jamingout
09-22-2008, 12:21 AM
thank you for reading my post and considering your advice. i'm sorry it's long, like a novel lol. i don't know where to start, even thinking about this is beginning to make my heart pump and my stomach churn, and i feel like it should be NO BIG DEAL! a little history might be able to help you understand before i go on.
i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder about 5 years ago, but it's been affecting me my whole life. sometimes to the point where i can't seem to leave my house anymore. it's really debilitating, frustrating, and scary. then for a period of 6 months or so, i'm totally okay.
a little over a year ago i got to the point where i was sick of staying in my home for over a year (at 18 years old, there's so much to explore!) so i up and moved. when i moved to the new town, i thrived. yes my anxiety and depression would set in, but i couldn't let it. then i moved from one apartment to another, totally freaked out with anxiety again, couldn't
function, so i quit my job and moved home.
now that i'm home, i found a job but freaked and quit. found another, stayed there for a day, freaked and quit. i can't seem to get a hold of my anxiety enough to even go out of the house where i'm living.
my most recent adventure looking for a call center to work left me throwing up and crying. it makes me sick to my stomach and i'd rather avoid it all together. i dread looking for a job now.
i don't know what to do anymore. i want to ask my parents to help me get an apartment, because once i have one i'll have no choice but to look for a job instead of avoiding it at a place where i have an enabler. i'm scared, because what if this is a life pattern for me? how can i get my anxiety under control enough to want to leave the house to look for a job? i feel like this anxiety is debilitating again, only this time i don't have insurance to go see a doctor, and i can't get one until i get a job, but i can't get a job until i somehow get my anxiety under control. what should i do? please, suggestions are extremely helpful.
thank you for reading this long post. lol
i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder about 5 years ago, but it's been affecting me my whole life. sometimes to the point where i can't seem to leave my house anymore. it's really debilitating, frustrating, and scary. then for a period of 6 months or so, i'm totally okay.
a little over a year ago i got to the point where i was sick of staying in my home for over a year (at 18 years old, there's so much to explore!) so i up and moved. when i moved to the new town, i thrived. yes my anxiety and depression would set in, but i couldn't let it. then i moved from one apartment to another, totally freaked out with anxiety again, couldn't
function, so i quit my job and moved home.
now that i'm home, i found a job but freaked and quit. found another, stayed there for a day, freaked and quit. i can't seem to get a hold of my anxiety enough to even go out of the house where i'm living.
my most recent adventure looking for a call center to work left me throwing up and crying. it makes me sick to my stomach and i'd rather avoid it all together. i dread looking for a job now.
i don't know what to do anymore. i want to ask my parents to help me get an apartment, because once i have one i'll have no choice but to look for a job instead of avoiding it at a place where i have an enabler. i'm scared, because what if this is a life pattern for me? how can i get my anxiety under control enough to want to leave the house to look for a job? i feel like this anxiety is debilitating again, only this time i don't have insurance to go see a doctor, and i can't get one until i get a job, but i can't get a job until i somehow get my anxiety under control. what should i do? please, suggestions are extremely helpful.
thank you for reading this long post. lol