Newbie here!

[PinkIcePrincess]

Hi everyone this is my first time here I will post about what I am going through and hopefully get some help and I will also help others.

Okay here we go lol
I suffer from Agoraphobia, Panic, Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, Bipolar, GAD.
I also have physical health problems that I am letting go due to my Agoraphobia and the fear of going out and seeing the doctors I need to see and having the surgeries I need I have a Meningioma Brain Tumor that needed to come out back in 2012 but I had lost my Step Dad and then my Brother then My cousin my Aunt and more then I found out about the Brain Tumor, a Lesion on my Rt Kidney, A Fatty Liver, A Hernia in my stomach, Spinal Stenosis, I also have other health issues , I did have a date for my brain surgery but then my Mom was starting to feel bad she was already struggling because of losing my stepdad and my brother she did not finish school and she was so scared of handling her bills and other issues so I had to do it all for her but she started falling down so I knew something was back and it was her cancer she had went through back in 2002 so I had her get in to see another doctor and then they sent her to have testing and sure enough it came back but this time with a vengeance all through her 15 masses on her liver and the rest in her soft tissues and her lungs and more so I could not do the brain surgery there was no else but me to care for her my hubby of course helped but he had to work so I did all I could while I was dealing with all my issues because I would not leave her by herself to face it alone sadly she passed away in 2014 well since then I have gotten worse due to my agoraphobia and also many other issues I am scared I need help I have tried finding in home therapy but they do not do home visits I tried online therapy they don't accept my insurance they want credit cards or debt cards or checks I don't work and my Hubby can not afford to pay cash so here I am, Now I do have a Christian Counselor helping me thank God!!!
I need advice from you all anything I am begging but Please do not judge me or question me like I have done nothing to help myself because I have in the past I seen over 30 doctors when the panic hit and nothing showed up I got me a furbaby to help me get out the door thank God he helped me so I was back out driving and doing all could from 2004-20014 then BAM I am down for the count and wondering when I am finally going to die. I get judged a lot and picked at and bullied I even had to prove I had a Brain Tumor!!! Friends became cruel and just nasty family just didn't care. People used me up and spit me out when I got sick but I was there for them and I still am for many others but I NEED HELP POSITIVE PEOPLE !!! Not mean ones . I have tried so many programs and books ,online anxiety groups I keep searching and will continue .

Thank you for reading ,
Okay Questions is there any Mods here I went to write to one and it shows they haven't been on the site for years???
Is there a Chatroom here?? If so how do you get to it I have tried and tried??
Who Owns this site?
Thanks for any answers.
PinkIcePrincess

[fixmybrokenmind]

Hey Princess I am sorry to hear of all your struggles! I thought I have been through a lot but you are a true warrior. This is the welcome section, I recommend you copy and paste your story into the general forum. You will get a lot more responses there!

You are among friends here :)

Have you ever tried any medications? I don't recall seeing you say you have. Your best bet is to manage to get to a doctor somehow, in fact this is absolutely necessary for someone with chronic health conditions. Do you have anyone who could personally take you to one?

[PinkIcePrincess]

Hi , Thank you very much for your reply.

Yes I do take meds for my anxiety and depression my family doctor gave them to me back in 2001 and I do see him usually but since the agoraphobia has kicked in I haven't seen him since the beginning of last year and I had my labs done back then but I do need a lot more help yes and I do have my Hubby who can take me but my fear is so bad I panic really bad and I am agoraphobic so I am trying even more now working with a Therapist over the phone but I can not be drug out a door due to my panic and ptsd and more. Agoraphobia is in full force.

[gypsylee]

Hi and welcome :)

That's some heavy stuff you've been through. It's good you have the Christian Counselor.

As far as I know there are no mods! There used to be an app (which was cool) but it's gone and I've never been able to find anyone to ask about it. I think the chatroom used to work but not anymore. So yeah it's a bit of a ghost town and I don't know how it's even still here lol.

All the best,
Gypsy x

[PinkIcePrincess]

It is a shame that the site has no owner anymore he started it and it looks awesome but I do wonder what happened because it is still up and running so maybe a company bought it like they did on other sites they usually come in buy the site then shut down the chatroom then end up shutting down new people signing up which that hasn't happened here yet because I made it in lol now could it happen yes then there are no Mods here which shows something really did happen they either left or they had their mod controls removed I used to be a mod at several sites.

I see a lot of people still coming here and it does have some great help but I still wonder where the owner is I pray he is okay .
If people still keep coming that is a good thing maybe it will never shut down maybe he just got tired of running it so he left it set up and just shut down the chatroom. One will never go the great mystery of Mankind lol.

Thanks for the replies!

[fixmybrokenmind]

I don't believe a moderator is necessary, unless perhaps they were a professional therapist :)