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1Bluerose68
12-25-2015, 06:51 PM
I'm feel like the last Survivor on a very dark, cold, ghost ship. My relatives have mostly all passed away on me and the few relatives left are remotely separated from me both geographically and emotionally. I hardly know my own neighbors.

I thank God I have a job to give me hope to go on and excuse to leave this cold house and go out into the world daily to earn enough money just to subsist currently in life.

I feel scared that the winter will be long and cold. I dread the harsh , cold, bitter weather. I dread difficult, cold aloof persons out there in my world as well.

I look forward to the the Spring Season for the extreme seasons are not kind to me. I am scared to just exist. I secretly pray at night that God would save me the wasted energy and distress and just take me away in the middle of the night.

I'm just getting tired of trying so hard to survive and exist in such a cold and distant family and community out here -32 degrees to the left.