wakyme
07-31-2011, 07:51 AM
Hey y'all.
About a year ago I stopped using drugs (ketamine and mephedrone) and my mind began racing uncontrollably, I felt like I was going nuts. I was quite young at the time and began thinking that many of my thoughts were not my own, that whatever I think might not be true because there's always a counterargument so how do we know what's true and real if everything's just an opinion or a probability... It all got a bit too much as I began obsessing over this and over a period of three days my mind just went completely blank - no thoughts, no concepts, no pictures, nothing. I don't know how I talk to people in all honesty, it just feels like I'm reciting a bunch of templates.
When I described this to my stepmum, she compared my state to one of constant panic. She was at work one time and had to deal with an overwhelmingly difficult situation so much so that she tensed up completely and could no longer think.
Has anyone else experienced anything similar? I've been in this state of non-thought for over a year now...
About a year ago I stopped using drugs (ketamine and mephedrone) and my mind began racing uncontrollably, I felt like I was going nuts. I was quite young at the time and began thinking that many of my thoughts were not my own, that whatever I think might not be true because there's always a counterargument so how do we know what's true and real if everything's just an opinion or a probability... It all got a bit too much as I began obsessing over this and over a period of three days my mind just went completely blank - no thoughts, no concepts, no pictures, nothing. I don't know how I talk to people in all honesty, it just feels like I'm reciting a bunch of templates.
When I described this to my stepmum, she compared my state to one of constant panic. She was at work one time and had to deal with an overwhelmingly difficult situation so much so that she tensed up completely and could no longer think.
Has anyone else experienced anything similar? I've been in this state of non-thought for over a year now...