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nerolp
07-13-2010, 11:11 AM
Hey. Just signed up. I've never done anything like this before so it's kind of strange to me, but reading some of the recent posts I do relate a lot to what people are going through.

I was depressed for several years before I finally made the decision to see a psychiatrist. I also had severe social anxiety and got nervous anytime I knew I had to leave my house to go do something, even things as mundane as running errands. It was a big step for me to go talk to someone, but I was ready to make some changes. My doctor told me that my depression was most likely an extension of my anxiety, and she recommended therapy.

I started seeing a therapist, whom I went to for several months, then stopped because of the cost. I thought the therapist was very nice but at the same time didn't feel much of a connection with her.

I was put in anti-depressants and continue to see my psychiatrist every couple of months, and even though my anxiety has improved drastically I still have bad days where I'm nervous going to the grocery store or being in any type of situation where I have to be around people, because I always think they are staring at me and making some judgment about me. I can't seem to just be comfortable being in my own skin and constantly worry about how I look or what I'm saying. I don't have many days like that now, but when I do they make me feel terrible and then I start to feel like all the work I've done has been for nothing.

Charmbracelet81
07-13-2010, 08:26 PM
I know what you mean. Some days the skies have cleared and I have great confidence that I am getting better (have been in therapy for 1 year) but when anxiety hits hard it all comes back down and all I can think of is who I "used" to be and that I will "never" get better. I focus on "why do I have this?" While I am doing much better, it IS very hard when you have a bad day to have a positive outlook. :(