Kay16
07-30-2013, 05:12 AM
Here we go... another day of the same shit. I wake up heart racing about work, still have 2 hours before i even need to be to go. My boyfriend just left for work now i feel all alone. All i can think about it is how much i don't wanna go to work. This feels crazy i don't want to do this anymore. The crying the thoughts im obsessing over the whole week when i get like this i can't just focus on today i know that's what i need to do, one day at a time, but its impossible when im this worked up i just want to cry :( i want my boyfriend i don't want to feel alone. Can't i just wake up and get ready for work like a normal person weather i like my job or not? Is that to much to ask its been years since i felt "normal" i have strained my relationship to the point that we both feel we need to talk to someone. He doesn't know how to deal with me. That's why im turning here first this morning i dont want to text him again with the same problems. He is so supporting but doesn't understand. im rambling but i needed to vent. Ill be at work but able to jump on this app often im just looking for someone to talk to or relate to. I need distraction and understanding. And a mericial cure. Something. This can't be life. My life was not ment to be lived in panic and tears...