Rookie93
08-17-2016, 04:51 PM
Its my secon day of my senior year and its terrible. I haaaaate the ice breakers and we have to do them in almost all my classes. I have lunch alone which I was fine with until I tried finding a seat and then finding out that it was already taken by a group of people so I moved and when I tried to eat I couldn't stop shaking. I also tried to talk out in class but that hasn't really gone so well. I couldnt stop thinking about how i looked and how i sounded and ugh. The classes i do have with my one friend, i cling to her like me life depended on it and when shes to far away i get that anxious lonely feeling and start to mentally tear myself apart. And when the day finally ended I went to the library and ended up crying about every little thing that went wrong and then I started to think about how nobody likes me and stuff like that. I couldnt even make it into the bathroom so i just put my head down and started to silently cry. I'm not really sure if that can be classified as anxiety or social phobia but I just needed to get that out and maybe get some suggestions on how to become more social and at least more confident in myself because this is not how I want my last year of high school to go.