kekela
08-06-2010, 12:55 AM
When I was 15 I struggled with depression and anxiety. It was all related to emotional events, and I eventually worked through it all, and haven't had to deal with it since.
I'm 22 now, and about a year ago I lost my job. I wasn't too upset at the time because It wasn't a job I was in love with. I have been looking forward to going back to work, and haven't had any negative feelings about it. I started a new job a few days ago and almost didn't make it there because of a bad anxiety/panic attack. I made myself go anyways, and it was a horrible 4 hours. I am proud of myself for pushing through it but I don't feel as though it has helped any. I have never had anxiety before when starting a new job, why now?
In 4 weeks I start college. I left school when I was 16 because of my depression and anxiety. Right now I feel happy, excited, and I'm really looking forward to continuing my education. But will the same thing happen again? I feel as though this is my last chance with school, and I don't want to mess it up.
I have also been having anxiety/panic over my relationship with my boyfriend. I was in a bad relationship (emotionally, verbally and eventually physically abusive) relationship for over 2 years, and after only a week of being single I met my current boyfriend. We have been together for almost 2 years. I feel as though I didn't work through all my issues with my past relationship and just pushed it all deep down inside. Now I feel those issues coming back up. I feel as though my current boyfriend is too good for me, that he'll leave me, etc. I have also been having nightmares about my ex coming to find me and hurting me. Why has it taken 2 years for these to come to the surface?
I quit my new job, because I have decided it's best for me to take the time to work through my issues and prepare myself for school. School is my #1 priority and I want nothing to conflict with it. With so much going on in my head, I want to focus on one at a time. My family seems to think I was wrong in doing this and feels as though I just gave in to my anxiety.
The past few weeks have been physically and mentally draining. I'm so tired even though I sleep for hours. I'm scared, and confused and I feel like no one understands. After so many years, why is my anxiety/panic back? I suppose it doesn't help that my confidence and self esteem are at 0.
What do you think?
Thanks in advance :)
I'm 22 now, and about a year ago I lost my job. I wasn't too upset at the time because It wasn't a job I was in love with. I have been looking forward to going back to work, and haven't had any negative feelings about it. I started a new job a few days ago and almost didn't make it there because of a bad anxiety/panic attack. I made myself go anyways, and it was a horrible 4 hours. I am proud of myself for pushing through it but I don't feel as though it has helped any. I have never had anxiety before when starting a new job, why now?
In 4 weeks I start college. I left school when I was 16 because of my depression and anxiety. Right now I feel happy, excited, and I'm really looking forward to continuing my education. But will the same thing happen again? I feel as though this is my last chance with school, and I don't want to mess it up.
I have also been having anxiety/panic over my relationship with my boyfriend. I was in a bad relationship (emotionally, verbally and eventually physically abusive) relationship for over 2 years, and after only a week of being single I met my current boyfriend. We have been together for almost 2 years. I feel as though I didn't work through all my issues with my past relationship and just pushed it all deep down inside. Now I feel those issues coming back up. I feel as though my current boyfriend is too good for me, that he'll leave me, etc. I have also been having nightmares about my ex coming to find me and hurting me. Why has it taken 2 years for these to come to the surface?
I quit my new job, because I have decided it's best for me to take the time to work through my issues and prepare myself for school. School is my #1 priority and I want nothing to conflict with it. With so much going on in my head, I want to focus on one at a time. My family seems to think I was wrong in doing this and feels as though I just gave in to my anxiety.
The past few weeks have been physically and mentally draining. I'm so tired even though I sleep for hours. I'm scared, and confused and I feel like no one understands. After so many years, why is my anxiety/panic back? I suppose it doesn't help that my confidence and self esteem are at 0.
What do you think?
Thanks in advance :)