfaction of which is necessary for that therapy to be viewed as having been ‘successful’ in its own terms. Even allowing for the probability that some of these therapies will share common elements of theory, this still leaves a staggering number of views on how people grow, function, develop problems; and what is necessary to resolve these problems.

Many of these therapies grew from early psychoanalytical models of human behaviour and bear their clear imprint. Even those that have developed a clear and unique identity of their own, such as Gestalt or Reichian therapy for example, were pioneered by disenchanted (or renegade, depending on your position) psychoanalysts - Fritz Perls and Wilhelm Reich, respectively. Despite the development of psychotherapy and its distancing in many cases from its psychoanalytical origins, there are several traits of the early psychoanalytical theorists that seem still to permeate many forms of therapy. The first of these is the insistence that the therapeutic model to which the therapist adheres is the only ‘correct’ model and that any other theories are necessarily ‘wrong’. The second is that therapeutic progress – human change - is a slow, laborious and often painful process.

The first of these traits brings with it a number of issues. If the adherents to a particular form of therapy believe that all other forms of therapy are ‘wrong’, then any change that these other therapies produce will be viewed as meaningless, transient or unsatisfactory in some other way. Furthermore, any change that a client experiences within the therapy of choice may also be viewed as meaningless, transient or unsatisfactory unless it fully adheres to and can be explained by the theoretical underpinnings of that therapy. Any change the client experiences that does not meet these criteria is often viewed as being temporary, superficial or, to borrow a psychoanalytical term, a ‘flight to health’. In considering the tendency of therapists to take this sort of position it is easy to come to the conclusion that the tail is wagging the dog – that the preservation of a theory of change blinds its theorists to evidence of change that does not fit the theory. Famous therapist and theoretician of change processes, the late Paul Watzlawick (Zeig, 1987, p.92), noted that a belief in possessing an ultimate truth about human affairs may encourage the holder to dismiss any evidence other than that which substantiates the ‘ultimate truth’ held. He characterised such ‘confirmatory bias’ as representing an apparent attitude that preserving a theory is more valuable than helping a client.

The situation outlined above inevitably raises the question of what exactly therapy seeks to achieve. Does a therapeutic encounter exist solely to provide ongoing confirmation of the therapist’s particular theoretical orientation, allowing the therapist to dismiss any developments that do not ‘fit’ this orientation; or is the goal of therapy to produce change within the client, in the direction that he or she wishes?

It is reassuring to realise, however, that many experienced psychotherapists across treatment modalities that were historically considered incompatible have moved away from such limiting perspectives. Rather than engaging in pointless ‘turf wars’ or unproductive arguments over whose therapy is the ‘best’ therapy, such practitioners are oriented more towards looking for commonalities between psychotherapies - those points where maps meet, intersect and overlap. These can be the most fertile grounds for collaboration, mutual sharing of experience and generation of new pathways of growth and development. Pamela Gawler-Wright (2009) has developed this collaborative framework within the context of Contemporary Psychotherapy and observes:

“Whenever we speak of psychotherapy we have to ask "which psychotherapy?" as the numerous and divergent modules of theory and practice are confusing even to the professional practitioner. The last two decades has seen a greater integration of various denominations of psychotherapy, resulting in a "post-schoolist" movement where positive similarities are embraced more than negative differences are fought over.”

Those who take this perspective, whatever their original clinical orientation (and however forbidding its own therapeutic lexicon may be to others), have come to realise that different therapeutic maps and models are merely differing metaphors describing common experience. The hazard into which the profession of psychotherapy drifted over decades was the reification of such metaphors, as if the elements of any particular metaphorical explanation really existed in tangible form and therefore excluded the possible existence of any other explanation.

The respected psychotherapist, Steve Lankton (1980, p.186), elucidated the metaphorical, rather than literal, nature of psychotherapeutic models and the perils of failing to recognise this distinction when he stated:

“Each school of psychotherapy is a metaphor designed to help expand the limitations of its client’s personal metaphors…Each has its own set of tools, conceptual labels, presuppositions and techniques. A lot of them have the same stated goals and intentions and yet are considered rival theories by their respective proponents. As we shall discover, though the content of these stories of personality may differ radically, the processes by which they effect change in their clients are formally identical.”

When it comes to filtering for similarities rather than differences, I believe that a common thread running through many of the different psychotherapies is the use of hypnosis and altered states. Once the essential characteristics and phenomena of hypnosis are recognised and understood, its de facto presence can often be detected in psychotherapeutic encounters where the word is not even part of the vocabulary, let alone regularly uttered. This is also despite the fact that some therapists who undoubtedly indirectly use trance in their practices would have an apoplectic fit if this were pointed out to them. I am reminded of a series of conversations I had with a therapist who practiced a form of humanistic psychotherapy, and who never missed the opportunity to decry hypnosis for various reasons which showed she had a fundamental misunderstanding of its nature. Due to the vehemence with which she held these views and my own desire at the time for an easy life, I did not avail myself of the opportunity to correct her misunderstanding. Some time later, however, she described working with a client using what she would have described as a creative visualisation method yet which I instantly recognised as being blatantly hypnotic in its structure, delivery and function. Had I pointed out that she was effectively using hypnosis she would almost certainly been horrified and denied it completely. Her inflexibility in championing her own therapeutic model to the exclusion of others meant that she could not recognise or acknowledge when her own therapeutic approaches borrowed heavily from formal hypnotic approaches which she claimed to revile. It also deprived her of the opportunity to learn how to use the hypnotic states she was eliciting more effectively.

Ponder

01-06-2016, 02:55 AM

An Introduction to Hypnosis & Hypnotherapy by Damian Hamill Certified Hypnotherapist, Master Practitione & Trainer of NLP Director of Training for Hypnotic Outcomes Ltd

This book, however, is designed to welcome those from diverse psychotherapeutic modalities who are open to acquiring new skills and also those who may have already developed a sneaking suspicion that they are utilising hypnotic patterns in their work and who want to check out whether that is the case. A clearer understanding of what hypnosis is and how it may already be present in your work can enable you to use it with greater flexibility, intent and grace, thereby enhancing your confidence and your clients’ results. It is this desire to create a broad church, which holds some common tenets of faith but also allows wide diversity of application, that has drawn to some of my training courses students from a wide variety of therapeutic orientations. I have taught hypnotherapy to clinical psychologists, CBT practitioners, humanistic counsellors, psychodynamic therapists, medical doctors, nurses and so on. Some of these have applied their hypnotherapeutic skills in the fairly pure form in which I taught them. Others have taken hypnotherapeutic approaches and blended them into their pre-existing therapeutic framework to enrich its potency. Still others have done a little bit of both. I believe that whatever medical or psychotherapeutic background you come from (or if you are a complete newcomer to the world of therapy) developing flexible skills in clinical hypnosis can be enormously beneficial to your work.

So what are the basic tenets of faith that I feel it is useful to bring to the study of hypnotherapy? Well, the practice of therapy advocated takes the view that the only meaningful way of determining whether or not change has taken place is through the experience of the client. Indeed, the therapist using brief hypnotic approaches may well need to get used to seeing clients change without having more than the vaguest notion of how the change was generated. If clients report therapeutic change that is meaningful to them and satisfies their wishes, I take this as sufficient evidence of change. What right, one might ask, has anyone to tell the client that his or her experience ‘doesn’t count’ as it doesn’t fit someone else’s theoretical orientation? The inclination to tell the client what he or she should be experiencing is also, in my view, a very quick route to damaging the rapport that is important for effective therapy.

This approach is different from some more traditional psychotherapies in which the clinician is often encouraged to assess progress or change in spite of the subjective feedback of the client. I submit that this approach, whilst very different from others, is actually profoundly liberating. Rather than the therapist having to ‘second guess’ the client’s experiences, we can allow the client to ‘own’ his outcome and respect his ability to assess progress towards it. This is empowering for both the client and the therapist.

It is important to realise, however, that this outcome-based or solution-focused approach does not mean that we abandon any form of theory and adopt the position that ‘anything goes’. Rather, it means that theory is the servant rather than the master of the therapeutic process and that no theory should be viewed as being immune from revision or scrutiny if it is contradicted by empirical evidence. Our first loyalty is to the client, not the theory, and the focus of our therapeutic approach is on helping the client to make change in an effective, humane, congruent and ethical manner. If we achieve this, we have done our job. We can view theories as being little more than tools to give us structure upon which to base our therapeutic interventions. The psychiatrist, Anthony Storr (1997, p.205), expressed this neatly with his words:

“Problems cannot be investigated or even perceived without some conceptual framework, but all such frameworks must be able to be overturned. There should be no articles of faith in science, unless it be the faith that no discovery, no law, is so absolute that it cannot be superseded.”

What else, then, typifies this approach? Well, there are a number of factors that I believe are likely to be useful in working with clients to produce therapeutic change. Bearing in mind that these are not written in stone they are, in no particular order, the following:

•Clients have within them the ability to resolve their own problems

•The responsibility of the therapist is to assist the client in changing him/herself

•The unconscious mind contains vast resources which can be harnessed to aid the client

•Problems often tend to be learnt behaviours and therapeutic change can be likened to a re-learning process

•Effective change can take place at a number of levels, both conscious and unconscious.

•People operate within interpersonal and intrapersonal systems and change will often only persist if it is supported by, or congruent with, these systems

•The mind and body are an integrated system - a change in one will often cause a change in the other

•Lasting change can happen extremely quickly and painlessly

•Labels are for packages, not people

•An eclectic approach gives the therapist the greatest flexibility to assist the client in changing. The proof is in the pudding – if it works use it

•If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it

•Therapy should aim to assist the client in living his/her life, it should not become his/her life

This last point relates back to the quotation from Leonard Cohen at the start of this chapter. One of the drawbacks of conventional therapies, such as the traditional ‘1000 hour analysis’ is that clients tend to put their lives on hold while they are in therapy. They are encouraged, either actively or tacitly, to believe that they are ’sick’, suffer some form of psychopathology and that they must endure some sort of therapeutic Odyssey before they can obtain absolution and return to a ‘normal’ existence. Therapy becomes their way of life. Nothing can be thought, said or done without having to be accounted for or investigated through the lens of the therapy they are undergoing. They become dependent upon their therapist. They ‘project’ and ‘transfer’ left, right and centre. Their diary revolves around their twice, thrice or four times weekly therapy sessions. They spend years in therapy, are just as unhappy as ever, yet are persuaded they have made progress because they now know why they are unhappy (or can at least quote their therapist’s explanation).

Respected therapist, Bill O’Hanlon, has light-heartedly compared this to the scene in the Woody Allen film, Annie Hall, in which Allen’s character, Alvy Singer, tells Annie that he has been seeing an analyst for fifteen years! When Annie expresses amazement at the length of time that the clearly still neurotic Alvy has been in therapy, he tells her that he is going to give it one more year and then, if he has not improved, he will go to Lourdes!

There is a risk that clients is such situations live their lives in a therapeutic limbo in the hope that one day they will experience a revelation, a ‘eureka’ moment, and that their therapist will declare them ‘cured’. I believe that this ‘waiting for the miracle’ is a waste of the human potential for happiness. It is existence rather than true living. The world is rich and full of wonderful experience and we should be committed to assisting our clients to enjoy a life of satisfaction and fulfillment.

Ponder

01-06-2016, 03:06 AM

Goodnight Folks ... I'm off to play a little Minecraft. :)
All the best ... I hope you all have a great day. I'm not long off from hitting the sack.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

PS - I hope some of you found that long intro.passage a good read. You can find the book through the Google Play Store.
Fairly cheap ... might not be for some, but I am finding it a good read.

Ponder

01-06-2016, 02:29 PM

Whilst I say I find it an easy read, processing what is read takes a little more effort.

The 1st three paragraphs of the previously posted introduction regarding the field of hypnotherapy, appears to me, to highlight much of the fallibility in all clinical processes.

Man oh man – Dismissive attitudes are something I sense way before they even come, yet I am careful and well aware of my own limitations with my own “confirmatory bias” when waiting to be heard – to be really listened to. In the words entitled to such an introduction - “Waiting for the Miracle!”

This Is why I do not settle for just any practitioner and even as a welfare recipient I still tell my GP … “No, there is no report between I and that last one. I require the paperwork to see another one please.” The power is in us, and therapy will never work if all we do is sit and wait for the text books to do all the work.

I think the attitudes being drawn upon in this intro, also relates to the effect in both parties; client and therapist. More over how one affects the other, how that enriches or cripples the evolution of such clinical practices, and more to the point … positive OR Negative outcomes for clientele.

Like the intro eludes to … “What is Therapy & Who is it meant to help!”
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That's just the opening of the opening, but it means a lot to me. I'm sure if anyone here had the interest to read through some of what I shared, that they can come to their own conclusions and may even chase up that book for a read. I am really inspired and pleased to of found a topic that sums up well and also exposes the “mystery” not to mention simplifies in many ways, what and how it is that therapy is suppose to work.

To us a metaphor or cliché … It's like taking on something old, but holding it like new. I see my therapist about once every six weeks or maybe every 2 months. It's pretty pointless unless I can come up with an approach that allows for us both to overcome the attitudes outlined and previously discussed. The therapy for me, never stops once the session is over. It's more than your typical Sunday service or Xmas appearance with one annual prayer, one bout of remorse and one heavenly vision to buff my denial and false beliefs.

I don't quite understand it all when people focus on how long someone is in therapy either. I think there are also a lot of misconceptions and judgements placed on those with long standing history of continued therapy. Of course as someone who is in that kettle of fish, I have my own views which can be construed as limiting and fallible but more over defines my predisposition thus often has me dismissed. Lol – think local GP … but is ok … I think it this time with much less frustration as ironing out all the kinks does in fact help to provide me with much needed space. Combine that with other practices such as what I am doing now, a little meditation and continued self acceptance and so … we … that's my ongoing therapy … teach oneself. The alternative for me is not pretty .. in fact for anyone, it's quite depressive.

MIND BLOCK – Just got a call.

That's my morning post for now …

I note I am still working on my own script.
Hope you all sleep well.
Adios. :)

Ponder

01-06-2016, 05:07 PM

Self Knowledge improves SELF ESTEEM. So instead of trying to prove oneself to others, one is better off, trying to prove oneself to none other. The kinder I am to myself, the more attractive I can become to others.

Time to do some more packing:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJQ3zvX_35k&index=2&list=PLJT0wRt4Qq_65mBE uqVqhn-5rtvLBC8bw
The fact that there are good tips for "free" make the promo at the end a little more bearable. Like I said, I'm going to start easing up with
my outlook with seeing such as less of an annoyance in order to accept the message.

Dahila

01-06-2016, 06:10 PM

well day was crazy, I am back from work, driving while full blown panic attack, the first one in a year or so. I hate it!!!
I spend a few hours trying to find a nice men's fragrance and ended up for now with ; Sandalwood , cedarwood, lemon, vanilla. I like the most Peppermint , Eucalyptus and vanilla. I am making a beard oil:)) What do you think guys?
Tomorrow I will try cedarwood, lavender, vanilla and lime:)) a lot of experiment on my side

Ponder

01-06-2016, 06:16 PM

Just thinking about those scents makes me calm - If I could get me some of that,I would just rub on my arms and neck for the smell. I am sure my wife would much prefer that than my usual run of the mill sweat. I often output a lot of High CK levels, even when I do not sweat ... a Rabdo smell (ketosis like). I hope this finds you feeling a little better Dahila. Srry to hear about the stress. Maybe you could also use some of those scents?

Dahila

01-06-2016, 06:38 PM

You know how it is with my sense of smell, sinuses, screwed up royally, hopeless and no treatable. Only steroids help a bit. i keep my nose clean for the 15 minutes I spend with essential oils. I believe sandalwood would calm you down, with some lavender and citrus. with CK levels it is difficult to smell nicely, and it has nothing to do with keeping clean skin
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Ponder

01-06-2016, 07:07 PM

Yep, you seem to understand the condition well. Balancing my activity and overall stress levels seem to help as well as eating clean. Looking after my liver and kidney seem to have a positive effect when it comes to providing my wife with a more bearable smell. :) I can only hope that like in a scented garden, that your brushing up with the making of your soaps provides enough of the smell to bring you relief.

I require myself a high dose of sweet smells for them to take effect. Since I stopped taking dairy, I have noticed a considerable improvement with my sinus issues ... however I understand that yours have been a life long issue? I love the smell of incense, however struggle at times as the smoke seems to block my nose. When things settle down, I am looking into acquiring one of those electronic dispenses. If ever we do end up hitting the road with a little motor home, it should be fairly easy to keep it smelling nice. Will just use the incense on the outer I think.

If everything was not packed away, I would now go and light up a stick. :) Just having some fresh mind tea that I cut from the growing table downstairs. Nothing beats the real thing ... and I know that goes for making artisan soaps.

How you feeling now, if I may ask?

Dahila

01-06-2016, 08:43 PM

Oh Dave I even make my own all purpose cleaning sprays to avoid too much fragrance. My sinuses are problematic from a very early childhood, but the lost of sense of smell is happening for the last two years. I even stopped to use my beautiful perfume, and I am perfume junkie ;))
Honestly my basement level which I occupy with my business adventures and my 300 soaps, yeah that many, smells divine . I am getting ready for some spring shows. I have right now Lemongrass and green tea, Satsuma, Nag champa dandelion soap. Then Fifty shades of grey; lightly sweet unisex scent. Lemon verbena and creams with Oat, honey, and milk, and others ;) Just tell me to stop typing , I am completely crazy about doing it. I took Klonopin and it is ok now:))

Ponder

01-06-2016, 10:00 PM

Go with the flow Dahila. Go with the flow. I write it all down and or savour the moment while it is there. Share as you will. 300 soaps hey. It is something that requires much marketing, or does the product virtually sell itself? What about online? Is it worth shipping?

Ponder

01-07-2016, 04:31 AM

Tomorrow is the Big Day!!! I hope I am up to it. I'm hoping to get a good three trailer loads in. I have to admit though, despite the physical drain of moving, I find all the red tape somewhat more sapping. I best get in some quality rest.

Before I go though. I wanted to share my first go with a relaxation induction I threw together. Just wanted to know what you think Dahila. Let me know if you think I should keep pursuing it? I find the practice of having to control my voice quite therapeutic with respect to my otherwise rushed pace and nervous tone when out and about. I guess you could say the act of making these things is quite a meditative practice in itself.

I don't have much of a selection of music at this stage as I am just sourcing out FREE - Royalty Free Background Music, however in saying that, I'm sure Lisa won't mind if I shed a few $$$ on quality ambient sounds if I continue to follow up this new passion I now find myself doing. The script is not mine ... I am struggling coming up with my own and also pressed with time as I have been reading and still learning about the art of hypnotherapy. Before I can work entirely on my own creations, I have a lot of toying to do with the free stuff that's about.

I won't post every practice run, but I do hope it lasts longer than my last effort with the pastels. :) - I do have a valid reason though for them ... this place ended up being way to humid which made that a mess. This new art form is actually cheaper by comparison and presents a good opportunity to work on my confidence in other ways that the other could not.

I've been researching on how to train my voice for this kind of thing. A lot of people tend to digitally change their pitch, however I think it's not good to change the natural pitch. All that is an entire new research project as to writing for such scripts.

For now, I will chalk this one up for my first ever practice run. I just did a few practice runs this afternoon and threw it all together like that. I tried to get my wife's opinion, but Lisa even admitted that she was Bias. We both tend to get screechy with each other at the best of times ... however I'm glad to say Lisa have been encouraging for the most part. :)

Take care guys ... hope you all have a good day while hopefully I get some quality sleep for the big day tomorrow. It's going to take a few days before we can move in though.

Here is my first run at that new hobby. It's just the induction without the middle or end. Small steps is all:
It can only get better from this point.
PS - I'm just using a cheap little phone mic and ear plug I ordered from china not long ago because I lost my original. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jv-nWrIvMO0&feature=youtu.be

Ponder

01-07-2016, 01:45 PM

I guess that must of been awkward hey? More so for myself I guess. I'll work on it. If I am not careful, I will just start playing with the editing and voice overs just to ovoid writing my own scripts.

ANYHOW ... Time to make breakfast and get on with this move.

Just Relax Dave - your in a state of bliss. :)

On with the show ... You can do this!

Dahila

01-07-2016, 08:08 PM

Fantastic, I do it for years going down to stairs and when I finally reach the bottom, I have a small key and I open the door to bliss;)) It is so easy go slowly downstairs and with each step you are deeper and deeper in relaxation. Please continue it, it brings the results; the peace and quiet :))

Ponder

01-08-2016, 02:52 AM

Hey Dahila, hows it going. :)

I am exhausted from today's effort. I seriously can't wait till get rid of YET more stuff! I have to admit, the whole red tape with having to account, take photos, defend oneself against the nit picking claims for $$$ (ware and tear) ... is just warring me down. The amount of paper work, complacency and resultant animosity that comes when taking a stand when one can not $afford$ to be exploited ... all that combined living in a society where there are NO long term leases ... (DERO/Government Housing - Renamed Crisis housing reserved only for those who's status is deemed unfit)

EDIT _ self perpetuating cycle bla bla bla ... nothing personal just a sad state of affairs... that is the only option for a long term lease, however meeting the requirements is less than desirable and counter intuitive when pondering the intention for providing a long term lease ... such is not a stable place to live. That ... is a form of insanity which I have talked about before. We have been doing what we can to avoid living like so, however the alternative such a private rent is just as unstable!!!

Remember how I said we have done this aprox 30 times over the last 25 years ...

I am really struggling today. Is so hard to keep up. I'll be 47 in a few weeks ... On the medical scale I am way older re my past. SIGH ....

BUT - fuck it ... I will survive. Poor Lisa ... looks like death warmed up. Her MS is set for an episode to be sure. I hope we can get the gear in the house before such takes place.

Anyways ........... I am more determined to lighten the load once again.
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I really need to check my diet as having issues with digestion and passing like before. It's such a chore getting the food right - yet I guess I know what to do. I have already proven that. I think it's more a resolve thing. The stress of this constant moving - how the fuck kids are suppose to survive in such a ruthless world ... fuck only know as that figment people create to make an excuse ... well lol - that fucker don't exist ... no sense getting riled at IT.
SIGH ...

I try and get some much needed rest. Today I am not doing so well.

Defiantly going to go another several days without food! In fact that's going to be my reboot for 2016.

I was really impressed living off water for those 6 days as I did. Nothing like a challenge like that to get me back on the vegetable juice.

HMMMMMMMM - sounds like a plan. I kind of expected and sensed the last couple of weeks had both my wife and I kind of regress ... I could see her wearing down at just the thought of having to move yet again. I guess we could of stayed, but this place was a stab in the dark and those damn stairs ... remember Lisa broke her leg on the day we arrived ... thankfully this new place in on ground level and seems much more suited to her condition.

Time for some Stargate and an early night.

Hope this finds you all well.

I'm sure I will perk up soon enough. The new place has a Bath Tub ... WOO HOOOOOOOO ... that's a big plus. :)

Dahila

01-08-2016, 06:48 AM

That's so cruel, moving is so difficult. We have subsidized housing here, I was living in such for 12 years. When you get into it, as long as you are on low income or disability , no one will make you move. It is 30 percent or more from you income. Lets say gross income is $ 560 so they take around 150 off for things like hydro; electricity or water. There is left & 310 and 33%=$102 , this is how it works. Obviously you have completely different system in australia. How it suppose to be good, I have no idea. The burden of moving and organizing, it is just too much. Why do you have system like that? I mean the constant moving? Is there any benefit of this?

Ponder

01-08-2016, 02:08 PM

We have similar subsidization too Dahila. Fact is Canada, the UK and many other countries that operate under the same principles have large number of citizens that struggle like Lisa and Myself when it comes to housing instability. It comes down to a matter or perspective and personal experience. All too often, opposing sides choose not to see the others side and in fact change only seems to take place once the experience is lived.

Our experience in subsidized housing is what has led us to doing what we can to stay out of it. My brother died an early death as a passive suicide with his head buried in his subsidized lounge room floor. One can never forget the stories of Canadian Youth going about burning the homeless to death. Happens in many of these countries that throw a bone with a concept called Subsidization.

I could go on about the cost of living and reason on whatever on that alone, however the problem is more systemic than that. Just of with lived experience, a text book study of socio-economics fails to appreciated the complexities and real life impact living under such instability presents not only to individuals but also to the whole. People are to busy making excuses and in their reasoning they just end up creating more stigma which then just feeds to problem all the more. People are scared to death at the thought of not having a job and or a place that "they" the "individual" does not "own." Who can blame them. The alternative is to end up on a list that sees them considered by most people who have a job and own a home as "unfit" That there be the cycle - it's ingrained, it's been taught to us as the model way to live.

It is not personal. That's just a waste of energy and does not help. As the saying goes ... that is my view. I have had jobs, and owned things before. It matters not how little or big - (although we are taught to see each other in such ways) I think the issues is in value that we place on such things and the terms in which we attribute to ourselves like "Owner" and so on. More over, the crux of the matter is how these problems our not our "own" that in fact for all the emphasis that is placed on ownership, little can be done to stem the tide when it comes to "systemic flow." Problems created in a system that effect the sum of it's parts, I think no different than a corrupt symbiotic relationship. It's easy to say the world is sick. That is obvious, even to those with their heads stuck in the sand. WHY?

Is for each of us to work out on our own no doubt. Or that is yet another cop out or is it just another psychoanalytical perspective with a dash of spirituality don't know? Hmmm possibly just a poor excuse in the face of such overwhelming odds or just plain reality in one we either control or can not. Hmmmm Time to come up with a multidimensional aspect I guess and find a portal in that. LMFAO
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The problem for my wife and I and this whole issue with instability with a roof over our head, is not just our problem, so no beating ourselves up over that. :) The subsidized living in as much a stab in the dark as was Lisa's journey to falling down these house steps. Whilst I can reason another's values and or apply that to whatever system - blaming that is akin to likewise kids taking clinging to therapy that bases all their issues on someone else (thier parents) ... Whilst such may provide a sense of reason, it does little to take responsibility for what comes next. In fact, I believe living like so keeps us stuck in the past only to reason why we don't have what has yet to even exist. Is the way of our world.

Thanks for your response.

I think Lisa and I just have to get rid of yet more shit. It will be interesting to see if we can make living out of a car, less problematic than all of what I have digressed.

Whilst I think my wife may not fully comprehend such a life, I do know it well on another front. From the cardboard box. I must say - in many ways, I am looking forward to going back to such. How we handle our own instability is way more important than trying to find reason for it.

Blaming the world is no different than one blaming their parents. Understanding the world is a lot different than attributing all my problems to it.

The best way to beat cancer is to separate yourself from it ... OH NO but that is ..... bla bla bla ... LOL - your antisocial, your this and you are that ... heheheeeeee

Don't mind me ... I was just having a bitch.

I take the moving a LOT slower today ... I will find the good and overcome this depressive state. I think I just live off water for the next 36 hours or so.

See how I go with that. :)

I make no judgements on what others own. I hope you understand that about me. - I'm just feeling a little low during this time, but feeling better now that you have listened.

Again .. thanks for your replies, your own questions.

Thanks Dahila.

Ponder

01-09-2016, 02:36 PM

Overcoming Preconditioned Suggestibility: Yesterday as I was stacking the trailer, I could not help but voraciously absorb chapter four which focused on Hypnodial States & Types of Hypnosis. Hypnodial (https://books.google.com.au/books?id=ZZX9YSe-8E0C&pg=PA10&lpg=PA10&dq=Hypnosis+-+Hypnoidal+state+and+types+of+hypnosis&source=bl&ots=QaaFn1f3KK&sig=L61ljVi4I7US5OdFc0w-x1YNp2A&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiJu4u7vJ3KAhUJFpQKHfg6CvEQ6AEIGzAA#v=on epage&q=Hypnosis%20-%20Hypnoidal%20state%20and%20types%20of%20hypnosis&f=false) (not to be mistaken as a typo) is a precursor to hypnotism. An informal induction were one is "on the way" to being effectively hypnotised.

From a self help perspective, I am finding the study of hypnosis quite illuminating and this morning surmised my own sub tittle "Overcoming Preconditioned Suggestibility." All most 10 years ago I came close do death due to a condition known as exertional rhabdomyolysis. Instead of seeing a bright light and adopting and unending desire to bow down and worship a formless entity, I chose to take on an entirely different approach. Whilst many people choose to remain asleep, oblivious, pacified and blinkered, ( ... many Spiritualizing The Unknown) imo throughout my earnest 10 year search, discovering how the mind works has been far more empowering than opening myself up to the suggestions of others, who would have me believe in anything; but myself.
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It's not easy to unlearn all the things I have been lead to believe and live in a world that seeks yet to keep teaching and oppressing as it does. Is it really as easy as changing one's view? Changing the way I think through hypnosis seems to be no more than the way in which the world imprints as it does. Or better said:

"Coming to understand the mechanics of how others exploit one another is quite the tool to undo what has been done." Yea, that's sounds pretty good.

Discovering what method one is more suggestible too I think at this is key for me. There is a good reason religion/Gov's uses the Authoritative Principle, and whilst yes, these text books imply there have been changes made with more subtle methods, I'm as much interested in those methods; because those can be used to exploit as well.

Intuitively speaking and thinking I attempt to reason my own intent and consider my distrust and defence, with regard to my own subjective and objective nature as I seek to unlearn in such ways. Remaining open and guarded at the same time, yet without the stress that comes with living on the edge.

I look forward to seeing what strategies I can adopt, so as not to be drained with the illusion that plays outside from front door. Indeed coming to see an entirely new light ... one of my own creation, yet has room to see it's effects on those around me. Hmmm - That's a whole new topic on keeping things real and not getting lost in ones light.

If your can handle some of truth to that which can not be denied ... check out the following view of just how suggestion works on a mass scale, perhaps even you?

It was nice to see an atheist presentation without all it's own drama and agenda’s. Perhaps there is hope yet.) When it comes to meaningless stats of who is suggestible on who is not - a presentation like this helps to give perspective to just how gullible our Society really is. Again - this kind of manipulation is not only reserved for religion but rampant in all forms of government and any establishment that seeks to control. At the end of the day - it's really quite simple ... seek to unlearn and think for self, and I guess in finding myself, I still need to learn how to live with others when going from point A to point B. Whilst I advocate not knowing, I also advocate the search for truth but more so the approach in which seek. One day I will tie this all together in a way that make sense ... at least for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJrqLV4yeiw

That concludes this morning reflection.

Edit ... We are not born fucked up - we are simply moulded that way. As for predispositions - learn the triggers and disassociate. Today.

Dahila

01-09-2016, 04:40 PM

Oh now I understand, I had the impression that you are in subsidized housing. Yes , yes you are right it was a living hell. Most of the places are really bad, However here you chose the place you want to live and mark it, or the place which is decent ; ie 2 subsidized appartements in building of 50, I know it cause I applied on April, I took the time and checked the apartments and made my choice. 5 of them. I have the right to say no to 2 offers, but waiting is like 4 years. :)
I applied just in case...........I am not sure Lisa is up to live out of the car. Meybe you do not need big place, but you need the kitchen to make the food......oh

people can be easily manipulated (above post) so easy like 1,2,3

Ponder

01-09-2016, 09:41 PM

Waiting lists here are like 10 years, that is if you want any kind of chance living in an area that resembles the term stable. If you do not "choose" to take what is on offer, your name goes back to the "beginning" of the list. It matters not how many years you waited, you start all over again. Many people opt to get in quickly so settle for unstable neighbourhoods, whilst others wait until they can get a medical certificate to then be placed with the sick and feeble. (They are at least quiet and less trouble) It is in this way that those in crisis cycle (systemicly and environmentally enabled) whilst others adopt a welfare mentality, bidding their time to degrade on a more acceptable level. (Take the pills, eat the food and eventually you'll be housed in a less violent place ... although then not too long from an institution where those now too long in the tooth ... sadly more often than not; go to die a lonely & miserable death.)

It's pretty much the way it is in the US - why should it be any different here? This country pretty much emulates such ideals. Hallowed be the Ori.
Once you come to accept this ... it's not so bad. We are thinking of putting our names ... back on "The List."

It's amazing what you can accept, once you put your mind to it.

O OH ... Lisa is now giving more of her input. Hmmmm - Lisa reckons not likely. LOL

Apparently once you accept these "subsidised" houses, your rent assistance is taken which actually brings your rent back up in comparison. The difference is quite marginal and she claims the stress of having to live with undesirable geriatrics, is not much different to living with drunks and drug addicts. In hindsight, I think Lisa may be right. Humans are quite vocal until near death. Chuckles at the mere thought of recent geriatric disputes on a current affair. Hmmmm ... I do believe she may be right.
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Living out of the car. I guess we shall see.

First and foremost, the type of car we choose for such an escape will make or break for first few test rides. We intent to plan it well. The motor home has to be big enough for a shower, toilet and two single beds at the rear. The solar requirement should be minimal and the new lithium technology looks quite impressive when it comes to powering homes. We'll have a fridge and freezer and outdoor setting. We'll most likely travel north in winter and south in summer. We have a good coast line for do just such a thing.

We have no idea how we will fair. Let's just hope we can get a semi appropriate vehicle that can actually go from point A to point B.

I'll be sure to update on outline or if we ever get off the ground, you'll be sure to see exactly how we fair.

To actually live in a place of our own,travel, sleep and take a shit where ever we like ..... now that's going to be something to write home about. ;)

Dahila

01-10-2016, 07:03 AM

Oh Motor home that an excellent idea, I thought that you planning to live in the one, you own. I had seen people living in motor home at least 9 months a year and they look pretty happy , I have been inside it, and I always thought that my man would be interested living like that. For winter we could go to Florida. Eh he is not interested in driving 10 Km to the market, to see how it goes. Yesterday I actually brought home some profit. There is a lot of people even with the slowest time in a year. I give away the samples and they come back to buy soap. I have testers ; my creams and they buy those too. Good, it gives me enormous satisfaction. Sorry for bragging. Please, update on progress, get rid of the staff you do not need. How would work with tv and internet? I know lisa like to watch tv, and you got rid of your dvd's ? Motor home must cost a fortune. Are you looking at new one of used one? Can you the car? Or you have rely on mechanics? :)

Ponder

01-10-2016, 02:56 PM

Loving those questions Dahila. I know you will be around soon or coming home from work?? but I have to go do more at the other house.

Looking forward to answering your questions when I get back.

I do hope this finds you well.

Dahila

01-10-2016, 05:15 PM

super, today I made a Beard oil and now I am working on the label. Beside that, cooking, cleaning, getting ready for next week with the new products. Even I work only part time with the business it is back breaking. I am suppose to do all shopping, cleaning and cooking:))
I have no idea how did you understand my questions, so many missed words, and mistakes. I had edited it a bit. I posted it yesterday I think, I was awfully tired. Beside all this I am trying to teach my body to sleep. Does not matter how many hours i slept , i get up at 7 or before 7 am. It goes already for 4 weeks and lately , I started to go to sleep after midnight. Today I was , I am really rested, slept 7 hours ;))

jessed03

01-11-2016, 08:57 AM

Ponder

01-11-2016, 01:59 PM

LOL, Hi Jess. Yes, the beard thing is quite sheepish at the moment. The HOLLYWOOD effect. Thankfully I can let my stubble go for a few days before I really care, sometimes a few weeks if I'm interested in doing what I do. Mostly I let it go till I itch.

Sounds like a good idea Dahila. Glad that is working for you. Do you put price tags or signs up.

My wife and I usually have a "thing" no price listing. No Price - No Buy. Typically I do not like to approach and ask how much something is, also other thoughts such as control and avoidance come to mind and by the time I work out whether I am going to waste time ... asking "How much?" ... I have been distracted by something else. We also observe the stalls that have prices and those that do not. We tend to find more people buying off the guy who actually has prices compared to the one who does not.

From my current point of view, "Living out of a Car" is more a metaphor, although many people do it. The vehicle we purchase will indeed be second hand. looking around $15 thousand Au. That's a lot for us. It's not going to happen any time soon.

Having said that - It's good to see a little spark in Lisa's eye re saving for something that might not be as much a burden as it will do doubt look. We may just wait till the car is paid off in about 3 more years and take what we have saved ourselves and get another loan ... Maybe. Probably not.

TV wise - yes ... we will use a mini projector for movies and favourite TV series outside and in. Perhaps a detachable LED but only positioned in front of comfortable seats - not the bed. We just download mostly. Getting rid of over a thousand Blurays was the best thing we ever did. Next flix has replaced that and I've gone deaf so home Thertre Sound is null and void for me.

Given the 3rd world internet conditions in this country, netflix will not be an option on the road. Data limits are quite pathetic in Australia. Will most like see if I can rip a few torrents from Mcdonalds car park, but guessing the data traffic will be too much as well as limits being set with that. In all likelihood I'll probably download a program and use it to hack an internet connection. After all, we will have a comfortable setup to drive around and do so such from. That actually sounds like a good plan. Thankfully we should at least have enough data for mild internet surfing. ATM an average plan on an Australian network for about 80 dollars a month is still like only 2GB - FUCK ALL - but there is talk of that going up to around 6GB which imo is still FUCK ALL. Some people pay around $200 for 12 GB ... fucking insane really. I hear in some countries likewise data is actually FREE.

To be fair though ... the infrastructure is a little different over hear and accessing a connection is not so easy when you not attached to a city/hub. Satellite connections are also pricey and require calibration every time you move. I guess we will have to wait an see. For the moment it's like only 2GB a month from my phone, pending a change in phone plans and the occasional hack from the street. I hear phone boxes are a new option, but yet to play with that.

Ponder

01-11-2016, 02:47 PM

Now that I am back in town, I am toying with the idea of joining a gym. However given the nature of those I spoke with on the phone, I think perhaps not! Most gyms get offended at the very mention of loud music. I tried to explain that I have an auditory sensory condition that leads me into bouts of extreme anxiety when subject to loud music.

Out of 5 gyms I rang – all but one responds NO to the following question. “Is there any time during the 24 hour cycle that you adjust the volume of your music?” “When you say quiet time's, does this include turning down your music?”

Both may daughter and son go to a gym, and despite being young, they both complain about how loud and invasive the music is. They both go to separate gyms. Seems to be a common problem. I'm actually a gym junkie from way back, however never went to gyms that did not have periods of low volume.

Doof doof doof doof doof … and so on, tends to send me insane. My daughter can't even hear her own mp3 as one of the machines she uses in near the one of the many speakers.

Not sure I could handle plastic mentality at any rate. My wife and I came up with an idea … the world needs a Zen Gym where people actually go work out in peace! If only. A Holistic Gym for people who have an averse to plastic ideals. Could only find one on the Internet and its a LOOONG way to London from here.

I'd put a statue of Buddha out the front, Cross Fitters, Meatheads & Plastic Bunnies need not apply. I seriously think there is a need for such a business, despite the mainstream being pumped of hot air.

Anyhows … I might check out a few geriatric options later today.

Did not help that non of the gyms answer their phones or the emails I sent. Imagine how much more likely one is to be ignored once thy have you sign a contract. Been there done that ... seems things have not changed ... or more so worse with a generation of "more" idiots now holding the reigns.

re Albiet Einsten's quote. Man, he was So right.
A side to a great genius that some would rather have us not know.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SXQeIMR5ut0

Come to think of it ... WTF was I thinking????? A gym ... lmfao. Last place I need to be. I do need to start a new routine though. Still so much to do with the other house. Got another 4 days to ties up those loose ends. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zz

Dahila

01-11-2016, 07:22 PM

What's in your beard oil, Dahls? I think it will be a successful product. Everyone seems to have one of those trendy beards these days.

Do me and Dave get a free sample if we grow out some fluff of our own? ;)
Different kinds of oils and essential oils, I had spend a week (7 days) smelling blends and alternate with coffee, it clears somehow so you can go on smelling. It was fun. I started with ten combination and end up with one; cedarwood, lime , bergamot, lavender and a hint of vanilla:) Heaven. I hope it is going to be succesful because wearing beard is so trendy now
Of course I have price but not at this moment, Almost identical one 30 ml for 29.99 +13% tax:)) expensive like hell
I have a program which will give me the price, of unit as soon as I put my essential oils into inventory. I still think my ten backs for 15 is going to be decent price.
And yes you will get a sample, when you grew a beard

jessed03

01-14-2016, 09:33 AM

Dalhs I bet that smells amazing. I'm growing my beard out as we speak.

Dave it's been a decade since I've stepped foot in a gym, man. I bet they really are like nightclubs now. You know something's up when the music makes a louder thud than the free weights being dropped on the floor.

Did you manage to find anything more suitable?

jessed03

01-14-2016, 08:47 PM

Hey Dahila, just saw your post on Boo's thread.

I turned my private messaging off a while ago, that's why nothing goes through. I've switched it back on now. Dave, hope you find your way back in soon.

Dahila

01-15-2016, 11:03 AM

I will write to him, at least I will try. I passed the message and Jesse, thank you

Evolution

01-16-2016, 06:51 PM

Problem Solved Guys - PONDER is alive and well!

Nothing like a new beginning.

Will have to catch up a little later - been on the fly this last week.

Feeling a little hemmed in at the new place but will sort it all out soon enough.

WOHOO - 1 post. Nothing like starting all over again. ;)

Evolution

01-16-2016, 07:51 PM

systems all go. Next time try giving a little notification. You never know - people might grow from the experience. Sigh - Moving On.

A special thanks to those who took offence. I actually appreciate the post recount. I'm loving this brand new smell. :)
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Righto - The Gym story ... damn it .... goto again. Sigh.

Dahila

01-16-2016, 08:49 PM

I am very happy. I just wonder what happened with all the messages i send you in the last two day :))) I like the nick , brand new and crispy :))

Evolution

01-16-2016, 09:21 PM

No matter - It's actually worked out really good for me. New mind set, New Home and all that Jazz.

How's the markets going? You've really put together quite a range of products over the last year. That's awesome Dahila ... very happy for you.

I've still been toying with my latest manic research project into NLP yadda yadda. I've actually started buying background tracts for commercial use and a few scripts to practice with. I have a long way to go in ironing out a confidant voice, but get the feeling I'll pull that off just like the new veggie/spinach patch Lisa and I are about to create.

Other than all that - just a new place that needs new yard work to be done. Lisa is outdoors a lot more now that there is no steps to content with. :)
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Look forward to catching up soon.

Hi Jess - I think I will still check out the Gym - I put back on 4kg. Although I have been active, I have also been stressing with no rest. That's a cocktail for weight-gain. I will go in a time that I best favour and see if I can here myself think with my own mp3 going. I have two gyms worth checking. It's the routine I like most with pushing myself in a Gym. People wise - well ... that's going to be interesting ... so stay tuned.

Evolution

01-16-2016, 09:26 PM

Re the Avatar -> "OH FOR FUCKS SAKE! ... The Rebirth Concept is True! - wa waaaa waaaaaaa

Evolution

01-16-2016, 11:03 PM

Note* the number of dislikes. It's like the Hitler Youth propaganda Saga all over again.
Cant do links Dahila:
Just youtube search "The Official Donald Trump Jam"
The atmosphere in the background really suits the Nazi Mentality as well.

"Come On BoyZZZZ!" rattatatat - someone else's kid in the name of God and Country. Again - check out the dislikes. What an oppressive Society. I hope he gets in - speed things up a bit hey?

Found something more interesting as a result of the above propaganda:
Just Youtube search:
"What was life like for young people in Nazi Germany? part 1"

Good to be back - see you all soon.

When I have made 25+ post I can become more annoying with links then.

Dahila

01-17-2016, 08:46 AM

Evolution:) Yes I have a quiet few products and they slowly sell, I took two Beard oils and sold them in like ten minutes. I am waiting for shipment of my bottles and salves packaging. Everything filled up with Health Canada. Actually I love the moment when people come to tell me how much they love my products:))
I am actually on computer to check you, and they I will get to design the Arnica salve Then laundry, cooking, and getting ready for next week market and for work :( I am tired

Evolution

01-17-2016, 01:20 PM

I hear ya on that score Dahila. I truly do.
I'm in a bit of a rage right now ... and no doubt egging for whoever the fuck wants to play.
So on that note ... I go grab myself a drink and make a more serious in-depth post, on the truth that stirs within. I really don't know why the fuck I am still here. Hmmm. I think more on that.

Evolution

01-17-2016, 02:06 PM

Your welcome to use my email Dahila. I already have a place elsewhere for now and will then find a more appropriate one after that.

This place will continue you have children join and cry over spilt milk. It is our way now - Self worth has been removed from the equation with the onset of our advancing tech for quite some time now. It matters not how many pills or and abbreviated methodologies one use.

This place is something to write about, but better done so in another place. I need to find others willing to listen with an adopted tone that will not go to waste.

Take care ... all the best.

Don't mind me while I wipe my ass one last time and bid you all good day.

Evolution

01-17-2016, 02:08 PM

Oh my - 25 posts wow .. now I can post a link ... Narrrrrr - this place now has a funky smell.

Adios
OVER & out.

Dahila

01-17-2016, 05:42 PM

hheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I do not even know if I have your email address, you have mine , I had not change it for years. :)) I hope you will be present in my Virtual life:)

needtogetwell

01-17-2016, 08:30 PM

Hi Dave! Hi everyone else.

Just a quick pop in to say hi and let you all know I'm thinking of you. Got a new phone and can't transfer this app to it. Kind of sucks because I live and breathe with my phone. Brought out the old one just to say hi.

Anyway, it's been 4 calendar months since Scott passed away. I'm still a mess, but I think I'm feeling a bit of the anguish easing. Carrying on without him is just so difficult, but it must be done.

Hope all is well with you Dave, Dahila, Jesse all. Another day I will take the time to go back and read months worth of posts.

Cheers all!
Pam

Dahila

01-18-2016, 05:43 PM

Pam is just awesome to see you back, the salve you got from me goes this week on sale, ;)) it took some time but more bunnies said it is magical salve. Of course I cannot imagine life with out that. Pam you know I follow you and see your struggling. The most important you survived the first 4 months, of constant pain and heartbreak. We all eventually will be exposed to it. To lose your husband, it is awful. I hope your son is a rock for you. Maybe family stopped whatever they were doing. I am happy you are back. :)

Ponder

01-25-2016, 05:28 PM

Hi Pam - I'm still having the odd fit, but doing as well as can be thanks ... which is not too shabby.

Hi Dahila - Spot On with what you said.

I can't stay for now - I joined a new forum (as usual - lol)

But if my log in continues to work, I will make a new thread for sure.

It's great to see you again Pam. Little bit by little bit.

I'm doing OK in the new place ... we moved. I ended up joining a Gym.

Just got back so going to rest up a bit.

I do hope your able to make it back here when the time is right for you.

Peace Out Guys.

EDIT - PS I HAVE BEEN WEARING THE T-SHIRT YOU SENT :) :) :)

I have had a few friends and family ask where I got it ... I just say "from my online friend :) "

Ponder

01-27-2016, 07:07 PM

Here is where I am at:
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In the interest of being better understood ... going a little more beyond agreeing to disagree. :)

Hi SKELETON_CREW. I'm pleased to also report that we too believe that our daughter is not the threat her thoughts would have her believe. It is her concern which has now become the focus point rather than the compulsion itself. Full credit to her for coming to us with her concerns. I consider labels nothing more than signposts and not something that is absolute. I think the element of "risk" within the circumstances as we best understand them will soon come to light. The good news is that our daughter now has the support she needs and is open to therapy. It has been through lack of support and long term exposure to a wide range of instability that has lead to her current condition.

Only by taking responsibility for herself, can she hope to arrest such crippling thoughts. It's all part and parcel of the cycle to which we are pleased, looks as if it's coming to a peak. Thankfully our daughter knows she us for help. There are many who do not. Telling people it's their responsibility does little if they can not get support.

About the "The Government Forcing Thoughts into peoples heads"
I admit my view is not easy to digest. Getting the context across is very hard for me, whilst trying to remain concise. Have you seen the "Zeitgeist Film Series?" Three docos about six hours in total length. The presentation plays brain wave tones in the background to “assist” in the assimilation of so much information. Well that's my take. One could derive the presentation as imprinting as the system to which the film series eludes of governments themselves. My wife was like, “what's the annoying sound in the background” to which I jokingly replied “The Zeitgeist “Movement” is trying to brainwash us.”

It was an interesting watch. I have been aware of the way the system manipulates and seeks to control our minds for some time. But for me - unlike the "labels" we so often like to identify ourselves with, I am beginning to see beyond “the” concept / picture/ image / box / fad / category" whilst yet still able to observe how such establishments, dynamics and people interact.

I do believe we are imprinted, taught fear in order to believe, follow, "comply" and submit. However each term there reflects a different point of view with belief more a fanatical and rigid perspective; a narrow point of view. Comply and Submit whilst imo yields deeper insight for those who are able to endure Vs suffer (self-victimise through feeding back to the system by identifying with whatever category or self deluded beliefs) - are as predisposition to the negative spins "bias" of the controlling forces that one mind summarizes as the over all controlling influence.

I can become self deluded through the illusion that other imprint. So outraged and disillusioned I become to what I term as truth and all that I see, that it matters little of how I have come to think or see. The only way I have ever been able to find peace from all the imprinting that no doubt goes on, it to take control for myself.

Understand - I am talking about myself here - again sharing in the hope to be better understood. The police did not charge me for the petrol can episode that led my onto disability. (yet something I could allow others to make me feel worthless than need be) To be sure it was a serious offence walking into a government building not knowing weather I wanted to kill others as well as myself. I felt like it, I even began the process of acting it out. THE QUESTION IS - "What drove me to do it?"

Hmmmmm --- Yes ... The system as it stands ... dare I say "imperfect" ... I chuckle with a little insanity at that because that's taken me YEARS to accept. ...and the word accept is as miss understood as most labels used. (The way we regard, hold and foster our thoughts) - For years I had disability forms literally thrown across the many employment service tables at me - "We are not therapists here!" came the capitalised & cold hearted replies to my obvious inability, state of resistance, and what seems to be a pathetic reflection of what I would then term as "another’s imposing view"

Since getting the support I needed – I have come to think for myself. It was not until I took control that my line of thinking took my own intrusive thoughts from supreme inner rage of to a more functional stream of thoughts. My mind still races, but again … only by learning to control and learn to think for myself, have I been able to “allow” myself to feel the way I do. I now allow what goes into my head and what does not.

Yes – we are all suggestible to some degree and everyone is imprinting on another whether its good or bad. In this light some people more vulnerable than others whilst some people of more able than others. I could go on and on (I have a interest in such things as to help me better control my thoughts and find relief)

I still struggle very much with billboards, bus adverts, taxis rear windows, junk mail, TV screens that I can not turn off in waiting rooms, Radio static, Consumer Adds over loud speakers whilst walking through a mall, even the damn adds that pop up on the tread mill at the local gym I just joined.

How can I possibly “allow” or afford myself the space in which to think for myself – The fact is, as someone as complicated as myself, if I do not attempt to control what goes in and what goes out, I will become nothing more than part of that system we find so easy to expose. I'm over it – I still need my space that the disability pension affords, but I see myself differently when it comes to being a victim is all.

If you managed to read this far, I can only hope you may be able to better comprehend how it is that I have come to see, that it is I that is responsible for how I think and feel?

Srry I take up so much space. It's not something many of us can afford, or more over are permitted. Yet it's the only way I can allow myself anything at all. If I can't find space, I will move on till I do. This is how people become free whilst still in prison ... the reverse being others who allow themselves to be controlled by others.
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AF comment ... The evolution continues.

Ponder

01-28-2016, 01:01 PM

Niceties now revealed.
The tread of others has worn thin.
n/p - I understand.
Alienation is not what it always seems.
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You'll have to look some place else to keep your tabs.
No great loss.
All the best with puling strings.

jessed03

01-29-2016, 01:41 PM

What's the alternative system offered by The Zeitgeist Movement? I did a little reading, but didn't really get beyond its criticisms of capitalism - which weren't off the mark, btw.

I'm interested in what its fundamental philosophy is, and how viable that philosophy is when it's put into practice. I guess you have to delve deep into it to find that stuff out, but I don't have much time at the moment. I'd be interested to hear the cliff notes though, as the stuff seems to be well-received online.

Lol about the brain washing comment - let's hope that's not the only reason why it's well received. :P

Ponder

01-29-2016, 11:25 PM

There is a notion of a utopian ideal presented within the third instalment of the series. I'm not really advocating the "movement" more so talking about the negatives of Banging Drums or continually hitching rides on radicalised wagons that fail when it comes to resolution. As usual you make a good point - "so what's the fix?" I found the utopian dream somewhat unreal and lacking with respect to those now in need. Ted talks also seem that way for me - although there are some times I hear something that rings a bell ... but it's too draining sifting through the majority of idealistic agendas; based on capital interests.
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excuse me Jesse - a message for someone destroying my family:

As for the other keeping TABS - I'm no longer going to mention my personal life in here again. You have destroyed my life, killed my brother and now you continue with my kids. It's over. I'm never going to share my personal life in this forum again.

You know how those religious types like to keep their claws hooked in.

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Thanks for the reply Jesse.

Much appreciated.

Dahila

01-30-2016, 04:44 PM

Hi guys just wanted to inform you , I lost my job, so I have difficulties to focus on anything else. Sorry Mr. P:)) hugs guys

Ponder

01-30-2016, 08:35 PM

Srry to hear Dahila. I do appreciate you saying though. Take all the time you need. I know you don't like to talk about personal life in here. I'm beginning to understand. I look forward to whenever your able to interact with me whenever.

Again - Thanks for explaining. I do hope this presents an opportunity for something else to take place in your life. Perhaps now you can focus more on your soaps and other, at least for a distraction if need be.

Ponder

01-31-2016, 01:07 AM

Latest Book I'm into:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7Ur-_PmWyw
Yet to add time stamps.

Just did post on creating audio books here:
http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?34115-Create-your-own-AUDIO-BOOKS-Let-The-Self-Help-sink-in-deeper!!!&p=224668#post224668

Anyways - ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Did Gym about 5am - went for an hour walk later on with above book - Personal Life = Holding the fort.
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The answer is somewhere in that above book ;) LOL - perhaps on the tenth time around. That's the beauty these little home made audio books.

I'm selling my Kindle. Amazon Kindle have yet again changed their format to make things difficult. I am sure I can find a way around it later, but will mean little to me, as just like when I ditched the iPhone for similar reasons, I have most of my Kindle Content already hacked. Since I am now favouring ePub - these new weird ass file formats will mean little to me, because I won't be paying for them any more. bla bla bla and rar rar rar.

Just tossing up on weather to by a microphone or more ePub books.

Whilst I have momentarily put aside the hypnosis project - I will surely be returning to it soon enough. This new information I am turning over is giving deep meaning to all that I have read before it. There was something I wanted to go over in this thread that I read/took in today - I think I bring up the book and see if I can find it. It centred on a hang up I have had for sometime - re the elite/limited edition audiences with regard to "hogging" the light. I have a secret but only a specialised few can have it.

Ponder

01-31-2016, 02:39 AM

I have not yet found that section with regard to teachings that limit the many and the need to bring about change so that the "specialized audiences" becomes less special and less important.

I did however find the follow section interesting, which reminded me of a comment I can't quite quite Jesse - one you raised that I now often remember when listening to whatever sources "The Agenda/Bias" - I pick up many things from you and that was one that stuck out for me when gleaning information.

Whatever the teaching may be, it will always reflect the experience of the particular teacher who is transmitting the knowledge. There will be a bias, and the teaching may or may not resonate with all students who come to study that approach. When a student does not get it, it is usually regarded to be the shortcoming of the student, not the teaching itself, which is often held as immutable.

This also means a lot when I change the teacher and student to both be myself. The passage goes on to highlight how the short coming is more in the teaching rather than the student. More over how inflexible teachings give little room for growth.

I think I will just cut and paste this section - I was really taken back about how much of the insights available today are somewhat restricted like a gate community holding others back. I think much of the self help information out today, whilst no doubt is on track and offers much respite - it is as fallible as those who invest their beliefs in say the Kingdom Of Heaven. Then those who study all this for the only purpose to emulate the model of what a Yogi or Zen follower should be. This be more the Marketed Self Help Variety which imo is not much more helpful than your run of the mill Therapies that cling to one way or method of doing things. Not quite like that, nor the right examples to contrast with, but I kind of know what I mean.

It matters not really - as I'm all for becoming both the teacher and student with a changing view that's more and more happy to see not much at all. Despite the fact It seem to be clinging to letting go with such ramblings. I am and I am not.

YEA - further on: Dispassion is good for me

Dispassion
The condition of dispassion is one of the primary goals of self-inquiry. Those who are very enthusiastic and dedicated to self-inquiry are very passionate about developing dispassion. This is non-relational self-inquiry, of course.
Dispassion is not a doing at all, and is beyond self-inquiry itself. It isn’t even a letting go, for it is beyond choice. Dispassion is a state of being. It is the subject (the witness, our sense of Self) developed through an integration of practices to the point where all the objects of experience are taken in stride, without identification. This applies to events, relationships, and all that is going on in the body, heart and mind.
Is dispassion a state of indifference, a state of uncaring? Does it mean we do not act or react in the world? It does not mean that. It is just the opposite. Much of spiritual development is paradoxical, with less becoming much more.
The gradual emergence of dispassion means we are becoming more free to act for the good of all. Inner silence will move to do this through us more and more, the further we travel along the path. It is the paradox of enlightenment. The more we have gone beyond, the more engaged we will become for the benefit of others. This is the nature of divine consciousness.
We really have to give credit where credit is due. Deep meditation (if we are doing it) is the primary cultivator of dispassion, because dispassion is an advanced stage of the witness. A stand-alone path of self-inquiry can lead to dispassion also, but it is rare.

To succeed, self-inquiry must ascend to the level of meditation, the transcendence of all objects of attention. If self-inquiry is done like this over time, then the witness will dawn and, in more time, there will be dispassion. It is a difficult path, because it lacks a structured and efficient routine of practice (like twice-daily deep meditation). The concept of practice itself may be lacking. Self-inquiry of the stand-alone variety will be about constantly remembering to disregard/release all objects of perception, including all thoughts, feelings and perceptions of external objects. When self-inquiry becomes a deeply ingrained habit, then that will be a kind of ongoing meditation. How an approach like this will fit into daily life is another question, since it requires ongoing self-inquiry to be incorporated into every nook and cranny of our daily life. This may not be practical for someone with a family and career. There can be direct conflicts, particularly before the witness has dawned.

On the other hand, if deep meditation is undertaken in a structured twice-daily routine, and life is lived normally, the witness will be coming up naturally as a support to family and career, and also as a support to undertake self-inquiry in a way that does not disrupt the normal flow of life. Deep meditation provides the witness and self-inquiry provides the perspective in a way that is not replacing every day life and activities, but enhancing them.

Dispassion is at home in the marketplace, as well as in the remote retreat. It is all the same. The combination of daily deep meditation and gradually emerging self-inquiry provides much more flexibility for living, and is a much faster path as well.
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When it comes to having lived and or continuing to live a life of pain regardless of the analytic process of what constitutes right way or not - being that space between the destination and scenery without the "AWE" is being in bliss without the need for passionate expression that is so often expressed by with those who seek the journey only for the experience itself. So much of the insights shared are so misunderstood. hmmmmm - I guess this is why I struggle so much with those limited offer and specialized elite audiences who seem to hog this misunderstood notion of bliss - yet I am sure despite the separation and divisions our societal systems have spawn, that pain will often bring us all to the same place. Of course some more painfully and unnecessary than others.

Thing is - being the space in between helps to see through the dust on the window so to speak. Purification takes place without all the knowing, feeling takes on less of a therapeutic meaning, as too the term therapeutic itself. Purification takes place instead when I reach such dispassionate states. Then when being in the experience I tend to naturally pick back up like a charged battery and if I'm doing it right ... I'll hit some kind of steady state.

That's a rap for sure.
Goodnight. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

PS - Its a good book - find an online YouTube to MP3 converter. While you the link lasts.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7Ur-_PmWyw

Ponder

01-31-2016, 03:03 AM

Here it is Dave - Goodnight:

Of what use are such teachings to the masses in modern times? They are from a past era when only the few were regarded to be worthy of spiritual knowledge. The fact is, only those who were near enlightenment already were capable of gaining much from such teachings. And those few likely would have finished the task of human spiritual transformation, regardless.
Times are changing. Now it is time for spiritual teachings to serve the people, instead of the other way around. And in order to do so, the teachings must be open, flexible, and, most importantly, effective. To be effective, such teachings must be capable of addressing every student at every level of readiness. If the student has the desire to grow and is willing to make a commitment of time and some discipline, then the teaching must be able to deliver viable means, or it will be in need of some improvement. This is okay. If teachings are flexible, they will learn to serve the people where they are, and evolve as the people evolve.

Such enlightenment still has a price tag - the availability of information to proportion of population is also questionable ... none the less, the answer is before us - more of us just need to start practising for the right reasons.

jessed03

02-01-2016, 12:23 PM

Thanks for the reply above, Dave. I'm gonna try and give those TZM documentaries a watch fairly soon.

Unfortunately going through a bit of disassociation at the moment. Makes my brain like mush, so I can't really comment on anything more complex than Mr. Men books.

Still, always like touching base, giving stuff a read and just adding a comment.

Dahl, I'm sorry to hear about your job. :-/

JohnC

02-01-2016, 04:08 PM

Howdy do P. I am with Jesse at the moment. So dam stressed from this new job i kinda wonder what i got myself into. I just cant hardly function lately and all i do is sit in my chair after the day is over, like a zombie. I buried a good friend last week, her liver gave out from years of drinking and taking arthritis meds. She was my age.
Dahlia i am sorry to hear about your job but working in your shop sounds so much better.
I have been popping in from time to time but my brain is mush and i don't read much. I miss chatting with ya all though.
Sorry for the hack P

Dahila

02-01-2016, 05:30 PM

We are all screwed totally. I am happy about not having that job but unhappy with the shortage of money, for my bills. Soap, or rather cream's , salves and soap business is slowly giving back some money. Slowly, eh , John I hoped you will better your situation, with the new job. It is not case. Jesse I am sorry you are also in heightened state right now. Eh only Dave is doing what he does best, writing, speaking;)) Good:)

Ponder

02-01-2016, 09:10 PM

Hi jess – Yw. Without giving too much away, we have a full house and the dynamics are again quite challenging. Therefore I understand with what you say. I do hope space comes to you sooner then later. If or when you do give the TZM docos a watch, I'd love to hear your breakdown when digested. It kind of took me like a month and then some more before I had a good grasp of what I decided to keep under my belt.

Hi John - I hear ya. Good to see you again. It's never a hack when you post in here. I like to think we are good online friends. I second what Dahlia says with regard to your situation although not quite up to speed on it. Hope you and yours are as well as can be.

Hi Dahila – lol – We are all screwed. Hehe. That's the spirit. Yes, it can certainly feel that way grinding through system as it be. I leave Jess to give his version of that after the TZM watch. :)
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As for me. Again, without giving too much away - when the Data Error took place and I could not get into the forum, I had some rather unwanted distractions of my own. In many ways I am still under a LOT of stress, however joining the Gym ended up being a good decision. I have a habit of bad mouthing the things I most fear only to later embrace such anxiety with everything I have. I guess I'm just plain crazy.

My reading aloud practice is helping to me read better. That's another topic. Thing is, I have not given up on the Self Hypnosis "thing" I am into of late. Remember when I did that induction recording then uploaded it to YouTube (have deleted now I think) ... I'm still very interested in that topic. I have backed up the background music I have purchased and saving it for whenever I have more experience and knowledge.

The sale of my Kindle looks as if it's going to get me near enough for a decent enough beginners mic. I've checked out how to make my own mini recording booth and thus far have spent a few consecutive days practising reading aloud. It is surely testing my dyslexia, however its also helping it heaps!!! The family think i have gone absolutely nuts. LOL - I do too, but having too much fun with it all to place too much weight on that thought. My aim to at least narrate an entire book before I plunge into recording hypnosis scripts. I also think I will just use some of the cheap scripts I purchased and leave the writing until I have a good grip on all the other skills. The self Hypnosis is not a monetary thing, however ... I'd love to be able to make money doing narration for Audio Books. For now - it's just a hobby with anything else being a little more ambitious than I could handle. Just a passing thought is all. I'd be stoked if I could ever get good enough to volunteer a book or two with:

https://librivox.org/pages/volunteer-for-librivox/

If anything - the process (as with deep meditation which I now also do :) ) will help to provide me with something that resembles more of a full, rich speaking voice (without the need to unnaturally adjust my tones) -

Any hows - that's where I am at.
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I am srry that you guys are all having a hard time. I am honoured that you continue to encourage me and yourselves the way you do.

Thanks guys - Go easy hey.

Ponder

02-02-2016, 04:12 AM

So much of my Zen coping strategies. I don't mind sharing this as it just relates to me and know one else in my family. I really fucked up at the Gym today. I reacted with what I felt was having my space invaded.

It goes like this:

So there I am, drenched in sweat and feeling pretty chuffed with the zone I was in. Long story short, the purging that was going on inside myself took great offence to the staff member who felt the need to wipe down the machine right next to me. I likened it to diners having the floor swept under their feet. It seemed completely inappropriate and I had already been detecting a patronising attitude towards myself from this guy to begin with. You just know when you not in sync with others, and this guy was very much like that.

At any rate - for whatever justification I can come up with, it matters not. I ended up raising my voice at him regardless of ploy or not. Disgusted with what I saw as disrespect, I simply implied I would just go thrash another machine. I did, and also injured myself during that process. (although hid it well until I got home ... eerrrrrrrrrrr)

Before I left, I went into the office where the offending staff member was sitting with the lady who signed me up. I asked how many days I had been there and then related it to the seven day cooling off period. After a quick check, she replied with a smile; "sorry that offer has now expired."

After I got home, I sent them a email with you know what. It was well articulated, but no doubt will be regarded as pompous regardless of whether right or not.

I'm not just upset about the lack of disrespect with regard to considering another’s space, but more so my own reaction as now being tied into a contract, I will no doubt have to face such triggers again.
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What the fuck was I thinking about putting myself into that kind of social situation. Especially with a world the way it is. GGRRRRR.

Will have to go easy on my leg and let the heal, and start avoiding the staffed hours at the gym. Unfortunately it seems to be busy during those hours.

I'm sure it will pass under the bridge - animosity for sure will ensue ... but fuck them. They should give users more space when it comes to fucking wiping down machines they know I will only end up splashing. There is no doubt in my mind the guy was looking for a reaction. I defiantly would of given someone like myself the space and waited to they had finished.

I think I will just be doing the weights from now on and avoiding the cardio machines. They don't mind taking peoples money, but don't like it when people actually work out and or sweat!
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Rant over ...

Dahila

02-02-2016, 08:16 AM

oh they have the rules, I went to gym for about 4 years, and I had never wipe down after exercise. I had wiped very well everything before I started the exercise, which is kind of logical. You suppose to wipe to protect yourself, and everyone should do it. In years I had spend there, I seen a lot. People are simply stupid, they have no idea what they touch. Youngsters will untouchable by life, and nothing can happen to them; in their imagination...eh
In years I had spend there, I made 0 zero friends. Four years and not one person I was willing to talk.................Dave you are not alone, you are not. I hope you heal fast. The constant injury was why i had switched to biking.

Ponder

02-02-2016, 11:54 AM

Thank you for your reply Dahila. Much appreciated.

I totally get the wiping down thing. I used to be an avid Gym goer years ago. My issue is solely about respecting peoples space. It's like wiping down tables. I don't dine at places that sweep under my feet. My space is very important to me. Had my 7 day cooling off period not expired I would of cancelled in a heartbeat due to such encroachment.

Despite feeling upset that I complained about it and let the my ego get the best of me, a part of me is accepting that I let the Gym know just how I felt. Space is a hot commodity these days. The last thing many of us need when sourcing out the gym during quiet times is a staff member clambering over the top of us with wipes whilst we are purging via exercise.

As for the cramping, I'll continue to learn and heal. :)

Again, thanks for your reply.
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Dahila, may I inquire as to what distractions have you been focusing on with regard to your latest circumstance?

Dahila

02-02-2016, 02:10 PM

oh ;)) today I made a hair serum, and I am working on Spreesy, kind of difficult at the same time it is easy. Some things are difficult. Every day I go downstairs for a few hours to make something. I have to get ready for market on Saturday. Right now beside 8 kinds of soap I have Arnica Salve and working of anti itch salve. I got to facial creams, one body butter, and hand cream. Beard oil in two sizes 15 ml and 30 ml. my bestseller is facial cream with silk;))
that's my distraction. I said it before, I can not understand how I am ok on Market where is so many people?
D. I always freak out when someone is invading my space. This is the worst. All family is like that. When my son feels like joking around he corner me, and laugh when I am terrified, He understand that dealing exactly with the same problem. We do not touch each other without some kind of warning. It does not mean we do not love each other. I wonder what circus I would do when someone started to wipe the machine when i was working out...... heheeeeeeee No one got close to me when I was working out, few times I asked discouraged people telling them that there is something wrong with the machine:)) space space is what I desire

Ponder

02-02-2016, 08:32 PM

It's really great you have been able to set yourself up to where your at with your craft Dahila. I hope Saturday goes well for you.

Ponder

02-03-2016, 01:53 AM

Jesse - are you still using Linux? I'm pleased to report I'm still going strong with it. :)
PS - in your own time. I hope things pan out soon enough.

jessed03

02-03-2016, 11:31 AM

Exactly the same Ponder. I'm a big fan of it now. I navigate around it with the same confidence I did with Windows. I find I'm lots more effective too, are you noticing that? Without all the clutter and the pop up ads (Renew Macafee Security now for $49.99!) I'm able to concentrate more, and for longer. I'm also a lot more organized. My windows drives were cluttered with crap. Now thanks to workspaces and color coordinated files I'm actually really tidy.

Happy I made the jump. :)

Ponder

02-03-2016, 09:56 PM

You summed it up beautifully Jesse. That's exactly how I am experiencing my Linux Setup. I love seeing the "Block" notification regularly. I usually only allow it for things like flash, but I know it's stopping a lot of crap so typically leave it to do it's job - Block all that shit I was experiencing in windows. Sure it may work the same way in windows, however I believe it works natively better in Linux ... way better!!!

LOL - No anti virus. hehehehehehehee Fucking awesome! Running way faster than what windows ever did as well. How about NO MAINTENANCE - No defrag, and No Ccleaner, No Malware ... bla bla bla ...

YES - I too am flying around the system settings and even adjusting a few things here and there without any fuss. I'm not even using the forum as much any more as other than the first few things that needed attention, this MINT distro is really user friendly over all.

As a power user, I have a few icons on my desktop, BUT - ........ NO WHERE NEAR AS CLUTTERED AS WINDOWS USED TO BE!!!
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I've had a few residual thoughts re Photoshop, but really over it. I don't mind learning it all again in GIMP and have already learned all I need to know rather quick. Video editing while basic is enough. [openshotvideoediter] You have already seen one or two I threw together with the free screen recorder which is awesome. FREEEEEEE - all the free software I am using is actually damn pretty good when you consider what you get.

I've been getting some good results with the sound editing program "Audacity" -

If your up for it, I will show you my new mic when it comes? Just sold my Kindle for a good price and put a few more $$$ to it, to get the famous Blue Yeti Mic a lot of Youtubers have been raving on about. Apparently a few mint users are getting good results with that mic as well. In fact most of the fold over at LibriVox use Linux and that mic. I was having difficulty getting the my games audio to equalize with my voice on the same track. The new mic has it's own usb sound card and is reported to record game audio and voice input much better. I do hope that is the case.

As for Games - By By Windows ... I don't even have need to WINE. I am more than happy with the Linux range of games now.

Have you seen this link re Linux Games?
http://www.gog.com/games##sort=bestselling&system=lin_mint,lin_ubuntu&page=2

Yet another source - just be sure to check the system tab and select Linux.

Yep - I have no need for windows any more. Loving Linux all the way!!!
Gaming, photo editing, audio editing, video editing, word processing, much much better internet experience by miles!!!! - FUCK ALL os maintenance -

LOL @ Youtube Download - can't wait to show you that!!!

I'll post that in the next section so as not to overwhelm you. Sorry but I have been hanging to tell you how great my Linux experience has been. Typically many people give up about now, but not these days. It's just so damn easy and the benefits are amazing.

Ponder

02-03-2016, 10:13 PM

Using the terminal to download you tube videos is a breeze. Once you install as per the below instructions, (better yet the youtube link) you wont ever have to worry about those BS online pages with all the spam. I must admit, I do struggle pulling off the "code" options to extract mp3 or lower the quaity for smaller file sizes, but will wok it out.

Mostly all I type is {Youtube-dl (then the video url)
That will download at full res. Does it pretty quick for me as well. Not much fuss really. I've been collecting a lot more tutorials a lot more easily.
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DOWNLOADING YOUTUBE VIDEO:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moZ4qoFIeUE

youtube-dl for Linux Mint (Ubuntu) - download YouTube videos with command line:

USE THE TERMINAL - Watch the Link ... That's how I wet my feet.

Instructionsto type: copy paste - though I recommend using the ones in the above youtube link description.
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Install youtube-dl first :

sudo apt-get install youtube-dl

To download any video with best available quality , give the command:

youtube-dl {vide-url}

To know all of the formats available to download:

youtube-dl -F {video-url}

To download any one of the available format :

youtube-dl -f code {video-url}

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Note* Use small f when aiming to download code. Re above command.

To know more options, type command :

youtube-dl help

Ponder

02-03-2016, 10:22 PM

well well, whadyaknow ... I just worked out what I was doing wrong. Now I don't "have" to download at full res all the time, in fact I can now rip the audio only if I want or any file size acording to the corresponding code.

My problem was I was not putting in the video url after the code. Doh!

I was just doing:

youtube-dl -f [corresponding code]

when it should of been youtube-dl -f [corresponding code] [and then the damn video url]

Seriously once you work that out through the terminal ... you'll rip anything you want at any length of youtube in a heartbeat. ;)

Linux can do so much more and much more effectively.
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OK I now make a rant on my proposed up coming hobbies. MORE of them. lol.

PS - the videos will download into your HOME folder.

Ponder

02-04-2016, 12:49 PM

I think I might of muzzled myself a little too much with the proclamation that I would no longer talk about my personal life. I'll just be careful about the details I reveal about my daughters situation. More over, I will give more clarification as to why and hopefully in that process reveal to those negative influences that lurk as they do, that it is they are in great need of help.

It's simple really. I messed up and shared this site to one of my siblings who was abandoned to a children’s (to which I followed shortly thereafter) which resulted in an array of abuse. Many years and suicides later (including my brother) I made an outreaching thread in this forum to which I then shared with said sibling. Since then, they have been lurking, praying and God knows what else? There is not much that their controlling ways can do to derail me[B]; but with my recent sharing of about one of my daughters, they have since been "preying" on her. That's how Christians work - they prey on the vulnerable and the weak. (I say that as a fact, not with spite)

So that's the short and curlies of it. (all has been revealed on that score)
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So Now I can resume my Journalling as it should be.

Ponder

02-04-2016, 02:08 PM

Righto -

So - I went to the Gym yesterday @ 2:30am!!! It turned out to be a good experience. I'm just doing a very basic every other day full body weight routine that focuses on the compound muscle groups. Given my recent outburst with staff, I am avoiding them atm. Nothing like a bit of drama to help me really dig deep with my future work outs as I pine over my anxiety. lol -

My injury is healing pretty good. I am also walking minimum of one hour a day with inclines. I'm doing this outdoors. I pick my times as to avoid choking on car fumes which is not too bad these days when compared to say 20 to 30 years ago ... although one does wonder about the population equalizing that scale. I'll base my route on how the wind blows when avoiding urban smog, as well as pick out elevations and watch for the updraughts.

Food is still going good. I eat according to how active I am and I still eat as clean as I can afford. No getting away from the poisons though. Not even the Organic stuff is free of that, unless one home grows where they know how the food was grown. On that score, even those at the markets that claim to grow at home, can use chemical fertilisers and pesticides. You just don't know. Living in a world that favours complacency and quick results, I can almost guarantee as an avid Gardner, that many would be home growers use such aids and advertise otherwise at the markets.
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Yadda Yadda - So I am doing pretty good physically and it's helping with the high state of being with regard to what I'm not going to share. ;) I'll just say that things are stablized as well as can be on that front; which is actually now looking hopeful. A long road ahead ... but just thankful to be fit enough myself to be of help.

NOW THE BAD NEWS - My wife's recent scans have revealed two new lesions on her brain. This we are still processing. It's not uncommon with her condition of MS. It does however signal progression and also reflects the stress that has been ongoing with having to live as by-products in this world as it be. We do what we can and it's no ones fault. It is just as is - no use getting to riled up about that.

Lisa is on a good diet as well as I - more so becoming a clean way of living as like 8 months heading into 9 now since we took control with regard to eating Junk food, stopped doing drive-throughs and purchasing packaged foods. We did slip a little over the commercialized Xmas fad touristy period ... bla bla bla ... but well and truly now back on track!

I have been encouraging my Lisa the meditation practices I now do (is not easy to make a routine but I am doing it) and she agrees. At least the importance of Dstressing has been raised.

I am listening to Mark Twain - A Tramp Abroad atm. I did not think I would find it interesting, however I am. I think it is because of the speed the text is being read by the TTS program as opposed to my ability to read it. In fact, I know that is why. Because I am not so familiar with such text, that is making my dyslexia raise it's head a little, but I've been using the filters and changing the lay out of text to make that somewhat better.

I really want to do the reading aloud practice and think although auditioning for Librivox might be somewhat overly ambitious for my current talent, (confidence & learning difficulties) I think the effort in making an introduction with the best polished recordings I can muster will at the very least will see me with much improved reading skills as well as a more confident voice in daily life. In that way, I now make an attempt not to place to much pressure and or expectation on myself or whatever outcomes.

Poetry is the preferred short projects they wish beginners to start with and I can see why. I will have to download some of their own work and that of others whilst ditching the TTS eLearning for a little bit whilst out on my walks. The long walks are really turning out to be like educational sessions. :) SO - hmmm ... Yea - but right now, I am actually enjoying Mark Twain. Again ... I am really surprised at that. I have found most of the older books very hard, and again due to unfamiliarly of text (vocab and context) - BUT this Mark Twain guy seems to have some writings that I can understand good enough to get the gist.

I'll just have to keep looking through the huge catalogue under the Project Gutenberg. You know - The FREE eBooks and so forth. Not every ones cup of tea, but it seems if you look hard enough, you can find books to read even for the most illiterate of us. :)
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I need to get some chores done. Might quickly pop down to the gym and try some graduated exposure just so I know I can do it. (smiles - I still get nervous every time I go "its raining is all"))

Next I think more about this notion of Vocal Booths. [It's hard to keep up with all the thoughts in my head - but cataloguing it all in folders on this here lap top]

Adios - Until Next Post.

Take care guys.

jessed03

02-07-2016, 11:46 PM

I'm sorry to hear about Lisa, Dave. I'm glad you've sort of gone ahead in your own life and have forged out a healthier path for yourself that she can hopefully follow you on. You make a great point regarding destressing. It's super important.

I've always found it really hard to get people to meditate in my own life. I've known family members that have been stressed to the high hills, but infuriatingly won't sit in silence for a few minutes to destress. I dunno, maybe there's this preconception people have that meditation is too difficult for the average joe. Maybe people's brains are so full of stimulation the thought of simmering down feels unnatural. Ugh, it's annoying though when there's something quick, free and revitalising, but people just won't do it!! Or, at the very least, experiment with it for a few months. Hopefully you sell the idea to your better half better than I seem to sell it to people. :)

Have you finished listening to Twain yet? The ebook/audiobook things can become a bit of an addiction, huh? I've got 13 on my hard drive I wanna get through. Gonna have to stay away from the online libraries until I get through this chunk LOL.

Ponder

02-08-2016, 03:44 AM

Hey Jesse http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/penguins/penguin-wave-smiley-emoticon.gif
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Thanks for sharing that with me. You can only tell them as best you can. :(

How are you?

Was good to hear from you again.

No. I still have a LOT of twain to get through. The beauty with those audio books is it's easy to catch up later. The Mark Twain Book I am listening to has a huge collection of stories in it: If you scroll down some, you will see the 328 listings (short stories)
http://www.gutenberg.org/files/119/119-h/119-h.htm

I have started teaching myself to read aloud now for LibriVox. They start you off with Poems and then chapters. They seem like a real good bunch. I explained about my learning difficulties and they are more than happy to take me on. Lots of encouragement and support.

This is my first ever upload to LibriVox. More like a test and I still have many to do. It's a start and eventually I will find my natural voice and work with it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vz6U1_dp2KU&feature=youtu.be

A Gift by Amy Lowell (1874 - 1925).

See! I give myself to you, Beloved!
My words are little jars
For you to take and put upon a shelf.
Their shapes are quaint and beautiful,
And they have many pleasant colours and lustres
To recommend them.
Also the scent from them fills the room
With sweetness of flowers and crushed grasses.

When I shall have given you the last one,
You will have the whole of me,
But I shall be dead.

I'll get better. I joined LibriVox as part of a self confidence strategy. Also to train my voice for my self hypnosis narration I plan to do soon enough. My reading has improved quite a bit.

Edit - I hear on the getting trough the chunks. :) I've been chopping and changing as well. Again - Audio books are more forgiving for that kind of thing.

Ponder

02-09-2016, 03:28 PM

Well - I have finally come up with a focus point for some kind of self hypnosis script. But right now I have been so focused, I've kind of naturally been asserting to myself in all of what I do. Just learning about the things I have of late without having facilitated the full practice has helped moved my in a positive direction. I think that's because I have chosen a number of therapies that compliment each other quite well - topics that I have discovered everyone of us has a talent for; not just me. However the discovery is very much a personal one.

SO - I've over the last year or thereabouts, I have managed to go from morbidly obese to a fit and healthy 47 yold. My reading and comprehension have improved out of sight. (although now I use reading glasses :) ) I still stutter under pressure, however I'm talking with more confidence when out in public and the desire to better myself in social situations has also been fitting. In fact, my views have naturally taken on a more optimistic position with how I relate to terms that I once used to drag myself down with; mostly because such pessimistic outlook was just plain easy to write about at that time.

Whilst aware I have a lonnnnng history of ups and downs, I'm confident with the place I'm now it, as it's seeing me tolerating a LOT of tension that would usually overwhelm me. More so my now ability to regroup and focus on what matters.
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My new microphone arrived and I now know for certain it was a good decision having swapped out my kindle reader for something that's going to get a LOT more use. Most of my reading in now on my laptop as has mostly been the case. (Of course not discounting the TTS and Audio / eLearning I regularly do)

I felt somewhat anxious about joining the LibriVox community. There are a LOT of guide and rules on how to claim and submit ones work. I am still struggling with taking all that in, however have nailed the technical side on recording. (with their help of course)

I have managed to put in two weekly poems now with my last one rather rushed. I was still overly excited about my new mic. None the less - I am keeping all my attempts and have created a new YouTube channel I confidently believe will serve me well as a training aid. I've also been able to collaborate with some gifted professionals who enjoy helping others learn. I've already received some constructive criticism (via the forum - comments disabled) as a result of my efforts and now have a place to forge forward with my ongoing pursuit.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNNNkNxEkwXZBkDHf7Fq-gw

I best get on with the chores - a lot to catch up on. I've kind of made this new hobby like going a full on course in Audio Book Narration. I've just been asked what my main goal is, to which I need more time to outline. My point is though:

I've gotten to this point all on my own. Off the antipsychotics, anti depressants, lost a massive amount of toxic waste, re-educated myself and been perfectly content with only having only online friends. I've just started going back to group therapy as well. Sure my therapist and mentor visitor have played a large roll, but only because I allowed myself the space to grow. It also must be said that I could of not made such progress without those few in here that have stuck with me through think and thin.

I would not be in such a good place now, if not for your help. You guys know who you are.

Thanks Heaps.

Ponder

02-12-2016, 03:32 AM

No Sign Ups, No Bullshit - Just click play and or rip from the internet legally using an online Youtube to Mp3 converter: [This book is in the public domain!]
http://www.clipconverter.cc/

Very Interesting. More so it spoke to me very closely on many levels. I've never been a fan for "The Secret" or "Prosperity Doctrine." However if one listens close enough and drops all forms of prejudice, this actually makes a lot of sense. There are some questions I have, however for the most part, despite whatever conflicts - I am amazed just how captivated I was throughout the entire book.

There was even a part where the futility of hetero hypnosis was explained. In fact many forms of therapy are discussed between the lines, but more the merry-go-around effect of symptomatic approaches. Essentially there is a strong Self Help message in this that is echoed in many books such as the power of now. Conflicts do arise between each take, as much as the material is subject to personal experience, however this is well discussed in this book among other things.

Looking beyond the main stream terms such a GOD - scripture and the like ... one can still gain a huge amount of insight to overcoming unnecessary suffering and actually find a sense of peace no matter the challenges they endure. In fact adopting such an outlook will welcome life's challenges no more than a purpose that is meant to be overcome.

here is a little run-down on the author:
http://henrythomashamblin.wwwhubs.com/

It's another take on "self Improvement" - It's kind of made me think twice on the genre. I just gleaned what I needed and have come out feeling rather validated with much of what I have taken from other books. This was first published in 1922! What a spin that is. This book is in the public domain which means you can pretty do much whatever you want with it:
http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/7224

I downloaded the mp3 from the vid online and have been walking with it. The TTS (Text to speech used on it is quite good) I am thinking of putting it up as a project to do Audio Narration with.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxRsIy1PKAE

Figured it was worth a share. Given it was written so long ago ... I think it was an excellent find. Still very relevant to today. Much of it has been twisted and still for sale in many new age concepts. I also just ignored my minds meanderings during the course of my listening when it sort to take the path of least resistance; which often results on missing the real message.

Again, despite my own ego trip and prejudges, I came out on the other end very inspired.

Edit - I only wish IMS was about to give his thoughts on this book. Hope your doing well friend.

Ponder

02-16-2016, 09:47 PM

Hey Jesse! I have a confession to make. My Linux OS crashed. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/shocked/yellow-smiley-surprised-emoticon.gif Happened when the system was overloaded after loading up Skype. I joined some Chat Group Via the SAS forum (Social Anxiety Support) ... I added one of them to my Skype contacts list, they in turn added me to some group which then was setting off notification beeps one after the other when I loaded into Skype.

I was like - http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/word/wtf-smiley-emoticon.gif

So anyways, Linux Mint Hangs!!! I hit the power button only to find Grub would not fully load anymore. (fail/fail/fail) I tried everything. I was away at the time. Eventually I bit the bullet and had to wait till I got home. BUT - my admission comes as follows:

I am doing a dual boot this time. YES - I know I said I would not. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/sad/cry-blow.gif

In relations to gimp - I am simply unable to work in the same manner as I did with Photoshop. My 10 year's experience is way too much to make up for in gimp. Also the Video Editing is not as intense as I would prefer. I'm also putting on iTunes!!! Now whilst Audacity is Great for Sound - I think I will be editing on various professional software suites that are not available in Linux.

So there you have it.

Now I can also upgrade to Linux Mint 17.3!!! Linux will be my main OS for surfing, downloading iffy files and the like - researching - doing documentation, reading, downloading youtube vids/mps/recording online content and so on ... Basically it will be my primary whenever I am not video editing or ripping podcasts off iTunes. Also ... as good as Linux has become with Games - Linux Steam does not have a Limiter program that allows free download limits to the isp I use. I'm also looking forward to loading up a few favorites I just can't use with Linux.

So that's where I'm up to with things. I going to be a mix of using both. Learning to use them side by side. I got to say, surfing in windows is such a DRAIN!!!! - The less time I spend in it the better!!! Encoding and a few games only. The invasive shit has only gotten worse.
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Before I leave, I leave you with this great Tutorial on how to Dual Boot. I actually about to follow it now. Took me forever to set up my windows install and I've still got a little ways to go. None the less I am ready to follow this tutorial now and set up my main OS. The only thing I am doing different from this tutorial is I will be leaving Linux as my main Log in. Therefore I see no reason "at this stage" to play with the boot loader/Grub to have windows at the main. OR - I could try it and simply make Linux the first option I guess. Will play with that later once I have the boot working properly. Just downloaded Mint 17.3 Cin (not going with Mate ... too used to Cin now)

Here's that Vid: ;)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxepmtjmilQ

Hope this finds you well?

Ponder

02-17-2016, 04:12 AM

well there was a lot of stuff that did not go to plan for me in that tutorial, but I worked it out without a panic attack. I must be cured! LOL - I had to make the Linux partitions in reverse (swap first and then the Primary) then after my windows boot up was no longer there, I had to google search how to fix via reparing grub and bla bla bla .... Now all the updating and making adjustments ... still no panic attack. Oh my Oh my. Indeed ... I think I am just ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz It's good to have the mutliboot option now. Feels as though the world in my oyster kind of thing.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzz My shoulder is coming along AOK after severely stretching something beyond it's means. Damn weights!!! Back into the walking ... that's a must. Still eating clean but struggling somewhat with with the passing. We have been very successful re the latest drama and dynamics are taking more of a positive turn.

I'm a little behind on my book reading, but figure I will upload by the end of the week. (only a small chapter of a children’s book) - just need to keep focused on quality sleep and keep eating right.

Been toying with the idea of learning to record nature sounds, but think I already mentioned that.

Righto --- time for sleep.

Night Night. http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/sleeping-at-work.gif

Ponder

02-17-2016, 11:10 AM

http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/sleep/yawning.gif Righto - time to go to the gym ... NO WEIGHTS ... not just yet.

Ponder

02-17-2016, 12:59 PM

So what do I end up doing? ..... http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/yellow-hd/cute-smiley-emoticon.gifWEIGHTS! I guess I gave myself a subliminal message that paid off. I found a medium stress that worked well and actually helped my shoulder. I often find keeping up some form of stress to be more healing than not. It's all in the balance I guess. Once more people started rocking up, I had to check myself as the urge to push suddenly encroached within. I'm always very joyed when able to skirt such injuries and continue on like so. Often it's pegged my during my last few come backs. Well Done Dave. ;)
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Righto - This a message is especially for you know you are. So take your hands out of their wrung position, get up off your knees and leave that position of self pity and listen up. Take it as a sign from on high. You will only spread pain and suffering whilst you continually seek to unload your guilt upon others. Be more mindful of the vulnerable to which you dump your assumptions, opinions, judgements and bitterness. Your time is nearly done. You should instead be more concerned with your own short comings rather than focusing on that which you claim of others. Whatever you are taking to your grave, one thing is apparently obvious - whatever your belief, it's done little to ease your pain and in fact created a wave of misery for all that's had to endure its path. Is that not right Bro? RIP - http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/object/noose-smiley-emoticon-emoji.png

I think the latter self explanatory. There is a reason we have shut you out. We have dealt with what we know for each of us to be true. It matters not what comes next, but while we are still breathing; we do what we can to ease our pain, and in doing so inevitably that of others around us. Do yourself a favour - Stop beating yourself up respect what's left of yourself as well as others. Now by all means rejoin your hands into the wrung in which they were grasped, recede back into your kneeling position and adopt that self pity and rather pathetic position. However I do hope you take these words to heart. We have "all" moved on, I suggest you prepare to meet your end and do the same.

It's been a long and tough lesson for us all.

Don't make your parting more painful than it ought to be. I bid you for the last time as I think I have said all I need to say and heed my own advice.

It matters not what others choose, but those choices we make for ourselves. If one person shuts the door, it would be less painful for yourself to leave it be. This is also the case for others of whom you unload upon and attempt to control ... is it any wonder that they too, begin to close what little space is left.

All the best for whatever comes next.

Goodbye mother dearest.

jessed03

02-18-2016, 12:45 PM

Forum's getting super quiet now, isn't it? Where're all the guys?

Anyway, I must have a sixth sense. Popped in soon after my name was mentioned. ;)

Kinda wish I didn't pop in though. A DUAL BOOT. Way to betray the fellowship, dude. LOL

Actually, in truth, I'm pretty jealous. Linux is awesome, but those few things we mentioned like iTunes and certain bits of software do work better in Windows, sadly. A dual boot seems best of both worlds. Must have been strange using Windows again. I don't doubt for a minute they've made it worse with all the pop-ups and things running in the background.

How did you get Windows back? Torrent? CD-rom? Restored it from your hard drive?

It's good to chat. Been swamped lately redecorating the house (first time in like 12 years), family stuff, work. Hope all's well with you and the gang. Aloha too to anybody lurking!!

Ponder

02-18-2016, 03:41 PM

That's a really great question Jesse. :)

Considering I had a fit over Windows and completely NUKED my HDD I had no way to put windows on using the "usual" recovery partition.

My only option was to install a http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/everyday/gossip-smiley-emoticon.gif "copy" (an old one of Win7)

However a copy to me is useless unless is can be validated. FACT is I only used the image/ISO to get some kind of Windows OS on my laptop as a means to get into my PC's manufacturer website. DEL -

LOL - well that's what I am telling myself now.

Anyway - from that point, it was after inputting The Express Service Tag details listed on the back of my laptop and arriving at the driver downloads page for WIN7 did I see a message informing me that I qualified to upgrade to window 10! I'm like FUCK YEA!!! - no having to find a crack!!! From there I just followed each link until I click the right buttons and the upgrade did the rest.

Pretty cool story hey. Started off with a copy that I thought I would have to find some kind of validation override, only to discover that the manufactures and Microsoft had no issues recognising that I've spent more than enough on their garbage. The upgrade message specifically stated that a new/valid PC (going through your PC's Manufacture website and using the service tag info on the back of laptop - whilst searching for drivers is what validated my system before even thinking to install a legit copy of win 10 - I got lucky because I usually take the time to read ... I could of just as easily skipped the info and proceeded to install my laptop drivers.) must be used in order to qualify. It was a good install actually. Sadly there is still a LOT of invasive shit that will reinstall itself if you attempt to take it out of the OS.
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So there you have it. You DON'T need a recovery partition on your laptop. Sure it can be a relatively quick fix, however there is a TON of manufactures BS that gets installed over the top of all the rest of the other BS on the Windows Operating System. It's good to know I don't need to weigh down my HDD and sys with unnecessary and INVASIVE crap like that. I am happy to install this way again and again. I now have a windows 10 ISO and all my appropriate drivers - I'm relying on some kind of system detect (one that I have no control over) h will validate. Won't know till next time around ... but I'll easily remember this story if need be.
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Yea - it is best of both worlds man. I should no better not to allow my emotes to get in the way of a awesome game simply by using Microsoft as a piece of toilet paper and vowing never to use again. I'm only limiting myself there. I learned HEAPS though during my intensive absorbing of Linux Mint (and sill am) - I can now indeed say that I am way better off. I may even log into windows later today just to have a game of Diablo 3 or begin the long install of World Of Tanks. However there is one thing I can say for sure - I WILL NOT BE USING WINDOWS FOR SURFING THE NET!!! or doing anything that I can not do in Linux. If one was awake enough to sense all the hype and distractions in windows that they gave Linux a chance, upon returning to Microsoft ... HOLY FUCK - What a loud and annoying OS.

Alas - it is much quieter and I'm zening it out with NO icons - just a quiet tool bar only with "MY" apps. NO POP UPS.

Thankfully this comes to your courtesy of Linux Mint.

If you need any help at all - setting up a dual boot, regardless of wheather you own a "validated" machine - PM ... I would only be happy to help you through the process with whatever Links and also share how I got over those little conflicts that arise in whatever tutorials ... WIN 7 is way good enough if you can't get validation of win 10. I just built my Son a PC around DEC and he still prefers WIN 7 for his games. Incidentally ... WIN 7 Is still supported by Microsoft as well. At any rate - when they drop it, the last lot of updates will see many people through the following few years. Depends on what you what you want to do - mostly a non issue. At that point - the next OS will be easy to source, as too - the validation workarounds. THEY WANT PEOPLE USING and ABSORBING thier crap ... they really care not for those using old OS's. The legalities are all in the context. Just as my story has shown.

Now to hit enter and follow on with the next post. ;)

PS - Installed win7 from on empty partition. I did not have Linux on. Start with Windows first - then read up on the process for a Mutli OS system. I had issues, but overcame them all reasonable easy. Strike while the iron is hot before I forget. Narrrr ... I'll remember. Just give yourself at least 2 days so as to relax doing it all.

Ponder

02-18-2016, 05:49 PM

Anyways ... I am srry to hear about you being snowed under. I know well how that goes. Do not give in under the pressure as it can be just that much harder to get going again. (but do let go of what you must in order to find the space in which to navigate - yadda yadaa)

Yea ... The Gang. No matter. I have seen some of the old crew on, but from memory ... everyone is saying much of the same thing. "Lots going on!"

All in good time. I just revert to talking to myself. Is good for my well being. You know me well enough.
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I like making those little vids to show you what I've been up to. When I have time, I may indulge at least myself and yet create a little production to outline my new setup. I'll make time eventually ... try out the new mic and overlay the commentary. Something I need to learn at any rate. The split audio tracks in most screen capturing programs lower the volume too much of the background sounds/system sounds. bla bla bla ....

I've be learning a little better with the audio editing whilst I practice my book narration. I actually need to go do some of that about now ... then maybe off to the gym for some light cardio.

Just had a good session with my mentor friend. Thinking about taking up more of a participating role within the peer group - the centre I have returned to. Many challenges ahead for me yet again.

Just have to keep getting back up and take a breath.

all in good time.

It was good to see you pop in ... hope you get the space to do so yet again.

Ty for your time Jess ... Highly valued!!!

Thx Mate. ;)

Ponder

02-20-2016, 06:37 AM

Night Folks. ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Dahila

02-20-2016, 04:32 PM

I am so tired the week was awfully stressful, thanks to government regulation here ;(( I Survived, I had a really good day on Market, the best :)) Awesome customers, they tried my products and now they are bringing friends and family:)) Tired, tired, tired, and awful headache for days.
Anyway my grandchild will come for sleep over:)
I still come here, but I feel like I am in kindergarden. All youngsters do not even take time to read the boards. What's the matter with them, whoever comes here, makes a stupid new thread

jessed03

02-20-2016, 08:35 PM

All youngsters do not even take time to read the boards. What's the matter with them, whoever comes here, makes a stupid new thread

Lol, that always was a pet peeve of yours! ;) Good to see you checking in though, D! And good to hear business is going well.

I think you're right, Dave. Everybody's life seems pretty hectic at the moment. I can tell that everybody is sort of close by though, despite not being here. When you bond over the mental stuff, it sort of makes you blood brothers. I still think about the guys that were on the hospital ward with me all those years ago. Still think of the guys I've met here that are off focusing on other stuff.

Away from sentimentalities and on to the heartlessness of tech: Thanks for the offer r.e. Dual Boot. The one thing I'm struggling with is getting hold of a copy of Windows. I don't have a CD drive, so I can only get it through downloading or uploading to USB stick. Does that sort of mean I'm screwed?

Ponder

02-21-2016, 02:49 AM

Hi Dahila. I’m really glad to hear about the customer base growing. : ) That’s awesome news! I am sure you will recover. Having the little one over for a little bit might turn out to be good energy for you once you get enough rest … even if it’s afterwards when the little one goes back home.

I’m all good with the young ones, but know what you mean. We all have to learn some place I guess. I’m just glad you guys still care enough to pop in here. Big thanks for stopping by Dahila. Wishing you all the best. I am yet again ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz myself, but will catch up good soon enough. It is good to see you round the board. : )

Hi Jesse … good to see you too man. I also know what you mean re fostering friendships and what not. You got a heart of gold man. : )

About the Windows thing.

What kind of computer are we talking about. Desktop bought from a store that came with windows preinstalled? … a notebook that came with windows preinstalled?

If any of those scenarios … you can go to the Microsoft site and install direct to USB.

What’s your situation with the above? OR are we just talking about a custom built PC with that had windows installed on a factory default hard drive? If so … you’ll either have to pay for a windows copy or download a cracked version. I think win 7 is pretty cheap these days and more than good enough.
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Personally – if you have a PC that has a brand name associated with it and it came with windows installed, I would just use another computer to “download the same version of windows” that was installed on the computer you wish to get back up and running. Microsoft should recognise the computer during the installation process and should automatically active the install as it goes.

Most laptops should state on the back what copy of windows came with it … If you get stuck … even with a desktop … locate the brand name and any service tag numbers and go to their website on another pc and identify that way which copy/version of windows to download from Microsoft.

Does any of this make sense?

I had to make sure my bios was booting up in legacy mode for my laptop to boot the windows iso of my usb. Just let me know first if your pc is a brandname purchased unit that came with windows preinstalled. If so we can work it out from there so you don’t have to pay and still get yourself up and running with a legit copy from the Microsoft site.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Night guys … .too much pc gaming. Damn Windows!!! : )

Ponder

02-24-2016, 01:44 AM

Russell Brand - Note towards the end of the video how he sums up what meditation has done for him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQV_T_ZPh1U

Ponder

02-24-2016, 12:51 PM

I am coming to see an effective method to stopping the negative self talk and or thinking, is to stop making any claims and going one step further than simply asking questions, but asking the one that trumps all the questions that you've ever thought; "What can I do - to make it better?"

Might sound too cliché in the world of self help or any kind of clinical psychotherapy. I guess that's probably due to the fact it shuts down negative self talk so effectively. Of course you need to reach a point at which you really do want to heal. That comes down to intent I guess.

How often do we cling to our suffering, for fear of taking the next step? Alas, now I am asking another a question - yet one that aims to move on as opposed to "dwelling on the problem." Holding onto the past, clinging to resentments and fearing the future is akin to pushing the plunger that injects us with our daily dose of negative thinking. Often we blame outside sources or a set of circumstance ... anything that keeps us from discovering the truth and peace that already resides within each and everyone of us.

It's one thing to be say be kind to ourselves - I understand it's not as simple whilst so many of us continue to needle ourselves. Just give the needling thinking a break with that one question that seeks to stop all the self BS imprinting - that's the first step to being kind to self. Change the way you think.

Constantly speaking down also drags others down. I think there is WAY too much of it happening in this forum of late, and that's also a big reason Jesse and Dahila, that others have left this place or we don't see them post as much. Why would anyone want to stay in a place that is seemingly always about the problem and little about moving on?

Food for thought ... at any rate ... the advice very much applies to myself as does all I type.

Keep posting away guys ... just be sure to keep it real and above all, beware of where your focusing. (Is how I am able to return and post as I do)

Ask that one question that trumps them all and takes the pressure off the plunger - "What can I do - to make it better?"

I got a Lot a "challenges" going on right now - If I only focused on the bla bla bla ... or what I already know ... then my efforts to improve and or heal, would only be bla bla bla.

Time to rise and shine. 6:00 am or there abouts.

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Righto - Time to go smash another workout at the Gym.

Have a good day all.

Dahila

02-24-2016, 07:36 PM

I come to some threads but negativity gets better of me, so I usually leave. :)) It is good to see you Dave

jessed03

02-25-2016, 02:35 AM

Hey D. Same. I just don't have the energy to get involved any more. I write a few posts, but nothing major.

P, I found an old Windows disk in my house during the clean up. Never used. Product code and everything. Super happy. Should help me with my dual boot.
I like the RB vid. He was actually a big inspiration to me when I was in the midst of a breakdown. One of the reasons I started meditation. He was very vocal about his struggles here in the UK and spoke about the practice really enthusiastically.

If I remember rightly, he's big on transcendental meditation, right? You had any experience with that?

Appreciate the kind words, by the way. Have a good 'un. :)

Dahila

02-25-2016, 08:09 AM

we are burned out guys....................let's just be here, it is the best. :)) hi Jesse :)

Ponder

02-25-2016, 03:39 PM

Russell often tends to remind people how the spiritual aspect of his meditation practice is more the focus for him rather than the clinical process and or associated physiological benefits. I actually think many people enter into some kind of spiritual state during deep meditation, however the term spiritual is as much a negative trigger as the term religion when it comes to the promotion of unconventional and beneficial practices within the “main stream” context; therefore the clinical approach will often (imo) forgo one of the most important elements in making such a practice - a life style to be aspired to as opposed to just another band aid or quick fix for pain relief.

I like how Russell stays true to his own experiences and aspirations in this regard. I find mindfulness and various mediation practices presented in the clinical context of various health clinics and or rehabilitations centres (at least throughout the country where I live) somewhat devoid of that spiritual connection that means so much to Russell and myself. In other words, I find the process somewhat hollow in such places.

That is not to say that others do not feel such a connection. I have no idea, but I'm guessing Russell can still reach whatever state he wishes through participating in whatever clinical environment. I'm just making a point about the clinical process and how mediation is being promoted with less focus on “that spiritual connection.” However like I mentioned, I do believe everyone who goes into deep meditation does make a spiritual connection of some kind and that there are positive gains being made in the way said connection are being taught in a more easily digestible language that still relates to a spiritual awaking that takes place.

Here is another link on Russell - He is fun to watch for the first 3 minutes of the vid, but then in the last 3 minutes he gets right into what transcendental meditation does for him.

For those who want to get right into it -> Russell’s break down begins at the 3 minute mark.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTG4UcxR_8M

Sorry for the long posts guys. I've just been in a zone myself of late. Like Russell I too am a sporadic thinker and find when writing, I just like to spiel with whatever comes to mind ... although I do make an effort to be mindful of what is being said.

Here is a clinical break down on the subject: Touches on that spiritual connection, but in a way that's more suited to bringing people without overwhelming on triggering terms:

Just another short one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZuoMXHhyMMs

Whilst watching that presentation - my perception and history ... relayed to me, how many of the looked like they were praying. Mediation is not to be misunderstood with prayer, yet how very similar they look from the outside when viewing this video. Interesting. Hmmmm ... Now ONENESS comes to mind, however for me ... sitting in large groups seeking to reach such a state kills the act of meditation for me. This is an important consideration and issue I raise here. It highlights something that does not work for me in the "clinical approach" - yet ... again this does not mean such is the case for others whom can and do gain much benefits from such sittings and or "groups."

The analytic break down and terms woven as they were seem to relay much of the same thing ... which brings it all back a "personal experience" (being - not seeking - The Power of Now and all that cool Jazz) ... one in which from what I have been reading in the "Yogi Books" ... is seeking no experience at all. Herein lays some conflict when preaching meditation to the main stream way of thinking. BUT - The above presentation does start with "...When meditation is properly understood ......"

My take comes from a sporadic thinker somewhat like Russell and from a like wise past with respect to hard core drugs ... I find most people from such a disabling backgrounds that get into meditation, are more open to the realm of spirituality and tend to "be" more in an a longer lasting sate of said connection, as opposed to more the band aid effect.

Also - the term Oneness in clinical terms is more seen as a room full of people with eye shut and relaxed faces - For me ... it does not work. However, Oneness still very much takes place. (Of course my take is from viewing an exterior image and one that's mingled with my own prejudiced and so on ... being at one is very good with dealing with such things. :) - hence my difference for what oneness really means - Vs the exterior to which we often only see. )

The term transcend is also revoked by the yogis themselves ... again ... more so the way we westerners tend to strive for such things when seeking that state of "Happiness." Meditation is mediation - the level at which we go is very much a personal thing and the name we give it means very little compared to how it is that we choose to see. The methods that work or do not is just as much up to us, and not something we need to source from some whatever teachers and or school of thought.

Again - for those that want to know more about the book I am reading on meditation (which covers all aspects of it) - here is an PDF Introduction for you:
http://www.aypsite.org/books-dm-sample.pdf
http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/Selection_007_zpsyoovfhtv.png

Ponder

02-25-2016, 03:43 PM

Here is that Book - AUDIO BOOK ... on Youtube:

Even better yet ... for those that like ripping MP3's and walking with them. I found a Youtube - Play List on the Book:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5l9-Cbh_5g&list=PLUSRfoOcUe4YCbl50FfK3FVpiO3cTed2T
http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/Selection_007_zpsyoovfhtv.png

Ponder

02-25-2016, 03:49 PM

Hi Dahila ... Always glad to see you too. Srry to hear things are weighing you down. I will be here for some time. :) I will always let you know if I intend to disappear for a whiles. I've been fairly focused of late - despite so much going on. I have reach my limit for these posts ... just wanted to say just how much of a lift I get when ever you pop on ... no matter how short of even how long between visits.

I just hope things pick up for all you guys soon enough. I write later on, after I get all my other things done.

Thinking of you guys ...

Also very happy for your Jesse .. that you found that windows disc. :)

Please keep me posted about how that pans out.

Later guys.

Ponder

02-27-2016, 01:34 AM

Today's Highlight. :)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1589/24670041883_05910df9d0_b.jpg

jessed03

02-27-2016, 11:11 AM

Lovely pic.

And great to see the latest generation playing chess. Hopefully he sent a few pawns up the other end and got a couple of those pieces back. :)

Ponder

02-27-2016, 09:06 PM

Hey Jess - check out my budget electronic chess set. :)

http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/My%20Budget%20Electronic%20Chess%20Set_zpsn3q3zu2l .jpg

I miss my vintage set that used to light up the corresponding squares up and down the sides of the board. (rows of LEDs) I found it kept me more focused on the board (Game) without having to take my eyes off the pieces. I'm thinking about hunting down an old set on fleaBay. :) Has been a good distraction to keep me off my computer and pass the time in between my latest fitness routine at the Gym.

Going for a long walk this arvo. Just looking for inspirational podcasts on walking and fitness to keep my interest up whilst out and about.

Hope all is well guys.

Ponder

02-29-2016, 04:48 AM

Nothing to moan about - but please don't let me stop anyone.

Group Session Tomorrow. - Might do the beach as well. See what happens.

Goodnight Peeps. ;)

Ponder

02-29-2016, 03:08 PM

Just A Quick Progress Review: Keeping focused on my goals and keeping confidence in myself has seen me making more steady paced and proactive posts. That is, at least relative to the person I was before signing up and during my time spent as a member on this board. Not that I am good with numbers, but in a few months it will be 2 1/2 years since moving my online journaling methodology to this forum.

Let's see ... I've certainly weathered a lot of storms. It was around the same time as my brothers death, I decided to give up the anitphycositics and antidepressants. I was battling a hard core case of scabies before hand which lasted up to 6 months! My obesity just about had me pegged with a contortion known as metabolic syndrome. My obesity also had me suffering a host of other issues as well. Too long to list. The discovering of my wife's incurable and devastating illness was the straw that broke my back. I simply gave up on life completely at that point and it was not long around this point that the petrol can and employments office episode became one of many stories I have told here and there. Between that, the prison life, homelessness, children homes and so, one has tinkered with the idea of a more structured story but for now is best left as a quick review.

Is good to let people know some of the background, if not only to highlight the contrast between continually giving up and getting back up. However in saying that, I've become more sensitive to issues related to clinging to such events - OR - Hmmm - actually not so much anymore since moving on, however after the ranting and raving ... there has been a long period where letting go of one's stories has been a huge release.

I'm now feeling more on track and have more to offer myself when reviewing the path I have traveled and consider how my choices have been hindered or helped. To keep it simple ... I'll leave such a review for the stated purpose of more a progress review. (Will change that title now actually)
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Beep - Beep - Notification for Psychotherapy Session has just gone off. Hmmm is going to be a big day. It will be a good day. :) My energy drain of late has been a positive thing. The Gym Workouts I have been successful with. It's provided me with the discipline that I know so well. I am a routine person. Although I have been rather flexible with that. A topic I would love to write about later. Hmmmmm

My mind set is a little broken now, due to the notification that just went off. Psychotherapy Session then the Group Therapy not long after that.

Oh yea - So I figured I would try on an old pair of denim jeans. More meaning on old pair or two I picked up on a whim at an opp shop, where I figured "hmmmm yea ... I will fit into these several months form now ... " - Long story short ... They fit well.

Which kind of brings me to the intended point of which I wanted to make ... but now have to go.

Peace out all.

Ease up on the negative self talk and work with what you know works. This I tell myself everyday now.

Adios ... until next post. ;)

Dahila

02-29-2016, 04:37 PM

Hi
I am a routine person too, and I think it is routine we hide behind. I get so upset when something is unbalancing the day. It is ridiculous, then people say that I am a drama queen, They do not understand........... so routine is good and so good. Routine is my safety net and it is not so good, not when I am needed by others

Ponder

02-29-2016, 05:00 PM

Nice to see you again Dahila. The establishment of a routine gives me a sense of control and security. I would say a healthy routine is one that needs no cover. I'm pretty much transparent in all the things I do. Hiding is not one of my strong suits, although I think I know what you mean.

Routine is not such a hard task, as it is to creating one that is beneficial for us. There are also plenty of routines for sale, but nothing beats actually coming up with your own. I know what it's like to be well in the zone doing ones routine, then having to make oneself available for someone else. That's how I have to be flexible in all that I do. Being there for the issues that commonly come up in this busy household as well as being there for our extended family members making their way in a world of - blank - :) [humorous context ... nothing more.]

I hear ya ... glad to see you pop in.

Speaking of which ... I now got to run to my next appointment

Psychotherapy went really well. :)

Catch up soon.

Ponder

02-29-2016, 09:12 PM

There's nothing like taking home a message that lasts. They had no pamphlets at group, which is kind of annoying when you can't remember all the words. Someone said "Why not take a picture with your phone?" So I did:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1542/25301005731_de2410b809_b.jpg

FAIL = First attempt in learning.

........ It's "Not" "Nor" "never the -

END = Effort never dies.

........ If No! is an answer, "remember" -

NO! = Next Opportunity.
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Yet another good session on the power of self talk. Once you remove the bad and the ugly, all we are left with is the good. :)

This application of thinking is very much what has helped me overcome many addictions and various challenges. It's the relearning of phrases that often drag me down. A complete restructuring of language that's helping me find positive influences outside my door that can help me reconnect with others on a lvl that counts.

It can be easy to talk the talk, but another story when out and about. Remember when I gave it a go holding those computer classes and things did not work out. Long story short, I have returned to the same place to embark on new challenges without empowering the word "fail" that's so often used to highlight what we are not. The message today spoke volumes for me as it did the week before. It's all in the learning and indeed my efforts never dies. Since changing my thinking patterns and redefining common negative terms in a fashion that's more open to change; it is true that opportunity then abounds.
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Another highlight earlier with my one on one therapy, I told the therapist that "I no longer wish to wait until I become an old man that no one cares to see, but rather I'm "Now" Content To Be The Old Man I Wish To Be." I don't think I was understood very well at first, but after a few more minutes, I think the lady then understood.
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No gym today ... think I will go out and take a snap shot later this afternoon. Although the day is not yet finished ... it's panning out to be rather good. Dynamics at home are also in tune with my line of thinking for the day.

Ponder

03-01-2016, 04:48 AM

I ended up doing a Vblog which I have not done for some time. I'm unable to upload just yet as the bandwidth is tied up with my wife's online work. So I figured I would just post out my thoughts to cap the day off and include a photo or two:

Here is the highlight of my day. Thankfully I never fell in whilst crossing:

CLICK ON BELOW IMAGE TO SEE FULL SIZE:
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1533/24773132474_cd7ba47941_b.jpg (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/25108735800/sizes/o/)

Below depicts approx where I live to the new Vblog spot:
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1442/24773131174_863bc9f31a_b.jpg

I'm just making the most of the spot for it's greenery as sound wise, I do find some of the birds a little too loud and overly competitive. Must be an Urban thing. During my Vblog, it became more apparent to me just how unsettling those birds were. I did not mind the plane so much as they don't tend to run all day, like the background traffic that was quite evident. None the less, I still liked the spot because I was able to block out the unwanted sounds and retain enough of the natural environment for what remained of it. Just making the most of what's left on the edge of town.

Not sure I will hammock there. I think it's just a good spot to take my camera for a Vblog every now and then. I am happy for it being able to provide me with that. I think at the right times of the day/evening - it will make a good meditation spot. I could not remember the name of that mediation method, but now think it was called transcendental - yea that was it.

My mind becomes focused on the sounds in the bush when I do these Vblogs - I also tend to take in all the little insects, look for birds, snakes, spiders and all those kind of things. Despite the Urban noise and disgruntled birds - I'm still able to relax like so when going bush. I've said it before, and now it's a longer drive ... but there is a much quieter place further north. Wood Gate Rain forest. I really must go out there for a day - scout out a hammock spot for my winter camp. Winter here is not overly cold.

Here is a pic I took last time I was there:
https://farm4.staticflickr.com/3862/14531229614_6de7069796_b.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/o95miC)Cool Scrub (https://flic.kr/p/o95miC) by David Kynaston (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

Plenty of space for a hammock in there, although I would have to watch some of those limbs. Further up from that spot were some better hammock trees. None the less, it's thick scrub for miles. I am sure the birds there are somewhat happier and less traffic noise to compete with.

I think that's a wrap for now. Time to get back into the swing of things tomorrow with the physical fitness and catch up on general chores. Will upload the new Vblog soon enough. Again ... my words come much easier in here, but I don't mind dong the occasional vids.

Ponder

03-01-2016, 05:32 AM

Righto - My long over due Vblog to keep things real. No proclamations or profound dialogue. Just me looking for a spot to do a Vblog and recording my trip along the way. 3 minute intro with various shots along and off the path - + me crossing a fallen tree as pictured in above post. Aft er that, it's just me mumbling on whatever comes to mind whilst watching the birds and insects do their thing:

Night Peeps. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMKYaQ6GVjI

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03-02-2016, 01:27 PM

Just feeling the need to tell myself I need to keep pushing the intensity of my gym workouts. I seem to be breaking a plateau that's had me pegged for some time now. I've been able to do that with diet, rest and exercise. However now is the time to pull out some high intensity runs on the treadmill to consolidate the weight loss that's now budging past my usual plateau point.

It's when I take the time to embed such thoughts and approach each work out with an iron will that I am able to achieve what I could otherwise not. I've taken it steady this last week and seen some good results, and I know it's helped me past the hard numbers on the scale, yet I know complacency well and It's during those times I take things for granted and or rest to long, that all I have worked for can easily be lost.

So - on that note ... I figure I am now ready to hit my next workout as hard as anyone could.
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...the things we tell ourselves to keep on track. :)

Last time I made up some HIT sound files with ques when to hit it hard and then when to take it slow. Would be nice to find some already available for down load, but without songs - just a timer ticking away with some ques that I can overlay on those tunes that I like.

I must make my own. Yet another step to consolidating each of those HIT workouts that I will hit a home run with today. I've done it before and it works rather well. For now though, I will pick my ass up out of this chair and go do what needs to be done!

... and that last sentence marks the first exclamation mark I have used in a very long time. :) Speaking of which I have found a very powerful means not to speak with such emotion; all of the time. For when the time comes to use such forceful expression, it has much more effect on a personal level when not flaying about constantly with !!! and CAPS. Not to mention often being misunderstood. Holding back what I have now come to see as my egotistical side, has also helped me to take more time with my edits, or simply spend more time contemplating the context of which I think, feel, speak and write.

Learning to use words to express such shortcuts as !!! and CAPS - is an effective tool I have been working on for quite some time. I'm going to ponder more on that at a later time.

I guess that now makes two affirmations of one sort or another. To now get up and push myself where I must in order to achieve the results I know will enable to be better breathe, appreciate and enjoy life as well as taking the time in creating goals that are real as opposed to the kind that we only ever contemplate in our sleep.

Without further ado, it's now time to take the next step.

"Make it so."

Ponder

03-02-2016, 04:49 PM

Awesome HIIT Session. Nailed it. Hydrate and space out some quality Cals and might fit in a steady 45 minute bout later in the day.

Just out grabing some fresh food. Maybe download a movie for lunch before hitting tbe gym again. Motivated but Steady.

Over and out.

Ponder

03-03-2016, 05:15 AM

I learned something today. If all we think and do is just for ourselves, then life becomes a lonely place.

Ponder

03-04-2016, 02:51 AM

The Guy in the Glass
by Dale Wimbrow, (c) 1934

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn’t your father, or mother, or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass.

He’s the fellow to please – never mind all the rest
For he’s with you, clear to the end
And you’ve passed your most difficult, dangerous test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years
And get pats on the back as you pass
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
If you’ve cheated the man in the glass.

http://www.inspirationpeak.com/cgi-bin/poetry.cgi?record=155

Ponder

03-04-2016, 03:11 PM

I'm so glad to see you posting again Dahila. :)

jessed03

03-04-2016, 06:19 PM

Wow, it's been years since I've done HIIT. I remember I used to really enjoy it though.

I just caught the vid you posted on the previous page. I hope you don't mind me coming in late and derailing the thread a little by picking up something from the past.

I always dig seeing your vids of the bush. The colours are so rich. Do you ever see many koala bears out there?

Dahila

03-04-2016, 06:40 PM

Heheeeeeeeee Dave even when I swear at the kids?
Jesse you are so right about not giving up to fear but the guy you posted , he is big (or maybe a small)cry baby. He is looking for attention so much it is embarrassing...........I am reading this tread and when I see someone from the pack I do read others too but not post very often
:rolleyes:

jessed03

03-04-2016, 08:53 PM

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03-05-2016, 01:25 AM

Hi Guys :) - Sadly, No Jesse. You have to drive to a protected area for that kind of thing. Most of the rural area around the suburbs are continually burnt off. Mostly just rodents, snakes and creepy crawlies. Kangaroos, cats and wild dogs and most other land fairing animals that can move around quick get about ... Lisa is telling me that Koalas have become quite rare these days:

Koalas are in serious decline suffering from the effects of habitat destruction, domestic dog attacks, bushfires and road accidents. The Australian Koala Foundation estimates that there are less than 100,000 Koalas left in the wild, possibly as few as 43,000. You can see how we determined those figures here (https://www.savethekoala.com/our-work/bobs-map).
https://www.savethekoala.com/about-koalas/koala-endangered-or-not

Quite sad actually. Oh well - we must keep building hey. :(
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It's good to see you again Jesse. You can drag anything up you like from the past, present and or future at anytime you wish to do so. :)

I hear ya Dahila. The case of which you speak is also a reflection of just how messed up things have become. I was listening to a radio show (by accident - lol, you know me and commercial media) that was highlighting just how today's kids are skyrocketing with anxiety. I have to say the context in which posts are being made in here of late only confirms such escalating dysfunction and imbalance. It's nothing personal, but somewhat frustrating. The dynamics seem to be spiraling out of control, but not to worry.

It is what it is - a challenge of sorts I guess. I don't know. It's still a good place to grow. That's my excuse. I treat it all like background noise whilst I make the most of what trees I can find left in the suburbs so to speak. Even the birds seem to be squawking angrily as more houses go up

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Anwways guys ... I've had a couple of days off with regard to the physical fitness. I aggravated a tear in my rear end. LOL - Best I can say it. That's the thing with getting old, pain has a way of humbling one. I did some research and could not believe that there too; more young ones are hitting the scene with similar health issues related to eating years or junk.

Whilst searching on community based projects to get some ideas that my wife wants to start (Good Food For All) ... we found the tittle used in the following vid which I thought was cool:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXSGl_jj13s

Lisa's "Things For Free FB Pages" are still doing really well. We'd love to get other like minded people to pitch in with large orders of Organic Produce. Even if nothing comes of it, at least Lisa and I are talking about positive things. :) That's good for ones health as well.

Here is a link to a rather Utopian Ideal that seems to be doing well. If only we could have more projects like this. See what happens I guess:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1ECX5wdLqw

It's our belief that we need more secular non religious groups that actually provide healthy food, Vs the near dated old bread, sugary, sweets, fatty and fermented vegetables that many charities pass are currently "selling" to the poor - commonly refereed to as "Food Boxes" Even if one was to argue that some of the food is still in date ... it's quite shocking the quality and damage that such foods offer to those in desperate need.

I really wish more of us could band together in order to acquire a piece of the pie that's typically reserved for those much higher up on the hill. You know how the saying goes those ... beggars can't be choosers. LOL - Things are a changing though. Thankfully ... that context of the God factor is waning. : )

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03-05-2016, 12:45 PM

5-HTP Science-Base Nutrition TM (Dietary Supplementation)
Not every product is the same - this is the one we are using:

http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/d7a4baab-b245-434e-9977-ab0877ec6f07_zpswa0rsub2.jpghttp://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/928c7c5b-870c-44b5-b69a-e564912576c8_zpsoem1qqod.jpg

This is something my wife is trialling at the moment. In fact, my daughter who recently threw her prescription in the bin (sedative medication from a psychiatrist) is also trying it as well. It's early days yet. My wife who has been managing her illness of Multiple Sclerosis has rarely used the steroids and host of other medications often passed off by the professionals ... (including all the antidepressants "to cope with her feelings") I'm saying these things because my family has suffers as much as any other taking whatever medications and so on, however - thanks to my wife, we seems to be doing really well on various supplements.

I don't take to many and in fact prefer to live as naturally as I can by using food as my medicine. Unfortunately whilst some whole foods appear whole, they are very much lacking vitamins and minerals. Even those foods that are certified "Chemical Free." The trouble with that kind is that the soil they are grown in is lacking in nutrients. Certified Organic - I believe is the farming practice where the soils actually get the attention they need and also chemical free. (Certified Organic is Not always food that is sold as organic - Organic food sales are now as deceptive as fat free and other various misinformed claims. - Certified Organic is VERY EXPENSIVE ... as too the deceptive Organic Produce that claims to be Organic but is really not.) Sadly even Certified Organic Practices also include a lot of sprays that are debatable. My point here is, that since I have started listening to my wife and taking various supplements ... YES - I have to say I have been feeling positive changes taking place.

I have to admit though, it's a little depressing given the fact the our society has come down to living like this. BUT - for now, I think about how I write about that another time and focus on sharing what works for me.

Right now - I just want to share this supp as it's really helping my wife and daughter, both of whom have their own issues that relate to much of what this supp is noted for helping to balance out. The benefits of supps over harsher synthetics is not something I have time to investigate right now ...

In fact to be fair .. it is still early days for any kind of conclusive report as my family has only been on it for about two weeks. Just sharing that my wife's depression is seemingly improved and she is commenting how better she is sleep and also telling me how less hungry she feels. As for my daughter, like me, she is going to the gym and has even has a few sessions with a personal trainer. As a cutter who has numerous (many many)slice marks all over her arms, I am very impressed with how she "appears" to projects with motivation every time she gets ready to embark on a gym session.

But like I said, it's way to early to tell just how effective or not this sup really is. Allow me to link you to a page that scrutinizes or is very wary of the sup ... I don't want to appear bias. My wife is pretty good how she picks her supps. At the end of the day, you can't beat trying things for yourself.
http://idealbite.com/do-not-try-5-htp-until-you-read-the-facts/

Time for me to take my supps then hit the gym. Again - I still prefer eating the best food I am able to buy - yet I can not fail the improvement with my D3/B12 and Digestive Supports. All of our doctors are seemingly bias when we all bring up how we each choose to control our imbalances. If people focus on anxiety then sure Google sucks, but if you focus on getting well - Google is AWESOME :) (that to is a learning circle)

No time for edits, (hmmm maybe just a quick one [it's like become OCD : ) } )I really want to nail this morning's session at the gym.

Adios until next post.

EDIT - PS - Just before I head off ... I make quick note about things like trytophan. Tryptophan like many other wonder chemicals found in the natural cycle of things, really needs to be consumed with certain types of carbs in order to benefit from the "claims" - this is one of thousands of example where "Synergy" is often excluded when popping pills. Of course people avoid mixing pills so they don't wind up dead or end up with bad side effects, however I *NOTE more on the side for actually reaping the benefits of these many wonderful supps and drugs. That is to say, that just like with claims on certain types of foods, the way we cook, not cook, process and how we layer them (mix them) and also even the timing with day and night cycles + digestive phases and on and on ... even how fit or unfit we are when we take them or do whatever approach .. all these a variables that either bias, self invested parties, frustrations, hype, anxiety and so on end up projecting negative outcomes. The best way is to learn all these things and try for oneself; then move on.

Food can be much more forgiving and less taxing on the liver when "done right" ... minus side effects ... but only when you eat clean, as again .. the sad fact, if food is pretty much killing us these days. Once more, I note the crap the that charities hand out to the poor. Biggest Irony of all.

Righto ... best get my ass into gear and be kind to him. :)

Have a good rest to my friends on the other side. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz My day is just beginning.

Ponder

03-05-2016, 06:55 PM

Just wanted to share these two links. I think I will trial 5-HTP as well. Some of the information might be old news and or conflicting, however I'm finding good snippets of info among the articles. I do like the second link better, but happy to of come across both.

(http://bebrainfit.com/serotonin-deficiency/)Serotonin Deficiency: Signs, Symptoms, Solutions (http://bebrainfit.com/serotonin-deficiency/)
.http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/woman-holding-smile-720x480_zpsatypo9hj.jpg (http://bebrainfit.com/serotonin-deficiency/)

_What Are the Causes of Low Serotonin Levels? (http://www.livestrong.com/article/164861-what-are-the-causes-of-low-serotonin-levels/)
http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/186084587_XS_zpsg0pffite.jpg (http://www.livestrong.com/article/164861-what-are-the-causes-of-low-serotonin-levels/)

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03-08-2016, 01:27 AM

I was returning home from after a treadmill run and as I got out of the car having pulled up in my driveway, a glimpse of light caught my eye:

.https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1517/25488905182_bedcecb214_o.png (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/24977035924/sizes/o/)

Not much to report - Right now I am humbled by pain. In that experience, I have to say I am motivated and somewhat inspired with renewed vigor to eating cleaner once again. It really has been a case of revealing just how sick my body is since I stopped eating garbage and started living a much healthier life style. The doctor (and those like him) have been utterly useless regarding my complications. I'm currently walking a fine line between physical activity, healthy eating, responsibility, recreations and of course adequate rest.

Catching the light as picture above, was very well received. I almost did not go to group due to the pain I was in, however very pleased I did. I went early, took my chess set and had a good game before group. I'm back on plant based eating primary for healing. I'm both juicing and steaming. I'm already feeling so much better skipping the Grains, Meat/Fish. I am amazed I can say such a thing, given the amount of toxins in fresh fruit and veggies not certified organic. Just goes to show just how toxic other food can be. No doubt variables to consider ... but just sifting through what works for me.

See what happens. Long story short, I'm trying to avoid an operation. I've had enough of those, and they only seem to make one more dependent on pills. This time around, I want to learn from the pain. :)

Ponder

03-09-2016, 09:44 PM

Walked for about 3 hours, spread over two walks yesterday. Here are the morning photos at the half way point. I'm still getting to know the town from the ground level up:

Suburban Grass.
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1633/25025950874_070d5bc4e4_z.jpg (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/25025950874/sizes/o/)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1666/25656504925_e3634f1cee_n.jpg Head space wise, I'm balancing on the edge and doing so optimistically. The pain I have been going through really has been the inspiration I needed in order to push past the complacency my routine was heading into. Not sure what I really mean by that. The car has just pulled in, so I will commandeer it for a whiles and head off to the gym. I like walking, but not after a gym session. All of my injuries are pretty much healed - except for that one ... the pain in the but!!! BUT - good news there today ... and touch wood for tomorrow ... I may have finally worked out an eating plan to nail it back!!!

Tomorrow will tell. As for exercise ... it's all in the intensity, more so the varying of it. In fact there are many factors with not all toxins coming from my veggies. LOL - I even seem to be shedding the bad and caring less for the hype associated to that and making good gains with commercialized sprayed foods. hehe ... bit like making the most with the pizza's I used to eat off the street. Purification is not just about the mind and body. The experience that many purists - profess to seek, also claim that ... who we really are is separate from the mind and body. I think the trick is to be like so, yet keep in touch appreciate all sensations for what they really be. Sadly ... they still continue to $sell$ terms such as glory and bliss. No matter what angle I turn the lens, the $$$ they ask for undermined much of their message. BUT - at least some have PDFs.

Hmmmm whatever Dave. Go for your run and let the pros here come up with a new symptom for this here ramble as it be or not be.
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On another note:

I note, since removing myself from the ongoing hangup with one of the personal trainers - I had no idea how much of a goof ball he looks when constantly looking at his pecs. Perhaps I should use a more enlightening terms - Poor man with issues like us all. It's a crazy world. How tall, big or buffed does one have to be before one stops looking at their exterior; like its the only thing in the world.

I'm loving my cardio. I know people love to say how it quickly ages or is the worst exercise of all - BUT - I am feeling so much better since opening myself back up to doing what feels so natural to me. I'm now dancing out 30 minute sessions lightly on me feet as the treadmill does it's own thing. I look forward to resting up for my 45 min bouts, however I'm careful not to go over that for now. That's where I tend to loose myself and end up going for hours to often and too hard. The exercise has very much been balanced out this time around. Now I am in a $$$$ contract ... that's given me incentive not to *&^% up.

Maintenance - that there is the trick. Food Food Food (what goes in, dose not always come out) - emotions - control - outlook - exposure - dialing back - dialing up - steady state in between and throughout.

A round and round - an orbiting state ... today's mindset is for inertia to take place, after contemplating with enough effort to move my self loathing ass which has been toooo caught up in itself.

I flick the projector switch and now go be who I choose to be.

Ponder

03-10-2016, 02:18 AM

Early Night ---- Goodnight Guys . ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz:

PS - The dynamics at home are all good.

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1443/25666641855_cb0a61d977.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/F75fpR)
Could not be better. ;)

Ponder

03-10-2016, 04:07 PM

Where is your focus today?

Dahila

03-10-2016, 06:21 PM

:cool:.............................

Ponder

03-10-2016, 06:59 PM

Hi Dahila. Good focus I see. Here is a few snap shots along the new creek track I have been strolling along:
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1704/25385882760_b1140ffb6e_o.jpg

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1492/25594049551_c38d56e31a.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EZEcfp) https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1537/25385888720_43ca435ca4.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EFgjhy)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1620/25660558966_b04e79f160.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/F6x5bs)

How's things?

Dahila

03-11-2016, 08:32 AM

Good, the pictures are breathtaking, i love them all:)

Ponder

03-11-2016, 06:36 PM

That's good to hear Dahila. TY for the kind words. Taking some snaps shots once again, is helping me keep focused. Here are a few I took this morning whilst waiting for the stall holders at the markets to finish setting up:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1569/25686894596_03ede84576_b.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/F8S3R3)

I've been contemplating - more like intensively researching - what my next camera may be. I'm actually enjoying suburban photography. I like to remain discreet so won't be going back into those big intimidating DSLR cameras. Even the "Bridge" (Hybrid) cameras are still to intrusive for my liking. I also get to carried away with OCDish behavior with all the accessories and so on. My good wife was discussing my next camera purchase with me this morning. Lisa was raising the issue with how great phones are becoming for photography and how some people run business using an iPhone for taking pics. I'm not aware of such, but it is true that phones now make great cameras and offer a great hobby on the go for those inclined. Fact is ... there are too many accessories that one needs to get a wide variety of shots.

I'm sticking with an all in one compact. (no add ons or accessories) Most likely a 30X optical zoom. Something I can easily put in my pants pocket without drawing attention and or weighing me down. Not sure how much I am spending or what model just yet.

Anyways - that is today's ramble.

The photo's I show here today were taken with my Galaxy S5 Smart Phone. I did alter them some in Photoshop, because I know how and pretty much always take snap shots knowing I will edit later. I'm pretty quick to edit with photoshop. Learning how to do some post processing can also improve ones shots to rival cameras worth hundreds more ... BUT ... I have the bug again, so will probably spend a few hundred when my loan is paid off.
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Ponder

03-11-2016, 06:44 PM

Here's the last one for this morning and I post a video of when I had my drone and flew it over the jetty. It's a long jetty. :)

4XDigi Zoom with Matrix Exposure Galaxy S5: The Digi Zoom losses quality, but I still like to capture certain compositions. My next Compact Camera will soon sort out this issue ... BUT - I like to use whatever I have and again - capture the scene for what it is, over having all the bells and whistles on demand 24/7.

Of course you guys don't need to hear all that chatter, but I do like to waffle on when thinking about my next purchase: - I'm too much of an odd ball for the other specific forums. :)

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbkPJcv4hcU

JohnC

03-12-2016, 05:56 AM

Howdy all, just wanted to pop in and say hi. I still eat to get through my stress and i have become so inactive that my weight has really gone and so i have the snowball effect going. Still cig free but think about them daily. Peace all

Ponder

03-12-2016, 01:01 PM

Great to see you again John. I hope you don't mind as I share my battle in the spirit of encouragement.

I hear ya about the food. I might of lost of heap of weight, but still struggle with old habits. Hold strong with the no more smoking. I think I at least waited a year before thinking about dialing back food when I gave up the smokes. It took about about 18 months where the smell of OPs smokes no longer triggered me as much, or walking past a pub when back then some people still smoked in them. It's been almost nine years since I give up the smokes. It was may 15th 2007. I was 38 years old back then - now 47.

Giving up the smokes was such a big deal to me and still one of my most memorable battles in reclaiming my health. During that first year, I struggled with my weight so just focused on my resolve to never pick up another smoke again. I did bust in the first few weeks and maybe the following month, but nipped it on the but straight away during both of those times and kept telling myself that my original date of giving up was still the same. Instead of saying I have not smoked since " ", I would say I quit smoking on " ". That mind set worked liked a charm and only gave me more resolve to keep on track.

In that reevaluation, I discovered a lot about about the power of the mind. Even when we falter we can still make ourselves stronger. I put on a stack of weight. I hit 106kg/234lbs ... which is my morbidly obese limit. Remember I am 5/7" Given those stats, nearing 250lbs is asking for a stroke. I could feel it just like how the smokes were suffocating me. This was like only six months after I gave up smoking. I was still not ready to tackle the food.

I did the next best thing. I started to move as lightly as I could in circles inside my outside shed. I was too self conscious to exercise outside. Long story short (if possible) ... it was not a quick fix and was a whole new battle just like quitting the smokes. However just us one complication leads to another, so to do the victories.

My mental health predisposition does see me overbalanced and overdoing things more than not. I nearly killed myself with exercise (as discussed before) - it was not until several years later that I discovered just how important food is when it comes to balance. I'm still only just learning the lesson now. Then of course we have Age to factor in as well. That variable will ultimately make us of break us when it comes to understanding food. Sadly, the whole food factor is as much a drug as the smokes and in many ways, just as addictive. It can be very hard to understand the extreme negative impact that food can have when we are younger - but it will quickly show up with vengeance when we are older. Often it can be too late for many who typically end up with diabetes, gall bladder removal, and a billion other food related illnesses; both physical and mental. Low and behold - enter the pills. A whole new set of complications.

So - it's not an easy task taking control of ones health in the face of such - hmmmm - allow me to say consumption and consumerism. Whilst the later is something I used to cling to withing the context of blame, the former was still entirely my choice. Another lesson that played into my long lived journey of now relying on pain as my now teacher. Today it is constant pain that has revealed such things to me, and now I do me best to listen. It is now that I can note the importance of having made yet another decision in order that I was able to unveil such warning systems. Coming off the medications. Yet another piece of the puzzle that takes extreme care. (relative to types of meds and how long one has been on them)
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It's a long process is all. You can make some goals, but just keep them real. I lost up to 35kg/78lbs at one stage, then put it all back on again. ATM I have lost 22kg/48 pounds ... but this time FOOD is the most important factor for me. I am exercising again, but listening to my body this time around. AGE - :) Despite saying age will eventually take us down, there is much we can do right up till the end. Just as I nearly killed myself with over-training (exercising/in adverted - passive self harm [same can be said of food] ) l know I am just as able to do the same with food.

The smokes brought me to my knees - then so too did exercise of all things. That one was more an imbalance that saw me dealing with the world as I only new how. During that time I was doing ultra endurance with no goals in mind, whilst drinking and eating poison. I was like a runaway train that went suicidal no long after that. We all have our own stories, but I think at the end of the day, many are much the same.

"Consumption and Consumerism" is best title I can think to narrow the predicament that many of us face. Just two facts. The later I negatively focused in the context of blame, however the former I "learned" to term in a brighter light to take back control for myself and make the most of what was then and still do now.

It all got better once I gave up those damn smokes. :)

You've done so well to still be off the smokes.

Srry to of gone on. Just trying to help and share the process as it's been and still is for me. So much garbage being offered as choices, and whilst that is questionable, learning to accept ourselves and focus on what matters most in a world seemingly designed to keep as all distracted ... yadda yadda ... is hard enough in itself.

Each healthy choice we make a life style habit will undoubtedly lead into another healthy step like the one before it.

Focus on the victories and the battles soon quickly fade.
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Today I just go through the motions in the gym and focus on me eating ... because simply put, that's where I am currently at. I have a permanent tear in my asshole (years of constipation) which will let me know if I am not eating right. That I am learning to live with - it's a bit of pain that is atm, helping me eat right. I'm not so quick this time to go under the knife. There will always be something that will crop up, but the more I learn from my bodies warning systems or at least have the ability to tune into such (again avoiding the band aid pills and effects) ... the less pain I can avoid by learning to make better choices in a world bent of a value systems that cares little for you or I.

Again - nice of you to pop in John. Hope your able to find time again, or whenever. :)

Ponder

03-12-2016, 01:16 PM

Additionally ... Chemical assists may have a place in providing space for other areas of the body to heal - that is purely an individual matter with many variables ... for me, reclaiming my health simply involved getting off all forms of medications as they related to me. Having said that though, I will not advice people to see a professional ... I don't believe in such things. I believe in me! I am yet to meet a professional that has ever cared for me - the hospital emergency trauma team I am however thankful for. I think too many people rely "too heavily" on so called professionals, when really all they need to rely on is more so themselves. They are mere servants like anyone else, but sadly their status valued more than others. (an imbalance that's making us all sick) Most people are only interested in others making all the choices or having others tell them what to do.

AKA - the way 99% of the questions of formed in forums like these. Then of course there is the telling where people don't ask questions but tell others how to live. I much prefer to focus on what I do with the choices I make. Is beyond my control what others do - so in that regard I should care less ... or should I??? : ) ............ Don't answer that ... that's for each of us to work out ourselves.

JohnC

03-12-2016, 03:33 PM

Yes it will be a year next month and I pushing 300 pounds 5' 11" yea I am feeling it. Not sure which is more depressing the way I feel now with this weight or coughing all the time when I smoked. I hope it starts to get better Cuz I can't handle any more weight. I have become so sedentary and tired all the time it is really working on my mental state. I feel as though I am dammed if I do and dammed if I don't.

Dahila

03-12-2016, 04:20 PM

Hi Gentlemen, John yeah i feel for you, I put a few stones on too, in the last 6.5 years I do not smoke, Weight is awful but I would not go back to shortness of breath, coughing and, and being constantly on antibiotics due the bronchitis. Lately no matter how I am stressed , I frigging eat, I hate it. I am so tired after whole day on market, not much profit but I had a feeling that I will break even this year. Maybe even a small profit. Dave I left the smiley to tell you that I am reading, and have no energy to post:)) yOu are always my inspiration Dave, thank you

Ponder

03-12-2016, 05:22 PM

I understand about the no energy Dahila. I am unable to sustain going at one pace. I'm just now looking into exercise for "old" people. :) - I'm also considering the balancing point where NOT to get sucked into the image and expectation of pain free living that many fitness types place upon themselves. I don't want to loose sight of what a simple balanced diet and mediocre activity lvl can do for ones brain.

I'm up and down all the time. The best I have ever done for the long haul thus far is giving up eating the junk foods. Today I feel depleted because of my exercise, baby sitting commitments and a few other things that will continue to happen and so forth. Just the no more eating junk food will see me much better off, no matter the weight gain here and there.

Hey John - Have you backed off the sugary drinks? Do you think that is a place where you can make a start? Sometimes one thing is all it takes to get the ball rolling. You have already started with the no smokes. Maybe when the time is right, you can start the next process with one more thing? Sometimes the little things can really add up.

Giving up the junk food started small for me ... I started by no longer using sugar. Not exactly small - however maybe to go smaller, just start by eliminating sweet drinks. To get a hit, try eating whole fruits instead. Don't worry about how much or when at first ... once you withdraw more, you can then worry about amounts and then timings. Coming off sugar is as hard as coming off meds - but just as empowering and beneficial for ones health. That's what I told myself and it worked for me. Headaches and all - lol. :)

JohnC

03-13-2016, 08:26 AM

Hi dahl, i hope all is well. What market are you talking about, are you taking your goodies to a market?
Ponder, i do not drink any sugary drinks. I drink a lot of diet soda and a lot of water though. I think my biggest problem is just eating a lot with zero exercise right now. I eat lots of salads and fish and all the vegetables fruits and nuts a lot of good stuff but way to much salt and butter.
Mentally speaking i am not in a good place. Normally this time of year i would be fishing with all my spare time and starting to work outside but i had to sell my boat to pay medical bills and lost all my fishing stuff in the garage fire and i have just never been able to recoup and it just spiraled out of control. Big pity party for me, oh well F@*k it.

Ponder

03-13-2016, 05:39 PM

Hi John, sounds like you have a good idea of what’s holding you back at any rate. Salt is as bad as sugar. Especially as we get older. Salt was my next big target after I gave up all forms of sugar – bar what you get out of fruit. Having said that - I did have a biscuit the other day on a whim. I was fully depleted during a recovery day and though “oh well F@*k it.” I also went on to eat some read meat with the trimmings and all. By days end I felt pretty good and did a mild run. I pretty much at a point where I listen to my body now; mostly because I can. I’ll have a tad of salt now and then, but know just how much I can get dehydrated and then suffer with constipation later as well as other factors that come into play.

Eating a lot of the so called “right” foods was ok to start with, but I have since discovered many of those good foods are in fact bad for me. Sadly, it’s not as easy as eating a lot of all the “right” foods. That would be too easy. However it is a start. Getting it right will see a balance with the mental state.

Which came down to WALKING for me even when I had not yet discovered what food worked and still very much out of tune.

This kind of walking is not about
losing weight - it's more about
finding will:
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It was a blessing of sorts to of had the opportunity to capture others like me ... and I guess to now share as I do. Pictured above is an old man and old lady who despite whatever capacity seem to understand the power of will. Of course an assumption as I do not know what is in their minds, yet the fact remains both have placed themselves within an environment conducive to healing. Both are in a place of solace moving at a state that's comfortable to them. There is something about getting up and going outside combined with the action of movement, no matter how slow or whatever the time.

Have you still got your camera John? Even just taking a few snaps with my phone can help remind me of just how peaceful and healing my walks can be. I may be highly active now, but I still love dialing back the intensity and reminding myself of just how I arrived in a now healthy state. In the beginning finding the time to enjoy my walks did matter to me. I struggled a lot with my surroundings and seeing other people. I often went before the sun went up:

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If you have followed this thread of mine and or others, you have probably seen these photos already - maybe or maybe not. I too was often like - FUCK IT!!!!! Fuck the world and can at the drop of the hat return to such a bitter state. Alas ... since it's my choice and I know better ... for now whilst having fostered, endured, established and created the ability and capacity, I will continue to focus on making healthier choices for both my mind and body, whilst at that same time - try not to lose sight that I am actually none of those things. The later more a spiritual concept that's often lost in the distraction of striving for ideals and things.

I'm sorry about the things you lost. Despite the fact I still talk about buying this or that, I still prefer not to to be taken up in being identified with what's comes, gone and or that I think I want. I get by mostly by using what I have and if in the acquisition mode, I attempt to remind myself of what I still have rather than what I have lost. I'm thankful I still have a wife and my kids.

The fact that I am now able to run, is just a bonus. Like I said, I still have the capacity to lose it all. When I feel like Fuck It!!! - I do much better to get up and go for a walk.

Srry if my response did not some how cut it. I know how you feel. I really do. Mind & Body are important and work together - but for me ... finding that missing link that I will for now simply call "will" - was a case of just getting up no matter not knowing what to do; and going for a walk. Since doing that and getting a sense of that buried connection - I have not turned back. From that moment, I told myself I am as fit as then, as I am now. I found will and now have a desire to keep walking with no end in sight. It's free and requires no more than finding will.

Wishing you all the best with that.

Kind regards
Dave.

Dahila

03-13-2016, 09:14 PM

Hi John, I rent a table at Farmers Market the biggest one close to city, is 15 min drive from my home. I do sign under D. post and quitting on sugar and salt. Diet sodas are full of sugar. it is like 9tsp of sugar in one can.
salt is the same tricky.
Our body recognize 3 tastes ; salty, sugary and bitter.
Some retards like I am like the bitterness but also salty, which causes water retention of course. I went from two tsp of sugar in my coffee to a half of tsp. it took me like 3 months to lose interest in sweet coffee, on the top of that i drink black coffee. Tea no sugar not honey, just tea.
Kicking the salt is the hardest for me, this is a reason why I use a lot of herbs and the garlic. Garlic helps to lower the salt intake.
John quit on pop , have a steak instead and you will start loosing the weight. Steak and salad, will do the trick
:mellow:

Listen to your body, always, it will tell you what is good what is not good for you:))

Ponder

03-13-2016, 10:24 PM

That's really interesting Dahila. Going off milk I found to be easy. I just went to light milk. Not long after that, full cream was like drinking butter. For sugar, I switched from white to raw years ago. Like with the milk trick, I switched my sugar to honey. Now when I have sugar, it's like the rich effect I got when drinking full cream after going off it.

I agree that SALT is the hardest. It's like giving up smokes all over again for me. :) - It such a flavor enhancer. The only thing that seems to work for me, is reminding myself just how much more hydrated I feel when I am not adding salt. I no longer even use the excuse ... "if I work hard and sweat" ... my body pr much knows when I add salt now. Bit like when I drink and my liver lets me know straight away.

The best thing ever I did as far as no longer needing sugar, salt or even any kind of flavor enhancing spices; was going on a water fast. But I know that's too much more most people. Even just doing a few intermittent "water" fasts is really good for helping ones taste buds come back into sync.

Dahila

03-13-2016, 11:36 PM

yeah fasts are good, we give the body the time to heal, humanity was had always food, or not food, fasting for a religious reasons, or for simply healing. Most of my dogs refused to eat one day in a week. They knew:)
I would think I use a half of salt I used a year ago:)

Ponder

03-14-2016, 02:34 PM

What's the go with all the Doctors flooding the forum of late? So much for a peer based forum? I get that they suffer too, but to bring their hats on into the forum like they do. Pfft ... as if we don't know any better and or we need such home visits in a place meant for peers.

"Hello everyone I am a doctor" - Rings like a preacher at the pulpit.
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Righto ... nice chatting and hope your resting well.

Time to take my medicine down at the gym. :)

jessed03

03-16-2016, 09:48 PM

Oh, is it doctor season again? Always seems to happen once a year, doesn't it? Maybe course work's due this time of year and they need a lab rat. ;)

Hope you guys are well. Been a little while since I posted. My laptop went down. Nothing to do with Linux, the battery went caput. I ordered a replacement off of Amazon, but apparently it was being sent from China. Hi 6 week wait! I'm good to go again now though thankfully.

Ponder

03-16-2016, 11:34 PM

Glad your up and running again Jesse. Sometimes it's worth the wait to save the $$$$. It's nice to know when things are coming from china though. I buy a lot of stuff from china - I know all about the waiting times. :)

I'm doing OK thanks. I finally purchased some new clothes. I still have a ways to go before decking out my draws. Now I have dropped a few sizes, I can get things on special. Talking of which, I picked up some new runners off eBay and got to say I feel like I'm running on air! Well ... perhaps not quite, but what a difference it makes. Going to order another pair and rotate them just for my runs.

Had a good workout this morning. I seem to have a good plan that's working well.
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Nothing much else to report.

Ponder

03-17-2016, 04:55 AM

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Ponder

03-17-2016, 07:55 PM

I got to say, that's a really good snap I took with my phone ... when I did. Yea yea ... a little smoothing out in Photo shop, but to look at that and think how I waited for just the right moment to push the shutter. Is good to remember the moment for what is was ... very much as depicted.

I'm so sore today - I kind of pushed hard yesterday and now feeling it. None the less I still got in a good 45 minute session early this morning. Trying to keep spirits up if only for a placebo effect. Amazing at just how effective a BS outlook can be. You know - like a plastic smile that after some time starts to take effect. Hmmmm-

Mentor friend and I went out today. I text because I was nervous but then decided what the hell ... lets go anyway. I am glad we did. The Zen café is closing - Bummer - Oh well, we found another quite place where I ahd a long black in a mug with an extra shot. I typically only have coffee once a week when my mentor friend comes to visit. He seems pretty happy with the transformation he has seen in me.

I was wearing some of my new threads and must admit they seem to fit really good. My shaved head even looks to have a sparkle to match. hehe. The whites of my eyes beaming clean, airways passages working flawlessly pulling in large quantities of 02. I guess one could say I'm more "able" to sustain any amount of judging, cynical and or deluded imbalance negative thinking patterns that come to mind when tackling sessions of graduated exposure. Making the distinction between being physically fit and still yet dealing with the clinical nature of embedded thinking patterns was a topic we discussed today.

I've been finding some of the dynamics in the gym quite unsettling of late. Perhaps something I can post about later. I've been handing it quite well - given the nature of my so called predisposition. Essentially there is a cost to using such public facilities that goes beyond what I choose or not choose to focus on.

SO after coffee ... we went for a drive around town to look at some sports grounds that did not have locked gates. I will aim to transition from the treadmill onto the grass, before hitting the pavement/roads. My super sensitivity/ "zone enhanced powers" can no longer handle the obnoxious arrogance of said "trainers" at the gym. Grrr ... I get my head around that story later.

It was awesome to find some alternative for my running. The grass will also make a good transition. It also looks fairly inactive in the later parts of the day. That's good, because I often get the urge to run and any time of the day and having a place near by to unwind is very therapeutic for me. Given there is no labouring options - it's all I have to unwind. I saw some sports sand bags the other day and was thinking about buying 5. Fill them up and stack to to one side at table hight. Have an empty table on the other side where when I get the urge, I can just toss them from one side to the other as it shifting wet bags of fertilizer like I used to do when growing an entire back yard of veggies and herbs.

That's the main issue with me living in the world the way it is today. Just not enough options for us to unwind as humans we so typically did. Might sound like a cop out - but the sedentary life style with all that BS poisonous food ... well - I need not preach any more about that. You know what I mean. It really is fucked up ... and that's that.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm - any ways ... not going to let the shit at the gym get the better of me. My wife is encouraging me to complain yet again ... but I've only been targeted for having already made a stand. Will just keep my weight days to twice a week, early in the mornings ... and get my cardio happening in a much more conducive space.

I think this post is done.

Going into minecraft to carve out some space in there - perhaps a little world of tanks.

That's this big kid done.

Adios until next post.

Ponder

03-18-2016, 05:35 AM

Check out the bargain "chess set" Lisa found at one of the local opp shops - 2 dollars:

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Ponder

03-18-2016, 05:40 AM

Couple more photos - I'm really chuffed about this little chess set. Small enough to take bush walking with me:

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https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1595/25880142505_1b43af7e94.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FqWuHx) https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1461/25785187021_a27c2839c5.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FhxPL2)

2 Bucks - Can't complain about that. : )

jessed03

03-18-2016, 05:51 AM

That's absolutely brilliant Dave. What a steal, bud!! Like you said, perfect for travelling too.

On to something you mentioned earlier, mind if I ask what running trainers you got? I'm in the market myself so a brand or model recommendation would be sweet. I like the idea of walking on air lol.

Dahila

03-18-2016, 07:37 AM

Dave how the heck you take pics like that? I need to take pictures of my products and you are too far for me...........

jessed03

03-18-2016, 09:58 AM

Dave how the heck you take pics like that? I need to take pictures of my products and you are too far for me...........

I know, right? I thought they were catalogue pics at first. They look a professional job.

Dahila

03-18-2016, 12:40 PM

Yeah, they do look like professional job, Jesse;)
D. teach me how you do it

Ponder

03-18-2016, 05:41 PM

Hi guys - I'm just going to cut and paste real quick for now. I was pleased to see you guys replying and I have a few hints and tips for you both. I've just got to keep moving for now. Going to grab some mulch for the garden, some sand for the little fella to play in and catch up on some other things. In the mean time, I share this post as I know you guys don't mind reading up on how I am progressing.

I will be back later to share about the shoes Jesse and also some tips for your product photos Dahila. back later on.
PS - hope you are resting well.
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Cut & Paste from my running blog:

Making The Break - FROM - The Gym. The transition from stale and stagnant air to fresh air and sunlight.

As soon as I got this close to it, I knew my treadmill days were over. "Touch wood"
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It's one large field part of several. Here is another shot to gauge apparent size:
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That's it - I'm done with cardio in the Gym! I'm kind of kicking myself for having signed up a membership. Alas, I will make the most of it for strength training - "VERY" early in the mornings to generate a more conducive atmosphere that's best suited to me.

What a breath of fresh air it was to run on grass and take in the warm sun. It really was awesome on so many levels. The green, the expanse, hell even the birds were at peace. Granted it's not the season for swooping, but in the more congested areas of town the crows and magpies have a more noticeably tense squawk happening. I figure they also like what's on offer in this part of town. http://www.coolrunning.com.au/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/smile.png

To busy running in my zone to take pics, but I did enjoy the birds fluttering, sitting and checking me out. Maybe I left a trail of worms in my wake due to the vibrations of my foot falls. The fresh smell of newly mowed grass, the warm glow of the rising sun and yadda yadda bla bla ... with a lol ... This is why I want to run without a race.

Each to their own. In fact - depending how "competitive" this forum is, I may not be round that long. This is a mere spot to transition from one method to another' just like the treadmill to the grass. Hopefully this time when my feet leave the ground and I'm cruising above the bitumen - that this time I will not need an ambulance to scrape me off the road when last time I about did my kidneys in.

Feeling much much better - a good day for an active recovery given my last huge effort in the Gym. I really got to avoid those peak times - more so ... when it's staffed and personal trainers are in the gym. Early birds beats the fuss. http://www.coolrunning.com.au/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/wink.png

PS - what really topped it off, was the pleasant demeanor of the groundsman I spoke to. I went over to make sure I was not stepping on anyones toes. Was a good ending as I headed off back home.

PSS - My landing gear is about to recede as I prep to take off.

Ponder

03-19-2016, 02:08 AM

Thanks for the kind words guys. Dahila, I will explain some tips for using a compact camera. I take it that's what you’re using? I no longer have my DSLR (as you know) but I can give you a little point by point guide on how to shoot better pics with a little compact.

First I help Jesse a little then keep moving again and come back later.

Jesse - about the shoes.

Here is a guide to understanding Foot Pronation:
http://www.asics.com/au/en-au/pronation-guide

If you go to "specialized" sports store that puts you on a tread mill and does a few other tests to find what your pronation is, you will end up paying like 300 to 400 au dollars ... around 150 UK Pounds. Something like that

If you have on old pair of running shoes ... Check the tread on them to see where they have worn down.

I will give you an example of one of my old New Balance 590 V3 Neutral shoes:
Click Image For High Resolution Inspection.
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https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1602/25262512494_abc50e2e23_c.jpg (https://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/25262512494/sizes/o/)

I'm Neutral with a slight Underpronation. The ball foot area (parallel arrows in diagram above) is worn "fairly" even with the outer leg → A,B,C & D (as labeled above) slightly worn to that of the cosponsoring side (inner leg) In fact ... the ball foot area has a slightly more ware on my big toe area (inner leg/over) which plays into the "S" line - Waring in - config as described in the Pronation Guide I linked above for neutral feet.

Summery - whilst my ball foot area wares well on my big to region, I'm over all fairly neutral down the middle of my foot (strong arch but not too high) with a slight tendency to land on the Underpronation (outer leg) ... which is typically good enough for most standard neutral shoes ... BUT - EVEN BETTER for the ones I purchased. :)

I bought the following shoe on eBay: (Click on title to go to eBay page)
Saucony Men's Comfort Wide Neutral Running Shoe Echelon 4 (http://www.ebay.com.au/itm/Genuine-Saucony-Mens-Comfort-Wide-Neutral-Running-Shoe-Echelon-4-Cheap-/181979909445?var=&hash=item2a5ed90d45:m:myLAojlFfTtLx9D_t1tQHgw)

The review on Youtube is quite favorable, however it does note that it's a must for a fairly neutral runner as it seems to give more on the Overpronation side. Given the inspection I did with my high resolution snap shop of my shoes (neutral with a slight underproduction) I knew I was on a winner. I bit the bullet and ordered. You have already heard how happy that purchase ended up.

If for some reason you are over pronation - I believe a stability show is what you will be looking for. I'm no expert - I just research on the internet. Use Google, Youtube, go to the specific forums, ring the shops, query them and so on.

Other things you can do ... go to the shop and try on a size withing the brand you thinking of buying online. Asics and Saucony seem to be pretty comparable in thier US10 and US 10.5 - Mine are a perfect fit. The Saucony's I bought are also good if your slightly heavy. They are for wider feet. Everything about the shoe I bought was designed just for me. I am buying another set - and will be rotating. The wider fit, sits my [front] ball strike area snugly with lots of support. Tighter fits can lead to a pain in the arch! My new balance were kind of like that...especially if I did up my laces to hard and when the give in them went some time ago. (whilst a neutral shoe, they did not have the support for me .. I know that now .. they were good, but did not really last me long)

They are so soft and bouncy when running on the road, however such is a limited effect. By rotating them, I will be allowing one pair to fill back up with air during it's day off, while I stress the next pair. Think of it like a trailer load that never gets empty. The springs will loose their spring if the trailer is not unloaded regularly. Buying an expensive pair of runners that will be run in day in and day out ... and or worn everyday as well as run in ... it does not take long for the millage and unending stress to ware them out. Not only will I be rotating mine, I will not be Waring them when not running. I will buy a third "cheap" neutral pair on sale for my general daily goings about.

Other factors are always untie your shoes "before" taking off - do not stretch in them - keep them dry as possible and use good quality socks. Socks are something else I am learning about.

I think I have covered all the basics - OH YEA - the link refers to the Asics Nimbus Gell for neutral runners. I saw them locally, but did not try them on. they were like $220:00 - very sexy too. lol Normally my runners have always had give on both sides in the middle. The Saucony Echelon 4 was the first I have used with support on the underpronation side. ATM these shoes seem to glide over concrete. Again, the effect is only limited, but I am doing all I can to make sure the effects lasts a long time.

I hope some of these tips help. If you want ... take a photo of an old pair like I did and link me up. Just be sure to go outside and get sunlight on the soles to make them show up good in the pic. Set your camera to its highest resolution for your pic. Use some kind of photo editor and apply some sharpening. Play around with the light levels to bring out the detail some more. You'll soon work out just where it is that your Wearing down your shoes.
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Dahila - I will have to get back to you about the taking pics. It's amazing what you can do with a compact camera. Are you using any kind of photo editing program to at least crop your photos? GIMP is free and there are plenty of tutorials online. Taking good photos is a MUST for selling products. It's how my wife and I get by selling many things on eBay. I've been doing it so long now, that even when I use my phone I can pull off DSLR like shots.

I will do a proper guide on that soon enough and link you up. It was a little easier for my to help out Jess for now. The photo guide will take me more time .. BUT - I enjoy doing that kind of thing and I will learn some more for myself.

I have had a HUGE day today. I still have to unload a trailer load of sand. Smiles - Guess What ... I ended up actually going to ALDI and buying a Work Out Sand Bag:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1657/25270596153_7b20e7f87f_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/Ev5pPF)

Between all the running around, this mornings run, updated posts (which keep me focused and driven) - buying a new pool for the little one (blow up one broke) - setting up a sand pit and playing with the new sand bag (lol) - making this post and now about to go for a calm down walk ... I will get around later to doing up that photo guide Dahila. I teach you soon enough - I promise.

What is the model of your camera? That will help.

I hope this finds you guys well. I'll soon be in bed getting ready to do this all over again.

Thanks for keeping in touch. Much appreciated.
Your online friend
Dave.

Ponder

03-19-2016, 10:09 PM

Hi Dahila - I wrote down some thoughts for you. Just cut and past them and see what you think. I did not go on about the settings and or a million other things ... but I did mention the main things you should consider. You need to take your time and ask yourself a number of things. Do that with each photo you take and you will end up with much better display shots. That's a fact!

Now I know you probably did not intend me to write up some kind of hints and tips ... but I just like to help. I know it's important to you with the selling of your soaps. You don't need a special camera or fancy gear. With the below tips, and the will to take your time; you'll end up with better shots.

Here are my thoughts: (the briefest and most relevant ones for you to start practising)
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Quick Guide To Taking Better Product Photos:

Let there be LIGHT

Light is the first and most important thing you need to consider. LIGHT – LIGHT – LIGHT!

Five topics on LIGHT that come to mind are.
1. Ambient Light
2. Directional Light
3. White Bounce Cards / Reflactors
4. Camera Flash
5. Exposure Settings / Camera Settings – Setting The camera Up.

To keep it simple – Pick a time of day where the light fully illuminates a window and set up a table in that vicinity. Having a couple of large white sheets of white card board can be used as reflectors if the walls are lacking in bright colors.

Using your cameras flash – To soften a flash on a compact camera, I will sometimes us tissues. I will adjust the brightness by either adding or taking away the number of sheets. I will tear off a small square pieces and hold it over my flash using my index and ring finger.

The reason people use this methods with a compact, is that using the flash washes out all the shadows which results in a flat image.

ZOOM – Zooming in on a product is great for making the background smaller. Framing is important with respect to what's in font, on the sides and in the background.

Framing/Composition - … As above, learning to use the zoom can add a lot more options with respect to framing. Consider including a prop – Be sure to remove distractions in the foreground, background and on the sides -

Size Comparison – including a universal prop with your soaps can help indicate the size of the product. An example would to be including some dry flowers – well known flowers that are commonly known. To make your product look larger, include small flowers, petals and leaves.

Change your angle or position – moving in – move back whilst adjusting the zoom and when not adjusting the zoom. Go high – Go low … take the shots and check your preview.

Change the angle of your subjects: - what happens to the light when you alter either yours or the subjects position? – are there any shadows? - Where do the shadows fall, do they add depth and so on.

Spatial Awareness- more so between the objects in question, the foreground, background and sides. Allow for a wider frame so you have room to crop. To created depth – light needs room to move as do shadows.

In focus – Out of Focus – The distance of foreground and background and objects in relation to the aperture (Zoom) can sometimes create an out of focus effect which can be a good thing to highlight the subject and or remove distractions.
This can be a little complicated and many people don't often notice that a compact can create this effect. I will sometimes us GIMP (or photoshop) / photo editing tool to enhance this effect. This will require more leaning and experimenting … but well worth obtaining the skill.

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I'd say they are the main things that come to mind when I am setting up a subject to shoot. After a while of asking all the above questions with each take, the process becomes automatic.

It may all sound a bit much for most people, but to take really great photos and make an impression – the above is what it takes to pull off great shots no matter your camera. When it comes to selling products – a good image is often worth more than the product itself.

I hope some of that helps Dahila. I could go on and on, but I think is best to keep it simple. If you have any questions, or just want to talk more about how to improve … just talk away.

Again – I have only scratched the surface, but given the main tips I think will help.

We catch up soon.

PS- Take hundreds of shots more than you need with all the above in mind.
PSS - Always only half press the shutter ... never click it in one go.[I mean when setting up your shot] - additionally - half pressing the shutter button to focus on a subject, you can move the camera to re-composition, whilst holding focus on your main subject. Only fully press once your happy with the focus points and composition.

Ponder

03-19-2016, 11:42 PM

I reply in here to something you said elsewhere Dahila - regarding "saying one thing then being another." It made me think about something that's often on my own mind with regard to how and what I write, how and what I wish to be and how I really am. Most of the disorder in our lives seems to take place the moment we wish to assess it. I guess there is a hundred ways in which to say that. Setting the context here will take me quite a bit and I understand if what I say in not comprehensible.

The context ... "David, you are nothing like that which you write in the forums" Mind you - these words come from a moment of frustration. I am just trying to highlight the contrast from the action of analysing Vs the contrast of claiming one thing and then being another. Perhaps a classic example of Paradoxical living. More so the experiencing of polar opposites in a very interment way. I'm sure many of us here know well of this insanity - in fact it's often spoken about without people realising it.

To keep things real ... I wish to remind people that I have not been as calm and pain free as I may otherwise sound when writing in my thread ... I am often reactive at home when my space is encroached and the noise level reach a certain point for a certain amount of time. In short, I'm still pretty much an ass hole despite my attempt to rise above and all that jazz.
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It's important to keep things real. At least I am a healthier ass hole than I was several months ago.

That should count for something. :)

Srry had to rush the last bit of this post ... someone is skyping for a game.

At least we try and say the right things. My hints and tips for that ... is to learn how we say things so that the deeper meanings stay with us longer when not aiming to say or even think.

Had a reasonable day today - unfortunately in a bit of pain re passing my food. One slip in hydration levels and the wrong kind of foods and it's pain for most of the day. Sigh oh Sigh. One day ... maybe one day, I will nail this damn ailment.

Adios - until next post.

Ponder

03-20-2016, 04:33 AM

Ever wanted to record something off the internet like a radio stream or podcast that you simply can't find anywhere to download? In Linux it's pretty easy - I found an easy way to do it in windows as well.

Simply Download a Windows Version of Audacity:
http://www.audacityteam.org/download/windows/

Then watch this video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16NZNSvwyPU

Now you can record those programs/podcasts/streams that your unable to find download links to. You can record any sound that you hear in your speakers from your computer and save it in whatever format Audacity allows.

Hope that was helpful.

later. ;)

jessed03

03-20-2016, 07:33 AM

Ponder that's a super write up! :o

I can't believe there's so much I didn't know about feet and shoes.

You're becoming a fountain of knowledge, man lol!

Ponder

03-20-2016, 02:37 PM

Your welcome Jesse - Knowledge is power to a certain degree ... although Power is not what is seems. la la la - whatever Dave.

I am sure the doctors out there have a symptom for me with regard to learning the way I do.

I got to keep moving ... but I update in here too. This one I cut and paste from the annual fissure forum. LMFOA as a matter of fact. The older we humans get, the more lessons we have. Here I was thinking that growing old would be the answer ... hehe ... have I got news for you!
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Early Morning Assessment:

Morning BM = 5:00 AM - Semi Hard to Softish, BUT not so forth coming.

Initial Pain Level = Slight discomfort during movement - subsided quickly after shower. I feel encouraged as the pain level is that which will see me pain free until next BM which we will then see.

PS - I am please to say I am having up to 3 Bms a day. That's healthy!!! - although not something most people with such an affliction as an anual fissure would ever wish for. hahahahahah ... Is very funny .... lol ... yet another example of paradoxical living.
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Breakfast - Pre Workout Meal = Whole Grain/Steal Oats Soaked over night in freshly made (midday before) Home Made Almond Milk with about 1 1/2 teaspoons of honey and large table spoon of Flax meal (stored in fridge)

Tall glass of water -
Supps = Swanson Digestive Enzymes (I have no gall bladder) D3 - Due to overworked Liver and Past Damage my bodies ability to produce D3 (despite living in Australia) has resulted in a low functioning liver (despite doctors inappropriate gauging levels - I can tell by my skin and other signs) I take B12 as I am primarily eat a plant based diet and also take B6 for synergy reasons. Have just started taking 5-HTP. I really don't want to get into the specifics. This is still fairly new. Other than reportedly being beneficial for depression and a host of other mood related areas, I like the feed back on digestive support. Way to early for me to comment.

Additional Notes - about the supps. ATM - my understanding is based more on how I feel. (only a little technical data re sups - I trust my wife. She is very smart with sups and I'm in tune with how my body responds)

My wife got a diagnosis with multiple sclerosis some years ago. The medications she was put on made her worse. She went off the meds and started researching supps (incidentally, the diagnosis came when we started eating clean during that time [that was a separate research project - eating clean "is" rocket science "this day and age"] )

During the times my wife had flair ups and the times she was put back on medications (all doctors and nurses either scoffed at my wifes alternative methods or simply did not know what she spoke about) she was only found short term relief which quickly subsided and left her feeling worse. (bit like my with mood altering medications which thankfully I no longer take - touch wood on the 5-HTP which is more a supp)

Long story short - my wife has research like hell the arena of Supplementation and we both have an interest in eating clean and identifying the mass of poisons currently sold. The D3 I rate for me as important - the B12 and B6 I am unsure about, but given my circumstances with diet and very very minimal meat (at least looking to eliminate for the purposes of my anual fissure and it's healing) - The digestive enzymes a must for me having no gall bladder - SO - I at least take D3, digestive supps in a strict routine. I must admit, I do feel that the b12 gives me a kick during those times I am lagging and or if I take it too late in the day it can keep me awake. I am also careful with the doses. I prefer to take just under rather than above and work my way up slowly then back down to find the right dose which I also to not set as absolute.

MY my - I am going on. Hmmmmmmmmmmm
I Soak a lot of me food and when I do not - My BM's are not so forth coming. I avoid nuts and seeds - When I do consume them, I will soak almonds for 24 hours! with a good dose of food grade Organic Apple Cider. That other garbage sold on the shelf in plastic bottles ... imo - is best left sitting on the shelf, like all the rest of the packaged food. I soak rice for 24 hours and put in a touch of apple cider as well ... only eat the brown and avoid wheat as much as possible. Again ... when I do not soak my grains, or eat wheat and especially when adding red meat ... I end up heading towards pain regarding the annul fissure.

The whole process of what's come before, the junk food - the abuse I have put myself through, the consumption pattern and unhealthy living, the quick fixes, the removing of body parts and so on ... are all conducive to the resulting years of constipation and the eventual tearing of ones ass hole. Ya live and ya learn I guess.

Time to go to Gym - Sigh ... I am not a people person. I really need to work on my meditation. I'm good for the topic, but not so good at the practice. that is to say of recent as I've been working on my fitness which the drive in that, has negated what's as or if not more important ... my state of mind. I've found that works wonders when the BM's are not so forth coming.

This affliction which has brought me here, is both a bane and quite the teacher. I kind of have to be zen in all that I do in order to be a peace with the pain.
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THE PLAN FOR THE REST OF THE DAY:
Keep hydrated - put blinkers on down at the gym ... keep spirited (that helps a lot!) - Eat lots of watery fruits as I know they help ... (best way to hydrate as well as constantly sip "clean filtered water") - keep soaking and "home" processing (big job eating clean, although never used to be until post 1800's) - keep a check on exercise intensity - remain body away for both that and consumption - start doing some more meditation!!! - (requires slow filling of the cup over time ... one of the few methods left I need to take more seriously) - Plan ahead with regard to home dynamics/others and whatever triggers - Stick with Salads in the evenings - keep off the salt your doing well with that!!! - keep making your prune juice that works well too - no more meats whatsoever for the next few weeks and see how that goes, in fact up the cold press juicing on an empty tummy and check the whites of your eyes ... and above all ... keep going with the half lemon squeezed into 1 cup of filtered water as soon as you rise.

Yadda yadaa yadda ... A lot of work. However ... it's all starting to begin to fall into place. Next trick is to make up more of a list for quick reference for my average day ... OH YEA - enjoy the new lighter you with your running.

I'm really enjoying the transition off the treadmill into the fields re my running.
I'm going to beat this damn thing - It will be the new making of my 50 year old self when such time arrives. Been over a year in the making and I intend it to take another 3 before reaching any kind of point that will again see my not seeing anything in particular. I don't mind the man in the mirror, but not overly fussy with the looking.

I smile to think - what ever possessed me to join that damn gym. SIGH - I know - or now I do ... I make it nothing more than yet another lesson akin to the fissure. Now I laugh. I'll beat that shit too. Nothing like commitment I guess. oh well - One month down - 17 to go. I got plans already on how to transition from the gym to keeping up my strength based training in all that I do.
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Indeed I did go on ... but it's been a much needed update to sync all the important info and keep it all rolling. Breakfast is well and truly digested. I'm ready for the day.

Wishing all the other seekers, doers and or sufferes and ultimatley beings ... all the best.

Adios ... until next post.

Dahila

03-20-2016, 03:04 PM

Dave I just start to jump up on my chair, I am so happy for your Tips. I printed it out, Thank you from a bottom of my heart;) I also in the process of building photo studio; using white posters boards and big shopping box, it should be easier with the light. My camera is Coolpix Nikon, s 4000. I think it is not bad compact camera. With the working on developing the business and trying to get some profit there is a very limited time for anything else, Pics are very important;)) I took a few downstairs in my workshop and posted on Dana Bath & Body Care page ;))

Yeah I had not known about shoes too.
Dave you like anyone else suffer, feel pain, and in the top of that we are extra sensitive people. A bit not fitting to today life......I guess. At least I am. Even when you write so calm, I know that there is an ocean of emotions in you. You are going through very tough time in your life. The way you dealing with it, is pretty inspiring.
I personally do not have patience for the youngsters here, and my average is usually a post a day, if I remember to come here, or have time:)) Mostly I come here, read your tread and that it. I need an inspiration in my life and you are. Thank you my dear friend. Thank you Jesse for being here, and John for popping in. Marc abounded us, it seems, I hope he is trying to enjoy life too

Dahila

03-20-2016, 06:04 PM

Of course my post dissapeared as soon as I uploaded the pics and tried to check them up. I had build the 'whatever name is" and took some picks with the lamp in my workshop to check it up. https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1597/25946548265_0dac88c29d_c.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQQr)DSCN4940_010 (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQQr) by Dahila_ (https://www.flickr.com/photos/66530436@N03/), on Flickr
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1472/25946548245_fec90a5323_c.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQQ6)DSCN4936_006 (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQQ6) by Dahila_ (https://www.flickr.com/photos/66530436@N03/), on Flickr
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1620/25946548235_f971c22a53_c.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQPV)DSCN4935_005 (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQPV) by Dahila_ (https://www.flickr.com/photos/66530436@N03/), on Flickr
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1703/25946548195_e057d0271e_c.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQPe)DSCN4934_004 (https://flic.kr/p/FwNQPe) by Dahila_ (https://www.flickr.com/photos/66530436@N03/), on Flickr

Dahila

03-20-2016, 06:08 PM

What do you think? I know they are not worth much tomorrow hopefully I will put some effort and make a bit better with flower or two and some other things. What is flawless, what goes good with that name?

Ponder

03-20-2016, 11:47 PM

http://www.sherv.net/cm/emoticons/hand-gestures/thumbs-up-hand-gesture-smiley-emoticon.gif Great Work Dahila! ... I just lost an entire post giving you more advice - GGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. No matter. Keep up with the experimenting Dahila. It's the only way to learn. You are most certainly on the right track!

If your happy for us to do a little tuition in this space here - I'm down for that.

I know you know how to source out programs when you feel the need. Would you consider tracking down an older version of Photoshop? CS5 should be easy to get - personally I think CS6 is also easy to get. Even a light version will do. You do not need a full adobe suite. PM me if your interested.

The reason I ask if you would be able to go down the route of Photoshop (I use CS6) is because I can "easily" do up some video tutorials to show you have quick I turn my compact pics into more professional looking results. I don't always do it, but I often do. Especially when I want to sell something.

If unable to source out Photoshop - no probs, I understand. I will learn to use more of GIMP and we can both use that.
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Here's the deal - I'd like to help. You keep practicing and showing me as you wish. I will in the mean time attempt to video myself, in an attempt to show you my approach when I photograph items to sell. I will try to cut in photo examples as I go along to make whatever points. It will take me some time to produce such a video and the result will no doubt be B Grade - BUT - I do believe that in the showing, you will get a good idea of the points I had previously made as well as learn how to use some software to fix mistakes, enhance good shots and get professional results ... all with a little compact. :)

What you think about that. All you need do is practice with what you already have ... and give me a week or two to make such a video?

In the mean time, do you mind if I download you pics that you have already taken and give you some examples of what you will soon be able to do? Again - consider sourcing out Photoshop (not the suite [unless you want]) CS5 or better yet CS6 ... that will make this whole ordeal much much easier for me to teach you. Again - if your unable - no worries ... we can use gimp - I will just need more time is all.

SO - mind if I download your pics? Lastly - Your also welcome to use my services by sending me a bunch of picks that I would be happy to work with and send back to you. I used to do some online work for that sort of thing. For you, I do for free. Personally though, I would like to teach you as well. It really is easy once you put the practice in and have the software.

Look forward to hearing from you soon.
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Regardless of any of the above ... You are doing an excellent job. Keep up the good work. :)

Ponder

03-21-2016, 07:07 AM

Took me a while to work out a decent free screen recorder for windows, but I managed to pull of a quick demonstration video for you. First ... here is the comparison. It was a rush job. I did this in 1 and a half minutes. It's in real time with a play back of 20 frames per second. Long story short - this is why I would like you to obtain Photoshop. I know what I am doing in it and if you like, I can slow down and put in commentary audio to explain how easy the process really is. Of course one would end up with a polished job if one takes a little more time. None the less ... I think the demonstration shows well the advantage of post processing on the desktop. Like I say, I am am happy to slow things down and chat in video as I go along.

Pic comparison of before and after: (rush job as seen in the video below pic) I will teach you how to refine properly if your still interested.

http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/Example_zpszkfocqqw.jpg

VIDEO of actual editing:
(be sure to enable 702p)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdn3RWXQ6xA&feature=youtu.be

Dahila

03-21-2016, 07:50 AM

I have a lightroom but need to install it. Is that enough. I need to find the time to learn it. Yeah the difference is huge. Thank you so much , i will try to install it and learn it. I have no other option do I? Thank you for the post. any help would be appreciated, :))
Could I put any background on it?
Give me the tips, and I am going to print it to have it on hand:)) Do you not spend to much time on it at once because this forum is screwed up. I can not even delete the double post;))

Ponder

03-21-2016, 05:44 PM

How's this sound - when you have time just log in and see what posts I have made re hints and tips for you. It's easier for my just to have this one place rather than PM, email, Skype, Face Book and all that kind of thing. I do have other specific forums I go to in order to teach myself ... however this is my goto space and where I have made online friends that count. Just be patient with the forum ... most times it is just us that is out of wack. :) No disrespect intended - more so something I have come to find with myself.
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Re our options.

I just heard back from the company my wife works for online. I am as of now entering into a training phase to whats seems to be more of a selection process. This is going to take more of my time. However ... helping you out and making the odd post in here that's not focused on "woers me" will be my pleasure.

So what are our options? I can do more videos just like I just linked. We can just refer to them for a general idea. Given I don't have time to learn light room, I think I will just used my software to make a point. From there we can entitle a the method and search Google/Youtube Tutorials. Half the battle in learning the skill is identifying what it is you need to know. That I can help with.

For instance - The theme of the above Video I linked is about "Whitening The Background" - Now I don't know what search results will come up from that ... but it's a start. Other Key words are "Key Lighting" - hmmmm - Here I did a quick search and found this:
https://clippingmagic.com/

Now - you don't need to spend the money - I've already shown you how to do such a thing in the video I did. I'm just using the link to show you more the concept of "Background Removal" BINGO - there we go ... because I made a little effort I just came up with a key word that will probably get more results

BINGO again - I just put in "Lightroom background removal" into google and found you this:
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b80jRL4RqNA

We are on the right track and the options are looking good. No doubt there will be many ways to do the same thing, but again ... it's all about learning the concepts the will help you with "producing" better product pics.

SO without knowing whether the above vid/tutorial (have not watched ... doing this on the fly) goes into producing "Transparent Backgrounds" ← [Remember that term] Transparent Background is a really great tool for dropping your subjects into any background you wish to use.

Once you learn how to master the white background - Making transparent Backgrounds is a breeze. Just bear with me. I think I have reached my time limit for now. Hmmmmmmmmm ...
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Just a few points not so easy to explain, but quite relevant to learning Background Removal/Subject Isolation (another term) ... is understanding how the "SELECTION PROCESS" works. I am talking in terms that you can search re Lightroom - keep that in mind.

Most in-depth Photo editing programs (like lightroom) should have some kind of "selection tool" example = "quick selection" / brush" - "Magic Wand" - "Selection PEN" I was using the Pen method in Photoshop. There is an important reason for that. Normally I will used the "quick section tool" It acts similar to the magic wand. However - with background that are grey or more so have washed out tones where the contrast between the lines of subject and background are washed out - quick section methods are not so quick. The section areas you want will spill into both the background and subject because of washed out tones.

Essentially what you want is a good image from the start - for the purposes of background removal. What I mean by a god image ... is strong, sharp, contrasty lines that stand out well from the background. (so the section process can easily identify where the lines are and thus there will be no spilling into greyed and or washed out tones.)

To do this - Hmmmm - Light! ... learn about how to use the light. Good Focus!!! Out of focus objects will create a spilling environment - You can have have an out of focus background, but MUST have a tack sharp subject. But I talk more about this kind of thing in another vid. This is why I showed you the Pen method. It works on any kind of environment ... any type of photo ... good or bad. Most of the tutorials are basic and a good place to start.

So for now - practice with "background removal - Lightroom background removal - Lightroom Transparent Background -

The more you practice the more you will understand these things and be doing them automatically or as quick as I showed in my demo vid.
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I have my group session today and also starting my online training re a real world job. I go make a cuppa and maybe make a quick post about that.
I will for sure look forward to doing another short and quick video of how I go on from the process of background removal to creating a transparent background and talk more about that.

I think it's best I just hit out my teaching like this and you sift through when you can. I did my bet to highlight and add links that stand out. Just skim and hit on the terms you need to use. Set aside the time and you will find that your web presentations will become more professional. I've seen people get away with less ... but when it comes to sale - image is everything ... whether we like it or not. :)

Hope you are resting well.

I do transparent backgrounds next.

Dahila

03-21-2016, 07:29 PM

here is fantastic D. wonderful :) still had not time to install it

Ponder

03-21-2016, 08:07 PM

Is ok, you can just use lightroom. That was more my meaning. In your own time. I'm flat out as well. :)

Ponder

03-22-2016, 02:18 PM

I must admit - I hit a real low yesterday. I did not do so well at group. Out of the blue they did one of those introduction things where you get up and tell people about yourself. Before that, they started with getting someone to rub something off the board then asking something of someone else. This went onto sudden instructions to shut our eyes and start to think of ourselves. Of course there is nothing wrong with that per say, but given my then current state of mind and my background with authority and the like - My guard went up immediately. I can only add to this an element of religiosity I have sensed previously with this or that facilitator. When you mix these unfoldings all together - ding ding ding ... the bells start to ring louder in my head.

I just can't find any recovery group that's not infected with such controlling methods. SIGH - I'm not meaning to hold all this in a critical way that's bitter and spiteful. Not at all. There is something else about it which is just simply disheartening. I find the "influencing" methods quite old school with religiously tainted recovery groups. I struggle to find the right words to convey my frustration - at any rate ... such unflodlings where bad timing on top of the fact I was in a LOT of physical pain re my damn bowel issue.

So when it got to my turn - Having further been depressed with hearing everyone introduce themselves with "tickets" - "certifications" - "Job titles" - "what they owned" "What they did not" - and all that other religiously & politically tainted BS - I started with my name - left out all that garbage most everyone else had adopted ... and told them pretty much the opposite ... that I did not believe in Nationalism, Idealisims, Racism, basically anything and everything that countered all the BS we were taught in school and pretty much what most people believe. I told them that tickets, certifications, Job Titles, property where pretty much obstetrical - I wove into the mix the systemic issues that's spread itself through-ought my entire family, about my wife's illness and pretty much anything else that had embedded in it ... life's cruel lessons that are either endured or disabling.

Something like that ... I was quite apathetic about it all and once again, given the atypical clinical interactive way the group was being controlled ... I was and am still question my participation. I really don't have an answer for that at this stage. I do and I don't. The sun is starting to rise a little higher than I would like about now. Time for my run. See what happens after that.

Again - despite my ongoing physical pain (which I will ring the hospital and find where my name is on the list - aka make some noise) and trying events which is simply life ... I am really getting disheartened with the clinical approach and the amount of religiously and politically invented people rising that continually rise through the ranks within such recovery groups.

I know I am not the only one - It's worth pointing out that the really complex and fucked up cases that are typically appear busted from both outward and in ... there is something in there demeanor that I can sense that also is repulsed with such ideology and control mechanisms. Again - not easy to put a finger on, but I figure I am explaining plain enough. Such complex and busted cases are the byproduct of said system. Those that rise above using main stream indoctrination will of course subscribe to the limiting principles of what's so commonly taught; at that my friends is the major flaw that I face attending such atypical recovery groups bases on Societies invested "techniques" which really is embedded into "belief."
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I'll persist - for a while yet. Glen what I can and use it as another form of exercise. Throw to the way side all the above BS I have highlighted with such common invested beliefs ... I do not believe all the presenters are like minded. It just really has a bad taste when you get those types so tainted with the "Old ways" Thankfully some of the young ones have more of a mindfulness approach. that's not to say some of them are still not preyed/prayed upon. It's amazing just how effective and influencing those negative principles can be. Such authorities (as they typically be / in control/running the show) are good at adopting new age branches that would otherwise seek to fall from the tree. In other words - the church and politicians will be quick to adopt such terms as mindfulness, yet have no real interest in what it really means.

I think though - Dahila - The young ones in general are getting fed up quicker and seeing more the BS with current systems. We should encourage them and find hope in that. I know this place seems to attract more the disillusioned ... but that's the whole point. The problem is that there seems to be no real guidance that's not focused on "sign up here" ... hmmm ... best I can say for now. HMM I need to work on that (edit - there is no direction) ... possibly more a case that more of us need to say the right things ... LOL - Right what it that ... I remember Pam asking that question and I wanted to answer. Perhaps some day soon I will. :)

I think the irony is that there are in fact many home truths in that book that's been used and abuse - to learn lifes lessons on a planet like this with the way it is and the way we be ... it very much in fact easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than it is for us/byproduct to believe that having a job, certifications, socializing within an "accepted" framed work and all that other manipulative and appropriate BS.

I think to rise above it, we should feel sad for those that "believe."

Having said that though - let us not become better than another or see ourselves as higher.

I still have many lessons to learn so will go back to glean what I must. After all - It's not just about me, which comes down to the many drops in the ocean kind of thing. I'll work out a way to empower and offer others something other than atypical mainstream methods. Anyone can see when looking out ones door ... such teachings do not work.

Hope your all resting well. Time to catch the early morning sun.

Keeping things real.

Dave.

Dahila

03-22-2016, 03:07 PM

Hi Dave, a good read, would be if I had not go through the same situation. Of course I do shock people , taking lies; I am a janitor, I had not education and ext.........I am so bad at any gathering that i became a hermit. Even when I invited to small parties, I will always excuse myself.
Any gathering is controlled by someone. House parties is controlled by lousiest and stupid ;(
I like young generation a lot, they see through bs faster than us. That's good.
I am so bad today I just made two molds of soap and nothing else............... tired, back pain, leg pain and if I do not lose some weight I am going to die early
Please, do not think that any info you gave me goes to waste. I am printing it putting together and reading:) Thank you

Ponder

03-22-2016, 04:22 PM

Thanks for your reply. Taking a restful moment during the pain can help. I mean like how the &^%$ can one do that whilst in pain ... I try to smile. Dahila - you are a very kind and compassionate person. We are just both in a lot of pain of late. These last few months have brought about many challenges for us all.

A few posts back were you commented about your concerns for me, were in deed quite valid from where I was and now sit. I can tell you from the moment we met and spoke about the trees ... that I knew then just how much of a caring and special person you be.

All that educated nonsense in a world without direction means squat. We are way much more than any of that.

Thanks again for your reply.

Focus on getting as much rest between those painful moments and find something ... no matter how small ... like look for a pocket of air and find some kind of spark in that.
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I'm thinking fish tanks for the moment. lol ... My wife can't keep up with my hobbies and always worried with what I am going to come out with next. Thankfully I may have some online work if I am able to pass the training criteria.

How about if you get a moments spark - go out for a walk? or find something conducive to a goal that will help tackle one of your health concerns - Weight? Does not have to be much ... just take a few steps either out the door or some passive actions by merely making healthy decisions knowing you that by doing so, life can only take a better turn?

I best get off the seat before my pain comes back to teach. :)

Please do take care ... go to bed and think on making the changes that you think will help with your intimidate pain/concerns. You have the tools and the means. We all do. Sometimes we just have to get creative.

Please do keep in touch and also please do share with such things. That way you can help me.

Goodnight. ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz I will strive for a good day on this side for us both. ;)

Ponder

03-23-2016, 01:52 AM

Running Update - Nothing like setting off from the front door. Yesterday I managed 4 bouts of 10 minutes on the pavement with 2 minute recovery walks in between. I could feel the difference not only having to keep my running form in check to account for the harder surface, but also I'm now tackling inclines. It's like a going through a new level of cardio.

I headed out the door yet again today and did 6 10 minute bouts back to back with a 2 minute recovery walk in between. Over all it felt pretty damn good. I really got into the zone with each ten minute bout and climbed the hills without much thought. Having sent my aqua buds back for repair (mp3 player) I have been going without music at all. I have to admit - I have not missed having the buds in my ears. Perhaps when I have settled in to this new level of conditioning I may pick them back up. I really do need to keep my focus on form. Without distraction, I seem to be adapting my foot falls and making other micro adjustments to make the new transition less traumatic.

The new shoes are thus far holding up well, although I can see how wearing them all the time like I used to, impeded on the cushioning/support having a chance to push itself back out. I've got another weak before I can afford another pair. The sooner the better.

I'm running first thing in the morning without eating breakfast. Generally I like to eat before my 1 and a 1/2 hour session for weights, but I do prefer to run on an empty stomach in the mornings. Especially so early in the piece with still only building strength and overall conditioning. This running on the street has me drenched in sweat once more. I like that a lot. Feels good. I left my hydration pack at home the last two times. I really don't want the added weight ... not just yet. I have been drinking as soon as I get up - I always half a cup of water with half a lemon ... a little more water and let it settle while I stretch. For now it seems to be enough.

At this stage I am only trotting and working on the best form to ease the stress of each step. Once I start linking up those ten minute bouts, I will for sure have to take my hydration pack. It's during that stage, I seem to break my weight loss plateau and enter the zone of non stop. The later is something I am going to have to watch.

No running tomorrow. I do need to make up a proper plan with my weight routine included though.

That's a wrap ... doing well all things considered.

Ponder

03-23-2016, 05:09 AM

Dahila - I know you like to play in the kitchen. Lisa upgraded our blender. You know how we like to make our own food. Anyways, I had a busy day in the kitchen and thought of you could do with some cheering up. Thus I took some photos as I went along. Here we go: : )

My favorite blending experience is mostly with almonds nuts. Today I made some more almond milk. I typically get 2 liter from one packet or 250 grams of almonds:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1446/25703972550_3f843433ea_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/Fanzww)

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Next is my the old blender. It has served us well. However I got to say the new blender does a better job at extracting the oil from the nuts. The flavour was a little more fuller to my taste buds and the resulting pulp has less visible skin and came out a finer mix:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1672/25978614206_59e46a6bcf_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FzDbVu)

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Next is more about how I am setup in the new place. It has a "very" small kitchen. I pretty much can only use the one little corner. The rice, prunes and almonds are pretty much routine now: I call this one - Cave's Medical Centre. : )
https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1512/25375787983_9d990bd7ef_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EEnxFV)

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OK - so about 6 hours later after drying on a low heat (compared to oven) - with fan forced air ... we are now ready to chop the dry blend in the new food processor. : )

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1562/25371829014_26c76f7b89_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EE2fPQ)

OK - that's four pics per post ... so will make a cuppa and come back to finish the story. Back soon ; )

Ponder

03-23-2016, 05:42 AM

This is the end result of the almond flour. Because I mixed in the meal from the old blender - (which was also in the fridge for a little more than a day) there is more visible skin in the mix. I think the next mix will be a finer finish overall, however the result here I am sure will suffice for the banana bread Lisa intends to make. This is my fist go at it ... I can only improve from this point on:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1718/25978613526_b7dc27ba47_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FzDbHL)

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Again - here we see the difference in the blended results from the old blender and the new. (previous to drying in our food dryer)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1581/25371828504_900dae5cc4_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EE2fF3)

Out of the 250 grams I was able to acquire just under 2 cups of flour. Not sure of the best way to store it ... so just using my soaking jars for now:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1588/25883745962_e327ff4430_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FrfXU7)

I use a lot of almond milk - for banana smoothies and also soaking my oats in overnight. Here is a pic of the control center where I can no do all basically all my food processing ... when not cold pressing or using my pestal:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1575/26004530115_6d935b67fa_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FBW1Pv)

Here is a link to where we bought it from. We got in for 300au ... they sell a set up under this one for like 500+ in one of the local retailer stores. We rarely support such business when selling at ridiculous prices. We shop 90% online for everything ... even some foods.
https://www.binglee.com.au/catalog/product/view/id/40594/s/ninja-bl682nz-nutri-ninja-blender-system

Ponder

03-23-2016, 06:15 AM

Edit - I note the above almond meal is after making almond milk. Not blending nuts as the primary source - may as well get the most by making milk as well.

OK - I finish this story now by showing some more pics of the Blender setup we are now using and tell you what I think about it. (although I h ave only used for once for prune juice, almond milk and now processing dried meal into flour) There is a blunt plastic set of blades for making dough in the processor. I'm new to using a food processor for such things ... however I will experiment now I have one:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1514/25703969170_5a86edc659_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/Fanywf)
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Next I show the Nutribullets - I've never really been a fan of slicing into vegetables when it comes to making juice. I have a VitMax Cold Press which is all about Living Foods. The less oxidization when making healing drinks such as green veggies and or herbs, the less mutilation you want to do to the plants. Thus I will always be a fan of the Cold Press when it comes to such healing foods. So it was, that I would always turn my nose up when seeing those TV adds that boasted centrifuge methods for making veggie juice. None the less - there are soft fruits that are indeed more practical to blend ... such as watermelon and so on. Having said that though ... I get more orange juice through a cold press than a blander ... this is also true of pineapple. I'm sure it will be great for a quick banana smoothing and things like that when I am not making for more than myself. Also good to throw in a cooler bag and take on the go. I'll let you know how often I use them. Come to think of it ... they would be good for taking on long trips:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1575/25978611366_f32541086d_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FzDb5w)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1545/25909574611_3b9a789d24_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FtxkRD)

Again - whilst I have my cold press living juicer ... I wont be mutilating my fresh greens in this. But if it's all one has ... then mores the power to them.

Here is a shot of the main Blender Blades. When I do blend - Using the blender over the nutribullet is more effective given the blade setup and the way the timer pulsates the blades and mixes the contents. I've tried the different settings and the whole process and results are rather impressive. Best thing upgrade in the kitchen since getting the VitaMax Cold Press.

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1611/25909652921_7acbd448ef_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FtxK8P)
PS - many people complain about cutting their fingers on the blades when cleaning. If you take your time its not an issue.

This conclude this share and my day.

Here's to wishing you guys a good one.

Time for me to wind down and charge up for the next. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzz

Dahila

03-23-2016, 09:04 AM

OH I am so impressed, what a long road you went for the last three years. I want that NINJa but it is so expensive , I can not afford it, however I have a new cusinart food processor, works incredible. You make me happy to change the view on food and what should be done , and eat ............:)) very happy . Pictures, my stomach churns I so envy you the skill and knowledge. Still did not install lightroom . I need to find time to learn basic knowledge then install. I am really impressed. Today I need to make two salves ; Arnica and Plantain salve (weed not banana:)) ) then make a label on my cool paper- waterproof vinyl actually, When printed and goes on jar, you can wash it:)

Ponder

03-23-2016, 01:46 PM

That sounds like a plan Dahila. It's all about making peace with time and learning to use what we have. We all have the skills; some of us just need more guidance than others. If it were not for Lisa, I would not be able to sort through the selection criteria in this new online job I am tackling atm. The thing is - my wife knows for a fact that once I get through the door and take on the specific lessons, or that once the data sinks in - that I will be in the top 10% when it comes to getting the job done right. Patients is something this world does not have much of these days. That makes it hard for some of us slow learners or those of us with learning difficulties.

Anyways - we know what it's like to go without or to simply not heave enough. We are pretty wise with what comes out way. To be sure we have made mistakes, but also learned from them. Both Lisa and I have been bankrupt 2 times. We have not always been insured and certainly do not have life insurance.

I don't believe in the Law Of Attraction, or the religious mentality of "Got" To Give To Get - however there are elements to both that come into play without all the dogmatic preaching and prophecy. It just takes a lot longer than most people expect. Also you can't beat the philosophy of working with less. Tools are tools, they may contribute to the people we become, but they to not make us who we be. Only we can do that and any credit that's not worth the vanity it spawns, should never be directed to an external source. It is only ever us that either empowered or disables. Not some figment, authoritarian, politician, preacher, disciple, school teacher, soldier, doctor, and any other of the idealistic representations that so many of us are led to believe is a must and our "only way."
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Sounds like I need to go for a walk hey. :) lol - Is all good. I'm working on one day being able to present a good talk on how broken souls can both decipher and break free of such manipulative and imprisoning ways of seeing and living.

One day.

Easy come Easy go - Those tools on the kitchen bench may likely be sold within the next week or two. Until such time, I will keep the boxes and keep them like new. That's the lessons we have learned from making do.

If we could ... we would go down to the park and cook for the homeless ... but here where we live, they have laws to prohibit doing such things.

Time to go for that walk - today I weed my veggie patch and mulch it until I plant some seedlings.

Best wishes for your plans as well. ;)

Ponder

03-23-2016, 03:28 PM

Please forgive the negativity. I'll put that down to residual pain. I acknowledge the wisdom to stop empowering what I know does not work but instead focus on what I know does. I had a good meditative walk and experiencing no physical pain. I link a good talk later; about the breath - but keep it brief.

Dahila

03-23-2016, 04:02 PM

I had not found the above , above! post negative. Just remember I am not young chick and had seen a lot in my not always so simple life. Dave I am who I am, I had been swore, insulted and in a lot of dangerous (for myself) situations. I tried a lot, a lot. From the perspective of time, I do not think I had done a lot of harm to my soul. Rather the opposite.
I do not pretend to be someone I am not, I try to control my temper, not always successful. My family life improved, in moment when I stopped working on it. :) Can you believe it. It fixed itself,
I tend to be a control freak, even we know that people do not control much .........
I had made my Plantain salve ; healing and taking care of itchy skin due the mosquito bites. Now I will get ready to strain my arnica oil for Arthritis salve, :) Tomorrow my labels, it takes a lot of time. Two languages makes it difficult to have it easily readable

Ponder

03-23-2016, 04:46 PM

TY - Glad to hear you are feeling better.
Yes - I believe it. - IN that you inspire me. :)

I found a guy that reminds me of John Kabat-Zin ... I link him soon. Just on the phone now. I really should concentrate on that. O OH ... I'm now on hold. Cool - I will go sort out this mornings snap shots and find that link for you.

All in a days living. ;)

PS -I have utmost respect in your ability to talk multiple languages. That really is something to be admired.

Ponder

03-23-2016, 05:17 PM

Here is that Link to the talk on "Breathing" I listened to on my meditation walk. Generally I don't always need an aid, but just wanted something to help distract me from "the others" [lol] whilst walking outside. If you are not triggered by the cultural/dogma [entirely a personal issue] aspect of "Enlightenment" as I sometimes am; then there are some really great techniques and or reminders on how to find that space that helps bring about peace:

This is the guy that reminds me of John Kabatzin: He has many more talks that can be found by clicking on the Audio Dharma tab at the following link:

Picture is the link ; )
http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/Podcast%20on%20Concentration_zpstipfm1xg.png (http://www.audiodharma.org/talks/audio_player/2053.html)

The method employed in this talk with concentration is exactly how I am able to push myself through the pain when taking on many of my fitness challenges. Especially when running - and then of-course like you said earlier ... it can become effortless in that we do it without even seeking it. The method is very much discussed in this chapter. There is a download tab below the stream indicator so that you can always listen whilst doing something else. Is how I often take in such teachings.

I finish up with the this mornings snap shots now. Have been doing some work as well in the kitchen. ;)

Ponder

03-23-2016, 06:14 PM

Walking The Suburbs:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1472/25715996580_a00e690cd1_o.jpg

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1652/25921621851_ce4a256304_o.jpg

Dahila

03-23-2016, 06:14 PM

oh Dave we are bilingual in Canada I mean English and French, Everything has to be labeled in these two............ Pain in the neck . I am going to listen Gil now
Thank you

Ponder

03-23-2016, 06:16 PM

Walking the Suburbs cont ... :

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1695/25921622321_6fb1a12608_o.jpg

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1690/25715995130_c18413a771_o.jpg

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1685/26016568635_0aa99007cc_o.jpg

Ponder

03-23-2016, 08:01 PM

srry missed your reply - Arrr I see what you mean ... I never thought of it like that with the labeling over your way. Now you mention it, I understand. Lisa has relatives that live in Canada ... but don't ask me where because we really don't know them that well. I hope the podcast is of interest to you.

I'm going to weed the garden now and lay the mulch. :)

Ponder

03-24-2016, 03:02 AM

Here's to a good nights sleep ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lsa8VhLGh2s

Ponder

03-24-2016, 06:47 PM

Consistency Is Key: Hmmmm - I had an awesome start to the day. I woke up at 3:40 am - figured I would relieve myself, take my dose of lemon water early and lay back down again. I had the intent to wake up a little more refreshed around 4ish. I had a reasonably early night and was in fact quite depleted. I did not really sleep again, however I was in some kind of recovery state between 3:40 to when I decided it was time to slip into my running clothes at 4:30. I sipped some more water and let it absorb during a 30 minutes warm up then stretching session ... (which in itself what a little work out) ... then by 5:00 am I was out the door trotting down the street.

I felt well prepared - I figured It was safe to join those 10 minute bouts or non-stop trotting. I'm now going to reflect on that. Most running journals are full of numbers and setting goals. My journals are more encompassing.

Having said that, let’s begin with a figure. Five minutes in I looks down to my watch and notice my attempt to start the clock in the dark had failed. “WTF – GRRRRRR” Instantly I felt toxic and new I must ignore the fact that I had just *&^%ed up. This morning was the morning I intended to conquer the pavement; hills and all! So I let it go and by logging in an additional five minutes as I knew that spot to be and simply started the clock successfully that time around. I shook out the toxicity and once again found my beat. I felt good in how I had just overcome that. I know too well how that state of a thought can shut me down before I’ve even begun.

I’m climbing the hill and whilst I can feel my intercostal muscles kicking in as I was then breathing quite shallow - but at a pace to bring in the air I need, I was both grateful and inspired to know that once I conditioned this facet of breathing, that it would not be long before I’m enjoying the breeze whilst gently cruising the hills.

With that thought in mind, I suddenly realized I was atop of the hill and indeed enjoying the breeze. : ) WOW – “I’m feeling I will run the next two bouts on one stretch and round off for an hours run – worst scenario is I walk and run back.” So thinks to myself …

Righto – Next hill … Intention set, time to encompass the scene. The moon was now in a different position. I figured I had made some distance and lost myself in thought as to figure how the moon had shift. The air was relatively cool – I was taking up the space in the middle of the road and thinking how awesome it was to run so early in the morning. I was surprised at the lack of cars at 5:00amish. If only it stays like this until I hit the bitumen pedestrian path. 123 – 123 -123 breathing in – out – holding – in out and again with 123 – 123, I conquered the next hill and indeed there it was … the bitumen pedestrian path. Here I focused on the linear array of constructing street lights the lit up the main road and lost myself in thought with that. Birds chirping – lack of people (which was good – the world seemingly much larger) – I was now positioned on an upper ridge with a cool breeze. The air was devoid of toxic fumes. I could actually this time smell the trees. Before I had finished contemplating the lay of the land and how to improve the route … I was just about at the end of bout number three.

My run continued like this – where I was actively switching between my focusing on my form and taking in the scene. Again – the scent of green and the sound of the birds was quite invigorating. I considered how the lactic acid was building and how long it would be to nail the one hour intended run. I again check my form and dialed back my stride and ever so slightly, mindfully encouraged my knees to lift a little more to assist the gentleness of each foot fall. “left – right = left – right” was the mantra in my head … but to make it work I had to make each call a little out of sync so that by the time I made the call, I lifted my knee a fraction of a second before my other foot had completed its transition from pushing off. This I practiced for a whiles and soon discovered just how effective and or important it was going to be in building up more strength and stamina to make my running less traumatic and more efficient.

Just as I was inspired with conditioning taking place with my breathing technique and intercostal development (LO L) - I felt once more energize at knowing I was more than just on the right track … but that I was actually experiencing the evolution process tacking place … going from wanting to run, to actually running.

Well into the return journey and then nearing home, I kept myself in a good state by practicing a dharma technique of encompassment. I expanded my awareness beyond myself, acknowledging the signals coming from my body. A sense of the time between twilight and now the rising sun all bundled into one brought about a shot of healing something, right up to the end of my run.

The transition of thought, actions and experience was both rather intense and gentle. There was so much more learning I left out of that experience – it was a massive achievement as I had just clocked up my first hour + nonstop run – outside on the road. It’s been several years of letting myself go. I’m really stoked because I know I have finally reached that point where the end is in sight – although there is no real end.

It’s a whole new ball game now. Hopefully I can avoid the bug that comes with numbers - but stick with encompassing the experience in a state that always has time to smell the green and make room for whatever comes.

In relation to such – I must admit, I have become more open to the greetings on the street. All in all – things are seemingly not always as they seem. The world is once more looking a little larger. Most notably … even after the sun has risen. ; )
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More sleeping - bathing - eating - and so on ... My body is feeling good to go ... is OK - I'm keeping a good check on things. I may very well just be going through the motions - pending on what my body has to say; re my gym workout today. That was really quite some effort this morning, but given how chuffed I am to be where I am at ... the thought of now knowing I'm already in a body that's well adapt ... I just seem to be recovering much quicker in more able to accept whatever happens to come next.

Time for a feed. - A little home made something - Lisa is just now using the Almond Flour (which I ended adding to and nearing 4 and 1/2 cups) Banana, honey and whatever else to make up what I will use as my pre workout meal. :)

Here's to your intention for the day - May you find the will and make the time. :) ... Next is my 1 and half hour bout down at the Gym. (My next big challenge for the day)

Adios - until next post.

Ponder

03-24-2016, 08:29 PM

Righto - Nearly digested now - :) ... Here is the result of all our hard work:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1561/26017990605_9c8da16567_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FD819V)

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https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1718/25925444652_b8f204716e_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/FuWFt3)

Whilst is may of been a little over done, the color is considerably more "earthy/natural" to that of using Process Almond Flour. I actually don't mind having some skin in with the mix. I believe the factory processed almond flour is also derived from full nuts without milk extraction. The nuts are activated under much harsher conditions in order to speed up the process and soaked in only a fraction of the time. All in all - this will a regular energy snack I will look forward too.

Next I will make almond butter and use in moderation with this bread. Perhaps a little smear of almond butter with a drop of honey on top. MMMM mmmm.

Now I must go enjoy my work out at the gym ;)

Edit - No I did not eat it all ... hehe ... I did however have 4 small squares; like the two depicted.

Ponder

03-24-2016, 11:30 PM

Nailed the end of week weight workout in the gym. Just got home, finished making a protein shake. Once again - all natural ingredients. Yesterdays freshly made almond milk, 3 bananas, 3 raw eggs and two tablespoons of honey. Split the mix with my wife and grandson. Got some Brown rice on the go now and will make up a salmon mix. We generally like to have an early dinner here; around 4pm. Then we might have some water Mellon later. Some people may find that a no no - but it seems to hit the spot for me. Nice and light - easy to digest. If I get really hungry, I might boil an egg ... but generally we have trained ourselves to sleep on a light tummy.

I think an easy day tomorrow - the tomatoes are looking really good since I caught up on some garden chores. hmmmm - see how I feel after an early night ... maybe just a 30 minute trot in the morning followed with some hard work later in the day. Catch up on house chores in between. I keep putting of making a proper workout guide ... but for now have been doing well enough to log in my workouts.

Might be a much for some to keep so focused and record like so ... but for me ... it's working really well.

On with the show. ;)

Edit - among all this, I have been pressing greens before morning breakfast (also ingesting on an empty tummy) - keep up the good work there Davy Boy. ;) ... thus far - two days pain free and plenty of exercise in between. Touch Wood ... see how that goes ...playing by ear - with a separate space to record whats going on there.

Adios.

Ponder

03-25-2016, 04:51 PM

Do unto others, as you would have others do unto you - but alas, I see more the problem in the intent with how we mere mortals end up worshiping the Method instead of the Shepard. CONTEXT aka the container with how "I" come to think of such things → (we are all Shepard's - not some figure nailed to a cross. In my book, such images and invested beliefs are akin to the lactic acid that limits my runs)

Twas a little something that came to mind whilst reflecting during this mornings run. 1 hour, 9 minutes and 27 seconds. I completed 15 laps of the hockey fields. I plan to continue mixing up the surfaces on which I run. I'm now in this for the long haul - not some kind of marathon. I left the running forum - to competitive in nature ... always striving to be more than what already is. Not my cup of tea nor the way I see. I tried to search for a book on running and inner peace. Looks like I will have to write one. :) Main stream dictate pushing harder and faster - bigger and better ... same ol same ol. Bit like losing weight in a number of days in the least amount of ways.

Do not mistake these reflections as negativity. They are generated from deep place within a concentrated zone that deals with "my"reality" - such need not be defined by another's world view and or beliefs. In fact, I am merely shedding such things. It is in that I am now careful with the words I choose. Enough said.

Today I have much to do ... To kick things off ... I started with the following:

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1468/25429130774_3555c53898_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EK5WDd)

https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1598/25431374793_3ae31e71df_o.jpg (https://flic.kr/p/EKhrHc)

Wish me well - Today I undertake more training with said online job. Still in the selection criteria. I will do the best I can do - with as much intent I do of everything else. I figure I have made enough space.

Wishing you all well - no matter your view.

Don't be disheartened with whatever it is that your hoping to lose, just think of how much there is to gain, and before you know it ... you'll be too busy reaping the benefits to even care what time has to say. Better yet - accept whatever time it is and run with it, rather than all this fuss with personal bests. Challengers are for the experiencing, not to for the beating. Overcoming is something different yet again - it's all in the container in which we choose to think and feel.

Here's to another day and whatever it brings - Here's to getting things done and finding space to enjoy the time which makes my runs fun ... run with it, not against it. Jump out of the ring, never in.

Adios - until yadda yadda