Hi, This is my first step

[StuckinaRut]

Hi.....joining this forum is my first step to conquering this evil monster named Anxiety. As I think back to my childhood, I've come to realize I've always had anxiety but never realized it until now. It's been getting progressively worse in the last few years and I'm starting to come to terms with it. I have only been to a therapist once and it was over 9 years ago and only 3 sessions. However, I think it's time to go again. Unfortunately we've just moved to a new state and I know NO ONE. So I've been googling away but can not get myself to decide on a therapist. I have extreme anxiety about actually talking to someone about my anxiety. I haven't even told my husband that I've been thinking of going to see someone again. The first time I went I was having issues with homesickness and we had just moved away from home. I guess I felt like there was a good enough reason for me to go see someone. This time, yes we have moved again, but we've also moved multiple times in the last 9 years due to our work. Work is another fear. I feel like going to therapy would be considered a bad thing where we work. I just basically have created multiple excuses and reasons to not go. I missed the last two days of work due to my anxiety making me physically ill (well it could have been an actual bug as I did have a fever on Monday). SO now I have already used two sick days (after being on annual leave last week to move in to our home). I hate my new job even though it's the same title as my last. So yeah, this is my current life in a nutshell.

[gypsylee]

Hi and welcome :)

Moving is known to be one of the most stressful things ever so it's not surprising you feel anxious. Sometimes anxiety builds subconsciously and then erupts, so you wonder where it came from, but it just wasn't conscious.

I hope you find some support here.
Gypsy x

[fixmybrokenmind]

Welcome! Don't be afraid to talk to someone it truly is a relieving experience

[BlessedBackyard]

Hi and welcome. I've had to come to terms with seeing a therapist, too. It's such a taboo thing, and I thought it was a sign of weakness. I kept thinking "I shouldn't have to see a psychologist! I should be able to handle this!" I admitted that to my psychologist, and I keep reminding myself of what he said: "You take your car in for maintenance. You go to the dentist for check-ups. You maintain all of these things...why not your brain?" It's too bad that it takes something major like anxiety or depression to see a counselor. I imagine almost everyone could use a "brain check-up."

I hope you're able to talk with your husband about what's going on and find the support you need.

[fixmybrokenmind]

Hi and welcome. I've had to come to terms with seeing a therapist, too. It's such a taboo thing, and I thought it was a sign of weakness. I kept thinking "I shouldn't have to see a psychologist! I should be able to handle this!" I admitted that to my psychologist, and I keep reminding myself of what he said: "You take your car in for maintenance. You go to the dentist for check-ups. You maintain all of these things...why not your brain?" It's too bad that it takes something major like anxiety or depression to see a counselor. I imagine almost everyone could use a "brain check-up."

I hope you're able to talk with your husband about what's going on and find the support you need.

Thats a phenomenal way to look at it! That totally hit home with me haha