lawandorder
07-30-2010, 07:56 PM
I have succumbed to jumping on the medication path, after a year + of suffering with on and off, severe to mild anxiety.
I'm seeing a psychologist, she has helped a lot, I've been on here on and off for a while taking advice and contributing my two cents here and there.
I've been trying to keep my head out of the water for so long that I'm just worn out, mildy depressed and that's not getting better. I want the happy me back, and I'm sick of waking up every morning no matter what I do thinking 'how do i feel today, just get up and get on with it, everythings gonna be ok etc.'
My derealization comes on and off and is more annoying than anything but it certainly contributes to the depression because I feel somewhat disconnected. And I hate that the most.
While my anxiety since the beginning has lessened enormously, I don't have the same repetitive fears as I used to, and I'm less afraid of being afraid, I'm still getting obsessive thoughts, and that cloud that persists doesn't want to go away.
So, I'm going to give myself a break. Is it the solution? Probably not, but after fighting for so long, I don't see what harm it's going to do. I hope things will be put into perspective a little better, and I won't feel so mentally fragile, treading lightly on thoughts, because the fear of 'going there'. I'm looking for a little more consistency and strength.
Medication was my last resort, and I really did everything I could to get better. And I am better, just not good enough.
Day 1
So I took my first dose of Pristiq 50mg last night around 9... Nothing to report, I had a little anxiety on the drive home around 1am, coz I started thinking about life and how I was at that point where I needed medication. Shrug, what can you do. A semi- wierd nights sleep, but no significant anxiety. No side effects as of yet either.
Will keep you all posted:
p.s Try and refrain preaching about how medication is the devil, and it's harmful and yadadada. You're not me and chances are I've tried everything you have. Let me do my own thing.
Cheers
I'm seeing a psychologist, she has helped a lot, I've been on here on and off for a while taking advice and contributing my two cents here and there.
I've been trying to keep my head out of the water for so long that I'm just worn out, mildy depressed and that's not getting better. I want the happy me back, and I'm sick of waking up every morning no matter what I do thinking 'how do i feel today, just get up and get on with it, everythings gonna be ok etc.'
My derealization comes on and off and is more annoying than anything but it certainly contributes to the depression because I feel somewhat disconnected. And I hate that the most.
While my anxiety since the beginning has lessened enormously, I don't have the same repetitive fears as I used to, and I'm less afraid of being afraid, I'm still getting obsessive thoughts, and that cloud that persists doesn't want to go away.
So, I'm going to give myself a break. Is it the solution? Probably not, but after fighting for so long, I don't see what harm it's going to do. I hope things will be put into perspective a little better, and I won't feel so mentally fragile, treading lightly on thoughts, because the fear of 'going there'. I'm looking for a little more consistency and strength.
Medication was my last resort, and I really did everything I could to get better. And I am better, just not good enough.
Day 1
So I took my first dose of Pristiq 50mg last night around 9... Nothing to report, I had a little anxiety on the drive home around 1am, coz I started thinking about life and how I was at that point where I needed medication. Shrug, what can you do. A semi- wierd nights sleep, but no significant anxiety. No side effects as of yet either.
Will keep you all posted:
p.s Try and refrain preaching about how medication is the devil, and it's harmful and yadadada. You're not me and chances are I've tried everything you have. Let me do my own thing.
Cheers