Kaiya
11-29-2006, 03:38 PM
Hey, erm I'm Kaiya and I am 18 years old.
I have never really considered my anxiety too bad untill very recently. I have PTSD, but anxiety other then that has generally been okay...untill within the last year. I worry about everything constantly to the point it ruins my relationships, my friendships and makes it real hard for me to keep down a Job. Whilst I am okay in social situations, although really quite shy, situations such as a work where i have to do something right i find so hard. Dealing with people is so hard. I am in a constant fear of doing something wrong, I need reasureing in everything I do constantly....I cant confront people, I cant phone people.
recently I have been having panic attacks over simple things. Today I had a huge one at work becuase I was in trouble for getting my mum to phone in sick for me. The reason my mum rang in for me and not myself was becuase I was panicing terribly to the point of hyperventaltion over the concept of having to phone into work. I had to be sent home where it was safe.
I feel crazy. I feel like noone understands, everyone just says don't worry and just chill out and toughen up. I can't do that though, I can't calm down when i get in those states and I just cant stop obsessively worrying about everything in its worse case scenarios.
I am sure this sounds pretty mild for some people but its starting to effect my life. Im not sleeping properly. I cant bare to go to work. I am going to loose my job and then ill have nowhere to live..and i just cant stop it.
I guess I am hopeing someone can understand :-(
I have never really considered my anxiety too bad untill very recently. I have PTSD, but anxiety other then that has generally been okay...untill within the last year. I worry about everything constantly to the point it ruins my relationships, my friendships and makes it real hard for me to keep down a Job. Whilst I am okay in social situations, although really quite shy, situations such as a work where i have to do something right i find so hard. Dealing with people is so hard. I am in a constant fear of doing something wrong, I need reasureing in everything I do constantly....I cant confront people, I cant phone people.
recently I have been having panic attacks over simple things. Today I had a huge one at work becuase I was in trouble for getting my mum to phone in sick for me. The reason my mum rang in for me and not myself was becuase I was panicing terribly to the point of hyperventaltion over the concept of having to phone into work. I had to be sent home where it was safe.
I feel crazy. I feel like noone understands, everyone just says don't worry and just chill out and toughen up. I can't do that though, I can't calm down when i get in those states and I just cant stop obsessively worrying about everything in its worse case scenarios.
I am sure this sounds pretty mild for some people but its starting to effect my life. Im not sleeping properly. I cant bare to go to work. I am going to loose my job and then ill have nowhere to live..and i just cant stop it.
I guess I am hopeing someone can understand :-(