Varjo
08-17-2010, 02:24 AM
Alright, so it all started a bit less then a month ago now.
I had just come back from holiday, during that holiday I spend pretty much everyday drinking or being high. On the first day back my friends forced me to go out with them drinking again, so I did eventhough I was starting to feel worried about how much I could take (my holiday was only a week btw).
The next day I woke up feeling a little anxious about going back to school, and my relationship with this girl. I decided to brush the feelings away and went to take my dose of coffee (I've been addicted to coffee for over a year, have basically not gone a day without a strong dose of it) and meanwhile wrote down my feelings and I felt a lot better and no longer anxious. After a serval hours the coffee withdrawal started hitting me and I started to feel a bit lightheaded, this happens to me often after drinking strong coffee once the withdraw comes. I've suffered minor panic attacks and almost fainted before when drinking strong coffee and coming down from it. But this has only happened three times in my life.
But this time the lightheadness got really intense so I ended up freaking out, having a massive panic attack which increased my heartrate by a lot and ended up having to force myself to fall asleep to get over it.
However when I woke up it was not gone, my heart was still beating rapidly and I was still scared. This lasted for days afterwards, but it started to slowly go away so I decided my body was just in shock because of the attack, and in a bit over a week.. all the symptoms where gone. I was no longer anxious, no more headaches, I felt completely good but just concerned that it'd be back.
However after having no signs of it being back for a while, I decided to take some caffeine again. All of the sudden, a couple of hours later I could feel my head getting lightheaded again and my heartrate start to speed up. I felt extreamly stupid, I didn't have another attack this time but just started to feel really anxious.
Well that was a week ago, the whole week I've been feeling really scared and out of this reality type of feeling. I've been missing school because of it too because it's been too hard to concentrate and I often feel like I'm going to go into panic in school, my heart rate seems to be not so rapid anymore but a bit irregular and increases quite often randomly, my blood pressure is quite high. My head feels like there's pressure in it constantly and I get these slight pains every now and then, intense light also irritates my eyes. Its always worse in the morning, but I feel better at night.
Is this all due to anxiety? Does caffeine have something to do with this? Can it really cause my body to go into panic for a week?
I'm extremely confused, and getting worried as I really need to get back to my studies and need to be able to concentrate again. I feel like I could be fine if only this pressure and tension in my head would go away, It's hard to explain to anyone why I'm missing class when I'm not ill but constantly feel like I should be resting and taking it easy. Class stresses me a lot and my heart rate always increases in class, so I really don't know what to do.
I had just come back from holiday, during that holiday I spend pretty much everyday drinking or being high. On the first day back my friends forced me to go out with them drinking again, so I did eventhough I was starting to feel worried about how much I could take (my holiday was only a week btw).
The next day I woke up feeling a little anxious about going back to school, and my relationship with this girl. I decided to brush the feelings away and went to take my dose of coffee (I've been addicted to coffee for over a year, have basically not gone a day without a strong dose of it) and meanwhile wrote down my feelings and I felt a lot better and no longer anxious. After a serval hours the coffee withdrawal started hitting me and I started to feel a bit lightheaded, this happens to me often after drinking strong coffee once the withdraw comes. I've suffered minor panic attacks and almost fainted before when drinking strong coffee and coming down from it. But this has only happened three times in my life.
But this time the lightheadness got really intense so I ended up freaking out, having a massive panic attack which increased my heartrate by a lot and ended up having to force myself to fall asleep to get over it.
However when I woke up it was not gone, my heart was still beating rapidly and I was still scared. This lasted for days afterwards, but it started to slowly go away so I decided my body was just in shock because of the attack, and in a bit over a week.. all the symptoms where gone. I was no longer anxious, no more headaches, I felt completely good but just concerned that it'd be back.
However after having no signs of it being back for a while, I decided to take some caffeine again. All of the sudden, a couple of hours later I could feel my head getting lightheaded again and my heartrate start to speed up. I felt extreamly stupid, I didn't have another attack this time but just started to feel really anxious.
Well that was a week ago, the whole week I've been feeling really scared and out of this reality type of feeling. I've been missing school because of it too because it's been too hard to concentrate and I often feel like I'm going to go into panic in school, my heart rate seems to be not so rapid anymore but a bit irregular and increases quite often randomly, my blood pressure is quite high. My head feels like there's pressure in it constantly and I get these slight pains every now and then, intense light also irritates my eyes. Its always worse in the morning, but I feel better at night.
Is this all due to anxiety? Does caffeine have something to do with this? Can it really cause my body to go into panic for a week?
I'm extremely confused, and getting worried as I really need to get back to my studies and need to be able to concentrate again. I feel like I could be fine if only this pressure and tension in my head would go away, It's hard to explain to anyone why I'm missing class when I'm not ill but constantly feel like I should be resting and taking it easy. Class stresses me a lot and my heart rate always increases in class, so I really don't know what to do.