Hi all hope needed...

[itsbeentoolong]

I am 41 years old and for about 15 years I have suffered with back and referred hand pain.
After a million tests, MRI scans and a few telling events, its all down to anxiety.

I can be okay for a month, lose sleep, get stressed, lose sleep, drink, something bigger happens, "Bang" anxiety kicks it, basically means what would be normal aching between shoulders is burning. Have studies CBT, meditation been on and off meds.

Right now its bad....trying to return to work to pay bills but its proving hard to do many hours at all....

In a dark place right now, so tired... mentally beaten.

[salvator here]

Hi! I can understand where you're coming from. I'm suffering from anxiety and low self esteem at 42 years old. I'm Bipolar and it somewhat under control without meds ( I needed a detox from the poison ). I know that cycle all too well, as well. Losing sleep and drinking only leads to disaster. I'm also trying to return to work after over a decade of being 'down for the count'. Only just recently I decided that I am gong to have to try and pull some form of a real life together, so as I don't wind up on the streets when I left to fend for my self someday. I rely on family totally. But its not easy at all when going through anxiety and depression.

I'm sorry you are in a dark place and feel beaten. I don't know what to say other than I can relate for what you are going through.

Best Wishes