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kevse1961
09-17-2016, 07:03 AM
Hi Everyone. My name is Kevin and i have been suffering with anxiety for about 20 years now. My anxiety is continual or to say I have one long anxiety attack for 20 years and the only time I don't have anxiety is when I have to take my tablets every 4 hours to keep it at bay, if I go over the 4 hours then the anxiety comes back with all the symptoms we all know and have in some cases learned to live with and ignore. The doctors in Spain don't really show any interest in anxiety and just give you the tablets and laughingly call you a junky, that's how far the treatment goes. I went once to a psychiatrist on the health system and he sat back in his chair with his feet up on the table crossed and said "So tell me what is your problem". After 20 minutes of explaining all about anxiety and where it stems from in the brain and what the symptoms are and how it can or cannot be controlled his answer was "Well Kevin you know more than me I can't help you only you can". End of help there :-).

So I just take the tablets every four hours which are 2 x 5mgs of Tranxilium and then 4 x 1mg of Loranzepan which obviously over the years my body has got used to this little lot and almost does nothing except for the first hour after taking one then it wears off lol....

Years ago I had been through all the heart check ups and chest X-rays, blood tests and have even been rushed into hospital sirens and lights whaling making a terrible noise and ended up in observation for 8 hours as my negatives on the ECG had been abnormal. After 8 hours of every test in the book the heart surgeon stands at the end of the bed and says "Kevin you have a heart like an OX but your anxiety attacks are so powerful they affect your heart rhyme and send your heart rate unto an impressive level". I was told to calm down.......er yeah OK!! and keep taking the tablets.

Well here I am some 15 years on down the line from then still living a sort of normal life dealing with difficult investigations and trying to save people's from loosing in some cases over half a million euros but that's all part of my job. Some days you know you are dealing with people who through no fault of their own have been taken fro a lot of money and it's up to me to study and pay attention to their case and can be difficult when you feel like death warmed up but hey that's life right.

I have know over the years lawyers, judges, police inspectors, doctors etc who all have continuous anxiety and they get through it the best they can. But one thing I would like to mention and I think this is important. When we have a real crisis to deal with like for example, a parent has a a heart attack or some is undergoing an operation and you have to be there all through it or you are dealing with a car crash and you are the first one there........NO anxiety at all, it magically goes for days and you forget to even take your tablets until things get back to normal then it hits again.

Amazing how our own brain and especially the sub conscious part of our brains can control the conscious part so easily like turning on and off a tap, it's as simple as that. He say's just taking a Loranzepan jajajaja......heads up folks things will get better one day. God Bless to all.

metal4life
09-17-2016, 08:38 AM
Hey Kevin.
I see youre taking way to much meds to get tru the day and have you tried to get to a therapist?? Because i am going to one and he helps you to 'cure' anxiety. i put parentheses because its not curable but maybe there is a way and it could end your anxiety i havent tested it but theres a chance so check out thhis link, theres something intersting.
Its a mushroom that aparently cures depresiion anxiety and many other. Also i live in Malaga just like you haha.

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?35328-The-mushroom-that-cures-almost-EVERYTHING!!!!&p=230977#post230977

gypsylee
09-17-2016, 10:08 PM
Hi Kevin and welcome :)

I enjoyed reading your post and you sound like you're at a similar stage as me with the anxiety. I'm not too impressed by the doctors or therapists I've seen either and really the most helpful thing they do is give me medication. I was off everything for three years actually but then life dealt me some pretty harsh blows and this whole year I have just been struggling to get by.

I know what you mean about the REAL crises.. I've thought many times I'd make a great paramedic because I usually deal really well with emergencies. But when it comes to day-to-day things that others cope well with I am a mess.

Anyway, I hope you find this forum helpful. I do because anxiety/depression is such an isolating feeling.

Cheers,
Gypsy x

K8LN
09-20-2016, 08:53 AM
I agree with everyone. Except not being able to get help with the anxiety. I have found a great therapist that I can work with but still struggle to talk about some things. But I have found that I feel I have no anxiety when I am dealing with other people's problems and I am able to do things I didn't know I was capable of just by needing to help one of my other friends get through something. So when I am not thinking about myself my anxiety seems to subside. Not saying that is a good way to deal with it, but it does go away for a little while. haha