Varjo
10-11-2010, 01:47 PM
Here's how my days these days go, I wake up feeling firstly tired and not that focused on my anxiety. Then I get up and start feeling anxious (because of course it's the first thing I start to think about) I get ready and go to school and usually cope really well there (at the beggining of my anxiety some months ago I couldn't even go to school and was in constant panic if I did, and now I feel perfectly fine being at school) though I constantly feel a bit on edge because of the anxiety, I can focus mostly quite well but as soon as I am not directly focusing on something my anxiety gets back (its the idea of the anxiety that scares me) but it's gotten better.
However here's the weird part, eventhough I have anxiety thoughout the day it always get a lot more intense at anywhere around 5-8pm, everyday. It usually starts around 6 or 7 pm that I start to feel really scared and disconnected and usually break down crying or then wind up in a panic attack. Then at 9pm and onwards, usually almost all the symtoms of my anxiety disappear all of the sudden. Then I usually feel quite calm until I go to sleep, then in the morning I wake up and it's back again. During those moments of panic, I think my life is ruined and feel like I should commit suicide etc. But once the panic wears out I'm just left wondering what I was thinking, and why I would feel that way? It's not me at all to feel that way.
Anyone else notices patterns in their anxiety deppending on the time of the day?
However here's the weird part, eventhough I have anxiety thoughout the day it always get a lot more intense at anywhere around 5-8pm, everyday. It usually starts around 6 or 7 pm that I start to feel really scared and disconnected and usually break down crying or then wind up in a panic attack. Then at 9pm and onwards, usually almost all the symtoms of my anxiety disappear all of the sudden. Then I usually feel quite calm until I go to sleep, then in the morning I wake up and it's back again. During those moments of panic, I think my life is ruined and feel like I should commit suicide etc. But once the panic wears out I'm just left wondering what I was thinking, and why I would feel that way? It's not me at all to feel that way.
Anyone else notices patterns in their anxiety deppending on the time of the day?