Taylor
09-01-2011, 04:03 PM
Ugh...I just got out of my monthly review with my manager and I'm doing well at this new job (7 months in), pretty well in fact and I got pretty glowing reviews. But as they were coming, I felt this sort of elated feeling in my chest, which I think we all get at extreme happiness, but my anxiety quickly poisoned that. I started to feel like it was more an uncomfortable than happy feeling, and then I worried that I was just too happy and that I'd have a panic/anxiety attack. (Last week I had gotten some great news on my leukemia results and it actually sent me into a panic attack).
Then I got back to my desk and another person who I had worked on a project with was really praising me and it almost made it worse, because I think he was going to contact my supervisor to tell her how pleased he was.
I hate that even a little bit of anxiety can rob a happy moment.
I have some breathing apps on my iPhone, and I've been doing TEA forms, and they have really helped me tremendously in the last week alone. So the real anxiety is at bay, there's just a little "what if I get worked up" in the back of my head.
Do you all find that even positive things can work you into anxiety?
Then I got back to my desk and another person who I had worked on a project with was really praising me and it almost made it worse, because I think he was going to contact my supervisor to tell her how pleased he was.
I hate that even a little bit of anxiety can rob a happy moment.
I have some breathing apps on my iPhone, and I've been doing TEA forms, and they have really helped me tremendously in the last week alone. So the real anxiety is at bay, there's just a little "what if I get worked up" in the back of my head.
Do you all find that even positive things can work you into anxiety?