Just to say Hi all

[peteski37]

Hi, all I'm a 37-year-old male who's had a troubled life. I'm from England and I suffer from many mental health problems & addictions I grew up in child care which is why I think I have most of my troubles. So iv came to this forum to hopefully connect with others like me or advice.So at this point in time, my anxiety is like nothing iv had before the reasons are because in two weeks clean of Heroin but still smoking crack the mad thing is I know the crack is making me worse but can't stop it. So once again hi to you all and any help advice or pointers would be much appreciated

[goingtoofast]

Hi Peteski. Welcome to the forum. I joined just this morning myself. Your description of addiction woes touched me deeply. I have been clean for twenty years, but my bone-deep memories of how profoundly those toxins garbled my reality and generated my anxiety are still so fresh. Two weeks heroin free is incredible. I congratulate you!

[peteski37]

Thanks for the reply. The fact that I still use Crack knowing it is making my anxiety worse is just messed up

[gypsylee]

Hey peteski and welcome (and goingtoofast) :)

Congrats on getting off the heroin. I've never been addicted to either that or crack but had my share of chemical addiction. I guess detox/rehab places are really hard to get into? I'm not sure what to suggest other than that.. I've come off a few things cold turkey at home but it's not really recommended. Anyway, it might be helpful for you just having a place to talk about anxiety with people who get you.

Cheers,
Gypsy x

[goingtoofast]

As I recall, each substance served a compelling purpose for me, and I was forced to identify that purpose before I could experiment with alternatives. All that in the face of consistent negative side-effects. Anxiety, paranoia and delusion being common outcomes. Couldn't live with the chaos, and couldn't live without it. Of course, that turned out to be the most profound delusion of all. Now, instead of anxiety around things that don't exist, it's anxiety around things that do. That's progress, I suppose. I wish you the very best, Peteski.

[peteski37]

Hey peteski and welcome (and goingtoofast) :)

Congrats on getting off the heroin. I've never been addicted to either that or crack but had my share of chemical addiction. I guess detox/rehab places are really hard to get into? I'm not sure what to suggest other than that.. I've come off a few things cold turkey at home but it's not really recommended. Anyway, it might be helpful for you just having a place to talk about anxiety with people who get you.

Cheers,
Gypsy x

Thanks for your reply And your right just having somewhere to be able to talk and get advice is a big help. I know iv only had a few comments but I feel good about this forum

[peteski37]

As I recall, each substance served a compelling purpose for me, and I was forced to identify that purpose before I could experiment with alternatives. All that in the face of consistent negative side-effects. Anxiety, paranoia and delusion being common outcomes. Couldn't live with the chaos, and couldn't live without it. Of course, that turned out to be the most profound delusion of all. Now, instead of anxiety around things that don't exist, it's anxiety around things that do. That's progress, I suppose. I wish you the very best, Peteski.

Thanks for your reply. I sense we could talk a lot as we seem to be cut from the same cloth {Not sure if right wording but sounds good }. Anxiety has been with me for many years it's only recently come back. But iv been searching the web today and found a lot of negative stuff about mixing buprenorphine{Link at bottem} with Crack and it fits with how iv been feeling all depends on how you look at it we all know how over active our minds can be. anyway rambling now thanks again

Sorry can't post links yet Need 20 more posts LOL