JaneDoe :D
02-01-2012, 09:57 AM
Hi, I am new here and still learning the ropes of this whole anxiety mess since I only just realized I had a problem with anxiety and not actually on death's door everyday ;)
I am quite addlebrained right now due to the sedation so I will start from the beginning and am hoping I am not alone.
I am a 36 yo mom of three, divorced and poor, etc. etc. Stresses over the past couple of years have been causing me chest, leg, and arm pain and what I believed to be a heart problem, since I do have a history of heart disease. After following up with my cardiologist and pcp, nuclear stress tests, ekg, ultrasound, etc., it was determined that my ticker is okay (not perfect but totally functional), and that my arteries in my legs and neck are 40% blocked (prob due to smoking for over 10 years since I am physically fit and have perfect cholesterol). In any case, finding this all out about a year ago just threw me into constant pains. My chest hurt on both sides, my legs, my arms, heart palpitations, etc., and I started to have full blown, hands shaking, teeth chattering anxiety attacks. Now, since I am very familiar with panic disorder (my brother), I convinced myself it was psychological and used prayer, proper breathing, going out of the house, and time with my kids to control the anxiety attacks, which were happening maybe 2-4 times a month. I was actually managing quite well (even though I was still not enjoying life because I feared air molecules, at that point). Last weekend, I started an attack on Saturday morning and nearly had a nervous breakdown from the severity and duration (it never went away). Finally, on Monday morning, with my hands shaking and voice breaking from choking back tears (can't control emotions well anymore), I told my doctor that I needed help. He prescribed me Klonopin (I have the generic kind), .5 mg every 12 hours. I took my first dose at 12 noon on monday and I felt like I belonged in the land of the living again. I was slightly goofy and sedated but calm, awake, and for the first time in years, felt NO FEAR about anything...I was always paralyzed by fear of everything, but the worst was that I or one my loved ones would inexplicably die in our sleep.
Yesterday morning I took my second dose at 8:30 am and again, had a wonderful, calm day...if not a little sedated (which I hate). Last night at around 8:45, I took my second dose and went to bed at 11:30 happy (if not a bit sedated). This morning, I took my dose at 8:30 am again and holy zombie batman! I could barely walk straight and had an extreme urge to lie down and just sleep. I felt way, way, way too sedated. I slept for about 30 minutes and woke up on my own from a vivid dream. The dream part was nice because I haven't been able to remember if I even had dreams for the past 8 months--and I used to be an awesome dreamer--I actually used to look forward to them.
Anyway, after my longwinded rambling, I guess my question is this: Is it possible to feel super after the first couple of doses of an obviously much needed drug (I love it--no side effects other than manageable sedation),but then experience too much sedation on day 3? I posit that, becaause I was such a massive wreck of anxiety when I started, the first couple of doses brought me down to normal. Maybe, however, once I instantly felt better after 2 days, now i don't need so much anymore? I don't know what to do. I want to halve the pills and go down to .25 but I heard that one shouldn't be messing with dosage of this stuff without asking doctor. But I don't want to bother my doctor if this might be a common reaction.
The only pertinent information I can offer other than above, is that I traditionally get very little sleep at night. I usually wouldn't go to sleep until at least 1 am and alwasy have to get up at 6:15 for my kids. My youngest one has been really sick with flu, so I got even less sleep than normal all last week and weekend (I slept with her a lot becaude I was afraid she would die in her sleep...it's embarrassing how irrational I know I was). In any case, last night, I was out by 11:30 and slept like a log. Whenever I get more sleep than normal, I am usually groggier the next morning. This mornng I was very groggy...then topped it with my morning dose of klonopin (generic)...could this have been what makes me feel like a zombie today?
Finally, and I am sooo sorry for my longwindedness but I suck at brevity, I am able to type ths and go on the computer and talk to my dad on the phone, etc. So it's not an OD, right? I know it's not but I have to ask...If I didn't, I probably wouldn't be needing this med, right? ;)
Thanks so much in advance for input, advice, and patience with my rambling :)
I am quite addlebrained right now due to the sedation so I will start from the beginning and am hoping I am not alone.
I am a 36 yo mom of three, divorced and poor, etc. etc. Stresses over the past couple of years have been causing me chest, leg, and arm pain and what I believed to be a heart problem, since I do have a history of heart disease. After following up with my cardiologist and pcp, nuclear stress tests, ekg, ultrasound, etc., it was determined that my ticker is okay (not perfect but totally functional), and that my arteries in my legs and neck are 40% blocked (prob due to smoking for over 10 years since I am physically fit and have perfect cholesterol). In any case, finding this all out about a year ago just threw me into constant pains. My chest hurt on both sides, my legs, my arms, heart palpitations, etc., and I started to have full blown, hands shaking, teeth chattering anxiety attacks. Now, since I am very familiar with panic disorder (my brother), I convinced myself it was psychological and used prayer, proper breathing, going out of the house, and time with my kids to control the anxiety attacks, which were happening maybe 2-4 times a month. I was actually managing quite well (even though I was still not enjoying life because I feared air molecules, at that point). Last weekend, I started an attack on Saturday morning and nearly had a nervous breakdown from the severity and duration (it never went away). Finally, on Monday morning, with my hands shaking and voice breaking from choking back tears (can't control emotions well anymore), I told my doctor that I needed help. He prescribed me Klonopin (I have the generic kind), .5 mg every 12 hours. I took my first dose at 12 noon on monday and I felt like I belonged in the land of the living again. I was slightly goofy and sedated but calm, awake, and for the first time in years, felt NO FEAR about anything...I was always paralyzed by fear of everything, but the worst was that I or one my loved ones would inexplicably die in our sleep.
Yesterday morning I took my second dose at 8:30 am and again, had a wonderful, calm day...if not a little sedated (which I hate). Last night at around 8:45, I took my second dose and went to bed at 11:30 happy (if not a bit sedated). This morning, I took my dose at 8:30 am again and holy zombie batman! I could barely walk straight and had an extreme urge to lie down and just sleep. I felt way, way, way too sedated. I slept for about 30 minutes and woke up on my own from a vivid dream. The dream part was nice because I haven't been able to remember if I even had dreams for the past 8 months--and I used to be an awesome dreamer--I actually used to look forward to them.
Anyway, after my longwinded rambling, I guess my question is this: Is it possible to feel super after the first couple of doses of an obviously much needed drug (I love it--no side effects other than manageable sedation),but then experience too much sedation on day 3? I posit that, becaause I was such a massive wreck of anxiety when I started, the first couple of doses brought me down to normal. Maybe, however, once I instantly felt better after 2 days, now i don't need so much anymore? I don't know what to do. I want to halve the pills and go down to .25 but I heard that one shouldn't be messing with dosage of this stuff without asking doctor. But I don't want to bother my doctor if this might be a common reaction.
The only pertinent information I can offer other than above, is that I traditionally get very little sleep at night. I usually wouldn't go to sleep until at least 1 am and alwasy have to get up at 6:15 for my kids. My youngest one has been really sick with flu, so I got even less sleep than normal all last week and weekend (I slept with her a lot becaude I was afraid she would die in her sleep...it's embarrassing how irrational I know I was). In any case, last night, I was out by 11:30 and slept like a log. Whenever I get more sleep than normal, I am usually groggier the next morning. This mornng I was very groggy...then topped it with my morning dose of klonopin (generic)...could this have been what makes me feel like a zombie today?
Finally, and I am sooo sorry for my longwindedness but I suck at brevity, I am able to type ths and go on the computer and talk to my dad on the phone, etc. So it's not an OD, right? I know it's not but I have to ask...If I didn't, I probably wouldn't be needing this med, right? ;)
Thanks so much in advance for input, advice, and patience with my rambling :)