brfoo
03-02-2016, 05:44 AM
Hey,
Most of the time I feel (rather try to be) positive or okayish and try to condition myself with watching videos with positive messages to boost my confidence. My worst enemy is fear, I tend to visualize the worst is going to happen if I face a problem. This I am working on (I try to shift focus on something else not to overthink a situation, collect my little achievements it works..:) )I know I should stop making everything into a huge problem instead of focusing on solving it. But as I was working on this, one thing occured to me that I unconsciously punish myself by not enjoying life as I should. Let me explain, if things just don't go the way they should I struggle with enjoying little things, because I feel like I don't deserve to be happy until the problem is solved. I am just writing it down, because this "you don't deserve to be happy" until you achieve 100% thought just occured to me now. Don't get me wrong, I do try to be positive and share positive messages, because lot of negativity would just drain me and you down. But I relaized this self sabotaging method of mine now and I feel like I just want to write it down. I am thinking about how to work on this effectively. One thing I know, I just don't want to give up. I have strenght in myself, I just have to untie it. :) I thought I know myself well, but this just hit me in the head today.
Hope you are doing well guys don't you give up and thanks for "listening".
Most of the time I feel (rather try to be) positive or okayish and try to condition myself with watching videos with positive messages to boost my confidence. My worst enemy is fear, I tend to visualize the worst is going to happen if I face a problem. This I am working on (I try to shift focus on something else not to overthink a situation, collect my little achievements it works..:) )I know I should stop making everything into a huge problem instead of focusing on solving it. But as I was working on this, one thing occured to me that I unconsciously punish myself by not enjoying life as I should. Let me explain, if things just don't go the way they should I struggle with enjoying little things, because I feel like I don't deserve to be happy until the problem is solved. I am just writing it down, because this "you don't deserve to be happy" until you achieve 100% thought just occured to me now. Don't get me wrong, I do try to be positive and share positive messages, because lot of negativity would just drain me and you down. But I relaized this self sabotaging method of mine now and I feel like I just want to write it down. I am thinking about how to work on this effectively. One thing I know, I just don't want to give up. I have strenght in myself, I just have to untie it. :) I thought I know myself well, but this just hit me in the head today.
Hope you are doing well guys don't you give up and thanks for "listening".