New here and full of anxiety

[joesph]

Hi,
I am 34 years old and have spent almost all of my life worring, Mostly about dying, I have many fears, I have lived with my anxiety for several years, things started to get out of control when I was 26, I had a high pressure jobs where I was a director in the company, living with my fiance and everything started to fall apart I took leave from my office job due to stress went on vaction, quit smoking started at the gym etc. things got much better, however it seems that I keep falling in to this cycle of anxiety and worring usally about health, as I write this I am waiting to see a doctor about my blood pressure and heart. I really dont know what to do. if I'm not worring about my heart or the palpations, I worried I might have canacer, or stroke etc. I want to change this pattern I seem to be stuck in as me and my wife are thinking of have a baby and I want to be a strong healthy happy dad and role model to my future child plus this puts a lot of strain on my marriage. as my wife cannot deal with me be so anxious all the time.

[Terror-x]

welcome to the forum mate we are here to help myself i am the same allways worrying about death and crap like that but i allways manage to get through it but its allways good to have someone to chat to my names Mark welcome buddy

[Itzomi]

I hear ya. I worry about passing before I've had a chance to really "live." I'm 45 and feel like I haven't done much with my life!
It sort of makes me feel better hearing someone who was a director say that it's basically not all it's cracked up to be. My BF and I feel bad about ourselves for not having "important careers" and still can't figure out what we want to do "when we grow up"!!

I think you're on the right track, though - focusing on what's really important in life - marriage & family. Good luck to you!