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[Gemma89]

Hello, I'm Gemma, 26 years old from England and suffering from extreme anxiety, depression and chronic pain. The cause is a lymbic system dysfunction as I was told by a naturopath recently. I have a course for this but I've been feeling so unwell I have struggled to put proper time into it at the moment. This has been going on since I developed bad social phobia at age 12 and has worsened until around age 18 when the physical symptoms started. In 2010 I had such a bad anxiety attack on the way to holiday I was in agony the whole time and couldn't leave my bedroom, I experienced sickness and burning all over my body and bruising on my chest and arms which no doctor could explain and basically just laughed at me. Most of them are just ignorant and don't really listen at all. I did have a few better years where I was able to function somewhat and work, but now I haven't been able to work in a long time. I've been through a lot of trauma, and the last 3 years the pain has been so bad, even at points when I felt I didn't have anxiety for some reason. The symptoms are so extreme such as paralysis, deep sickness to the point I couldn't bear it for another second when it was at it's worst, a congested feeling throughout my body which is difficult to to explain, brain fog, and a lot of other things. I thought there was something very wrong with me physically which I was trying to cure with diet and supplements. The first 3 months of this year I was putting so much effort into that and felt like I was improving a little. But something triggered it again, and the last 6 months have been so painful I got to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore, the dissociation and paranoia are killing me, I don't feel like a person and nothing feels or looks real, I am ultra sensitive to light, it makes everything even more surreal. If I didn't take anti anxiety medication/sleeping tablets I don't think I'd sleep at all right now like I didn't for weeks a few months ago when I was up all night repeating positive affirmations just to try and take the agony down a little. :'( I dread the points where I start running out of tablets as I cannot cope already, especially without them. I practice reiki when I can and try to meditate but my concentration is so bad it's difficult for me. I can feel that the isolation and loneliness are causing me more distress and physical pain, I don't have friends anymore and feel I need some kind of connection with someone. I feel like a piece of dirt and my self esteem is less than zero. I am suicidal all the time and have attempted at different times in the past using pills, most recently a few weeks ago as I just couldn't bear it. I feel like I'd be better off dead because no one should have to experience this kind of suffering. Even seeing people living a nice normal life like on facebook brings me to tears as I am so sad inside. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in a week but don't know what to expect from that yet. I cannot cope, I have nothing and wish I had never even been born. Sorry if this sounds depressing to read but this is my reality and it is killing me. I think I joined the forum to see if there are others who can identify with any of this and feel not as alone :'( I even get social anxiety writing this here, believe it or not. Thanks for reading.

[Sershio]

Hi Gemma,

If you could write down what you've been eating everyday and what meds you take also and what times, it might be helpful because the problems could be coming from this. Also the environment where you stay is it clean ? No mold or pests ? Is everyone else in good health where you are ? Sometimes environmental factors can also be a problem.

You dont need worry about offend anyone. Just be happy to express yourself how you feel.

[gypsylee]

Hi Gemma and welcome,

That sounds awful. I always try to be grateful that I don't have much physical pain.

I hope you find some help here.

Gypsy x

[Teafrenzy]

Gemma, you can recover from this, I promise you.

What does that even mean "a naturopath told me I had a lymbic system disorder".

Anyone with an anxiety disorder technically has a lymbic system disorder. Also a naturopath is not the leading authority on anxiety.

I invite you please..to check out www.anxietycentre.com for help. A lot of the material is free. The members only area would work out to about 5 pounds a month in GB currency.

Once again you can get through it.

[Gemma89]

Hello Teafrenzy, yes of course anyone with an anxiety disorder does have a lymbic system disorder, that was his way of explaining it. It's a trauma loop your brain can get stuck in and manifest in many different ways. He recommended a specific course of neuro linguistic programing as treatment.
Thank you for your suggestion and kind words

[Gemma89]

Hello gypsylee, thank you for your reply. I hope so too. x

[Teafrenzy]

Hello Teafrenzy, yes of course anyone with an anxiety disorder does have a lymbic system disorder, that was his way of explaining it. It's a trauma loop your brain can get stuck in and manifest in many different ways. He recommended a specific course of neuro linguistic programing as treatment.
Thank you for your suggestion and kind words

Perhaps you could elaborate on what neuro-linguistic programming is all about?

[metal4life]

Hi Gemma!!

I also dont leave my house at all, or even my room, bc of my intense anxiety, i cant even watch
movies without getting anxious bc of my generalised anxiety. I also cant even imagine to work
so im almost like you. It also gives me anxiety wrtting this. Im currently a student but i got a panic
attack last week in public and i cant go there anymore and idk what to do but well just trying
to fit trough the tiny gap, if u know what i mean.

Good luck!
MF.

[Gemma89]

Perhaps you could elaborate on what neuro-linguistic programming is all about?

Perhaps you could do your own research as there is plenty of information online?

[Gemma89]

Hello metal4life thanks for your reply,

I'm sorry you're going through that right now. I'm the same, I can't watch movies either. I have tried but they can make me feel more paranoid. Good luck to you too

[Teafrenzy]

Ok, true. What I meant to ask is "is neuro-linguistic programming helping you?"

[Gemma89]

Ok, true. What I meant to ask is "is neuro-linguistic programming helping you?"

It takes time and everyone is different. I have been in a state of intense stress so haven't been able to practice as much as I wanted, it's so overwhelming that I have to distract myself in any way I can for now. But sometimes it has been helping when I practice the steps and I know it's all about repetition until the subconscious learns new pathways. In the long term I believe it can help so much.

[magicmarcus]

Neuro linguistic programing or NLP is the idea that the words you say control your feelings and stuff like that.

its kindof like the idea of naming something brings up an image in your mind which controls your feelings.

this is a good thing to learn about as many of our words affect how we feel/act/think.

the problem with anxiety is that often it comes up without words which means we need to change core beliefs about our lives... nlp talks a little about the beliefs but all on the presupposition of beliefs being made by words ect... so its like a round robin.

what i find works best is a mix of philosophy (new belief and outlook on life in general) and letting go... stop fighting the anxiety and all that and just be.

and remember... some movies are just trash and not meant to be watched... if it makes you anxious... thats probably because you are not a desensitized person... IMO a good thing :-)

my 2 cents lol

[Marie Lends]

Hello Gemma..

[Gemma89]

Neuro linguistic programing or NLP is the idea that the words you say control your feelings and stuff like that.

its kindof like the idea of naming something brings up an image in your mind which controls your feelings.

this is a good thing to learn about as many of our words affect how we feel/act/think.

the problem with anxiety is that often it comes up without words which means we need to change core beliefs about our lives... nlp talks a little about the beliefs but all on the presupposition of beliefs being made by words ect... so its like a round robin.

what i find works best is a mix of philosophy (new belief and outlook on life in general) and letting go... stop fighting the anxiety and all that and just be.

and remember... some movies are just trash and not meant to be watched... if it makes you anxious... thats probably because you are not a desensitized person... IMO a good thing :-)

my 2 cents lol

Hi, your explanation sounds about right. The intense anxiety is there without words, without even thinking anything and that's the problem. It's like my mind is stuck in this hell because the endless pain and anxiety itself has confirmed many subconscious beliefs if that makes sense :'( I've been in such a state I've felt unable to practice it much unfortunately. I am so angry that the mind can work against you to such an extreme, for me it's like it is existing to torture me and that is just ridiculous. It makes me hate this life. I wish I knew how to stop fighting or being scared but I don't know how.

[Gemma89]

Hello Gemma..

Hello to you too