elhu
11-26-2015, 10:00 AM
Hi,
I might not describe myself correctly, bear with me...
I've never been diagnosed with anxiety or antyhing, which is probably because i have never been to a professional. I've talked to our family doctor and he ended up putting me on beta blockers because of the symptoms i will talk about later (other doctors didn't find anything wrong with my heart). That was 3 years ago, stopped beta blockers after a month...
In 2013, when i get to bed, i start to feel that my heart isn't beating right, never could be definite if it was beating louder, or quicker, or slower. I start to have trouble breathing and then swallowing. I would get up, panic a bit then go back to sleep. That's when i took beta blockers for a month. During that month, i went back to smoking (14 months after quitting) and stopped beta blockers. I've never had the symptoms again... Nowadays, i am getting sick a lot (minor stuff) because of something i am imagining. I travel a lot, for work, and for the past few years, every week before my flight is a nightmare. I can't enjoy my hobbies, I can't work, I can't go out, I start to feel sick, so i basically don't do anything except wait... The feeling goes away when i am at the airport. i am not afraid of flying, being on a place is the most peaceful experience i have ever felt, mainly because i am disconnected from everything, and i know there's nothing i can do? not sure.
This preflight thing has been happening for the past 7 years of constant flight routine. I took every single flight. earlier this month, it got so bad that i postponed my flight for few days. Then i went for it. then another flight 2 days later. pre flight days were a waste of life, i couldn't function, and sick... tomorrow i have another flight, it's been days since i was sick. starting with stomach pain and nausea and co... and next week i got another flight, and in 3 weeks another flight... since the last time where i had to postpone, i think this has gotten over what i can handle.
there's this feeling where i feel that there's a building on my chest, something squeezing my heart to full stop, shortness of breath, sweat... this is how i have reacted to many things since i was in my late teen years... now 29... i am physically healthy, according to the blood tests and ECG's. it has been happening in a much higher frequency lately and it is getting scary. it's affecting my behavior, and my mental state...
if i would describe where i am now, i being crippled by this. but what is "this"? what do i do?
sorry for the long post, i had nowhere else to go... even if i wanted to seek a professional, it's impossible time and location wise...
I might not describe myself correctly, bear with me...
I've never been diagnosed with anxiety or antyhing, which is probably because i have never been to a professional. I've talked to our family doctor and he ended up putting me on beta blockers because of the symptoms i will talk about later (other doctors didn't find anything wrong with my heart). That was 3 years ago, stopped beta blockers after a month...
In 2013, when i get to bed, i start to feel that my heart isn't beating right, never could be definite if it was beating louder, or quicker, or slower. I start to have trouble breathing and then swallowing. I would get up, panic a bit then go back to sleep. That's when i took beta blockers for a month. During that month, i went back to smoking (14 months after quitting) and stopped beta blockers. I've never had the symptoms again... Nowadays, i am getting sick a lot (minor stuff) because of something i am imagining. I travel a lot, for work, and for the past few years, every week before my flight is a nightmare. I can't enjoy my hobbies, I can't work, I can't go out, I start to feel sick, so i basically don't do anything except wait... The feeling goes away when i am at the airport. i am not afraid of flying, being on a place is the most peaceful experience i have ever felt, mainly because i am disconnected from everything, and i know there's nothing i can do? not sure.
This preflight thing has been happening for the past 7 years of constant flight routine. I took every single flight. earlier this month, it got so bad that i postponed my flight for few days. Then i went for it. then another flight 2 days later. pre flight days were a waste of life, i couldn't function, and sick... tomorrow i have another flight, it's been days since i was sick. starting with stomach pain and nausea and co... and next week i got another flight, and in 3 weeks another flight... since the last time where i had to postpone, i think this has gotten over what i can handle.
there's this feeling where i feel that there's a building on my chest, something squeezing my heart to full stop, shortness of breath, sweat... this is how i have reacted to many things since i was in my late teen years... now 29... i am physically healthy, according to the blood tests and ECG's. it has been happening in a much higher frequency lately and it is getting scary. it's affecting my behavior, and my mental state...
if i would describe where i am now, i being crippled by this. but what is "this"? what do i do?
sorry for the long post, i had nowhere else to go... even if i wanted to seek a professional, it's impossible time and location wise...