Edd Welch
06-18-2016, 05:09 PM
Where to begin. I had a horrible childhood my mother and father beat and starved me for as long as I can remember. My mother used to feed me alcohol to basically get me drunk to get rid of me for the day so she didn't have to deal with me. When I was 11 my father committed suicide and my mother who knows where she went off to.
Later after adoption things got awesome but I was so battered I treated my adopted mother like crap and was always in trouble. Later she died of cancer and I did apologize on her death bed.
After along time the anxiety went away. Had anxiety and panic attacks everyday from 16-19. Then they went away on there own and I never had them until about a year ago. Yes they friggen came back and with force. I've had constant anxiety and panic attacks for about a year now with depression because of them. I won't lie I had some bad thoughts in my head even tho would never act on them because I love life, my wife and my children.
A couple day ago I went to see a doctor and she put me on Zoloft which the first day seemed to work pretty good but took another 25mg today and feel that it's not working. I know it says it can take sometime to fully get in ur system something like 1-4 weeks.
I just want to feel normal again. My thoughts are constantly racing, I'm always light headed I really hate this. Everyday is a struggle. Even taking care of the kids or loving the wife seems like a struggle. I've never cried in my life until a few days ago. Cried the whole day.
Not sure what to do until the meds kick in. Just want to stop thinking so much. A lot of people tell me it's in ur head, stop being stupid, what do you have to be depressed and anxious about. Meds are not the answer. Stop thinking so much. They just don't know. It's not as easy as clicking a button and you feel better it's very difficult.
One thing I've noticed and this may just be my anxiety but I feel like I'm always sick with a new disease almost like I'm making things up in my head. Been to the ER and they ran all kinds of tests and the do for was like Dudley our healthier then me.
About a month ago I felt like I had a lump in my throat so ignored it and it went away but now I feel that every time i eat I get lightheaded even worse. I feel that my anxiety has made me scared to eat and I made up a false disease.
Tho I may go see a GI to rule out if I made it up or there really is an issue but everyone points to anxiety that I talk to
Later after adoption things got awesome but I was so battered I treated my adopted mother like crap and was always in trouble. Later she died of cancer and I did apologize on her death bed.
After along time the anxiety went away. Had anxiety and panic attacks everyday from 16-19. Then they went away on there own and I never had them until about a year ago. Yes they friggen came back and with force. I've had constant anxiety and panic attacks for about a year now with depression because of them. I won't lie I had some bad thoughts in my head even tho would never act on them because I love life, my wife and my children.
A couple day ago I went to see a doctor and she put me on Zoloft which the first day seemed to work pretty good but took another 25mg today and feel that it's not working. I know it says it can take sometime to fully get in ur system something like 1-4 weeks.
I just want to feel normal again. My thoughts are constantly racing, I'm always light headed I really hate this. Everyday is a struggle. Even taking care of the kids or loving the wife seems like a struggle. I've never cried in my life until a few days ago. Cried the whole day.
Not sure what to do until the meds kick in. Just want to stop thinking so much. A lot of people tell me it's in ur head, stop being stupid, what do you have to be depressed and anxious about. Meds are not the answer. Stop thinking so much. They just don't know. It's not as easy as clicking a button and you feel better it's very difficult.
One thing I've noticed and this may just be my anxiety but I feel like I'm always sick with a new disease almost like I'm making things up in my head. Been to the ER and they ran all kinds of tests and the do for was like Dudley our healthier then me.
About a month ago I felt like I had a lump in my throat so ignored it and it went away but now I feel that every time i eat I get lightheaded even worse. I feel that my anxiety has made me scared to eat and I made up a false disease.
Tho I may go see a GI to rule out if I made it up or there really is an issue but everyone points to anxiety that I talk to