wejust22
09-28-2008, 11:32 PM
I've gone to the doctor several times, and the only he says I have is anxiety and high stress. I don't really believe this is true, but it might be, so that's why I'm asking some fellow anxiety sufferers.
Over the past few years I have definitely had the regular panic/anxiety symptoms.
Racing heart, extreme panic/fear, hard to breathe, tensed muscles, chest pains etc.
These past few months though, I've been getting entirely new symptoms. One of them is depersonalization/derealization. Though I'm not 100% sure this is what I have. What I usually feel though is a loss of self and my surroundings. I feel feverish (my head feels warm like after exercising for a long time) and I don't know who I am. It feels like I'm in another reality, time slows down, things look faraway/closeup and I can't concentrate. It feels like I'm a ghost or something.
I feel these feelings a lot, usually once per day for about half an hour so, though sometimes I've felt this way for several hours.
I really don't like it. It feels like I'm dead.
Another big symptom I've been getting is EXTREME, I mean REALLY intense tingling and numbness in my hands, feet, and face. What usually happens is I start to feel a little lightheaded and then the tingling occurs. It is VERY intense, to the point that I can hardly even move. It feels like petrification. Everything gets COMPLETELY numb too. I'm not exaggerating, these feelings are very intense. After this I get EXTREMELY faint/dizzy/lightheaded and my vision starts shaking/vibrating. My breathing is very shallow and fast, my pulse is shallow and fast as well. It feels like I'm gonna have a stroke or seizure or die. This doesn't happen a lot, maybe once every two weeks or so. It's happened at a concert, on the bus, and in the classroom.
The last symptom I've been experiencing is very disturbing and difficult to explain. The best way I can put it is trauma/disturbance on my mind. It doesn't happen a lot, but when it does it last for several hours. It's not a panic feeling. It just feels like an extreme disturbance to my mind. I think very bizarre thoughts and I'm very tense. It feels like my mind is being taken over or something. I can't really explain it. I just feel very disturbed and insane. Extreme paranoia would be a good way to describe it. I'm scared to talk to anyone. I feel like everyone is against me. My thoughts feel like they're being raped or controlled by god or something.
I've wondered if I have schizophrenia or dissociative personality disorder or something of the sort. Not only do I have the symptoms I just described, but there's a slew of other things as well. I fit many of the symptoms of depression, social anxiety, and personality problems. I also have a past of being abused and bullied as well as night terrors. Not only that but I went through a phase of extreme social isolation this summer. I have no friends. Of course my stress level is ALWAYS on the highest notch.
I don't do any drugs anymore, but I did smoke a lot marijuana last year and drank a few times, but that's it.
I went to my doctor and he said it's probably just anxiety and to see a counselor. I really want to see one too, but my parents won't pay for it. I need help very badly I think, but I don't know how to get it (for free).
Someone please help! I really want to know what is going on with me. It's getting very scary.
Over the past few years I have definitely had the regular panic/anxiety symptoms.
Racing heart, extreme panic/fear, hard to breathe, tensed muscles, chest pains etc.
These past few months though, I've been getting entirely new symptoms. One of them is depersonalization/derealization. Though I'm not 100% sure this is what I have. What I usually feel though is a loss of self and my surroundings. I feel feverish (my head feels warm like after exercising for a long time) and I don't know who I am. It feels like I'm in another reality, time slows down, things look faraway/closeup and I can't concentrate. It feels like I'm a ghost or something.
I feel these feelings a lot, usually once per day for about half an hour so, though sometimes I've felt this way for several hours.
I really don't like it. It feels like I'm dead.
Another big symptom I've been getting is EXTREME, I mean REALLY intense tingling and numbness in my hands, feet, and face. What usually happens is I start to feel a little lightheaded and then the tingling occurs. It is VERY intense, to the point that I can hardly even move. It feels like petrification. Everything gets COMPLETELY numb too. I'm not exaggerating, these feelings are very intense. After this I get EXTREMELY faint/dizzy/lightheaded and my vision starts shaking/vibrating. My breathing is very shallow and fast, my pulse is shallow and fast as well. It feels like I'm gonna have a stroke or seizure or die. This doesn't happen a lot, maybe once every two weeks or so. It's happened at a concert, on the bus, and in the classroom.
The last symptom I've been experiencing is very disturbing and difficult to explain. The best way I can put it is trauma/disturbance on my mind. It doesn't happen a lot, but when it does it last for several hours. It's not a panic feeling. It just feels like an extreme disturbance to my mind. I think very bizarre thoughts and I'm very tense. It feels like my mind is being taken over or something. I can't really explain it. I just feel very disturbed and insane. Extreme paranoia would be a good way to describe it. I'm scared to talk to anyone. I feel like everyone is against me. My thoughts feel like they're being raped or controlled by god or something.
I've wondered if I have schizophrenia or dissociative personality disorder or something of the sort. Not only do I have the symptoms I just described, but there's a slew of other things as well. I fit many of the symptoms of depression, social anxiety, and personality problems. I also have a past of being abused and bullied as well as night terrors. Not only that but I went through a phase of extreme social isolation this summer. I have no friends. Of course my stress level is ALWAYS on the highest notch.
I don't do any drugs anymore, but I did smoke a lot marijuana last year and drank a few times, but that's it.
I went to my doctor and he said it's probably just anxiety and to see a counselor. I really want to see one too, but my parents won't pay for it. I need help very badly I think, but I don't know how to get it (for free).
Someone please help! I really want to know what is going on with me. It's getting very scary.