Anxiety/Hypochondriac/Scared need reasurance

[scared30]

Hello Everyone,

I am new to this forum and found it by accident..... I was looking for anxiety sufferers chat room and found this forum.. I am glad to see im not ALONE in my battle with anxiety, hypochondria, ect... Let me start at the top.

1. I recently delivered my 2nd child, and had some real complications..
I had retained placenta (after birth) sorry for over share. I hemoreged shortly after birth. Was sent home the next day and told all was fine..
Went to E.R. 6 days later with toxic blood levels due to infection.. I stayed in hosp with a newborn baby for 4days went home. Went to see a family dr and she sent me for an Ultra Sound found out I had a huge piece of A/B still in my body. While I was in Hosp for infection all I could think about was my 2kids and who would raise them if something happen to me. Well A week later i had an emergency DNC.. That scared me 2..

2. My first child’s father died at age 36 from massive heart attack unexpected... Almost 2yrs ago... (still have issues with that)

3. My 2nd babies father wants nothing to do w her. I have been totally alone since I was 3 months preg.. (not an issue I have managed for 8yrs with the other 1)...

4. I started back to work when the baby was 6 weeks old, didn’t feel right, I went back to family dr and told her I was having heart palpitations, she sent me to cardio dr. He did ECHO, Stress test and I wore a heart monitor for a month... All of that checked out GREAT!

5. After the dr took away heart monitor I started feeling sore all over, my chest burned, my breast were sore, felt tired, arm hurt, stomach was achy, loose stools, nausia, sore ribs. , heart palpitations u name it I felt it..

6. Dr put me on Prozac HOLY COW that was horrible.... I felt worse I had thoughts of every disease you can imagine, surfed the web tryn to find symptoms and what was wrong. i truely felt i had everything i found.... that made everything worse... couldn’t sleep, had jitters, Anxiety was worse, always at the dr for some illness that she couldn’t find.. I felt like I was falling apart....

7. I Am scared out of my wits.... I feel like there is something wrong with me and dr isn’t finding it or isn’t telling me to keep me from worrying...

8. i dont want to be medicated and i dont want to feel like im dieing all the time.

i no longer take meds tryn to do it with help of friends and family....

Sorry its so long can anyone relate to me or am I just WORRYING for NO reason..
Any feed back would be great just as long as its positive PLEASE!

[Dale]

hi, my names Dale
I read your post and relate to most of it.
I spend the better part of everyday wondering if there is something wrong with me, particularly my mind. I usually research life-threatening diseases on the net until the point I convince myself Im dying.
I feel like there is something deep down inside me that is struggling to get out and is tearing me apart at the same time.

but the truth is, it is just something the mind wants to do, and my psychologist tells me to 'go with the flow' which feels so unnatural. i find that the anxiety is made worse by simple things that you overlook.

Remember one thing, breathe! your nervous system will detect low oxygen levels in your blood, which causes such things like dizziness and tingling. So you will start breathing faster AUTOMATCIALLY to get more oxygen, which causes faster heartbeats...its all been planned by our bodies to protect ourselves, and our bodies are experts at self preservation. Stand upright and put your right hand on your stomach and your left hand on your chest, try to breathe in by 'filling' your stomach with air i.e. moving your right hand further away from your body than the left, this will ensure you are taking in enough oxygen and WILL take away some of the anxious symptoms straight away, as you have mentally distracted yourself, and have taken steps to reverse the feelings, which will give the confidence you need to believe that you CAN control a large part of the feelings.

I also haven taken, and still do, a course of anti-depressants, but to be honest i havnt seen any significant changes.

having said that, I feel comfort in my visits to my psychologist, as it is a nuetral place and I unload a lot of my burden onto her, and i feel better, if only slightly. It is something you should DEFINATELTY try, if only once or twice. The price is not as bad as you might think either, as each hour session costing only $45. they (psychologists) can offer you books to read, cds to listen and even refer you to specialists if you have symptoms common to more diagnosable problems that have been missed by your GP. as you probably already know, anxiety makes you feel there is no escape. my advice is that only after you have tried every aspect of help, then and only then is worrying about helplessness justified.

We are all part of this roller coaster ride...I'll sit next to you if you want :)

Dale

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[scared30]

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