Anxiety is ruling my life

[rozee]

I have had anxiety issues for many years. Counselors here and there, meds here and there, but it's getting worse. especially when it comes to my health or my daughter's.

I am CONSUMED by the fear I may contract a horrible illness that will cause me to suffer and/or die.

I cannot escape the madness of my mind. I have physically fallen apart.I dont want to exercise or lose weight. I dont want to go out and be around people. It's like I live my life waiting for something bad to happen.

I know its wrong, and irrational, but its like my mind is wired wrong, like I cant get back to 'normal' thinking.

Its ruining my relationships, its ruining my life. I want to enjoy life and be thankful for all I do have. Does anyone understand what I'm talking about?

[blazer45]

Hi rozee! May I know when it was started and what's the reason why you've gone along with this kind of illness? I expect you do have your reasons. All I can say is that any meds or therapies would be useless if you don't know how to help your self and if ones don't exert his/her best effort for be cured. Don't let your thoughts completely ruined your life as well as with your love ones life. If you really want to get cured and if you love your family fight your illness for them. And to help you not to think much I think you better go out and have time to enjoy. I know it's not that easy. Fighting against your own definitely makes you crazy. But you can do it. I know you have lots of friends and your family is there to help you out with this kind of illness. Do it coz I am now. :)