The_Guitarist
12-18-2008, 03:38 AM
Hi I have been with this girl for a long time an I Love her with all my heart But I think my anxiety is interfering its making me afraid of her coming an I keep thinking about the future an I don't know why But it scares me I am having an attack right now an its driving me F*ing Insane....I don't know what to do part of me says wait another part of me says do it..I feel if I wait I will never do it. I HATE being so afraid it makes me so angry....I feel lost I dont know what to do...I think its my past relationship that made it so hard for me....it was bad...very bad...no physical violence but a lot of emotional Violence.....i question everything an its starting to make me numb.....I want to feel alive again an I want to be able to give her all the love in the world but don't know if I can....Im so confused.....an lost..I feel like I cant find my way back to reality....That im stuck in this alternate dimension...maybe its to much stress....an being anxious an questioning to many things I need to just start doing an stop procrastinating....I think my problem is its finally time for me to stand up an be a man...an do this an stop just talking about it an actually be it.....what do you think?