cowardlylion22
11-22-2008, 09:44 PM
Hey everybody!
I'm Ashley. I'm 22 years old and I've got some serious anxiety issues.
Ever since I can remember I've been 'shy', but now that I'm an adult, I have become more skeptical, paranoid, and afraid of other people. I'm a cashier at a fast food restaurant where I have to talk to at least 100 people per day. I live in a town that is filled with snobby people, so they complain a lot which just makes me feel even more anxious. I usually have 2 or 3 glasses of wine before I go into work, which I know isn't healthy and is also illegal. If I don't drink before work, I end up in the back of the restaurant trying to breathe because the amount of people around me makes me feel like I'm suffocating. I tried to tell my manager about it, but he ignores it because I can fake it sometimes. I know that my heart is racing the entire time I'm there though. It also makes my stomach ache. I have gastric reflux because I get so worked up over the slightest thing.
When I go to the grocery store, I feel like everybody is watching me and thinking, "I hate that girl." That feeling follows me everywhere.
I just graduated from college with a computer science degree...I want to become a computer technician but I'm too afraid of rejection to go for it.
My dad takes Xanax for anxiety problems...I feel like this is hereditary and I need to get help for it. I'm just too afraid to tell a doctor...my pediatrician blew me off when I told her I had anxiety. She told me I was just shy. I don't know what to do.
I'm Ashley. I'm 22 years old and I've got some serious anxiety issues.
Ever since I can remember I've been 'shy', but now that I'm an adult, I have become more skeptical, paranoid, and afraid of other people. I'm a cashier at a fast food restaurant where I have to talk to at least 100 people per day. I live in a town that is filled with snobby people, so they complain a lot which just makes me feel even more anxious. I usually have 2 or 3 glasses of wine before I go into work, which I know isn't healthy and is also illegal. If I don't drink before work, I end up in the back of the restaurant trying to breathe because the amount of people around me makes me feel like I'm suffocating. I tried to tell my manager about it, but he ignores it because I can fake it sometimes. I know that my heart is racing the entire time I'm there though. It also makes my stomach ache. I have gastric reflux because I get so worked up over the slightest thing.
When I go to the grocery store, I feel like everybody is watching me and thinking, "I hate that girl." That feeling follows me everywhere.
I just graduated from college with a computer science degree...I want to become a computer technician but I'm too afraid of rejection to go for it.
My dad takes Xanax for anxiety problems...I feel like this is hereditary and I need to get help for it. I'm just too afraid to tell a doctor...my pediatrician blew me off when I told her I had anxiety. She told me I was just shy. I don't know what to do.