Help meee plz this anxiety is making me go mad..

[sadia]

Hi judie, I'm doing ok today got a slightly stiff neck and shoulders so going to lay in the tub and relax in a little while.. I've read the first 7 chapters in her book, its an interesting book.. When your reading somethings just clickand your like I can relate to that.. And I've realised sometimes when your doing something her affrimations come to mind, so overall its a good book.. I read it wheni can.. Have you started to read it yet?

[sadia]

Yes she brings everything back to oneself, everything comes back to loving your self and letting go

[Judie]

Yes she brings everything back to oneself, everything comes back to loving your self and letting go

Hi Sadia, yes I have read some of the book and will continue. Thank you for the suggestion. I have always thought that our minds can make us sick and this goes along with her theory. Also the idea that by not forgiving people people we can make ourselves really sick. I have always struggled with forgiveness but I really like her approach " I forgive you for not being the person I wanted you to be " encourages us to take responsibility for our mindset without saying that we agree with their bad behavior. Makes a lot of sense to me Negative gets us in a lot of trouble mentally and physically and Positive works to prevent and heal. I also like her take on if you perceive yourself as a victim of anything ( relationship, anxiety anything) then that is what you are, powerless and you will continue to attract people/things that victimize you. Makes sense, the same goes for anxiety if you feel you can't beat it and perceive yourself as defeated you will in fact attract more anxiety because is what you need to support your mindset. Makes sense doesn't it ? I like the books and I am going to continue to try to change Negative Outlooks I have. I have Anxiety under control but I get other health things ( migraines, ulcers etc...) it's all tied in. So yes ! I definitely thing we should pay attention to her theory. If nothing else, we'll be happy ! Be Well, Did the magnesium help the achy legs ?

[sadia]

Yes the pills are helping the achy legs so thank u for advising them... I think I have ulcers in my stomach because of the acid reflux, but I had blood tests yesterday for stomach virus, liver function, and a full blood count Should get the results in a few days but I keep looking at my phone for the doctor to ring with something else wrong, but I'm trying to block it out.. Also had a thyroid function blood test will be getting the results for that tomorrow morning to see if the carbimazole is doing its job right lol..

Her book is really interesting, I will make sure I complete it..

[Judie]

Yes the pills are helping the achy legs so thank u for advising them... I think I have ulcers in my stomach because of the acid reflux, but I had blood tests yesterday for stomach virus, liver function, and a full blood count Should get the results in a few days but I keep looking at my phone for the doctor to ring with something else wrong, but I'm trying to block it out.. Also had a thyroid function blood test will be getting the results for that tomorrow morning to see if the carbimazole is doing its job right lol..
[QUOTE]



Hi, I too had stomach Ulcers this winter, getting better now but still taking antacides ugh. Thank you for mentioning Louise Hay's book, I'm finding it interesting. Do you think you were happy and self assured before the Panic Attacks? I know I have always had a lot of stress in my life but now I am wondering how much of it I allowed. Gee something to think about. A friend of mine has Chronic Leukemia, her husband over the years wasn't always of good behavior if you know what I mean. She has always said she thought that's what caused her Cancer, makes sense with anxiety as well. Negative Thoughts not good. Let me know how all your bloodwork turns out

[sadia]

I was very happy and self assured before all of this.. I was even dating and I've totally just left that behind.. I think that if you totally obsess over some sort of illness you begin to get the symptoms of it.. Her books are really interesting I'm glad your enjoying reading them. Well I was supposed to get a phone call over an hour ago from the hospital for my thyroid results but no call I think il have to call them myself now..

[sadia]

Hiya JUDIE, just got call from hospital, she said its great news thyroid is improving its on 0.2 so it awakening and getting better.. Need to just continue with the 5mg carbimazole.. Next review in 8 weeks.. So that's a great start to my day... :)

[Judie]

Hiya JUDIE, just got call from hospital, she said its great news thyroid is improving its on 0.2 so it awakening and getting better.. Need to just continue with the 5mg carbimazole.. Next review in 8 weeks.. So that's a great start to my day... :)

That's excellent !!!!!! I know it's odd I remember myself as in a good place before my Panic. Although,the year around that was very difficult. The stress around my mom's death, bad behavior by siblings around me at that time ,so I was beaten down ? I don't know but I certainly agree that Negative Thought ( Health fear and obsession with any illness will bring on symptoms) I mean after all it is your mind supporting your thoughts right ? We'll write a book after this is all over, lol. I am so happy Thyroid is on the mend, that will make you feel better in itself.Great Day !

[sadia]

Lol I think we have enough material to write a few books lol.. How is your day today? Have you managed to get in the tub

[Judie]

Lol I think we have enough material to write a few books lol.. How is your day today? Have you managed to get in the tub

Still not in the tub and a tropical storm with downpours due in tomorrow. The tub is good to go though! Don't worry this will all pass, you'll be dating up a storm again soon, that's what happened to me. Good idea taking a little break from dating anyway. Trying to explain anxiety to a man can be challenging lol. My husband's really supportive ( when mine briefly crops up ) But I think it's because his favorite TV show is about the Mob ( called " The Sopranos" )and the head of the Mob is Tony Soprano. Well Tony Soprano has a Panic Disorder LOL. ...how crazy is that ? But at least he understands it ! Day was good, looking for a new car. So happy about your thyroid tests , I think once that settles, your anxiety will be much better !

[Lin]

By Judie and Sadia - just read your exchange of posts and wanted to say how positive you both sound, really cheered me up just reading them. Giving me hope too.

[Judie]

By Judie and Sadia - just read your exchange of posts and wanted to say how positive you both sound, really cheered me up just reading them. Giving me hope too.

Well I hope you jump in with us Lin, you can write Chapter 6 and 7 ( The Hell of Hormones)of the book :). Why don't you get the book we are both reading , Sadia found it. " You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay. We can talk about it as a diversion to the Anxiety, like a Book Club :) Hope you are feeling better, struggles...but they do make you stronger. Hang in there ! X

[Lin]

Sounds good - think my husband will go spare I have bought so many books to help this time and can't concentrate to read, can only dip and then forget what read and have to to start agaiin. So stupid when can read at work and concentrate when have to.
Will write down name of book and see if can order so could join you and would be good to feel part of something like a book club.

[Judie]

Sounds good - think my husband will go spare I have bought so many books to help this time and can't concentrate to read, can only dip and then forget what read and have to to start agaiin. So stupid when can read at work and concentrate when have to.
Will write down name of book and see if can order so could join you and would be good to feel part of something like a book club.
Yes, it's really good and an easy read. She basically believes our health comes down to self worth. For instance holding in resentment toward someone not only negatively effects our health but also because we are perceiving ourselves as a victim, we begin to attract that behavior in others ( to victimize us ). So when we get caught up in people treating us poorly over and over again, it is in fact how we see ourselves in that role ( the victim)others see us as that also. A little scary right ? I have a friend that has leukemia and for years her husband cheated, partied it up, not a great husband to say the least. She believes that the resentment and stress she felt caused her cancer. He's a great husband now but her mindset came after she became sick. The book's worth a look. I really have had to take a look at how much I allowed with my low self worth. Do you have a kindle. Amazon.com will let you look at a sample of the book before you order . I think you have Amazon in the U.K. ?

[Lin]

Went on Amazon and it was on offer and free delivery so just ordered it! Just have to wait for it to arrive now. Won't mention to Chris until it arrives. Just any bit of help I can get from it will be good.
Got emergency appointment with gynaecologist today, hoping he is going to stop problem had since had gynae operation in April and will have another go at balancing my hormones - need help with it desperately.

[sadia]

Still not in the tub and a tropical storm with downpours due in tomorrow. The tub is good to go though! Don't worry this will all pass, you'll be dating up a storm again soon, that's what happened to me. Good idea taking a little break from dating anyway. Trying to explain anxiety to a man can be challenging lol. My husband's really supportive ( when mine briefly crops up ) But I think it's because his favorite TV show is about the Mob ( called " The Sopranos" )and the head of the Mob is Tony Soprano. Well Tony Soprano has a Panic Disorder LOL. ...how crazy is that ? But at least he understands it ! Day was good, looking for a new car. So happy about your thyroid tests , I think once that settles, your anxiety will be much better !

Yes I think it will be once the thyroid calms down.. Your husband sounds like a lovely caring man.. That understands and supports you.. What city do you live in? Lol the sopranos is a good show,

[sadia]

Went on Amazon and it was on offer and free delivery so just ordered it! Just have to wait for it to arrive now. Won't mention to Chris until it arrives. Just any bit of help I can get from it will be good.
Got emergency appointment with gynaecologist today, hoping he is going to stop problem had since had gynae operation in April and will have another go at balancing my hormones - need help with it desperately.

Hey Lin hope your appointment goes well today, do let us know how you get on.. Join into our conversations any time you like.. To be honest with you JUDIE has helped me a lot and she's rights talking to someone is a great support system, so we should be that for each other.. All of us.. The book is a good read I'm like 8 chapters into it, I read it when I get a chance.. The author her self had cancer and the doctors said they couldn't do anything for her, but she healed her self by self belief and using daily affirmations, and letting go of the past... And she is cured on cancer, so if she can do it so can we...

[Judie]

Yes I think it will be once the thyroid calms down.. Your husband sounds like a lovely caring man.. That understands and supports you.. What city do you live in? Lol the sopranos is a good show,

The Sopranos was rated # 1 for all time shows here. Haha fabulous acting but I am afraid of the Mob. Watch Re-runs, Bob tells me Tony Soprano has Panic Attacks while driving and passes out. Lol I tell him not to tell me stuff like that. I find that a lot of shows/ movies have people with anxiety in them. That's good, it makes everyone more aware and educates them on the "Hell Ride" ! I grew up right outside of Boston and summered at the beach ( 2 hours South) and that's where I live now. Have you seen Silver Linings Playbook ? I loved that movie, he's Bi-Polar.

[sadia]

Lol no I haven't seen that... I've seen reality documentaries about people with bipolar that's a whole different ball park... Has the tropical storm hit

[Judie]

Lol no I haven't seen that... I've seen reality documentaries about people with bipolar that's a whole different ball park... Has the tropical storm hit

No the Tropical Storm " Andrea" is due in tonight. Probably lost some of its punch coming across land down in FL and then heading up East Coast but is supposed to drop 2-4 inches of rain, it's really cold. So odd as summer is here..weird year for weather. No no LOL, that's hysterical, don't mean we were in the ball park of Bi-Polar, that is indeed a different disorder and a very tough one at that. No Silver Linings was nominated for Best Picture at At Academy Awards this year. It's a love story/ drama/ comedy about two people that get together, he is Bi-polar just split from his wife and her husband ( an officer has recently been killed) but it's an uplifting and very funny movie. I really enjoyed it.

[Judie]

Lin ? Sadia and I are both waiting to hear how you made out your appointment today ? Hope it went well X

[sadia]

Yes Lin plz lets us know how you got on.. We've had a terrible summer last week we've had highs of 20 degrees not much compared to your heat but its high for us lol

[Lin]

Gynae had no new ideas how to solve npmy bleed problem except persevere linger and take iron and hope coil settles down.
He ius stuck - can't take me off oestrigen patches because I flip and can't give me progesterone by tablets because mood drops so just hoping patches and coil will solve problem once bleeding stops.
So disappointed,
Also got wait until 25 June for mental health nurse to meet occupational health manager when back form leave since cancelled yesterday so no help about how handle new boss, so just pressure from jib and pores sure from boss too much.
My nurse phoned tonight and made me promise to stay safe until see him on Tuesday or ring Crisis for help but finding it hard to keep going such a struggle just want out and peace.
Had enough nothing going right and head going to explode.
Just got to keep going one more week then going on a retreat Tues to Thurs week after so head will get a rest I hope.

[sadia]

Lin hopefully when the bleeding stops you will feel much better... Don't worry too much about work, you be you if you have a stressful moment there sit down take few deep breaths and carry on with your work.. Not long until you go to your retreat and get to relax and rest.. Think about your retreat every time your feeling low that's your escape from the hassle

[Judie]

Gynae had no new ideas how to solve npmy bleed problem except persevere linger and take iron and hope coil settles down.
He ius stuck - can't take me off oestrigen patches because I flip and can't give me progesterone by tablets because mood drops so just hoping patches and coil will solve problem once bleeding stops.
So disappointed,
Also got wait until 25 June for mental health nurse to meet occupational health manager when back form leave since cancelled yesterday so no help about how handle new boss, so just pressure from jib and pores sure from boss too much.
My nurse phoned tonight and made me promise to stay safe until see him on Tuesday or ring Crisis for help but finding it hard to keep going such a struggle just want out and peace.

Sadia's right Lin let the hassles at work go at the end of the day it truly doesn't matter. We were all brought up with strong work ethic but the reality is YOU matter, not work. Work will always being waiting, if not there then somewhere else. Take care of yourself, find peace wherever you can ( Retreat sounds great ! ) Peace for you right now is simply NOT at work, so only give thoughts a very limited amount of space in your mind ( in fact none if you can manage that )
Had enough nothing going right and head going to explode.
Just got to keep going one more week then going on a retreat Tues to Thurs week after so head will get a rest I hope.

Sadia's right Lin let the hassles at work go because at the end of the day it truly doesn't matter. We were all brought up with strong work ethic but the reality is YOU matter, NOT work. Work will always be waiting, if not there then somewhere else. Take care of yourself, find peace wherever you can ( Retreat sounds great ! ) Peace for you right now is simply NOT at work, so only give thoughts of work a very limited amount of space in your mind ( in fact none if you can manage that ) Have you had that Abrasion Surgery for the bleeding and do they do Progesterone Implants there ( Implanted under the skin, can't see or feel ) ? What is the coil for ? I think it will fun for us to read that book, going to be interesting to see if we go into with an open mind what we come up with. Your husband and son love you, they have fought along side you for this battle. You'll win this, it's just a time frame that will slowly taper off and then end. Hopefully you'll feel better, that head exploding is a nasty feeling. I used to use an ice bag to divert my attention away from that sensation. Be Well. Both you and Sadia do have health issues that aggravate depression and anxiety, so in time those health issues will be gone. Just hang in there.

[sadia]

Weird question.. How long does it take for meningitis symptoms to appear days or hours?

[locksey]

Weird question.. How long does it take for meningitis symptoms to appear days or hours?

Hours as far as I know... One ov my staff had it and went down hill very quickly ( hours ) u wud be feeling very ill with it ... There are obvious symptoms that u wud ahve

[Judie]

Weird question.. How long does it take for meningitis symptoms to appear days or hours?
OK Sadia what ????? It depends on if it is Viral or Bacterial Meningitis. One question can you touch your chin to your chest ? Bacterial Meningitis comes on very quickly, viral may be at a slower pace and not as high of a fever so on. Sadia are you talking about yourself ? If so please tell me why you are thinking this ?

[sadia]

OK Sadia what ????? It depends on if it is Viral or Bacterial Meningitis. One question can you touch your chin to your chest ? Bacterial Meningitis comes on very quickly, viral may be at a slower pace and not as high of a fever so on. Sadia are you talking about yourself ? If so please tell me why you are thinking this ?

Lol JUDIE you know me so well... I'm just asking because I've had this stinging itchy feeling at the back of my ears and neck and around my eyes, and that just got me thinking of meningitis, and then stupidly I googled the symptoms.. Yes my chin can touch my chest

[locksey]

Lol JUDIE you know me so well... I'm just asking because I've had this stinging itchy feeling at the back of my ears and neck and around my eyes, and that just got me thinking of meningitis, and then stupidly I googled the symptoms.. Yes my chin can touch my chest

You are fine :-)

[sadia]

You are fine :-)

Thank you :)

[Judie]

Lol JUDIE you know me so well... I'm just asking because I've had this stinging itchy feeling at the back of my ears and neck and around my eyes, and that just got me thinking of meningitis, and then stupidly I googled the symptoms.. Yes my chin can touch my chest

If your chin can touch your chest then you are absolutely, as Locksey said, 100% percent fine. Do you know a large percentage of nursing and pre-med students develop Panic Disorder. Gee I wonder why that is ? LOL because they constantly are thinking of medical stuff...Psychology Classes too ( they all start thinking they're borderline personality disorder and actually some of them are lol
You have got to watch that " Power of Suggestion" Ok Lady, yes I know you well :) Looks like we've dodged another disease :)

[sadia]

Lol I know another disease dodged.. I like the way you put thngs..

[Judie]

Lol I know another disease dodged.. I like the way you put thngs..
Lol, when you think about it, anxiety is such a real sensation that every time we can knock down the imagined illness we win some points. Eventually the game is over and anxiety has to accept defeat.:) ( because there are no diseases left. Have some fun today!

[sadia]

Very true JUDIE... Yeah I've spent most of my day lounging in the garden catching some rays of sun lol.. Hope your having a fun day aswel...

[Judie]

Very true JUDIE... Yeah I've spent most of my day lounging in the garden catching some rays of sun lol.. Hope your having a fun day aswel...

I did, looking for a new car Toyota RAV 4 are you familiar with it ? Also,dragged my husband to furniture shop for new couch ( when it rains it pours everything is falling apart at the same time, no air conditioner in car and couch is on it's last legs). But it was enjoyable, now I will see if I can haggle that price down. I will say your recent Meningitis was a creative disease to pull out. You are obviously very bright, so we may have to sit through a few more creative illnesses. You'll be testing my knowledge lol... Have a great day tomorrow ! X

[sadia]

Lol ooo yes I like rav4 cars just the right size... I'm having problems with grinding my teeth lately and clenching them just trying to make my self stop doing that lol...

[Judie]

Lol ooo yes I like rav4 cars just the right size... I'm having problems with grinding my teeth lately and clenching them just trying to make my self stop doing that lol...

I know that grinding your teeth well, I have cracked many a tooth because of this. My dentist even does this !!!! You can wear a sports mouth guard at night it discourages this or your dentist can make you one specifically for this ( expensive probably unless you have Insurance). The App before bed may be cheaper and less cumbersome . Are you in England ? I know lots on the Forum are.

[sadia]

Yes in England.. not cracked any teeth just grinding ad clenching my teeth and is getting on my nerves lol.. want to develop tmj to be honest. trying to get myself to stop doing i

[sadia]

I meant dnt want to to develop tmj lol

[locksey]

Yes in England.. not cracked any teeth just grinding ad clenching my teeth and is getting on my nerves lol.. want to develop tmj to be honest. trying to get myself to stop doing i

Hey.... Where in England u frm ?
And there was me thinkin everyone on here was Frm America !! :-)

[sadia]

I'm from nottingham.. What about you

[locksey]

I'm from nottingham.. What about you

Birmingham ...

[sadia]

Not to far lol

[locksey]

Not to far lol

Nah ,, must be pretty close as a family come Frm there to church over here

[sadia]

It's about 1 hour 15mins on train must be less by car..

[em1]

It's about 1 hour 15mins on train must be less by car..

I'm from the uk to :) London

[locksey]

It's about 1 hour 15mins on train must be less by car..

Yeah think they come by car and they say its quick

[sadia]

It's good to that there's people on here from the UK

[locksey]

It's good to that there's people on here from the UK

...Yep :-)

[Judie]

I meant dnt want to to develop tmj lol

Oh no...wanting diseases, this is out of control Sadia LOL

[Judie]

You Brits are all together. I am the odd man out. I feel like this is the American Revolution all over again. At night I come on here and it's deserted. That's because you're all sleeping !!!!

[Lin]

Judie and Stadia got Louise Hay book and started to try read. Feels good but just got to concentrate on it.
Hope you both doing OK. Struggling bad at moment with gynae and moods so not been on forum for a while. Pressure of work, gynae etc all too much and head been exploding.

[sadia]

Oh no...wanting diseases, this is out of control Sadia LOL

Lol JUDIE I don't want it.. It's just another phase of anxiety I suppose

[sadia]

You Brits are all together. I am the odd man out. I feel like this is the American Revolution all over again. At night I come on here and it's deserted. That's because you're all sleeping !!!!

Aww JUDIE don't feel like that you give me the best advice I really appreciate you and always wait for you reply

[sadia]

Judie and Stadia got Louise Hay book and started to try read. Feels good but just got to concentrate on it.
Hope you both doing OK. Struggling bad at moment with gynae and moods so not been on forum for a while. Pressure of work, gynae etc all too much and head been exploding.

Hey Lin take your time with the book even if its a few pages a day.. Don't let work pressure interfere with your home life it's not worth it.. Hopefully your gynae problem should settle down soon and you will start to feel better... And if work gets too much take some deep breaths and carry on and don't think too much about your boss and everyone it will be easier

[Judie]

Hey Lin take your time with the book even if its a few pages a day.. Don't let work pressure interfere with your home life it's not worth it.. Hopefully your gynae problem should settle down soon and you will start to feel better... And if work gets too much take some deep breaths and carry on and don't think too much about your boss and everyone it will be easier

Hi Sadia and Lin, Sadia, no meningitis scare today, I am taking that as a good sign ! Lin, Maybe ( hopefully) the book may devert your attention a bit away from your boss. It actually may help you realize it's just not worth it. Sadia, do you know Robin Hood and Lin you live near the coast ? I have taken to mapping you guys out since I am Southwest of all of you by an ENTIRE OCEAN....lol. The Anxiety Reunion will be tough.

[Judie]

Judie and Stadia got Louise Hay book and started to try read. Feels good but just got to concentrate on it.
Hope you both doing OK. Struggling bad at moment with gynae and moods so not been on forum for a while. Pressure of work, gynae etc all too much and head been exploding.

Try that IceBag for your exploding head and put it over your eyes and forehead and forget all about that horrendous boss woman ! X

[sadia]

Hi Sadia and Lin, Sadia, no meningitis scare today, I am taking that as a good sign ! Lin, Maybe ( hopefully) the book may devert your attention a bit away from your boss. It actually may help you realize it's just not worth it. Sadia, do you know Robin Hood and Lin you live near the coast ? I have taken to mapping you guys out since I am Southwest of all of you by an ENTIRE OCEAN....lol. The Anxiety Reunion will be tough.

No scares for me yesterday lol.. Just had a slight headache to one side of the head for the past few days but I'm putting that down to the time on the month... Lol JUDIE I don't live that far from the Robin Hood castle.. That's what my city nottingham is famous for lol... How are you JUDIE? Has the storm been and gone

[Lin]

Try that IceBag for your exploding head and put it over your eyes and forehead and forget all about that horrendous boss woman ! X

Dear Judie and Sadia
Trying to read the book in little bits. Head really struggling and can't control it at the moment. Got my peer support group I have started up tonight, so got to go but hands are shaking and feel really bad. Pressure in my head of work, home and everything is all just too much at the moment, really really struggling.
Thanks for all your support, really good to have friends like you two.
Lin

[sadia]

Dear Judie and Sadia
Trying to read the book in little bits. Head really struggling and can't control it at the moment. Got my peer support group I have started up tonight, so got to go but hands are shaking and feel really bad. Pressure in my head of work, home and everything is all just too much at the moment, really really struggling.
Thanks for all your support, really good to have friends like you two.
Lin

Hey Lin, I know that struggling feeling very well, cuz I cry and panic constantly when I panic, and I understand your shakey feeling aswel, like for instance at the moment I am cooking after so many months and as soon as I thought I should up and start my legs have gone all weak but I'm trying to power thought... You have just got to try and power your way through it take deep breaths and as many breaks as you need.. And as for work try your hardest to leave work problems at work.. Hope your support group goes well.. Do let us know how you get on

[Judie]

No scares for me yesterday lol.. Just had a slight headache to one side of the head for the past few days but I'm putting that down to the time on the month... Lol JUDIE I don't live that far from the Robin Hood castle.. That's what my city nottingham is famous for lol... How are you JUDIE? Has the storm been and gone

The storm has been and gone. We are due for more rain. It truly is a horrible weather pattern we are in. It doesn't feel like summer at all. I knew I read you post to Locksey saying you were from Nottingham, the forrest and all sounds beautiful. I tend to be the party for the people ( Democrat ) so I always liked Robin Hood's "steal from the rich and give to the poor" game plan lol. Must be beautiful there. So it sounds like you are doing better. I sincerely feel there will be nothing but improvement for you as your thyroid continues to improve :)

[Judie]

Hey Lin, I know that struggling feeling very well, cuz I cry and panic constantly when I panic, and I understand your shakey feeling aswel, like for instance at the moment I am cooking after so many months and as soon as I thought I should up and start my legs have gone all weak but I'm trying to power thought... You have just got to try and power your way through it take deep breaths and as many breaks as you need.. And as for work try your hardest to leave work problems at work.. Hope your support group goes well.. Do let us know how you get on

Good for you Sadia, that's exactly what you have to do , power through, a literal mind over matter.

[Judie]

Dear Judie and Sadia
Trying to read the book in little bits. Head really struggling and can't control it at the moment. Got my peer support group I have started up tonight, so got to go but hands are shaking and feel really bad. Pressure in my head of work, home and everything is all just too much at the moment, really really struggling.
Thanks for all your support, really good to have friends like you two.
Lin
Hang in there Lin, Based on what I have experienced in my life, I sincerely feel this is a time frame. Hormones run rampant and then slowly they begin to taper off and settle ( like a tornado...destruction and then a calmness seems to come out of nowhere ) Hope your support group goes well. I have had that horrible shaking as well, but like anything your body needs some time to recover. Just be kind to yourself and release all the unnecessary garbage. Be Well X

[sadia]

The storm has been and gone. We are due for more rain. It truly is a horrible weather pattern we are in. It doesn't feel like summer at all. I knew I read you post to Locksey saying you were from Nottingham, the forrest and all sounds beautiful. I tend to be the party for the people ( Democrat ) so I always liked Robin Hood's "steal from the rich and give to the poor" game plan lol. Must be beautiful there. So it sounds like you are doing better. I sincerely feel there will be nothing but improvement for you as your thyroid continues to improve :)

We have had horrible weather for the past few days aswel, raining today.. Yeah it's nice but the horrible weather is of putting we've hardly had no sun at all jus a day or two.. Looks like there's no summer this wear.. I no JUDIE I thought I have to power through it I'm itching to be some what normal again so trying my hardest... Hope your doing good? How's your day going?

[Judie]

We have had horrible weather for the past few days aswel, raining today.. Yeah it's nice but the horrible weather is of putting we've hardly had no sun at all jus a day or two.. Looks like there's no summer this wear.. I no JUDIE I thought I have to power through it I'm itching to be some what normal again so trying my hardest... Hope your doing good? How's your day going?
My day went well. I'm researching vehicles, down to the Toyota Rav4 XLE or the Subaru Forrester 2.5i. It's going to come to cost but they are neck and neck. I'm leaning toward the RAV as I've driven one for years, so we'll see. Haha.. you'll like this, it finally stopped raining and I put my leg in my hot tub and it was 50 degrees!!!!!!! Freezing...lol it wasn't heated...so have to wait and it's going to rain for the next two days and Gale tomorrow night what the hell is going on ??????? LOL. I know that's good you miss your old self, you'll push yourself and that's what you have to do.

[shaikhrahuf]

Felt so nice after reading ur 3 sweet girls post.. carry on..

[Lin]

Hang in there Lin, Based on what I have experienced in my life, I sincerely feel this is a time frame. Hormones run rampant and then slowly they begin to taper off and settle ( like a tornado...destruction and then a calmness seems to come out of nowhere ) Hope your support group goes well. I have had that horrible shaking as well, but like anything your body needs some time to recover. Just be kind to yourself and release all the unnecessary garbage. Be Well X

Dear Judie and Sadia
Luckily support group still not taken off yet so only three of us so they allowed me to talk to them because knew I was struggling. If it wasn't for the support group I would be back staying at home every night so good job I started it. But on way home lost it completely because woman not there to give me a lift home and husband was on the phone so started to walk in the rain and got angrier and angrier, stopped looking at the traffic in the end in the hope of an accident. Husband rang in end and told him never speaking to him again but he guessed where I was and picked me up and then when got home after tears etc and getting dry, we started speaking again. Told him not wanted at work, at home or by my son at uni at moment so no point. But he just doesn't seem to realise how bad I am at the moment. Have texted my nurse asking if he can arrange for me to have extra tablets at the moment to cope. Boss has been better this week, so that is looking better, but can't get nasty things she said to me before I went back out of my head so feels like a pressure to perform and under scrutiny still all the time. Have set an appraisal preparation time tomorrow afternoon because then I can see if she is focusing on my work or my head, and will then know for when my nurse and occupational health meet so that they will know how big problem is or still just in my head now. Really don't know how keeping going at moment except a stubborn part of me wanting to prove boss wrong and cope with the job. Huge mask I put on every minute at work but getting harder.
Sadia sorry you still struggling with lots of things, sorry not able to help you much at the moment, but always here for you too.
Friends I have made on here are keeping me going. Lin

[sadia]

Lol bless you, at least you got your leg in there even though it was freezing lol... I'd go for the rav 4 thy have a nice look to them.. I thought it would be pretty hot where you are this time if the year..

[sadia]

Dear Judie and Sadia
Luckily support group still not taken off yet so only three of us so they allowed me to talk to them because knew I was struggling. If it wasn't for the support group I would be back staying at home every night so good job I started it. But on way home lost it completely because woman not there to give me a lift home and husband was on the phone so started to walk in the rain and got angrier and angrier, stopped looking at the traffic in the end in the hope of an accident. Husband rang in end and told him never speaking to him again but he guessed where I was and picked me up and then when got home after tears etc and getting dry, we started speaking again. Told him not wanted at work, at home or by my son at uni at moment so no point. But he just doesn't seem to realise how bad I am at the moment. Have texted my nurse asking if he can arrange for me to have extra tablets at the moment to cope. Boss has been better this week, so that is looking better, but can't get nasty things she said to me before I went back out of my head so feels like a pressure to perform and under scrutiny still all the time. Have set an appraisal preparation time tomorrow afternoon because then I can see if she is focusing on my work or my head, and will then know for when my nurse and occupational health meet so that they will know how big problem is or still just in my head now. Really don't know how keeping going at moment except a stubborn part of me wanting to prove boss wrong and cope with the job. Huge mask I put on every minute at work but getting harder.
Sadia sorry you still struggling with lots of things, sorry not able to help you much at the moment, but always here for you too.
Friends I have made on here are keeping me going. Lin

Lin do not give up its not worth risking your life for... Hopefully your nurse will sort some extra medication out for you which will keep you going.. I've realise once I cry and let it all out I feel better, so if it helps you cry let it out.. I'm glad your has been better with you, don't hold the things she said min your head its that that's making you dread work, think of it as a school teacher scolding you.. And you move on and better yourself you will feel a lot better at work.. Do let us know how the appraisal goes.. And here is no need o apologise Lin talking to you guys keeps me going as wel... Hope you have a better day..

[Lin]

Hang in there Lin, Based on what I have experienced in my life, I sincerely feel this is a time frame. Hormones run rampant and then slowly they begin to taper off and settle ( like a tornado...destruction and then a calmness seems to come out of nowhere ) Hope your support group goes well. I have had that horrible shaking as well, but like anything your body needs some time to recover. Just be kind to yourself and release all the unnecessary garbage. Be Well X

Thank you, desperately hanging on to job and everything else. Lin

[Judie]

Lol bless you, at least you got your leg in there even though it was freezing lol... I'd go for the rav 4 thy have a nice look to them.. I thought it would be pretty hot where you are this time if the year..

Lol, yes the new RAV 2013 is nice and sleeker in look. I have driven Toyota for 24 years so most likely that's what it will be. I am going to PM you about my choice, check your messages ok. Hey I got my leg in and I got my leg right out ! LOL Running around here in a suit in the pouring rain.

[Judie]

Thank you, desperately hanging on to job and everything else. Lin

Lin, Just remember when it's all said and done they say all that matters in the end is family and friends. I never heard any mention of work. It just isn't important in the realm of things, especially when it comes to your health. X Be Well

[sadia]

Lol, yes the new RAV 2013 is nice and sleeker in look. I have driven Toyota for 24 years so most likely that's what it will be. I am going to PM you about my choice, check your messages ok. Hey I got my leg in and I got my leg right out ! LOL Running around here in a suit in the pouring rain.

Yes I will check my messages JUDIE.. Oo gosh I don't like the rain myself we've had thunder and lightening today so it's quite miserable outside.. What the time difference between us am I 8 hours ahead of you..

[locksey]

Yes I will check my messages JUDIE.. Oo gosh I don't like the rain myself we've had thunder and lightening today so it's quite miserable outside.. What the time difference between us am I 8 hours ahead of you..

( 5 hours )

[Judie]

( 5 hours )

Thank you Locksey :)

[sadia]

Thank you..

[Lin]

Judie, just not about job now. It seems to have made everything else not worth it too. Like I am not good enough for job so not good enough for anything else even home. Undermined all my focus for living. Can't get bad thoughts and ideas out of head just constant, worse than ever been in 28 years. Think before always felt one thing was needed for, home or job, but lost it completely this time. Don't know how get rid of these really bad feelings and exploding head. Lin

[sadia]

You should share your feelings and thoughts with us Lin dont keep them locked up.. You are needed you just can't see it, your child needs you, your husband needs you.. Do not give up fight your thoughts..

[Lin]

Thanks Stadia
I am really struggling and prob best to pm you and Judie with thoughts at moment. Lin

[sadia]

Had a routine doctors appointment just got back from it.. All the blood tests that I had done last week have all come back clear nothing wrong at all... So glad with them.. I told the doc about the one sided head pain that it was mostly like pressure, and it's on the right side and the back of the head..,she said its most likely all related to the anxiety.. Because I asked if its a migraine as I've never had one and don't know what it feels like... And that I woke up today and my right hand and arm was numb and heavy for about 15mins... She told me t try and hold off the pain killers as sometimes they make headaches worse...

[geglilsis]

I know I had my PTSD totally under control suffered for seven years then free for one year, all because of a terrible car accident. Got in a simple fender bender, trying to buy a house, raise a smart mouth 16 yr old, work and my car broke down all this month. My anxiety is out of control. I have no husband, no family support even my son thinks I'm crazy because I'm sick all the time, it's jail from enjoying life and one factor flared it up all over again. I start therapy for PTSD in two weeks. Soonest they could get me in, do not take meds, pretty lucky because I have to take Prilosec for heartburn right now and anti anxiety pills and heartburn meds do not mix, can't even take the Valium when I have a attack. I really can't wait for the day I look back and say " wow my body can do some crazy things"

[geglilsis]

I have had all the blood tests cat scan years ago I hit my head several times in the accident, ultrasound in in good health other than the anxiety.

[sadia]

Your not crazy it's just something your going through.. Hope your not doing to bad.. What coping techniques are you using until your therapy starts

[geglilsis]

Hypnosis apps and breathing reading this site singing sometimes that's all I got

[Judie]

Had a routine doctors appointment just got back from it.. All the blood tests that I had done last week have all come back clear nothing wrong at all... So glad with them.. I told the doc about the one sided head pain that it was mostly like pressure, and it's on the right side and the back of the head..,she said its most likely all related to the anxiety.. Because I asked if its a migraine as I've never had one and don't know what it feels like... And that I woke up today and my right hand and arm was numb and heavy for about 15mins... She told me t try and hold off the pain killers as sometimes they make headaches worse...
Yes that is definitely true, pains med( Advil, aspirin, Tylenol can have a rebound effect and they are far more effective if taken sparingly ) I went through a period when I was eating Advil like candy because of migraines, I do believe they made them worse) Now if I take anything for pain it works pretty well as I don't take them often.

[mid]

As a person who lives with pain on a daily basis, I have learned to keep track of the pain, where it is on a stick drawing, and often, the headache is from the pain traveling from a different area, especially in people with anxiety. Three things I do now before I consider any pain killer medication: first, make sure I'm hydrated both with liquid and food intake, second, I do the rolls of the shoulders, arms, legs, feet, hand, and check the symptoms again. Third, I do a flow motion movement (think of trying to move in a pool of water), and see what happens.
Most of the time, the headache gets less painful, and the muscle ache starts showing up elsewhere, and then, either heat or ice, depending on how your body reacts to temperature changes.
Once you get the trigger pain out of the way, then if you take the medicine, often you will find the longest relief from the worst of the pain.
I hope this helps.
I took myself off of medication when I started eating advil, aleve, tylenol like candy, and experiencing the side effects of pain increasing faster as the medication wore off. Now, I am really careful to only take the medication for pain other than anxiety pain.
Anxiety pain is real. It hurts, and it takes time to recover your physical balance after the anxiety is managed.
As the doctor explained to me, everyone understands the "flight or fight" part, what a lot of people do not realize is that the "a body at rest tends to stay at rest, a body in motion tends to stay in motion" is also involved with anxiety physical symptoms.
I am still learning to deal with my extreme startle response (twisting as turning is a very common reaction and extremely painful when your muscles are contracting at the same time).
Best wishes.

[Judie]

As a person who lives with pain on a daily basis, I have learned to keep track of the pain, where it is on a stick drawing, and often, the headache is from the pain traveling from a different area, especially in people with anxiety. Three things I do now before I consider any pain killer medication: first, make sure I'm hydrated both with liquid and food intake, second, I do the rolls of the shoulders, arms, legs, feet, hand, and check the symptoms again. Third, I do a flow motion movement (think of trying to move in a pool of water), and see what happens.
Most of the time, the headache gets less painful, and the muscle ache starts showing up elsewhere, and then, either heat or ice, depending on how your body reacts to temperature changes.
Once you get the trigger pain out of the way, then if you take the medicine, often you will find the longest relief from the worst of the pain.
I hope this helps.
I took myself off of medication when I started eating advil, aleve, tylenol like candy, and experiencing the side effects of pain increasing faster as the medication wore off. Now, I am really careful to only take the medication for pain other than anxiety pain.
Anxiety pain is real. It hurts, and it takes time to recover your physical balance after the anxiety is managed.
As the doctor explained to me, everyone understands the "flight or fight" part, what a lot of people do not realize is that the "a body at rest tends to stay at rest, a body in motion tends to stay in motion" is also involved with anxiety physical symptoms.
I am still learning to deal with my extreme startle response (twisting as turning is a very common reaction and extremely painful when your muscles are contracting at the same time).
Best wishes.

Mid, I agree 100% !

[sadia]

Thanks you mid I will take on board the info you have gave...


And thanks JUDIE x

[sadia]

Hiya JUDIE hope you are doing well...

[Judie]

Hiya JUDIE hope you are doing well...
Hi Sadia, Hope you are doing well too ! I bought the RAV4 XLE WHite w/ moonroof !!!! ( Audio Controls on steering wheel...yipeeee ! Lol...pick it up Thursday :) How are you feeling ok ? All quiet from Lin, hope she's doing great on her retreat. Let me know how you are.

[sadia]

I'm doing good thank you JUDIE, jus got hay fever which is annoying lol and a bit of lower back pain apart from that I'm ok... U must show me a pic of the car when it arrives sounds nice... I know very quiet from Lin hope she's ok and relaxing

[Judie]

I'm doing good thank you JUDIE, jus got hay fever which is annoying lol and a bit of lower back pain apart from that I'm ok... U must show me a pic of the car when it arrives sounds nice... I know very quiet from Lin hope she's ok and relaxing

Good, you sound good ! Funny thing I am going to miss my old RAV. I get attached to things :(. Hay fever well that must mean it's not raining :) ( that's good, I guess )

[sadia]

It's rain but the temp is high so it's humid and hay fever just playing up... You've got a new rav to get attached to and take adventures in now

[Judie]

It's rain but the temp is high so it's humid and hay fever just playing up... You've got a new rav to get attached to and take adventures in now
That's right my little black Rav is left behind and the New White RAV is off and running. We are sunny now, thank God, weather ( rainy, really does effect me, it's like the sun is energy..lol it is energy ) Locksey is off to Mallorca, Spain on Holiday for 10 days. Have you ever been ? I understand it's a popular vacation spot for Brits, maybe like the Carribean for us ? Have you ever been to the States ? I am looking forward to the new Rav, mostly because its got air conditioning and it really is starting to warm up finally ! I can't deal without air conditioning ( must be that flushing anxiety thing lol )

[locksey]

Hi , guys ... At airport now ....

[sadia]

Spain is one of the holiday spots where the Brits go every summer, have been there a few times its lovely and hot lol just what we need... No never been to the states would love to one day to.. Have you ever been to the UK? What's you fave holiday spot

[sadia]

Have fun locksey... X

[em1]

Good morning everyone how is everyone feeling today?

[sadia]

Good morning em1 I am beginning to feel a lot better after months of a lot of struggle.. How r u?

[em1]

Good morning em1 I am beginning to feel a lot better after months of a lot of struggle.. How r u?

Hi sadia :) oh that's such good news,yes I'm feeling much better the last three days tho I know it's a slow Process to self recovery tho I know I will get better and better

[sadia]

Aww em1 that's really good to hear.. Hope you stay well..

[sadia]

Can anyone suggest me any home remedies for trapped wind??

[locksey]

Have fun locksey... X

Hi... I arrived this mornin .... It's my 2nd year here , I'm staying in Sa Coma Majorca, a lovely place ... I'm not into clubbing etc and the typical " English " rowdy holidays so its really nice .. .
How are u ?

[locksey]

Good morning everyone how is everyone feeling today?

Hi, Em1.... I've just arrived in Spain today..... It's been a struggle :-/

[sadia]

I'm not bad thanks locksey have a lot of trapped wind in chest and back been struggling with that all day... How was your flight? What's the weather like

[em1]

Hi, Em1.... I've just arrived in Spain today..... It's been a struggle :-/

Oh how lovely how long are you there for? Why did you struggle?

[Judie]

I'm not bad thanks locksey have a lot of trapped wind in chest and back been struggling with that all day... How was your flight? What's the weather like

Hi Sadia, Just get Simethicone ( over the counter) Here in the U.S. it is called Gas X, not sure about there but Simethicone is the active ingredient. It works very well.

[Judie]

Spain is one of the holiday spots where the Brits go every summer, have been there a few times its lovely and hot lol just what we need... No never been to the states would love to one day to.. Have you ever been to the UK? What's you fave holiday spot

I have not been to the UK, although my nephew taught there for awhile. I would love to go someday, although the thought of flying over the Atlantic freaks me out a bit ( lol the old Anxiety thing) I live in a resort area and it is quite beautiful but obviously cold in the winter. I have been to most of the islands in the Carribean and they are all truly beautiful. I went on a cruise this February that cruised out of New York ( rough seas) all the way down the Coast of U.S to St. Martin. It was fun !

[sadia]

Hi Sadia, Just get Simethicone ( over the counter) Here in the U.S. it is called Gas X, not sure about there but Simethicone is the active ingredient. It works very well.

Hi thanks JUDIE yes I think I know what your on about over here it's called windeeze I will get some... I would love to visit one of the islands one day they just look so beautiful and relaxing

[Christopher H.]

It sounds like you suffer from severe anxiety but I am no doctor. Keep on going to your doctor, maybe changing your doctor might yield better results? As for with what you deal with I have never really dealt with anxiety about death, but I believe trying to do your best in overcoming these anxious thoughts little by little would be a good thing to do. Little baby steps gradually that lead to bigger goals when you feel ready. For example, maybe going outside for a couple of mins or doing something that your anxiety would normally discourage you from doing. Once again though if you are expressing yourself completely to your doctor and she still really isn't helping or taking your situation as serious as it should be maybe you can make an appointment with another doctor or even a psychiatrist if possible. No matter what you decide to do I wish you best of luck and I hope that these anxiety attacks will finally be ridden of in the future.

[sadia]

Hi Christopher thank you for your advice,,, last couple of weeks I have started to feel better, I'm taking each day as it comes not expecting anything, baby steps like you said.. How are you?

[Judie]

Hi thanks JUDIE yes I think I know what your on about over here it's called windeeze I will get some... I would love to visit one of the islands one day they just look so beautiful and relaxing

Yes they are, you should head toward the British Virgin Islands, St John...you can't miss, so gorgeous ! Yes try that, it will help.

[locksey]

I'm not bad thanks locksey have a lot of trapped wind in chest and back been struggling with that all day... How was your flight? What's the weather like

Soinds painful :-(

weather is Hot hot and hot looooooool.... :-)

Not like our British weather ..... Rain , rain and rain ;-)

Flight was gd thanx

[locksey]

Oh how lovely how long are you there for? Why did you struggle?

I'm here till Sun next week ( 10 days )
Struggled with been far from home , feeling trapped in airport , plane , another country etc etc ...
Had a better day today tho :-)

How ru ?

[sadia]

Soinds painful :-(

weather is Hot hot and hot looooooool.... :-)

Not like our British weather ..... Rain , rain and rain ;-)

Flight was gd thanx

Sounds amazing lol hope you have fun.. Just relax and enjoy and if you begin to struggle just take some deep breaths.. :)

[sadia]

Hi guys hope your are doing well... I'm having sort of an off day today lots of pressure in the top of my head making me feel light headed when I walk... Making me want to cry don't want it to all start again was starting to feel better the last couples of weeks..

[em1]

I'm here till Sun next week ( 10 days )
Struggled with been far from home , feeling trapped in airport , plane , another country etc etc ...
Had a better day today tho :-)

How ru ?

Yes I know how you feel I get like that when I'm away from home to,tho I hope you get to enjoy some of your hoilday at least :)

[locksey]

Yes I know how you feel I get like that when I'm away from home to,tho I hope you get to enjoy some of your hoilday at least :)

:-) thanx ...

[CathHelena]

You are okay, it's not you there is something wrong with, its your anxiety, i have the exact same thing ... :(

We need to tell ourselfes that we are okay, and it helps to hear it from other people too, you are okay :)

[sadia]

Hope you re well cathHELENA..

[Judie]

Hi guys hope your are doing well... I'm having sort of an off day today lots of pressure in the top of my head making me feel light headed when I walk... Making me want to cry don't want it to all start again was starting to feel better the last couples of weeks..

Sadia, Just ebbs and flows Sadia, remember we talked about it. Anxiety is tough, likes to try to fool you by being silent then acting up. Just relax you are getting better, minor set backs don't mean a thing. You most likely thought about how you were feeling good, remember any thoughts of anxiety feed this disorder. Dismiss all thoughts good or bad, anxiety is irrelevant and doesn't deserve any attention. Be Well ! X

[Judie]

Remember everyone the hallmarks of anxiety are your chosen " safe place " ( usually your home) and your " safe person" ( usually a spouse, close friend, sibling or parent) This is a reflection of the power of your mind attaching itself to something that it believes offers you security and protection from attacks. Therefore in order to conquer anxiety you must try very hard to separate from these dependencies. The agoraphobic needs to venture out and the panic sufferer needs to separate from that dependency on a " safe person" and slowly you gain strength and understanding that it is your mind and the power of your mind that will defeat your anxiety. There is no safe person ( other then yourself)or safe place, those are illusions. Your safe place and your safe person are one in the same, they are you. You are fine, negative defeatist thoughts about anxiety are your only enemy...negative is black, positive is white. , draw a black circle and color it white , nothing much happens right but draw a white circle and color it black. Do you see what happens ? Negative takes over and crowds out the positive, this is why it is essential that people seek out the positive, work the positive. Use imagery ( picture yourself before the anxiety, vibrant and healthy, do not let the negative ( anxiety crowd you out) This is your life, fight for it, fight hard ! You can fix this, believe that ! Be Well !

[sadia]

Sadia, Just ebbs and flows Sadia, remember we talked about it. Anxiety is tough, likes to try to fool you by being silent then acting up. Just relax you are getting better, minor set backs don't mean a thing. You most likely thought about how you were feeling good, remember any thoughts of anxiety feed this disorder. Dismiss all thoughts good or bad, anxiety is irrelevant and doesn't deserve any attention. Be Well ! X

Thanks JUDIE, was just one of those annoying days.. Hope you are well

[Judie]

Thanks JUDIE, was just one of those annoying days.. Hope you are well

Hi Sadia, Yes I am well? I have a cracked painful tooth and will have to go to the dentist and that freaks me out !!!!! Lol, Oh well some things are unavoidable but I will stall as long as possible !!! Lol

[sadia]

Lol I sympathise with you about the dentist, I'm a bit phobic about going there myself, just the sound on the machines does something to me lol.. I have my dental check up in 2 weeks lol

[Judie]

Lol I sympathise with you about the dentist, I'm a bit phobic about going there myself, just the sound on the machines does something to me lol.. I have my dental check up in 2 weeks lol

I think even people who aren't phobic gat panic at the mere thought of the Dr. With the drill. This will be A Root Canal...ouch so really dragging my feet, really expensive as well. I don't how things are over there but that tooth pain and all should be about 2,500 dollars...ouch and more ouch Lol ! Robbers they're all robbers, where is Robin Hood when I need him ?

[sadia]

I think even people who aren't phobic gat panic at the mere thought of the Dr. With the drill. This will be A Root Canal...ouch so really dragging my feet, really expensive as well. I don't how things are over there but that tooth pain and all should be about 2,500 dollars...ouch and more ouch Lol ! Robbers they're all robbers, where is Robin Hood when I need him ?

Yh it's quite expensive for people who pay over here.. Wow that is expensive I can see why your dragging it lol I have to say the drill is what scares me the most lol jus the sound of it and the thought of it touching my teeth lol

[sadia]

The last 4/5 days been waking up feeling like I want to cry, and the fear of death is slowly creeping into my mind again, but I have been controlling it this time by telling myself its my anxiety and nothing more... I thought I'd share with my friends on here because I don't want to tell my family again because they have been through it with me these past few months

[locksey]

Hi Sadia, Yes I am well? I have a cracked painful tooth and will have to go to the dentist and that freaks me out !!!!! Lol, Oh well some things are unavoidable but I will stall as long as possible !!! Lol

Hmmmmm........ Eating sweets to much ;-)

[Judie]

Hmmmmm........ Eating sweets to much ;-)

No, actually not eating enough !!!!! Lol

[Judie]

The last 4/5 days been waking up feeling like I want to cry, and the fear of death is slowly creeping into my mind again, but I have been controlling it this time by telling myself its my anxiety and nothing more... I thought I'd share with my friends on here because I don't want to tell my family again because they have been through it with me these past few months

Sadia, It's fine, I still have those feelings and I know it's anxiety. Everyone fears death, anxiety sufferers just focus on that fear, like any phobia. If you ask someone who doesn't suffer from anxiety if they fear death, they will most likely say " Ya I guess so but I never think about it"....wow what an advantage that is right ? Try to think about life, break that train of thought. Trust me I have to do this as well. X

[Judie]

Yh it's quite expensive for people who pay over here.. Wow that is expensive I can see why your dragging it lol I have to say the drill is what scares me the most lol jus the sound of it and the thought of it touching my teeth lol

Yes it's that high Pitch sound of the drill and then it grinds as it hits the tooth :( Sometimes I get a high pitch sound in my ears with anxiety...lol it's probably a phobia that started with the Dentist when I was little...ugh..all of it...dentist...anxiety...all of it ?..LOL...feel better

[sadia]

Sadia, It's fine, I still have those feelings and I know it's anxiety. Everyone fears death, anxiety sufferers just focus on that fear, like any phobia. If you ask someone who doesn't suffer from anxiety if they fear death, they will most likely say " Ya I guess so but I never think about it"....wow what an advantage that is right ? Try to think about life, break that train of thought. Trust me I have to do this as well. X

I suppose your right JUDIE I just have to take it day at a time and keep telling myself its anxiety

[sadia]

Yes it's that high Pitch sound of the drill and then it grinds as it hits the tooth :( Sometimes I get a high pitch sound in my ears with anxiety...lol it's probably a phobia that started with the Dentist when I was little...ugh..all of it...dentist...anxiety...all of it ?..LOL...feel better

Lol the thought of that drill makes me cringe .. The dentist def creates anxiety lol

[sadia]

Is there any home remedies or anything that can get rid of head pressure, it's just constant is that normal? It moves around my head and also creates a tingling sensation around my head... It feels as if the pressure is pushing down on my head its hard to explain..

[sadia]

Oh and the pressure and tingling lead into my forehead as wel

[sadia]

I've had head pressure for a few days now, and today been feeling sick and actually vomited and hour ago.. I can't get brain tumours of my mind.. I really don't want the cycle to start again

[Judie]

Is there any home remedies or anything that can get rid of head pressure, it's just constant is that normal? It moves around my head and also creates a tingling sensation around my head... It feels as if the pressure is pushing down on my head its hard to explain..

Sadia, Hi, Head Pressure is one of the most common symptoms of Anxiety. No it's not a Brain Tumor, brain tumors don't present themselves with symptoms like this. I know because my nephew died of a brain tumor. What you're feeling is called the Anxiety Band ( called that because at times it feels like someone is squeezing your head.tightening like a band ) What causes this is " again " those tense muscles ( that caused your leg fatigue before). The best thing to do is try to relax, take some tylenol or motin and try to put it out your mind. I had this quite a bit the other night, I use an icebag but many people prefer heat on shoulders and forehead. Try a muscle rub ( menthol) on your neck that will help. The tingling is just tiny muscles and nerve endings on your scalp. I think these things should make you feel better but most importantly I think knowing it is NOT a Brain Tumor ( and it definitely is NOT) will help more. I see that you vomited ? You may have caused a Muscle Contraction Migraine ( this is coming from the tightened muscles in your neck and maybe from a change in Barometric Pressure ( lots of rain coming or humidity ? ) Ok feel better. After you vomit a migraine usually gets better ( that's considered the turning point in the Migraine ) Do you feel better now ? Feel Better ok X

[sadia]

Hi JUDIE the head feels slightly better today.. We've had rain an since yesterday it's warm.. I've never had a migraine so wouldn't know what it feels like.. I an trying my hardest to ignore it.. It's just like pressure pushing down on my head and in different parts aswel then it tingles.. But I guess your right.. How have u been not seen u on here in a few days

[Judie]

Hi JUDIE the head feels slightly better today.. We've had rain an since yesterday it's warm.. I've never had a migraine so wouldn't know what it feels like.. I an trying my hardest to ignore it.. It's just like pressure pushing down on my head and in different parts aswel then it tingles.. But I guess your right.. How have u been not seen u on here in a few days

Hi Sadia, Actually my Anxiety has been " up" as well. I was just on the treadmill and boom had an episode, it's scary stuff for sure. Yes it's definitely an Anxiety Band, I get that as well. The tingling is just a result of the muscles in a tense state ( really it's the same thing that was causing that achy feeling in your legs ). Remember I told you Ebbs and Flows with Anxiety, that's why it really is important to stand up to it. To me, I have had so many symptoms but the ones that stand out the most are Head Pressure,Numbness and Tingling, Light headed, Short of breath, Chest Pain, Difficulty Swallowing ( scary !!!! ) Vision Disturbances. Rigors ( trembling ) and ALWAYS that impending DOOM ! I personally think these are the most common symptoms but there are " many" symptoms. You truly are ok Sadia, trust me I would spot something " off" ( not something I truly believed was Anxiety related ). The problem with this disorder is that as you begin to get better, the anxiety sneaks up again and tends to push people backwards in their progress. This is especially true if you have felt well for awhile.This more often then not allows a self doubt and depression to creep in, that's why it's really important to stay focused on the idea that it is just anxiety and really continue to push yourself. I also truly believe that as your thyroid improves so will your anxiety. Brain Tumors are often one of the first things people think of, in fact the top three are Heart Attack or Stroke, Brain Tumor and Going Crazy... My point is this.. what a choice right ? LOL. You are NOT alone in this at all, so trust me if I believe something you feel is not anxiety related I will tell you. Be well ! I wonder how Lin is ? If you ever need to get a hold of me PM me or Locksey ( as she knows how to get a hold of me )

[Stephj526]

When I used to get really bad head pressure, I would put something cold against my head and it helped almost instantly. Hope the pressure goes away, it's a horrible feeling!

[Judie]

When I used to get really bad head pressure, I would put something cold against my head and it helped almost instantly. Hope the pressure goes away, it's a horrible feeling!
Hi Stephj526, I agree I like an ice bag ( for head pressure and migraines) but I think it may be one of those things, some people prefer heat and others ice. I have always been an ice person.

[sadia]

Hi Sadia, Actually my Anxiety has been " up" as well. I was just on the treadmill and boom had an episode, it's scary stuff for sure. Yes it's definitely an Anxiety Band, I get that as well. The tingling is just a result of the muscles in a tense state ( really it's the same thing that was causing that achy feeling in your legs ). Remember I told you Ebbs and Flows with Anxiety, that's why it really is important to stand up to it. To me, I have had so many symptoms but the ones that stand out the most are Head Pressure,Numbness and Tingling, Light headed, Short of breath, Chest Pain, Difficulty Swallowing ( scary !!!! ) Vision Disturbances. Rigors ( trembling ) and ALWAYS that impending DOOM ! I personally think these are the most common symptoms but there are " many" symptoms. You truly are ok Sadia, trust me I would spot something " off" ( not something I truly believed was Anxiety related ). The problem with this disorder is that as you begin to get better, the anxiety sneaks up again and tends to push people backwards in their progress. This is especially true if you have felt well for awhile.This more often then not allows a self doubt and depression to creep in, that's why it's really important to stay focused on the idea that it is just anxiety and really continue to push yourself. I also truly believe that as your thyroid improves so will your anxiety. Brain Tumors are often one of the first things people think of, in fact the top three are Heart Attack or Stroke, Brain Tumor and Going Crazy... My point is this.. what a choice right ? LOL. You are NOT alone in this at all, so trust me if I believe something you feel is not anxiety related I will tell you. Be well ! I wonder how Lin is ? If you ever need to get a hold of me PM me or Locksey ( as she knows how to get a hold of me )

Hits JUDIE, thanks I know your right I guess. Just needed the reassurance.. Lol every symptom that you have just described I have.. I've had a few difficult days like you to.. Hope you are feeling better then before.. I've been thinking about Lin as wel I though about her a few times hopes she's doing well.. Yes I will defo pm JUDIE.. Thanks again.. Hope you have a great day x

[sadia]

When I used to get really bad head pressure, I would put something cold against my head and it helped almost instantly. Hope the pressure goes away, it's a horrible feeling!

Thank you I will defo try that.. Hope you are well

[Judie]

Hits JUDIE, thanks I know your right I guess. Just needed the reassurance.. Lol every symptom that you have just described I have.. I've had a few difficult days like you to.. Hope you are feeling better then before.. I've been thinking about Lin as wel I though about her a few times hopes she's doing well.. Yes I will defo pm JUDIE.. Thanks again.. Hope you have a great day x
Yes Anxiety tends to surface and when it does it stays " up" for a little while( basically I think your body/ mind just go back to that acutely sensitive phase ( everything is pronounced). What I do when this happens is slow down, eat right, sleep enough, just basically take it easy and try really hard to think of other things and surround yourself with positive. You are fine and I will continue to reassure you of this. Positive Ok ! X

[sadia]

Thank you JUDIE don't know what I would have done without your support these last few months.. Do u think if I had a soak in the bah to release the tension in my shoulders and neck it would help the head pressure?

[mid]

I cried when I read the note of anxiety band and muscle contraction headache/migraine and the rest of the symptoms mentioned. My son is suffering these, and I have started to have them as well ... and after reading that improvement (which I have had) relief often allows for the "whammy" of this one. Hot baths are so relaxing, and I make sure to have everything ready before I crawl out of the tub, to just go to my comfort spot (sometimes, rocking chair, sometimes, bed, sometimes, couch with extra pillows) depending on what hurts most.

Knowing there is a physical cause for these symptoms is helping me past the "it's all in your head" support I get and now that son is being treated for anxiety seizures, it's good to know that what he's feeling is acknowledged here makes it easier to be firm with everyone else about the "mouths closed" unless they want to read information about anxiety from first person perspective.

Thank you to all for sharing here. Hope comes here and gives a light of life to all who allow their hands to help here.

[Lin]

Judie and Stadia
Hope you both OK. Back at home now so can access forum again.
Lin

[sadia]

I cried when I read the note of anxiety band and muscle contraction headache/migraine and the rest of the symptoms mentioned. My son is suffering these, and I have started to have them as well ... and after reading that improvement (which I have had) relief often allows for the "whammy" of this one. Hot baths are so relaxing, and I make sure to have everything ready before I crawl out of the tub, to just go to my comfort spot (sometimes, rocking chair, sometimes, bed, sometimes, couch with extra pillows) depending on what hurts most.

Knowing there is a physical cause for these symptoms is helping me past the "it's all in your head" support I get and now that son is being treated for anxiety seizures, it's good to know that what he's feeling is acknowledged here makes it easier to be firm with everyone else about the "mouths closed" unless they want to read information about anxiety from first person perspective.

Thank you to all for sharing here. Hope comes here and gives a light of life to all who allow their hands to help here.

I'm defo gong to try the hot bath.. Hope you and you son are well mid?

[sadia]

Judie and Stadia
Hope you both OK. Back at home now so can access forum again.
Lin

Hi Lin hope you are feeling better?

[Judie]

Hi Lin hope you are feeling better?

Hey Lin, Welcome back ! Sadia and I are hanging in, suffering synchronized symptoms across the pond lol, you have got to love this disorder Hope you are doing ok ?

[Lin]

Judie - not doing good. Had enough took an overdose Monday but not enough and still ended up yesterday back at work and home which I can't do at moment.
Viscious circle -cant give up job used to love without a fight and know Chris fed up with illness not me but don't understand how he can criticise and push me and then blame me.
Just had enough everything.

[Judie]

Judie - not doing good. Had enough took an overdose Monday but not enough and still ended up yesterday back at work and home which I can't do at moment.
Viscious circle -cant give up job used to love without a fight and know Chris fed up with illness not me but don't understand how he can criticise and push me and then blame me.
Just had enough everything.

Oh Lin, I'm really sorry ,but you know at the end of the day this isn't about Chris or your job, this is about you. You remember what it was like to feel well, remember that and fight for it. Don't lose sight of who you were and who you will be again. I don't know if you are familiar with tapping ( actually similar to Acupuncture and I thought you may enjoy doing a little bit of it) I tried it earlier and it did seem to help. I thought you and Sadia could give it a try. And then we could compare notes . Where are you now, home ? Here's the link for you and Sadia. Be Well and Hang In OK X. http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/04/03/eft.aspx

[Judie]

Sadia, I want you to try this and tell me what you think. http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/04/03/eft.aspx

[sadia]

Sadia, I want you to try this and tell me what you think. http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/04/03/eft.aspx

I've just tried this JUDIE and your right it does actually help.. I feel calm and no thoughts runnin in my head

[Judie]

[QUOTE=sadia;103651]I've just tried this JUDIE and your right it does actually help.. I feel calm and no thoughts runnin in my head[/QUOTE
I know it really does help. I had read about this awhile about had forgotten.A friend reminded me of it last night. Interesting how she says " I don't know if I can release the Anxiety as I ave had it so long" That kind of reminds me of Louise Hay ( hanging on to Negative or what we know) Well the Tapping Technique is combining acupuncture and positive thought ( both have proven successful) so let's give it a try ? Oddly my body feels very calm today. ( did it Twice late last night). I decided to do an Art Fair on July 27th which I had thought of canceling but I figured that was giving into Anxiety, so could be a stressful month as I will have to produce a lot of work. I say we keep trying this :) ......Lin have you tried it ?..Be Well

[sadia]

Yes judie I tried it twice this morning.. Has kept me calm so far.. Its quite a good technique.. And yes the affrimations remind me of Louise Hay as we'll.. I also hope Lin has tried it.. Judie have you got any pland for July 4th

[Judie]

Yes judie I tried it twice this morning.. Has kept me calm so far.. Its quite a good technique.. And yes the affrimations remind me of Louise Hay as we'll.. I also hope Lin has tried it.. Judie have you got any pland for July 4th

My husband owns his own business and is really busy at this time of year ( this is a resort area) but he has managed to take Friday, Saturday and Sunday off so we will most likely go out to dinner etc. We used to take the boat out for the Fireworks, but it's actually very dark out there and pretty dangerous so we have stopped that. How about you , are you getting out to do anything ( although you don't celebrate this Holiday right...but the baby's coming!!!!! ...definitely a girl, what do you think ? Morning Sickness is worse with girls and Kate did have a hard time early on.

[sadia]

To be honest the 4th of July is not celebrated in the UK.. It's just an ordinary day down here.. I no everyone is waiting for the royal baby to arrive that's going to be the biggest news of the year.. Lol I've seen the Kardashians celebrate in on the programme and they make it look like fun lol

[Judie]

To be honest the 4th of July is not celebrated in the UK.. It's just an ordinary day down here.. I no everyone is waiting for the royal baby to arrive that's going to be the biggest news of the year.. Lol I've seen the Kardashians celebrate in on the programme and they make it look like fun lol

Yes the 4th is a Big Celebration Day all over America...Fireworks everywhere...cookouts everywhere...It is a fun holiday...parades everything...I just tapped myself again lol...ready for the fireworks now !!! Kim Kadashian and her baby North West...ha I wonder what type of mother she will be. Poor Chloe she's the one that I think would be the best parent. The youngest reminds me sooo much of Kim in personality and Rob has fallen off the deep end lol

[sadia]

Do you say the affrimations when you tap?? I know kim went into to early labor, but apparently she's a natural according to E newsl lol.. Khloes my favourite out of all of them and she defo deserves a baby.. Robs just totally changed but I. Do think he jas so$e deep issues

[Judie]

Do you say the affrimations when you tap?? I know kim went into to early labor, but apparently she's a natural according to E newsl lol.. Khloes my favourite out of all of them and she defo deserves a baby.. Robs just totally changed but I. Do think he jas so$e deep issues

Yes, I think Rob probably has some issues. He got thin on Dancing With The Stars and now all the weight gain :(. I think he feels lost in amongst the girls and their crazed fame.I know he lived with his Dad after the Divorce (his father Robert Kadashian defended OJ Simpson) not with his mother and Bruce. Yes I do the affirmations, I think that is probably a large par of calming your mind. Chloe's my favorite. Kim seems very wrapped up in Kim. Never mind the Kadashians and the Sopranos ( you are definitely going to have to come to the States )do you watch Downton Abby ??????? That is a Big Hit here. Yes as far as Tapping ( those are Meridian Points- Google them, they are acupuncture points for parts. Of e body) I talk right alongside the woman ( who has a New York Accent and talks pretty fast lol) .....reminds me of aerobic classes, trying to Coordinate and keep up lol.

[Judie]

Do you say the affrimations when you tap?? I know kim went into to early labor, but apparently she's a natural according to E newsl lol.. Khloes my favourite out of all of them and she defo deserves a baby.. Robs just totally changed but I. Do think he jas so$e deep issues

According to E News and Kim, she's a Natural...I hope so but Psychics are saying No Go on her and Kanye lol...time will tell.

[sadia]

Lol I tend to talk fast now and then.. I will defo make a trip to the states one day I've always wanted to come to the states.. I've done the tapping a few times today and said a few affirmations it does help just got to relax more whilst I do it.. I just keep panicking on the inside and I'm trying to control that at the moment

[sadia]

According to E News and Kim, she's a Natural...I hope so but Psychics are saying No Go on her and Kanye lol...time will tell.

Is it true that she published fake pictures of north.. Lol I think she might last with kanye after all he is hip hop royalty lol

[Judie]

Is it true that she published fake pictures of north.. Lol I think she might last with kanye after all he is hip hop royalty lol

I think you are more in the loop then I am with Kim and North, lol. But I do watch the Kadashians and I do think her marriage to Chris Humphreys may not have been with the best intentions. Chris Jenner is a publicity Magnet, I mean why are they famous lol ? For a Sex Tape and hanging out with Paris Hilton ( another one that lacks any reason for being famous) Yes I do the affirmations while I am doing the tapping. Are we supposed to be walking around doing them ? I need to look into the North West photos lol. So you are still anxious " inside" even after the tapping ? So Kim and Kanye are our answer to Kate and Wil.....NO ! LOL

[sadia]

Lol kim and kanye get more tv time then will and Kate... I don't like kris jenner she's annoying.. And they couldn't handle chris hump lol.. After tapping I was ok for a few hours.. Then thoughts just come back and make me a bit anxious or if I get a twinge or pain.. But I'm going to give the tapping a go every morning and see how my day goes and tap in the day when I need to see if it works.. I was sitting when I tapped.. What about you?

[Judie]

Yes, I tapped with her earlier and during the day when my anxiety started peaking. I just start getting negative thoughts in general ( people that have gotten angry with and i have trouble letting it go ...I try ) Anyway that is what sets off my anxiety, just negative thoughts in general and then of course the " traditional" fear about what's going on. But I have gotten to the point where I can clearly see that the negative thoughts are my trigger. So during the day today I tapped on my own when the anxiety was building and it did calm me so ? Chris Jenner is tooooooo much lol. We love Kate and Will over here. My good friend and I set our alarms for the Wedding. She lives in California East Coast /West Coast but we stayed on the phone for the whole thing...fun, we described our hats to each other that we were wearing ( lol not really of course), but who could ever turn their back on Prince Harry ? ( actually my fave of the boys) Ok check in with me tomorrow after some tapping lol

[Judie]

Lol kim and kanye get more tv time then will and Kate... I don't like kris jenner she's annoying.. And they couldn't handle chris hump lol.. After tapping I was ok for a few hours.. Then thoughts just come back and make me a bit anxious or if I get a twinge or pain.. But I'm going to give the tapping a go every morning and see how my day goes and tap in the day when I need to see if it works.. I was sitting when I tapped.. What about you?

That's so funny I just reread your post above and I meant are we supposed to be walking around doing them as in " are we supposed to just randomly do them...not actually " walking"...but that's a good idea. Seriously it is the difference in the countries with the way we phrase things.Will and Kate get equal time with Kim and Kanye and people prefer Will and Kate lol

[Lin]

Hey Lin, Welcome back ! Sadia and I are hanging in, suffering synchronized symptoms across the pond lol, you have got to love this disorder Hope you are doing ok ?

Dear Judie

Just tried PM you, but said you were full up, so put this in public bit instead.

Have tried tapping, especially one day at work. But when really down and head exploding like now, just can't seem to use coping techniques. Doing a course over 6 thursday mornings on emotion management, to learn a gap between emotion and urge so that use coping techniques, but first week was not good and dramatic people there, second week I was not well, third week I missed for retreat, and then last week I was not well again. So got this week and next week to try and learn the gap.
Saw a new psychologist on Monday who thinks that he can teach me to use my mindfulness to stop my rumination which is stopping me sleeping and everything. Seeing him again today. Everyone tells me he is good so can only give it a chance.
So fed up - Monday after overdose told by home treatment nurses will do all can to support me back at home, so phone call and visit on Tuesday after work, then yesterday meeting with home treatment and my mental health nurse and decided not allowed home treatment any more, just mental health nurse and ring Crisis. So angry walked out of house, phoned Crisis and got man not know who just repeated what had said at meeting, told him out and was going to walk in front car, put phone down did not ring me back or even try find where I was. Phoned recovery house was at for 2 weeks and they told me stop work. Phoned my son which not usually do and asked if he did need me. Said he did need me and persuaded me go back home and ask Chris get me help. Got back home but ended arguing with Chris, third night in row, he eventually rang Crisis to get help but phone not working and they never phoned back.
Phoned someone from peer support group started and she came and took me to the group so got out of house.
Been up since 1.15 am, phoned Crisis 1.30 -4.30 until got response as they were out, and then got woman not know who just said normal home treatment back out now and back to nurse and crisis. Said about man not caring I was out and wanted walk in front of car and that people at Crisis now 24 hour if you get someone you not know just not help at all. She said going e-mail my nurse but told her he is not in today.
So just get promised help by someone and then taken away a few days later all the time.
Head no better than when went in recovery house but they still not taking me seriously.
Now made worse for family because upset son and just not getting on at all with chris since back on Monday after overdose.
Can't put up with all this pressure.
Might try and see my doctor today or tomorrow to talk through everything - work/psychiatrict tablets/hormone treatment - and see what he suggests.
Just really need help but they say have to help myself even though head can't do it at moment.
Sorry Judie, so negative, but now getting desperate and thinking all sorts. Only Matt kept me here yesterday and now upset him.
Lin x

[Judie]

Dear Judie

Just tried PM you, but said you were full up, so put this in public bit instead.

Have tried tapping, especially one day at work. But when really down and head exploding like now, just can't seem to use coping techniques. Doing a course over 6 thursday mornings on emotion management, to learn a gap between emotion and urge so that use coping techniques, but first week was not good and dramatic people there, second week I was not well, third week I missed for retreat, and then last week I was not well again. So got this week and next week to try and learn the gap.
Saw a new psychologist on Monday who thinks that he can teach me to use my mindfulness to stop my rumination which is stopping me sleeping and everything. Seeing him again today. Everyone tells me he is good so can only give it a chance.
So fed up - Monday after overdose told by home treatment nurses will do all can to support me back at home, so phone call and visit on Tuesday after work, then yesterday meeting with home treatment and my mental health nurse and decided not allowed home treatment any more, just mental health nurse and ring Crisis. So angry walked out of house, phoned Crisis and got man not know who just repeated what had said at meeting, told him out and was going to walk in front car, put phone down did not ring me back or even try find where I was. Phoned recovery house was at for 2 weeks and they told me stop work. Phoned my son which not usually do and asked if he did need me. Said he did need me and persuaded me go back home and ask Chris get me help. Got back home but ended arguing with Chris, third night in row, he eventually rang Crisis to get help but phone not working and they never phoned back.
Phoned someone from peer support group started and she came and took me to the group so got out of house.
Been up since 1.15 am, phoned Crisis 1.30 -4.30 until got response as they were out, and then got woman not know who just said normal home treatment back out now and back to nurse and crisis. Said about man not caring I was out and wanted walk in front of car and that people at Crisis now 24 hour if you get someone you not know just not help at all. She said going e-mail my nurse but told her he is not in today.
So just get promised help by someone and then taken away a few days later all the time.
Head no better than when went in recovery house but they still not taking me seriously.
Now made worse for family because upset son and just not getting on at all with chris since back on Monday after overdose.
Can't put up with all this pressure.
Might try and see my doctor today or tomorrow to talk through everything - work/psychiatrict tablets/hormone treatment - and see what he suggests.
Just really need help but they say have to help myself even though head can't do it at moment.
Sorry Judie, so negative, but now getting desperate and thinking all sorts. Only Matt kept me here yesterday and now upset him.
Lin x
Lin, You haven't upset Matt, you have only concerned him, there's a big difference there. Ok let me ask you this have you ever thought about going into a Rehabilitation Hospital and getting weaned off some of the tablets. Tranquilizers have such a rebound effect and sometimes they end up actually making the anxiety/ depression worse. I was just thinking that maybe you could clear your system a bit ( under a Drs care and possibly start over with new meds and therapy) You seem so unhappy and at wits end, but there is hope out there. Are you peri menopausal or menopausal ? Eventually those hormones will calm down, try to stay focus on that positive. As far as people not taking you seriously, I wouldn't concern myself with what anyone was thinking. Obviously suicide attempts are cries for help but so is calling a crisis line, your Dr, Nurses, friends etc...trust me I don't believe anyone doesn't believe you or take you seriously. You are obviously extremely depressed. You seem to me to work very hard at correcting the depression. As hard as depression and anxiety are, I think fixing or working on yourself is even harder and you appear to do a lot of that, so good for you! I know there is always a lot of talk about focusing on the positive and then can be tough even annoying when you are in the throwsof depression. But here's the thing Depression/Anxiety are a mind/body out of balance so what you do for something that isn't balanced, you work very hard at balancing it. Think of a scale, on one side it's weighted with 100 lbs of Negative and on the other it's weighted with 10 lbs of Positive. Obviously the Negative is where all the focus is.So what's a person to do ? You remove some of the Negative and if you are unable to do that ( and God knows I've been there as well ) then you increase the Positive. Ok, I know nothing is Positive right now, I get that I truly do but that's why therapy is called " work" . Make a promise to yourself and to me that you will look( very hard) for the Positive. Listen to uplifting music and read an uplifting book...but more importantly look inside..you. Have raised a son, been a good wife m. A supportive friend and a good employee. Buy some flowers for yourself and stop believing that others don't know how horrible you feel, we do ! Tomorrow I want you to let me know about something positive you feel...anything. Please feel better, we are concerned X Matt loves you beyond anything, know that !.....getting angry or upset with someone isn't about not loving , it's about frustration X

[sadia]

Defo Agree with judie.. Lin we all care and wish tht best for you.. Even try the tapping..

[sadia]

2.30am and I can't sleep.. Heavy feeling around chest and gurgling stomach.. Keep burping fears kicking in

[Judie]

2.30am and I can't sleep.. Heavy feeling around chest and gurgling stomach.. Keep burping fears kicking in
Hi Sadia, Hopefully you are now asleep as it is now 4:15 AM. UK time. Both those symptoms are definitely anxiety. I get that heavy feeling a lot and the stomach gurgling as well. Don't worry ok. I had the worst migraine you could imagine at 3 AM last night so you have my sympathy. Soooo humid here and very hot, barometric pressure causes migraines. I'm hoping tonight isn't a repeat performance. Maybe you're nervous about the Royal Queenlet ( Gosh I hope it's not a boy with that nickname)that's about to be born ? :) Just joking. Feel Better
!

[sadia]

Hi Sadia, Hopefully you are now asleep as it is now 4:15 AM. UK time. Both those symptoms are definitely anxiety. I get that heavy feeling a lot and the stomach gurgling as well. Don't worry ok. I had the worst migraine you could imagine at 3 AM last night so you have my sympathy. Soooo humid here and very hot, barometric pressure causes migraines. I'm hoping tonight isn't a repeat performance. Maybe you're nervous about the Royal Queenlet ( Gosh I hope it's not a boy with that nickname)that's about to be born ? :) Just joking. Feel Better
!

Think I finally managed to fall asleep after 3am wasn't a good sleep been up since 8.30 and pain still there not sure if its GERD.. Hope you didn't have another migraine JUDIE..

[Sedigive]

I know the feeling. I have had anxiety for years thinking I was going to die and I am still here. Some days it is ok but today it is really baaaad! Had a fight with my spouse and it set one off :-(

[sadia]

Aww bless you, hope your feeling better.. I'm always thinking that I'm going to die the smallest thing makes me think that

[Judie]

Aww bless you, hope your feeling better.. I'm always thinking that I'm going to die the smallest thing makes me think that

I know I think that impending doom ( I'm going to die) is "The Hardest" thing to get by with anxiety, that's where rationalizing that you've made it through many attacks is important. Most probably the attacks you have now aren't as severe as they were in the beginning, so stands to reason they aren't going to kill you and that you are getting better. Ok so here's a Look for the Positive Story...... ( All Negatives are mirrored by Positive) There is a heat wave going on here and last night before going to bed I went to my freezer to fill my ice bag with ice , in case I got another Migraine and I notice the digital temperature setting is at 30 , not at 0 where it should be. Both my freezer and Frig had iced over because of the heat and too much food packed in...Ugh it was horrible, I had to empty the whole thing out and my husband knew that it was being caused by air not circulating in the heat....had to be emptied and shut off. Thankfully we have another Frig downstairs and were able to save most of the food....Positive in the Negative?.. If I hadn't had that horrible migraine I wouldn't have gone to get ice and noticed the Temp was off ...I would have lost a lot of food ! Yay !...although it was irritating, it wasn't costly :) I am waiting for the Baby Queen patiently !

[sadia]

Lol I hope it's a baby queen as wel.. I knw what you mean the constant doom of death.. With me it's always present everything I do the thought crops up and stops me from doing stuff, but it's not as bad as it was before.. Gosh sound like u had an eventful night with the fridge lol... Hope your day went well today

[Judie]

Lol I hope it's a baby queen as wel.. I knw what you mean the constant doom of death.. With me it's always present everything I do the thought crops up and stops me from doing stuff, but it's not as bad as it was before.. Gosh sound like u had an eventful night with the fridge lol... Hope your day went well today

The Day went well ! I turned down my Hot Tub to 80 and used it as a mini pool , it was great ! When you get that first impending doom just quickly think of something else...perhaps Rob Kadashian and his issues lol...really anything. Eventually you will recondition your mind that nothing is going to happen and it is in fact just your negative thoughts that are causing the anxiety.

[sadia]

Your tub sounds so relaxing lol.. Yes I do try to think of other things sometimes its hard but I will keep on trying

[Judie]

Your tub sounds so relaxing lol.. Yes I do try to think of other things sometimes its hard but I will keep on trying

I know it's hard :(

[sadia]

I've got a dentist appointment in less then an hour not looking forward to.. My stomachs already begun to turn

[sadia]

I'm having a very odd day today for some reason since last night I can't get my dad uncle out of my head his keeps popping into my my head and eyes I can't see him around me or anything but I keep seeing his face in my thoughts if that makes sense.. And it's really scaring me, I've already cried once about it

[sadia]

Just had one of my big panic attacks had to run into the garden.. My head and ears feel like they are filled with air and is making me feel off I hate all of this and to top it off time of the month came on today aswel I feel awful

[sadia]

I feel as if I'm having a nervous break down

[Judie]

I feel as if I'm having a nervous break down

Ok you are not having a nervous breakdown, your anxiety is in overdrive. As far as why you have heightened anxiety there were two reasons, one-the dentist and that trapped feeling of being in the chair and two- your period, which always because of fluctuating hormones cause anxiety to often go through the roof, pregnancy, post-partum and menopause do as well. As far as your Uncle, well I tend to be spiritual about things like that, perhaps trying to help you through a tough time. If that's the case it's a good thing. The second reason could simply be that something ( memory) caused him to pop into your head and because you couldn't understand why this was happening it put you into a fearful response and your mind being in overdrive starts firing images out...either way, you are ok. So, you are really opposed to an antidepressant ? It could give you a break from all this. You don't have Xanax over there. I am not a big fan of this only because it works really well and people can rely too much on it but as a low dose back up ( something you can carry with you-a security blanket in your pocket- you know you have it but don't use it unless it's an emergency ( Bad Panic) I am not a big fan of meds but sometimes they truly are a blessing. When I was really bad ( and first suffered Panic Attacks ) I refused all meds-adamantly refused and did get better successfully but it was a tough " five" years but I did actively fight the disorder so ???? Anyway when my daughter was four ( 10 years later they resurfaced-biological I believe and also perhaps unresolved issues and extreme stress and that point I decided ( for the sake of my daughter and dad, who both needed me 100% I opted to try the SSRI's and I am happy that I did at that point.My point is this sometimes meds are a good thing and sometimes you are best fighting a clean fight. It's up to you Sadia but I truly want you to feel better. Sometimes people in the heat of Anxiety start an antidepressant and panic at side effects ( actually feel lousy), basically this is more apt to be the Panic not the SSRI . After a couple of weeks all of that settles down as your Serotonin Levels are boosted to where they should be. Here in U.S. Antidepressants are used for many things from migraines to joint aches to insomnia. People sometimes develop a stigma about them but that's just ignorance ( just don't have the knowledge) on the part of many people. Remember I told you one of the things people most often think during a Panic Attack...is "I am going crazy or having a nervous breakdown"...You wouldn't be a able to log into your computer and post how you were feeling if you were going crazy. I was up twice last night ( Panic-Night Terror, Sound Asleep...Boom) ) Trust me I know, think about what I said ok. XX

[sadia]

Ok you are not having a nervous breakdown, your anxiety is in overdrive. As far as why you have heightened anxiety there were two reasons, one-the dentist and that trapped feeling of being in the chair and two- your period, which always because of fluctuating hormones cause anxiety to often go through the roof, pregnancy, post-partum and menopause do as well. As far as your Uncle, well I tend to be spiritual about things like that, perhaps trying to help you through a tough time. If that's the case it's a good thing. The second reason could simply be that something ( memory) caused him to pop into your head and because you couldn't understand why this was happening it put you into a fearful response and your mind being in overdrive starts firing images out...either way, you are ok. So, you are really opposed to an antidepressant ? It could give you a break from all this. You don't have Xanax over there. I am not a big fan of this only because it works really well and people can rely too much on it but as a low dose back up ( something you can carry with you-a security blanket in your pocket- you know you have it but don't use it unless it's an emergency ( Bad Panic) I am not a big fan of meds but sometimes they truly are a blessing. When I was really bad ( and first suffered Panic Attacks ) I refused all meds-adamantly refused and did get better successfully but it was a tough " five" years but I did actively fight the disorder so ???? Anyway when my daughter was four ( 10 years later they resurfaced-biological I believe and also perhaps unresolved issues and extreme stress and that point I decided ( for the sake of my daughter and dad, who both needed me 100% I opted to try the SSRI's and I am happy that I did at that point.My point is this sometimes meds are a good thing and sometimes you are best fighting a clean fight. It's up to you Sadia but I truly want you to feel better. Sometimes people in the heat of Anxiety start an antidepressant and panic at side effects ( actually feel lousy), basically this is more apt to be the Panic not the SSRI . After a couple of weeks all of that settles down as your Serotonin Levels are boosted to where they should be. Here in U.S. Antidepressants are used for many things from migraines to joint aches to insomnia. People sometimes develop a stigma about them but that's just ignorance ( just don't have the knowledge) on the part of many people. Remember I told you one of the things people most often think during a Panic Attack...is "I am going crazy or having a nervous breakdown"...You wouldn't be a able to log into your computer and post how you were feeling if you were going crazy. I was up twice last night ( Panic-Night Terror, Sound Asleep...Boom) ) Trust me I know, think about what I said ok. XX

I know my hormones are in overdrive atm they always seem to make me worse now that I think about it.. And about mu uncle he came in my dream couple of weeks ago, and on Sunday night as I was lying down his face just appeared in my eyes/head if that makes sense.. And since then I cnt get his face out of my head, when I'm talking to people I'm fine and when I'm alone it's just there... I really don't want to do medication just because I don't want to go though the side effects I haven't got that in me I'm just going to see how I get on and made a doctors appointment for next Thursdays aswel..

Hope your ok JUDIE and what happened last night

[Judie]

I know my hormones are in overdrive atm they always seem to make me worse now that I think about it.. And about mu uncle he came in my dream couple of weeks ago, and on Sunday night as I was lying down his face just appeared in my eyes/head if that makes sense.. And since then I cnt get his face out of my head, when I'm talking to people I'm fine and when I'm alone it's just there... I really don't want to do medication just because I don't want to go though the side effects I haven't got that in me I'm just going to see how I get on and made a doctors appointment for next Thursdays aswel..

Hope your ok JUDIE and what happened last night
Yes I'm ok Sadia, although my daughter just came home from work and had a massive Panic Attack. She works at a Bakery. Everyone is from Europe including the Executive Chef/Owner who just became very afraid when he saw how horrible my daughter looked. She is on a low dose antidepressant. This is genetic as we have discussed before. It actually annoys me when people claim it is all about thought process and "only" thought process it isn't. People are predisposed to this and so "many things" can set it off. My first question to my daughter was " Did you have coffee at work " ? Her answer was " yeas " Did you drink it fast because you were hot...again the answer was " yes"...People with Panic Disorder don't tolerate caffiene or extreme heat ( we are in a very humid heat wave right now and she works by the Bakery Ovens, so even with air conditioning it's is extremely hot ! Nasty combination...heat and caffiene. Honestly I truly believe that your dream of your Uncle was a message ( sign) that he is watching out for you. My Mom actually told me I was pregnant with my daughter in a dream before I knew I was. So, yes find comfort in that. The problem is Panic Disorder makes us fearful of everything, don't be. There really is nothing to be afraid of. Your Uncles's face just popping into your head *(and yes that has happened to me as well and is disturbing) but I think as I said before it's just because of the dream, he is on your mind that's all. The reason it doesn't happen when you are talking to people is because your mind is occupied with other things ( the conversation) My daughter was really afraid when this attack happened and kept thinking about the symptoms and kept feeding the anxiety, that's really what both of you, all of us with Anxiety have got to do, refocus our thoughts...nonreactive, it's essential. I know how you feel about meds, I felt that way as well and actually still do. "But" it can be helpful and side effects are very short lived and it could give you your life back. See how the Dr. goes next week, I'm sure you'll feel better in a couple of days anyway. Remember eat right, sleep enough. exercise and try to stay positive. Have you seen any good movies ? WE have Cable on Demand here...can see movies same day as theatres, do you have that ? Queenlet is on her way !!!! :)

[Judie]

I know my hormones are in overdrive atm they always seem to make me worse now that I think about it.. And about mu uncle he came in my dream couple of weeks ago, and on Sunday night as I was lying down his face just appeared in my eyes/head if that makes sense.. And since then I cnt get his face out of my head, when I'm talking to people I'm fine and when I'm alone it's just there... I really don't want to do medication just because I don't want to go though the side effects I haven't got that in me I'm just going to see how I get on and made a doctors appointment for next Thursdays aswel..

Hope your ok JUDIE and what happened last night
Yes I'm ok Sadia, although my daughter just came home from work and had a massive Panic Attack. She works at a French Bakery/Bistro. Everyone is from France including the Executive Chef/Owner who just became very afraid when he saw how horrible my daughter looked. She is on a low dose antidepressant. This is genetic as we have discussed before. It actually annoys me when people claim it is all about thought process and only thought process it isn't. People are predisposed to this and so many things can set it off. My first question to my daughter was " Did you have coffee at work " ? Her answer was " yeas " Did you drink it fast because you were hot...again the answer was " yes"...People with Panic Disorder don't tolerate caffiene or extreme heat ( we are in a very humid heat wave right now and she works by the Bakery Ovens, so even with air conditioning it's is extremely hot ! Nasty combination...heat and caffiene. Honestly I truly believe that your dream of your Uncle was a message ( sign) that he is watching out for you. My Mom actually told me I was pregnant with my daughter in a dream before I knew I was. So, yes find comfort in that. The problem is Panic Disorder makes us fearful of everything, don't be. There really is nothing to be afraid of. Your Uncles's face just popping into your head *(and yes that has happened to me as well and is disturbing) but I think as I said before it's just because of the dream, he is on your mind that's all. The reason it doesn't happen when you are talking to people is because your mind is occupied with other things ( the conversation) My daughter was really afraid when this attack happened and kept thinking about the symptoms and kept feeding the anxiety, that's really what both of you, all of us with Anxiety have got to do, refocus our thoughts...nonreactive, it's essential. I know how you feel about meds, I felt that way as well and actually still do. "But" it can be helpful and side effects are very short lived and it could give you your life back. See how the Dr. goes next week, I'm sure you'll feel better in a couple of days anyway. Remember eat right, sleep enough. exercise and try to stay positive. Have you seen any good movies ? WE have Cable on Demand here...can see movies same day as theatres, do you have that ? Queenlet is on her way !!!! :)

[sadia]

Yes I'm ok Sadia, although my daughter just came home from work and had a massive Panic Attack. She works at a French Bakery/Bistro. Everyone is from France including the Executive Chef/Owner who just became very afraid when he saw how horrible my daughter looked. She is on a low dose antidepressant. This is genetic as we have discussed before. It actually annoys me when people claim it is all about thought process and only thought process it isn't. People are predisposed to this and so many things can set it off. My first question to my daughter was " Did you have coffee at work " ? Her answer was " yeas " Did you drink it fast because you were hot...again the answer was " yes"...People with Panic Disorder don't tolerate caffiene or extreme heat ( we are in a very humid heat wave right now and she works by the Bakery Ovens, so even with air conditioning it's is extremely hot ! Nasty combination...heat and caffiene. Honestly I truly believe that your dream of your Uncle was a message ( sign) that he is watching out for you. My Mom actually told me I was pregnant with my daughter in a dream before I knew I was. So, yes find comfort in that. The problem is Panic Disorder makes us fearful of everything, don't be. There really is nothing to be afraid of. Your Uncles's face just popping into your head *(and yes that has happened to me as well and is disturbing) but I think as I said before it's just because of the dream, he is on your mind that's all. The reason it doesn't happen when you are talking to people is because your mind is occupied with other things ( the conversation) My daughter was really afraid when this attack happened and kept thinking about the symptoms and kept feeding the anxiety, that's really what both of you, all of us with Anxiety have got to do, refocus our thoughts...nonreactive, it's essential. I know how you feel about meds, I felt that way as well and actually still do. "But" it can be helpful and side effects are very short lived and it could give you your life back. See how the Dr. goes next week, I'm sure you'll feel better in a couple of days anyway. Remember eat right, sleep enough. exercise and try to stay positive. Have you seen any good movies ? WE have Cable on Demand here...can see movies same day as theatres, do you have that ? Queenlet is on her way !!!! :)

Ooo gosh sounds like none of us are having a good time lately, we have a little heat wave at the moment aswel and its not fun at nights as it gets to humid, and can't sleep only had 4 hours sleep today... I hope your daughters ok and it's not going to jeopardise her job or anything like that... Yes we have on demand here... The only movie I've watched recently is sparkle.. Have you seen it JUDIE? Xx

[Judie]

Ooo gosh sounds like none of us are having a good time lately, we have a little heat wave at the moment aswel and its not fun at nights as it gets to humid, and can't sleep only had 4 hours sleep today... I hope your daughters ok and it's not going to jeopardise her job or anything like that... Yes we have on demand here... The only movie I've watched recently is sparkle.. Have you seen it JUDIE? Xx
No, she won't lose her job, they know her well and was with her ( and actually helpedHer by putting ice to her neck etc) It. Was just too hot and then the caffeine. ( I tell her all the time not to go. Near. Caffiene but at 22 you need to do what you need to do !). She's good, she has enough experience with Anxiety to know she has to push through. I just hope she doesn't connect it with work and get phobic about work but she also knows and understands Panic has nothing to do with where you are when it happens. How are you. feeling today? Temperatures are tough, heat is hard for people with Panic Disorder. When is your. Drs Appointment and. How are the dreams. ? I will check out Sparkle ?...Early Prediction...Kim will be a spokesperson for Weight Loss Company and/or Exercise Video !....Poor Rob :(

[sadia]

No, she won't lose her job, they know her well and was with her ( and actually helpedHer by putting ice to her neck etc) It. Was just too hot and then the caffeine. ( I tell her all the time not to go. Near. Caffiene but at 22 you need to do what you need to do !). She's good, she has enough experience with Anxiety to know she has to push through. I just hope she doesn't connect it with work and get phobic about work but she also knows and understands Panic has nothing to do with where you are when it happens. How are you. feeling today? Temperatures are tough, heat is hard for people with Panic Disorder. When is your. Drs Appointment and. How are the dreams. ? I will check out Sparkle ?...Early Prediction...Kim will be a spokesperson for Weight Loss Company and/or Exercise Video !....Poor Rob :(

No dreams I think that's why I dread going sleep at night because I don't want a dream that will set me off the next day.. Only on 4 hours of sleep today because of the heat so kind of tired.. I still feel scared today it's just the constant thoughts but I'm trying to ignore them and not panic over them... My doctors app isn't till next Thursday.. Lol your right Kim will get some sort of deal out of having a baby .. How are you today

[Judie]

My anxiety is " up" and will probably stay that way until I get the Art Show out of the way :( but's it's ok. Hopefully you feel a little better by now. I know I have been afraid to go to sleep sometimes too in the past, now not so much. Last week I had those night terrors ( Panic when you are asleep and it wakes you up ( ugh...) But I do know what they are and can pull myself out of them relatively quickly.I have NOT gone to the dentist yet lol..hate it ! You know people dream about what they think about during the course of the day ( many dreams are just our memory bank filing away what we have thought about/ experienced during the day...try to think positive thoughts. Don't be afraid to dream of your Uncle, try to remember what it's about and learn from it. He obviously loved you, given that you lovable soooo... don't be afraid. You are young and will be on this planet for a very long time. I talked to a friend of mine last night about her mother that had been murdered years ago. She was telling me that at one point she worked with this woman but no longer did, anyway the woman called her and as they were talking she said to my friend, get a pen and paper I never told you this before but I am a Medium ( not professional, just happens to her, she channels spirits ) My friend didn't know what to think but listened and the women proceeded to tell her things about her brother and family that no one would know and then told her who had killed her mother and described the killer to her. What was shocking was her brother ( his wife) involved with drugs had been the cause of the murder. The dealers had come to her sister in law looking for money owed to them for drugs. They said they had no money but they knew where they could get it and sent them to his mother's house . What happened was she came home unexpected and the dealer killed her and then sat down and ate meatballs , she had been preparing for XMAS, the next day....disgusting !!!! BUT the reason why I am telling you this is her mother said ( through this woman) that she was happier in afterlife and would never want to come back here as much as she missed her family, she was very happy in her afterlife and then asked her NOT to say anything to her brother, because he knew and was carrying that terrible burden. Her mother said she didn't want him to know that his sister knew. The brother since then has pulled his life together and has left the wife ( who lives in FL with drug dealers ) Why I told you this story is because I don't believe that afterlife or spirits are really anything to fear. The only time I believe they come to dreams, whatever, is to try to help us through troubled times. Do you have a dog...or cat..?....bring him in with you at night. There truly is nothing to be afraid of and I hope this story didn't scare you, as I found it uplifting. My friend had struggled terribly until this happened and now she is at peace with her mom's death. Let me know how you are doing OK. My daughter went off to work, dreading it a bit but she knows it was anxiety and her therapist agreed it was the heat and the caffeine that triggered the attack ( sensitive nervous system acting up )
This story sounds crazy but it's true. XXXX ! Be Well OK

[sadia]

My anxiety is " up" and will probably stay that way until I get the Art Show out of the way :( but's it's ok. Hopefully you feel a little better by now. I know I have been afraid to go to sleep sometimes too in the past, now not so much. Last week I had those night terrors ( Panic when you are asleep and it wakes you up ( ugh...) But I do know what they are and can pull myself out of them relatively quickly.I have NOT gone to the dentist yet lol..hate it ! You know people dream about what they think about during the course of the day ( many dreams are just our memory bank filing away what we have thought about/ experienced during the day...try to think positive thoughts. Don't be afraid to dream of your Uncle, try to remember what it's about and learn from it. He obviously loved you, given that you lovable soooo... don't be afraid. You are young and will be on this planet for a very long time. I talked to a friend of mine last night about her mother that had been murdered years ago. She was telling me that at one point she worked with this woman but no longer did, anyway the woman called her and as they were talking she said to my friend, get a pen and paper I never told you this before but I am a Medium ( not professional, just happens to her, she channels spirits ) My friend didn't know what to think but listened and the women proceeded to tell her things about her brother and family that no one would know and then told her who had killed her mother and described the killer to her. What was shocking was her brother ( his wife) involved with drugs had been the cause of the murder. The dealers had come to her sister in law looking for money owed to them for drugs. They said they had no money but they knew where they could get it and sent them to his mother's house . What happened was she came home unexpected and the dealer killed her and then sat down and ate meatballs , she had been preparing for XMAS, the next day....disgusting !!!! BUT the reason why I am telling you this is her mother said ( through this woman) that she was happier in afterlife and would never want to come back here as much as she missed her family, she was very happy in her afterlife and then asked her NOT to say anything to her brother, because he knew and was carrying that terrible burden. Her mother said she didn't want him to know that his sister knew. The brother since then has pulled his life together and has left the wife ( who lives in FL with drug dealers ) Why I told you this story is because I don't believe that afterlife or spirits are really anything to fear. The only time I believe they come to dreams, whatever, is to try to help us through troubled times. Do you have a dog...or cat..?....bring him in with you at night. There truly is nothing to be afraid of and I hope this story didn't scare you, as I found it uplifting. My friend had struggled terribly until this happened and now she is at peace with her mom's death. Let me know how you are doing OK. My daughter went off to work, dreading it a bit but she knows it was anxiety and her therapist agreed it was the heat and the caffeine that triggered the attack ( sensitive nervous system acting up )
This story sounds crazy but it's true. XXXX ! Be Well OK

Hey JUDIE, thank you for sharing this story, and no it hasn't scared me... One day before Xmas I can't believe that.. Hope your friend has found some peace now it must have been terrible.. I'm feeling better today finally, I just have to keep reminding myself that I'm always going to have episodes and I have to just get use to them... I'm glad your daughter has gone back to work lol and should stay away from the coffee.. When are you having your art show? So you can relax.. Hope your enjoying the sun out there where having a heat wave as wel, just hate it n the evenings as it stays quite humid lol..

[locksey]

Hey JUDIE, thank you for sharing this story, and no it hasn't scared me... One day before Xmas I can't believe that.. Hope your friend has found some peace now it must have been terrible.. I'm feeling better today finally, I just have to keep reminding myself that I'm always going to have episodes and I have to just get use to them... I'm glad your daughter has gone back to work lol and should stay away from the coffee.. When are you having your art show? So you can relax.. Hope your enjoying the sun out there where having a heat wave as wel, just hate it n the evenings as it stays quite humid lol..

Hi Sadia .... Yeah , I agree with the humidity ov the evenings and u can't sleep ( days are bad enough ) ... Then agen , we complain wen it's cold and complain wen it's nice loooooool...... If it was just Hot then it wud be fine but it's this sticky horrible humid heat that we get that's not nice

[sadia]

Your right locksey we complain a lot lol.. It's nice though we needed bit of a summer.. How was your holiday

[locksey]

Your right locksey we complain a lot lol.. It's nice though we needed bit of a summer.. How was your holiday

Think this is the best summer and longest we've had in sum time ... It's still showing nice for all next wk :-)
29c tomorrow ... Paddling pool day

Just hopes its nice in the 6wks hols ( I wrk in a Skool )

Yeah holiday was hard but good thanx .... :-)

How ru ?

[sadia]

Think this is the best summer and longest we've had in sum time ... It's still showing nice for all next wk :-)
29c tomorrow ... Paddling pool day

Just hopes its nice in the 6wks hols ( I wrk in a Skool )

Yeah holiday was hard but good thanx .... :-)

How ru ?

Hope you had fun on your holiday.. I know I hope it's hot through the holidays.. I've had a few bad days, but feeling better today finally, your right we have not had sun like this in a long time, I hope it lasts a while

[locksey]

Hope you had fun on your holiday.. I know I hope it's hot through the holidays.. I've had a few bad days, but feeling better today finally, your right we have not had sun like this in a long time, I hope it lasts a while

How old are u ?

[sadia]

27.. What about u?

[locksey]

27.. What about u?

38........

[locksey]

27.. What about u?

I'm 38 ....

[sadia]

Cool :) .....

[shelley15]

Sadia, I can really relate to your first post. I'm stuck indoors all the time as I have a phobia of fainting I have PTSD when I gave birth to my son I lost so much blood and needed a blood transfusion and felt faint for about 2 weeks and almost nearly died so now whenever I fell dizzy I think that's it I'm dying so I avoid going out. I'm doing CBT it was helping till a few weeks ago my brother suddenly passed away due to health problems and I'm worse than ever can't breath, crying all the time, tension/pressure in my head, dry eyes, feeling sick the list goes on. I feel like I'm dying every day. Today I think I have cancer and blood poisoning, I google things which make me worse. I went to the drs she put me on citrapram 10mg I haven't even taken them as I can't even go and get them, plus I'm scared to take tablets, whilst at the drs she done my blood pressure which was high it always is when I go to the drs as I don't trust them, got home and worried all day what if my blood pressures high all the time. I feel so bad all the time I can't take my son anywhere and no one really understands me at all, when people say come on let's go out I say no then I get moaned at that I shouldn't stay in all the time, I hate staying in all the time I don't do it because I like it I do it cos I have so much fear. In not the same person anymore, I used to be always out never at home I loved going on holidays and being with my friends and had so much confidence now I'm the opposite!

[sadia]

Sadia, I can really relate to your first post. I'm stuck indoors all the time as I have a phobia of fainting I have PTSD when I gave birth to my son I lost so much blood and needed a blood transfusion and felt faint for about 2 weeks and almost nearly died so now whenever I fell dizzy I think that's it I'm dying so I avoid going out. I'm doing CBT it was helping till a few weeks ago my brother suddenly passed away due to health problems and I'm worse than ever can't breath, crying all the time, tension/pressure in my head, dry eyes, feeling sick the list goes on. I feel like I'm dying every day. Today I think I have cancer and blood poisoning, I google things which make me worse. I went to the drs she put me on citrapram 10mg I haven't even taken them as I can't even go and get them, plus I'm scared to take tablets, whilst at the drs she done my blood pressure which was high it always is when I go to the drs as I don't trust them, got home and worried all day what if my blood pressures high all the time. I feel so bad all the time I can't take my son anywhere and no one really understands me at all, when people say come on let's go out I say no then I get moaned at that I shouldn't stay in all the time, I hate staying in all the time I don't do it because I like it I do it cos I have so much fear. In not the same person anymore, I used to be always out never at home I loved going on holidays and being with my friends and had so much confidence now I'm the opposite!

Omg yh we can totally relate to each other, sorry about your brother I can understand how that can bring everything back for you and set your anxiety off.. I've had days where I've thought I have cancer, brain tumor, brain aneurysm.. The list can go on, I still can leave the house on my own because the fear of dying kicks in, and if I do go to an appointment or something I have someone with me... I'm just like you I've googled every symptom I've ever had and list of diseases come up and makes it worse.. So we shouldn't really do that... Lately my eyes have been feeling really weird especially since the suns out out, it's like there more alert and I focus more, everything just looks bright, that worrys me but I try not t focus on it... And I've had head pressure, like a really heavy feeling in my head, and feeling dizzy, but that's all the anxiety.. We have to try and remember we are not dying, it's just anxiety I know it's really hard but we gotta try and tell ourselves that.. If you ever wanna talk I'm here for you..

[shelley15]

I'm in a right state usually I'm not scared I have cancer but I'm convinced I have cervical cancer, or a infection in my body to give me blood poisoning I'm considering going to the drs but I really don't want to! Same as me my eyes have been so weird lately pains in them and I feel like there focusing in everything and I'm noticing everything and they go blurry. I even went to the opticians and drs about it. I'm so tired all the time my and and legs have been aching and I feel like I can't breath and I will die any second, how can anxiety make you feel so ill I'm convinced I have cancer now! I have to have people go with me everywhere incase I faint, I managed to walk on my own to CBT today which is a 10min walk but was anxious. Thank you I really appreciate it because I feel I can't talk to anyone cos everyone says oh it's your anxiety and they don't have a clue and expect me to be normal how can I feel normal when every pain in my body is something life threatening. How long have you felt like this? What triggered it for you?

[sadia]

I'm in a right state usually I'm not scared I have cancer but I'm convinced I have cervical cancer, or a infection in my body to give me blood poisoning I'm considering going to the drs but I really don't want to! Same as me my eyes have been so weird lately pains in them and I feel like there focusing in everything and I'm noticing everything and they go blurry. I even went to the opticians and drs about it. I'm so tired all the time my and and legs have been aching and I feel like I can't breath and I will die any second, how can anxiety make you feel so ill I'm convinced I have cancer now! I have to have people go with me everywhere incase I faint, I managed to walk on my own to CBT today which is a 10min walk but was anxious. Thank you I really appreciate it because I feel I can't talk to anyone cos everyone says oh it's your anxiety and they don't have a clue and expect me to be normal how can I feel normal when every pain in my body is something life threatening. How long have you felt like this? What triggered it for you?

Well done its great you managed to walk to your CBT today.. All the things that your saying I've felt the same way so I totally understands you.. Erm I've been like this since mid Feb it all started when I got diagnosed with an overactive thyroid (hyperthyroidism) and slight liver inflamation.. Since then it all just escalated panic attacks, feeling that I'm dying,, every pain and ache I get I think I have some sort of disease.. At the beginning in was really hard everyday was a massive struggle.. But slowly the recovery period begins on its own and then u have good days and a few bad days... Friends n this forum have helped me a lot.. So when ever you want to talk don't hesitate

[shelley15]

I've had this for a year and a half but managed to control it but since march I can't seem to control it and have been so bad that I can't leave home, that's why I'm doing CBT, I was so good at CBT today wasent anxious then walking home I was okay but as soon as I get Home it starts again worrying over stupid things, like the veins in my hands are aching and tingling so I'm thinking blood poisening, then the cervical cancer is because sometimes when I go to toilet there is more discharge than usual (sorry for to much info lol) and I have a slight pain in my tummy, its never ending! I feel like talking to other people who understand what I'm going through will make me better. What techniques have you tried that are helping you?

[locksey]

I've had this for a year and a half but managed to control it but since march I can't seem to control it and have been so bad that I can't leave home, that's why I'm doing CBT, I was so good at CBT today wasent anxious then walking home I was okay but as soon as I get Home it starts again worrying over stupid things, like the veins in my hands are aching and tingling so I'm thinking blood poisening, then the cervical cancer is because sometimes when I go to toilet there is more discharge than usual (sorry for to much info lol) and I have a slight pain in my tummy, its never ending! I feel like talking to other people who understand what I'm going through will make me better. What techniques have you tried that are helping you?

Hi, how do u find CBT ?

What do they get u to do ?

[shelley15]

My doctor told me about it and they gave me the number to ring, you can just ring up without telling your drs though then you do a questionnaire over the phone and then they book you am appointment.

They tech you relaxation and give you self help books. They re train your brain and tech you how to break the cycle of panic and being anxious. But because I hate going out of my house she tells me to stand at my front door for 10 mins then the next day 20mins and then after a few days go a bit further and tells you not to run from situations like if you was in a shop and panicked she says not to run out the shop which I find really hard, its worth going I would recommend it but it takes time and you need to stick at it. I have 2 sessions left you have about 12 all together. It's not a cure but it helps you to deal with situations better.

[locksey]

My doctor told me about it and they gave me the number to ring, you can just ring up without telling your drs though then you do a questionnaire over the phone and then they book you am appointment.

They tech you relaxation and give you self help books. They re train your brain and tech you how to break the cycle of panic and being anxious. But because I hate going out of my house she tells me to stand at my front door for 10 mins then the next day 20mins and then after a few days go a bit further and tells you not to run from situations like if you was in a shop and panicked she says not to run out the shop which I find really hard, its worth going I would recommend it but it takes time and you need to stick at it. I have 2 sessions left you have about 12 all together. It's not a cure but it helps you to deal with situations better.

Ok ... Thanx ...

[sadia]

I've had this for a year and a half but managed to control it but since march I can't seem to control it and have been so bad that I can't leave home, that's why I'm doing CBT, I was so good at CBT today wasent anxious then walking home I was okay but as soon as I get Home it starts again worrying over stupid things, like the veins in my hands are aching and tingling so I'm thinking blood poisening, then the cervical cancer is because sometimes when I go to toilet there is more discharge than usual (sorry for to much info lol) and I have a slight pain in my tummy, its never ending! I feel like talking to other people who understand what I'm going through will make me better. What techniques have you tried that are helping you?

A friend on this forum introduced an app on how to relax I downloaded that and listened at night to relax my body.. Reading books.. And I tell my family everything that I'm feeling so that way it's off my chest, because if I don't say anything it just makes my thinking worse... I've been through what u have, like u had a thing about your veins, I tend to look at the colour of my nails and I always think they look different and that makes me panic... But I have to say I have made a few god friends on her who have helped

[sadia]

Hi JUDIE, haven't spoke to you in a few days, hope all is well with you.. X

[shelley15]

A friend on this forum introduced an app on how to relax I downloaded that and listened at night to relax my body.. Reading books.. And I tell my family everything that I'm feeling so that way it's off my chest, because if I don't say anything it just makes my thinking worse... I've been through what u have, like u had a thing about your veins, I tend to look at the colour of my nails and I always think they look different and that makes me panic... But I have to say I have made a few god friends on her who have helped

I've been reading books so my minds focused on something else it helps a little bit. I try to tell my family everything but they don't listen half the time makes me upset and worse. I have to have paint on my nails so I can't see my fingernails cos otherwise I stare at them thinking there going blue. I keep checking my veins thinking was that vein there before. I keep getting random rashes on my arms, and thinking that's a sign I'm ill. It like every pain on my body I need to no why its in pain. The pains in my arms and legs are properly muscle pain but its hard for me to believe it I get thoughts that what if its not and all the pains in my body are something serious and all linked together, how can anxiety make you feel so ill I hate it so much, I feel like I need to escape my body but I can't. I'm 24 and I feel like I'm really old waiting to die its such a hard cycle to get out of, if the pains stopped I wouldn't be so anxious!

[sadia]

Trust Me I know exactly what you man, I have the same phobia with the nails I keep constantly looking at my toes thinking they've gone purple, I have aches and pains every where, every few days my neck and shoulder seem to tense up and that worries me.. I'm only 27 and feel as if I've aged years.. This is a very hard cycle

[shelley15]

Trust Me I know exactly what you man, I have the same phobia with the nails I keep constantly looking at my toes thinking they've gone purple, I have aches and pains every where, every few days my neck and shoulder seem to tense up and that worries me.. I'm only 27 and feel as if I've aged years.. This is a very hard cycle

Thank you so much its such a relief to no I'm not the only one who thinks like this, I've never really spoke to anyone before that worries about there health and is stuck inside everyday. I've calmed down since earlier, I keep telling myself my pains are anxiety. I feel a whole lot better that your understanding me.

[sadia]

Your welcome hun.. I totally understand, I'm going through al the same as you.. I felt better when I started telling people how i feel.. People on this forum helped me a lot.. So don't feel like your alone in this because your not.

[locksey]

Thank you so much its such a relief to no I'm not the only one who thinks like this, I've never really spoke to anyone before that worries about there health and is stuck inside everyday. I've calmed down since earlier, I keep telling myself my pains are anxiety. I feel a whole lot better that your understanding me.

I understand aswel ..... And yeah , it's horrible wen pple " don't get u " ... They say they understand but they don't really .... I stress about my health aswel and if I get a pin or sumink somewhere my mind does overtime .... I use to stay indoors sum years back as was frightened to go outside...

[sadia]

I understand aswel ..... And yeah , it's horrible wen pple " don't get u " ... They say they understand but they don't really .... I stress about my health aswel and if I get a pin or sumink somewhere my mind does overtime .... I use to stay indoors sum years back as was frightened to go outside...

How did you start going out? Because I want to but cant

[locksey]

How did you start going out? Because I want to but cant

Just gradually , my friend I live with would make me go in her car with her just to local shop or just 4a ride but my main thing that turned me around was.... I had a dream which was very real and scared me sooooo much
I'm not sure of yr beliefs but I sed to God " u say you don't give us more than we can cope with and I can't take anymore , if you make me better I will get up at the front ov church and give a testimony "

[sadia]

I believe in god I knw he will get me through this.. My sister takes me to the shop in her car, which makes me want to go out on my own to see my friends but when I think about that something holds me back.. I guess I have to work on that

[shelley15]

At CBT we write up a weekly plan of what I will try to achieve for the week, like going for a 5 min walk and back then a couple if days later make it 10mins and then reward yourself if you've achieved it, if you ran back inside calm down and try again. I managed to go to the town Center 10 min walk from my house on my own and go in a shop stood in there looking around for 10 mins then brought loads of stuff as a reward. I haven't been doing that well the last few weeks tho.

[locksey]

I believe in god I knw he will get me through this.. My sister takes me to the shop in her car, which makes me want to go out on my own to see my friends but when I think about that something holds me back.. I guess I have to work on that

Shame I don't live closer as I'd come 4u ;-)

[sadia]

At CBT we write up a weekly plan of what I will try to achieve for the week, like going for a 5 min walk and back then a couple if days later make it 10mins and then reward yourself if you've achieved it, if you ran back inside calm down and try again. I managed to go to the town Center 10 min walk from my house on my own and go in a shop stood in there looking around for 10 mins then brought loads of stuff as a reward. I haven't been doing that well the last few weeks tho.

I do like the idea of that, it's just getting out of the door and trying not to panic and turn back round thats what worries me.. But I have to give it a go at some point I suppose..

[sadia]

Shame I don't live closer as I'd come 4u ;-)

Yeah I know :)

[shelley15]

I do like the idea of that, it's just getting out of the door and trying not to panic and turn back round thats what worries me.. But I have to give it a go at some point I suppose..

Yep I'm the same soon as I no I need to leave I get really anxious and panic but if you do little steps every week it gets easier but its so rewarding when you come home with things from a shop I get really happy and can't stop smiling that I managed to go in a shop and buy things, I usually buy everything online I hate shops and queuing is the worst.

[sadia]

Yep I'm the same soon as I no I need to leave I get really anxious and panic but if you do little steps every week it gets easier but its so rewarding when you come home with things from a shop I get really happy and can't stop smiling that I managed to go in a shop and buy things, I usually buy everything online I hate shops and queuing is the worst.

I know I'm going to have to give it a go I'm missing out on this lovely weather

[vic]

I struggle at times wen I'm bad at going out but as I've 3 children and my hubby works and I've no one else to take kids I have to a bonus I drive tho but I put my sunglasses on ;) my little safe haven so I feel as tho no one can look at me nd knw if my eyes look panicky and that makes me feel not as nervous then

[sadia]

I struggle at times wen I'm bad at going out but as I've 3 children and my hubby works and I've no one else to take kids I have to a bonus I drive tho but I put my sunglasses on ;) my little safe haven so I feel as tho no one can look at me nd knw if my eyes look panicky and that makes me feel not as nervous then

Yh sunglasses is a good ideas people always sense when I'm on edge through my eyes and I get fidgety lol

[vic]

I'm same cuz I usually have sparkly eyes but they seem to go dull and pupils go big too in fidgety also it's a crappy illness that we need to change our thinking to ease and control. My mum had very bad agoraphobia for 20 yrs my dad had to take uz sch and do shopping ect but wen my mum turned 50 she met a knew mad moved from Blackburn lancs to Yorkshire which is about 60 odd miles away she goes out all the time now so it goes to show it can be done my mums only down fall was that she wished she wud have done it yrs ago gud luck ;)

[sadia]

I'm same cuz I usually have sparkly eyes but they seem to go dull and pupils go big too in fidgety also it's a crappy illness that we need to change our thinking to ease and control. My mum had very bad agoraphobia for 20 yrs my dad had to take uz sch and do shopping ect but wen my mum turned 50 she met a knew mad moved from Blackburn lancs to Yorkshire which is about 60 odd miles away she goes out all the time now so it goes to show it can be done my mums only down fall was that she wished she wud have done it yrs ago gud luck ;)

Wow 20 years is a long time, well done to your mum for finally making a change she must be so happy that she can get out and about now.. I agree it's totally about the way we think, and changing it is tough but we have to try..

[sadia]

Just had a routine doctors appointment to get my prescriptions and stuff, and my sister walked me there but I managed to walk all the way home on my own, first time in 4 months I've done anything on my own.. Even though its was a 5 min walk I still managed,, thoughts of death popped in my head that I'm on my own I'm gonna die but I tried my hardest to ignore it and made it home.. :)

[shelley15]

Just had a routine doctors appointment to get my prescriptions and stuff, and my sister walked me there but I managed to walk all the way home on my own, first time in 4 months I've done anything on my own.. Even though its was a 5 min walk I still managed,, thoughts of death popped in my head that I'm on my own I'm gonna die but I tried my hardest to ignore it and made it home.. :)

Wow well done that is such a big step to take, I no what you mean when I walk somewhere I get thoughts that I'm going to faint and die any minute. You should reward yourself buy something online. Also write it down that you walked on your own, look at it every time you leave the house. So pleased for you. I've been scaring myself so much these past few days that I have cancer that today I feel so sick, even tho I no I feel sick where I'm anxious I keep getting thoughts that I feel sick cos I have cancer such a horrible cycle.

[sadia]

Aww thanks yeah I now I can't believe I did that because usually I can't get passed my gate without feeling weak... I miss the outside world so much.. I know that sick feeling. At times I've actually threw up and felt better afterwards.. So if your going to be sick don't hold it in let it out if you have to you will feel better afterwards, and like I've been told cancer symptoms don't come on that quick, it's our mind playing tricks with us

[shelley15]

See if I was to be sick then I would think I was seriously ill. I think its just stress I feel sick more when I'm stressed aswell. Wish my brain would stop thinking about illnesses! Do you find that a 5 min walk feels like it takes hours? I do, just thinking about going to the corner shop makes me think like its miles away.

[sadia]

Yh it felt like ages, but I felt like I was rushing myself in a hurry to get home.. And I've noticed since this anxiety kicked it I'm much more alert to what's going in every little sound and everything... I know some days my brain won't stop thinking and then I have to google my symptoms and make it worse.. It's just a horrible cycle

[locksey]

Aww thanks yeah I now I can't believe I did that because usually I can't get passed my gate without feeling weak... I miss the outside world so much.. I know that sick feeling. At times I've actually threw up and felt better afterwards.. So if your going to be sick don't hold it in let it out if you have to you will feel better afterwards, and like I've been told cancer symptoms don't come on that quick, it's our mind playing tricks with us

Well done :-)

[sadia]

Well done :-)

Thank you :)

[Judie]

Just had a routine doctors appointment to get my prescriptions and stuff, and my sister walked me there but I managed to walk all the way home on my own, first time in 4 months I've done anything on my own.. Even though its was a 5 min walk I still managed,, thoughts of death popped in my head that I'm on my own I'm gonna die but I tried my hardest to ignore it and made it home.. :)
Sadia, That's amazing !!! Good for you !

[sadia]

Thanks JUDIE I was pleased.. How have u been its been a little while since we spoke.. Have u heard from Lin she's been quiet for a few days

[locksey]

Thank you :)

Lin has been doin quite gd .... Been quite upbeat last few days with some positives :-)
( she keeps in touch )

[sadia]

Aww that's really good was getting worried.. Thanks for letting me know x

[sadia]

I've been having this weird feelin in my nostrils especially left one since the last few hours.. It's like burping through your nose after drinking something carbonated, it's like fizzy feeling in nostril almost burning making me over think

[sadia]

And I've got slightly same feeling in left side of head

[shelley15]

I totally understand what you mean, I've been getting like pressure in the right side of my nose like I'm going to have a nose bleed, and I get weird feelings in my nose if I've been feeling lightheaded and dizzy, it could be the heat I guess and your focusing on it more and more. I'm still worrying about the pain in my arms and hands. It's so hard when all you can focus on is your body and think its something to worry about. Just got to keep saying to yourself it will pass I no how hard it is x

[sadia]

I know your right, its just hard because when I think I'm getting better something new happens and takes me of track again.. I hate it

[shelley15]

I feel exactly the same, you get over one thing then think your getting better then you focus on another pain.. We will get there

[sadia]

Its a never ending cycle but we have to beat it.. I've got into an awful habbit of googling everything which is really bad.. Hope ur doing better today..