downstairsdoors
02-17-2012, 03:09 PM
Hi everyone, and thanks for supplying this forum for help! I have a pretty big problem to share in hopes that someone can help. I know not everyone has the time to read through other people's lives, but it is worth a shot, and thanks in advance to anyone who cares to help! I will try to make this as short and to the point as possible.
I almost fainted last week and I do not know why. My whole reality seemed changed. I fainted when I was 12 and remember exactly how it felt, and I was able to gain control of myself and not feed into it so I actually did NOT faint but my entire day was wrecked with tinnitus, and strange sensations throughout my body. My hands felt cold, I felt very light weight, etc.
Now, I have a huge story but I won't tell it it is way too long...my life has been ripe with anxiety since I was a kid, all of which I have beaten and I am a very happy 25 yr old man, I don't mean to sound egotistical but my life has been incredible, and I feel incredible every day since beating major disorders such as depersonalization, intrusive thoughts, racing thoughts, social anxiety, panic and anxiety attack disorders, etc. I have seen hell and am proud to share my stories, knowing today I am stronger than ever for beating my problems through exercise, healthing lifestyle, hope, love and faith.
I have never been so confused in my life, however. I have been having days where I am not given a SECOND of feeling "good" in the day. I always feel on the brink of a physical condition such as fainting. I do not have anxieties running through my head, in fact I can sit and not think of anything at all, but my body and reality feel completely off. I have been treated for allergies and ruled out the symptoms as my allergy symptoms have faded. I am not allergic to any foods.
This has been on and off but I am here today because today has been one of the worst days of my life. I went through an entire day of work feeling completely not myself. Tinnitus in the ears comes and goes, and gets very loud if I give it a second of thought. I am scared easy but control the feeling, loud noises irritate me, people irritate me. I feel as though I am 13 years old again, but when I speak and act around people I am completely myself. I feel lightweight and unstable. I feel like I have no focus or concentration, and that at any moment I could lose my mind or slip into nothingness, fainting or death. When I listen to music or try to feel good feelings I am not connecting as much as I would like, I am just feeling so uncomfortable. During any heightened enjoyment (ejactulation for example), I feel good but the reality never changes. I can never escape the feeling.
It goes away, again. Some days I don't feel this way but other days I do. So far this is only the third time I have felt this terrible sense of reality.
I know this doesn't give a huge amount of detail but what I'd like to know is if anyone thinks this is anxiety or not. I don't even focus on myself, I don't think alot, don't have racing thoughts or anything, my mind feels relaxed, almost burned out and doesn't even care to worry. But my whole reality again is destroyed. No unusla physical symptoms other than this lightweightedness and feeling of coldness sometimes, cold sweaty hands as well at times, weakness in the legs.
Thanks for any help!
I almost fainted last week and I do not know why. My whole reality seemed changed. I fainted when I was 12 and remember exactly how it felt, and I was able to gain control of myself and not feed into it so I actually did NOT faint but my entire day was wrecked with tinnitus, and strange sensations throughout my body. My hands felt cold, I felt very light weight, etc.
Now, I have a huge story but I won't tell it it is way too long...my life has been ripe with anxiety since I was a kid, all of which I have beaten and I am a very happy 25 yr old man, I don't mean to sound egotistical but my life has been incredible, and I feel incredible every day since beating major disorders such as depersonalization, intrusive thoughts, racing thoughts, social anxiety, panic and anxiety attack disorders, etc. I have seen hell and am proud to share my stories, knowing today I am stronger than ever for beating my problems through exercise, healthing lifestyle, hope, love and faith.
I have never been so confused in my life, however. I have been having days where I am not given a SECOND of feeling "good" in the day. I always feel on the brink of a physical condition such as fainting. I do not have anxieties running through my head, in fact I can sit and not think of anything at all, but my body and reality feel completely off. I have been treated for allergies and ruled out the symptoms as my allergy symptoms have faded. I am not allergic to any foods.
This has been on and off but I am here today because today has been one of the worst days of my life. I went through an entire day of work feeling completely not myself. Tinnitus in the ears comes and goes, and gets very loud if I give it a second of thought. I am scared easy but control the feeling, loud noises irritate me, people irritate me. I feel as though I am 13 years old again, but when I speak and act around people I am completely myself. I feel lightweight and unstable. I feel like I have no focus or concentration, and that at any moment I could lose my mind or slip into nothingness, fainting or death. When I listen to music or try to feel good feelings I am not connecting as much as I would like, I am just feeling so uncomfortable. During any heightened enjoyment (ejactulation for example), I feel good but the reality never changes. I can never escape the feeling.
It goes away, again. Some days I don't feel this way but other days I do. So far this is only the third time I have felt this terrible sense of reality.
I know this doesn't give a huge amount of detail but what I'd like to know is if anyone thinks this is anxiety or not. I don't even focus on myself, I don't think alot, don't have racing thoughts or anything, my mind feels relaxed, almost burned out and doesn't even care to worry. But my whole reality again is destroyed. No unusla physical symptoms other than this lightweightedness and feeling of coldness sometimes, cold sweaty hands as well at times, weakness in the legs.
Thanks for any help!