1Bluerose68
11-05-2015, 03:17 PM
I have the type of Agoraphobia where I am able to travel locally but have anxiety entering new places on foot or in car. So I don't travel too far from ,"HOME." I have a little job which ii just recently began working FT, only because I MUST. I am here at home alone and must work in the city in which in reside in too. I am not always happy in having a job which doesn't seem to respect me. The head administrators are here today and gone every 3 years. The teachers turnover rate is even higher. I am forced to walk on egg shells in order to survive here in this small town job. I work hard and yet seem to get little respect. And like i said I dont have the ability to travel 2 or 3 cities away to work as this may cause me too much anxiety in the type of job which I have that requires a morning commute, on call. But the personality factor is a problem too. They seem to hire a certain type of person round here and I obviously am considered just a substitute employee. So I don't fit in very well and yet have been taken off of disability and have no other choice but now to Plea the 5th and act like I'm so callous that Nothing will ever BOTHER me again. And Bless me if I ever complain, as they will send me a "Pink Slip." This is very difficult for me to handle. I hate having to have agoraphobia and yet NOT the type where i sit in a bed all day and just eat myself into a physical prison at home. NO !! I don't get Disability and MUST WORK for my survival. It feels like my entire everything in which I have worked so hard at achieving is NOW against me.....! I Welcome any of your Suggestions, and Responses please???