fleekmaster
12-30-2015, 02:46 AM
Hey guys. Not really sure if this counts as social anxiety or not, but I don't know where else to go and it's killing me. Basically, I am scared to death of humanity, and others around me. I lost all hope of people actually being morally sound. I fear that my mother, or my sister, are one day just going to be out, and suddenly kidnapped and possibly something even worse ( you know what I mean. Not sure if this is the place to fully explain, hence why I'm leaving it up to you.). It kills me everyday to see my mother go out, and having to think of the possibilities of what can happen to her, being that there are some truly sick people that are physical monsters that can impose their will on anyone they want, or there are gangs and groups of morally depraved people who are into such sick things. Not only that, but my sister walks home by herself after school. I wish I could be there for all of my family and protect them everywhere they go, but I'm no superhero unfortunately. This thought is eating me alive right now. I'm shaking as I type this as I desperately need counsel. Maybe I'm being irrational, maybe my anxiety has just been acting up these last couple of days, who knows. It also doesn't help that my mother told me just yesterday about a large, crazy 6'5 man who came up to her at work talking about how he always gets rejected by girls and whatnot, and wants her to come live with her. I tell her to carry a knife with her everywhere she goes, but what good is that if someone like that just sneaks up on you? I'm scared out of my mind and I don't know what to do, and I have a bad feeling in my gut. I've had several times where I've felt like this. I really don't know what to do and I'm hoping someone can provide counsel, or ANYTHING that can help me. I really need it.