loveyourself
01-12-2016, 08:12 AM
Hi everyone.
Basically, I'm new to this. I've always been anxious around people, or just plain anxious about random things. Just last year, I suffered from panic attacks. It started in the train. It was really crowded, and unfortunately, at that time I was standing. I felt like passing out, blurry vision, and heavy breathing. After that, it happened again in the train. This time, though, I was very antsy at first. Couldn't concentrate, because everytime I ride the crowded train, I'd be really anxious that I might feel that way again, which I did.
I feel it got much worse from then. I suffered being in a major anxious state of mind. I'm worried about a lot of things, like what if I'm sick that I don't know about and other unnecessary negative thoughts.. Eventually, I had another panic attack inside the movie house. Since I was thinking negative thoughts at that time, I feel that triggered for me to have another panic attack. I couldn't concentrate properly during the movie. I wanted to escape so bad. I forced myself to calm down, which I did. But then on the way home, there was a lot of people, and I was like losing focus again. I just wanted to go home so bad. I felt better once I got out of the mall and back home.
From then on, I've been more anxious. I'm scared of going out, cause I feel I'd have another panic attack again. When I do go out, I just go to places near my house, and most of the time, my thoughts would race so bad, like all I want is to escape where I am. I'd feel that way when I'm in the car or when I'm in a public place waiting in line.
I've never had professional help, but I am considering that now because I don't want to live this way. Just going out of the house gives me great anxiety, even if I tell myself that I am calm and nothing bad will happen. These negative thoughts have a way of pulling me back.
In the meantime, I'm here to connect with other people who goes through the same situation like I do. So hello all.
Basically, I'm new to this. I've always been anxious around people, or just plain anxious about random things. Just last year, I suffered from panic attacks. It started in the train. It was really crowded, and unfortunately, at that time I was standing. I felt like passing out, blurry vision, and heavy breathing. After that, it happened again in the train. This time, though, I was very antsy at first. Couldn't concentrate, because everytime I ride the crowded train, I'd be really anxious that I might feel that way again, which I did.
I feel it got much worse from then. I suffered being in a major anxious state of mind. I'm worried about a lot of things, like what if I'm sick that I don't know about and other unnecessary negative thoughts.. Eventually, I had another panic attack inside the movie house. Since I was thinking negative thoughts at that time, I feel that triggered for me to have another panic attack. I couldn't concentrate properly during the movie. I wanted to escape so bad. I forced myself to calm down, which I did. But then on the way home, there was a lot of people, and I was like losing focus again. I just wanted to go home so bad. I felt better once I got out of the mall and back home.
From then on, I've been more anxious. I'm scared of going out, cause I feel I'd have another panic attack again. When I do go out, I just go to places near my house, and most of the time, my thoughts would race so bad, like all I want is to escape where I am. I'd feel that way when I'm in the car or when I'm in a public place waiting in line.
I've never had professional help, but I am considering that now because I don't want to live this way. Just going out of the house gives me great anxiety, even if I tell myself that I am calm and nothing bad will happen. These negative thoughts have a way of pulling me back.
In the meantime, I'm here to connect with other people who goes through the same situation like I do. So hello all.