Eric37865
10-27-2010, 01:36 PM
I didnt leave the house! ok so it beat me. Im new to the forum, ive had bad anxiety for the past 2 years after being diagnosed with lupus, 28 M. For about 2 years now ive been scared to death of things that i never thought of b4. My main problem is social anxiety.. I dont like being around large groups of people, but yet i dont like being alone either.. i prefer just a small set of people. It has become debilitating, i get attacks in my home thinking about going out into public. I go to the store late at night when there wont be many people there. I get nervous around people and its completely irrational. Im not mentally scared of people or public places, but yet my body is reacting in such a way that i am.
My other bad anxiety problem is fear of death and dying, im constantly thinking about it and im scared to death, i feel like i have whatever it is i think i might have. I had to take a aids test and knew i had aids.. i didnt. I kept having some kind of heart attack, ekg normal. I think i have brain hemorages, i dont. If you can think of it, im pretty sure i have it... ive never been this way for 26 years of my life, and bam it just showed up 2 years ago.
I dont have any post traumatic stress syndrome, i wasnt molested as a kid, never had anything bad really happen to me. It all started not long after i got diagnosed with lupus. Im in good shape physically though 6 2" 185 lbs... dont smoke or drink cept for maybe 5-10 beers per year. Ive just went crazy this last year as it is all weighing down on me so much, regular activities are difficult for me and i avoid all outing or leaving that i can. i have a work that is almost home based now so i dont have to leave much.. I have a 9 month old son with my wife of many year but they dont stress me at all and my son sleeps good at night so its not that.
I dont sleep at all, i have to be up about 18 hours per day to fall asleep, so im never on a sleep pattern... Ive taken a few drugs different benzos, Clonopan (spelling) was for the longest.. just felt sleepy, helped some. I am now starting afobazol and am in my first week so ill let you know how well it works.
My other bad anxiety problem is fear of death and dying, im constantly thinking about it and im scared to death, i feel like i have whatever it is i think i might have. I had to take a aids test and knew i had aids.. i didnt. I kept having some kind of heart attack, ekg normal. I think i have brain hemorages, i dont. If you can think of it, im pretty sure i have it... ive never been this way for 26 years of my life, and bam it just showed up 2 years ago.
I dont have any post traumatic stress syndrome, i wasnt molested as a kid, never had anything bad really happen to me. It all started not long after i got diagnosed with lupus. Im in good shape physically though 6 2" 185 lbs... dont smoke or drink cept for maybe 5-10 beers per year. Ive just went crazy this last year as it is all weighing down on me so much, regular activities are difficult for me and i avoid all outing or leaving that i can. i have a work that is almost home based now so i dont have to leave much.. I have a 9 month old son with my wife of many year but they dont stress me at all and my son sleeps good at night so its not that.
I dont sleep at all, i have to be up about 18 hours per day to fall asleep, so im never on a sleep pattern... Ive taken a few drugs different benzos, Clonopan (spelling) was for the longest.. just felt sleepy, helped some. I am now starting afobazol and am in my first week so ill let you know how well it works.