xxfairybluxx
11-22-2008, 09:30 AM
Does anybody know any good ways to change your negative thoughts to positive ones? I've been beating myself up for so long that I have very little confidence in myself. Im worried about it because im training up to be a teacher. I know I can teach and I love working with kids but now its getting close to the end of my course and I have to get a job i'm freaking out a bit.
I'm really aware of how im coming across to people and im scared of coming across as an idiot or a bit weird. If I say something stupid (which happens quite often :s) I think about it for ages afterwards and it feels like proof im an idiot. I also think back to things i've done in the past and beat myself up about them too. It gives me a headache during the day if I think about it too much and makes my foggy brain even more foggy.
The thing is, when I wake up in the morning I feel myself and focused. Also, if I have a good day or a nice conversation with someone then I feel fine and think that my anxiety is stupid. But if I have a bad day then the negative thoughts start creeping back and drag myself straight back down again.
Last week I was in tears when I got home. I'd constantly been thinking negative thoughts through the whole day. Im sick of trying to explain how I feel to people because they don't get it and keep telling me im being silly. But its like I always have some major issue with myself and if it goes away it soon gets replaced with another one (see prior boyfriend based posts etc :| ). Discussing it with people helps a little, but I know they must think im weird when im telling them about my intrusive thoughts. Then afterwards I wish id kept it to myself.
I just want to feel confident in myself again and stop beating myself up 24/7 but I can't. Can anybody relate??
I'm really aware of how im coming across to people and im scared of coming across as an idiot or a bit weird. If I say something stupid (which happens quite often :s) I think about it for ages afterwards and it feels like proof im an idiot. I also think back to things i've done in the past and beat myself up about them too. It gives me a headache during the day if I think about it too much and makes my foggy brain even more foggy.
The thing is, when I wake up in the morning I feel myself and focused. Also, if I have a good day or a nice conversation with someone then I feel fine and think that my anxiety is stupid. But if I have a bad day then the negative thoughts start creeping back and drag myself straight back down again.
Last week I was in tears when I got home. I'd constantly been thinking negative thoughts through the whole day. Im sick of trying to explain how I feel to people because they don't get it and keep telling me im being silly. But its like I always have some major issue with myself and if it goes away it soon gets replaced with another one (see prior boyfriend based posts etc :| ). Discussing it with people helps a little, but I know they must think im weird when im telling them about my intrusive thoughts. Then afterwards I wish id kept it to myself.
I just want to feel confident in myself again and stop beating myself up 24/7 but I can't. Can anybody relate??